Thursday, August 23, 2012
today, i did smth shocking.
smth that shocking that i nv thought i would have done in my life.
duno what has gotten into me to have caused me to make that decision.
duno if i made the right choice in making this decision.
i might regret, or in some sense im already a little regretful now.
but i know its too late.
even if its not, i know i still wont have the courage to say no now.
i would say, i gotta blame myself for that.
for not having the ability to say no.
which caused me to always agree, and regret, n find ways to reject after that.
for such serious stuff, i cant do this.
once agreed, that's it. i have to go for it.
im rerunning in exco.
but not vpmc anymore. its vpe. vice pres events.
elf said, he duno why i put myself into such situation.
becos of exco, which is still my first n nt 2nd year, i seem to neglect some1.
ok, nt neglecting yet, but nt able to give him full time.
n yes, its gonna be worse next time, when im de vpe.
events will end late. there will be meetings.
emails are forever bombarding.
n now i have to consider stayying in hall again, because i'll probably waste more time cabbing if i dont.
vpe. a position i nv thought i would join.
right frm de start, i know its tough. i know its smth i dont have experience in.
i know im not gonna take it.
but now, im taking it.
its a whole new challenge. i have to learn everything from the start.
but in a way, if i dont take it, my assistant will gotta do de same too.
so ya. u can say im silly. i could jus have let her taken that.
but in a way, like what she said,learning about events can help me in future as well.
so.. yeah. i guess thats de plus point? portfolio.
many say, good luck to me. its gonna be tough.
n yes, my predecessor is honest to me too. she said its really taxing.
mentally taxing. from her tweets, i know that too.
n from how she do things, i think she's really too hiong, n i doubt i can match up to that.
but ya, i will try my best.
learn the best out of what i can.
since i'd chosen to accept it, i'll jus have to push it on.
its not easy, nobody said it was.
in fact, everyone said its tough.
bt my stand was, if i dont take, who will take? cac will jus collapse, no exco is there.
so ya. there are always some ppl who are in a way forced to do so.
i guess im one of them. but im glad i have a gd committee thus far for me to work with. so yups.
i really hope that will be fine n can help me to pull through.
something that im upset, is about personal time i guess.
apart from cac i needa find time for my studies.
and from there, i needa find time for my family and friends too.
i really hope i can still have time for my family and friends.
though i know they will understand. but i will definitely feel guilty.
n of cos, time for some1.
at the very start, i didnt wanted to rerun cos i wanted more personal time.
more time to study, more time for family and friends, and some1.
now? looks like i'd settled into a stage where i will have even lesser time.
i think, even lesser than what i have currently, as a FC. haish.
i hope i wont neglect them much. like seriously.
n i still have dance commitment.
smth i cant forgo too, since i'd already signed up.
but i decided, that i will continue too.
dance will be another avenue for me to release my stress.
so yups! hopefully i gt the time to fulfill the minimum for each month.
so i wont waste money.
n probably, i gotta cancel tuition too. but for that, we shall see.
oh, but i think i will definitely cancel this tuition alrdy.
she's really.... lol.
mayb will find another one, if nt really keep spending parents' money only =X
bt given my schedule.. shall see how!
if nt, really wait till i earn money and pay back :O haha.
umm. felt better typing out.
its gonna be a whole new challenge.
n my goal will be to push up my GPA, hopefully using this sem.
since next sem will supposedly be busier for cac stuff.
n then, hopefully i'll have the ability and strength to push on.
n of cos, i hope my friends and all will support me =)
i know u guys will =)
give me strength k? u guys know that i need ur support.
n u. u know u r my greatest pillar of support =)
n i know u will always be there.
its another challenge for us. but we will be able to overcome this too =)
jus another yr. haha =) LETS JIAYOU!!!
--Merci tout le monde--
1:29 AM
Saturday, August 18, 2012
hello everybody~
first week of sch has ended :O
didnt really study much actually. cos was busy w fpb stuff.
n ytd, it all ended~
had been gg bac home at 11plus everydady this wk, reaching home at 12plus.
bt tts cos i have ppl to send me home =P
elf and some1 had visited sch on tue n wed, n so elf managed to drive me back.
or rather, i drove myself back on tues =P
thurs was drove home by wilson. ytd too, after supper.
fpb was ytd, n had supper with exco.
yay! my freshie indeed won the freshmen queen~! x)) pretty pretty girl ~
we kinda expected her to get, and hope she really will, and she did! =D
so proud of her haha.
wouldn't say the whole fpb was a success.
quite some stuff that we could have improved on.
but i would say we did quite a good job ba?
or rather, acceptable.
most satisfied with the programme flow.
