5 words.
let nature takes its course =D
im loving this sentence man.it's gonna be 1 of my fav quote =D

the next quote:
"do your best,and haf no regrets,no matter wat the result is."
this quote started 2 years ago after our syf?
still rmbed we got silver,n we were super sad.
but in de end,we realised we shld be happy.
coz we did our best,n we were told its de best time we had played.
so yeah,we shld haf no regrets,despite the result =)
this is the same for alot of things.realli.
like results.?
i believe once u did ur best,u shld haf no regrets.
before exams,u shld be mugging hard n putting in all efforts.
n after exams,when getting de results,accept them.
if u ever say sentences like "i shld haf do smth smth.." "i shld haf not do ...." slap urself.
i mean,u deserve it.
so ya,put in ur best efforts,n haf no regrets =D

erhs..but to add in to that..
sometimes its realli fate.
so if u realli work hard n u cant get it,dun be too discouraged too.
that's jus 1 door that is closed.but another window has open up for u x))

fate.yups.its a miraculous thing,isn't it?
was having chat with jia during one of de nights last week
we're talking about lotsa things,n we mentioned about fate.
if its nt fate,we wouldn't noe each other.
if its nt fate,we wouldn't haf contact till now.
if its nt fate,we wouldn't meet our love ones.
if its nt fate,we wouldn't have know how great our frens were.
lotsa lotsa things,its due to fate.nice,isn't it? =)
jus feel..fate is so cool..
fate.im loving this. =)

tmr going bac to visit dear dear ms yeo with dearest est.hahas =)
night going to bbq+steamboat with 6L peeps.
suddenly missing 4e5 peeps,but too tired to plan >.<
sorry guys.but we'll haf an outing a year for sure,that's a promise x)
nt forgetting 2C peeps of coz =) missing u guys~
idiotic guys are having their own chalet -.-"

well well..
updating till here lo~
but still nt sleeping though a little late..
coz...
heehee =D
bye ppl~! 10:33 PM

woots~! my 600th post!
x)
well..supposed to be preparing to slp,but nt tired yet leh..
then suddenly thought of posting.coz wanna pour out my feelings
if nt i feel so terrible >.<
wanna talk to bestie but he doesn't seem to be free =X
well..today was ok..
watched "the wedding game".. kinda sweet =)
then ate lunch n treated aunt n family.also gor of coz,his bdae today~! =))
hmms then went home n slacked at home?

kept on thinking of him today..
realised this love is more difficult to maintain.
well,its nt a relationship yet,jus one sided for now.
but im alr feeling so terrible.coz we cant sms much,he prefer calling.
but im afraid being caught by parents? =X
n sch's starting.i'll sure haf super little time to be with him =(
but i realli cant stop thinking of him. rarr.
how? duno is it coz i have nothing to do,so keep thinking of him.
ahhhhs!

well well.
suddenly i realised to forget some1,its realli to get into another relationship o.O
i feel im out of de one that im always holding on =X
is it something to be happy with,or something not to be? =X

going msia tmr..onli bac on wed.
meaning onli can contact him on wed? =X boohs =(
misses misses misses >.<

BESTIE WHERE R U!!!! I NEED A TALK SERIOUSLY LA!!!! >.< 11:54 PM

woots!today's de last day of work le!
i ended my work le.sooo fast..
realli a little sad..keep thinking about the things there?
was on de bus to jp with parents,den passed by the bus stop