really glad that the freshies like it. de dance, the talentime.
hope the audience enjoyed, which i think they did, judging from the cheers they offered =)
the starting time is the one that we really have to think smth about.
but i think i will miss these freshies.
though im sad that i wasn't the one that's closest to them,
cos have to do the logistics and stuff, hope they will rmb me~ haha.
it was quite fun being with them. n i really really miss their dance~
but i think they nv record their full dance leh! i cant rmb de steps haha.
ahhhh i really miss it, and miss them~~~
n i think i'll miss my 21st exco too!
ytd we went for supper. n de guys were super funny haha.
we were sitting in the car n the driver wilson ignored all the humps.
n so the car was bumpy as if on a roller coaster.
n the guys go "woah~!" hahhaha like a fun! =P
n then we switched on the radio with heavy beats like in a club haha.
n laughed quite alot at e coffeeshop with "daddy" gareth =D
n my dearest vice chair of fpb cum my assistant FC tancheng.
i really think i will miss my 21st exco.
rerunning doesnt mean being in de same committee either. aye~
but well! ponder about that again.
as of now, pack my feelings, and prepare for cynosure later~!
another event to meet my 21st =)
i miss u darling~
--Merci tout le monde--
11:32 AM
Monday, August 13, 2012
yoohoo~ tmr is the start of school! a new sem, YR 2 =X
okays, actually its today. since its 12.17 le.
dun intend to blog much actually.
jus came to say hi~
gonna be busy with cac fpb stuff.
everyday back home after 11 - earliest i could.
same for next wk i believe. oh well!
that's de life of exco.
honestly today i kinda abit regret rerunning =X
but well, too late. jus gonna chiong it thru n do it well for another yr =)
JIAYOU!
Currently doing some fpb stuff.
didnt do much tdy cos was helping the pageants.
gotta chiong more the next few days le.
now i understand how the room can be so messy.
becos u'll tend to leave things all over when u're busy settling some stuff haha.
shall chop chop touch up on abit, and then will go slp le!
tmr morn got PE lesson with some1 =X haha.
seminar in noon~ gd luck to me~!
--Merci tout le monde--
12:20 AM
Wednesday, August 08, 2012
i just realised how bad my timetable is, if i cant switch the index for that module =(
everyday go sch so late, i no like.
i prefer gg sch early and ending early!
looks like i gotta think of alternative plans, that can make me study in de morn.
if not, i'll sure slack >.<
tentative plan is run in de morn, den study and wait till sch time n go sch o.O
duno if this will help huhs.
but rarr, still hope can change away that index, so i will have a 4-day week! >.<
5 day week is really sian =(
bt jus checked, n there are no vacancies left. wonder if there are ppl who are willing to switch =((
haish~~~
--Merci tout le monde--
10:55 PM
Tuesday, August 07, 2012
"me leh?"
"always on the mind"
=)
--Merci tout le monde--
11:53 PM
Monday, August 06, 2012
life, is really not easy as we thought.
the simpler we want it to be, the more complicated it will become.
as much as we thought things are over, more problems surface.
never ending challenges; that's how life is isn't it?
constant challenges for us to face, to test us in coping with life etc.
oh well~
lets hope for the best for everything bah~
on a side note, last supper today.
have to go back to no supper days already!!
n have to start exercising and training for runNUS le.
haven exercise for about a month, goodness~!
time to reflect~ lol.
mayb gonna try running soon one of these days. duno if my knee will be ok.
anw, managed to gave a surprise to my uni fren.
nice bt super full dimsum at fullerton! haha.
stayed around cityhall/raffles place the whole of today.
quite a nice one,though w hiccups.
the ending.. wasnt v gd.
as in, somehow gt some news. which made me wrote the first para luhs.
haish. hope it'll really be ok.
the worst thing that could ever happen to a couple, is to have objections from ppl.
and also, to not be able to meet =X
bahhhh~
--Merci tout le monde--
1:19 AM
Saturday, August 04, 2012
go to my tumblr and read the post.
or click this http://lurvememories.tumblr.com/post/28693845898/what-completes-a-woman
posted by sl. i find it quite meaningful somehow.
made me think thru some thoughts, haha.
n i do agree to her for some points =)
was talking to some1 about similar stuff ytd.
about the different stages in life.
or rather, different stages in a relationship.
as of now, most of us should be in the honeymoon stage.
whr the couple is still sweet, having little bickers perhaps somehow,
but mostly having happy moments tgt, establishing many memories.
going to nice places tgt, going out with groups of frens, gg overseas tgt perhaps?
enjoying the company of each other, having sweet msgs etc.
some will hope, this will last forever. ok,maybe most.
some will worry, some will not think abt it and let nature takes it course.
perhaps, it will last forever, bt we know that it wont stay exactly the same.
the feelings will stay, hopefully. it'll be best if it could grow even more.
that we wont know, partly let nature takes it course, partly depends on how the couple develop it.
but as long as the feelings stay as strong, thats gd enough.
but as we grow, feelings will not be everything.
as much as we dont want to care, we have to care.
as much as we want to just have a simple life, living with that some1 of ours,
it wouldn't be that easy.
everything seemed easy now. becos we have our family with us.
in the future, we have to support the family of ours.
its nt just about feelings. not just about love.
its about setting up a family of your own, and taking care of both's parents.
money, career, everything starts to come in.
n linked to that will be responsibility, or if u want to think of another word, it'll be burden.
sounds scary, but it could be sweet burden? =)
sweet or bitter, depends on how you see it.
life wont be as easy as now.
jus studying and complaining about studies.
going out with frens, enjoying life.
jus going out with bf/gf, spending sweet time tgt watching movie or walking ard.
u'll see that guy/girl, everyday, but you wont be gg out everyday to watch movie or walk around.
if nt ur pocket will get empty soon lol.
the way of spending time will probably be different.
perhaps it'll jus be spending time at home, watching tv, eating, den back in the room, and slp.
but this can be as nice too?
the definition of sweet times tgt, will be different.
as i said, there is more burden, but it could be sweet burden.
burden of having to look after one more family, or even setting up a new family.
girls probably have to be a housewife, or smth similar.
maybe, sweet talks and gentlemen acts by bf will be lesser.
bt i believe if both parties are willing, it would still be ok, and good.
surprises or going out for nice meals etc once in a while,
doing housework tgt, talking to each other about everyday's life and problems,
sharing about the joy and sorrows of the day.
haha, actually, still quite a long way to go.
as of now, let's jus treasure what we have, and work towards that goal we have.
let's work tgt, and prove to others, that we can build that future of ours =)
--Merci tout le monde--
8:10 PM
Friday, August 03, 2012
back from genting!
time really flies~ 2 days ago we were on the way there, feeling excited for the first trip tgt.
n then today, back home~ tired and slept quite a bit on the way back.
cos didn't really sleep there. somehow didnt manage to really slp =X
hmm, surprisingly we didnt go themeparks - both in n outdoor.
but we dont seem to have alot of time too!
as in not to the extent that we feel sian?
walked around, explored frm firstworld plaza to hotel highlands tt side.
played arcade, pool, bowling,.
wanted to sing kbox but super ex, cos they go by room.
so didnt go.
played bowling the most no of times haha.
oh we took cable car too! =)
n we sang on the way back - own kbox session hahaha =P
wanted to catch movie but no slots n movies at the time we want, so yeps~
breakfast was crazy when we went late.
went at 8 today and goodness, aunties uncles everywhere, with fully filled plates.
ytd went at 7 n it was so much better. we wanted to try to go at 6 today but woops~ too tired.
cos we slept rather late last night.
marrybrown was the best meal.
dinner not to say, cos was treated by alvin's parents.
went to nice places to eat =)
but on our own, we ate marrybrown for 2 days, n today went to eat "only mee"
wanton noodles n prawn noodles. goodness~ damn bad!!!
it was like, msg filled. n it cost wat, RM12?!
we regretted nt eating marrybrown. at least its better and cheaper definitely.
but oh well~ at least baskin robbins saved the day. haha. had it before we went off to take the coach =)
had one cone last night as supper too ahaha. nice~
okies, tts mainly all.
well, nth much, jus really a pure trip of lepak, to relax.
so yups, it was considered ok la, quite nice =)
just that some msgs abt work sian-ed me a little but hai hao.
oh! some1 says i shld blog about the nice indian driver at the coach haha.
he's quite funny and nice! like ask why we haven go up the bus while we wait for dan.
then will speak chi "shang che lo" kind of thing.
then get us to not drop stuff while eating.
n to throw rubbish into a box etc. n still joked saying we can throw our ringgit thr too haha.
n boohs. jus nw while bathing, i realised, this was the finale of my holiday.
thats all. next week will be busy with cac n stuff n de following wk sch starts!
the following wk sch starts le!!! omg =(
i still thought have time. bt NOOOOOO.NO TIME LE =((
sad nehs~
haishhhh. tts it~ yr 2 starting.
jiayou manz~
OH! I HAVEN DISCUSS PROPERLY WITH SOME1 ABOUT MY PLAN =X
whether to rerun anot. woops =X
HAISH BACK TO THE DILEMMA~~~
--Merci tout le monde--
10:52 PM
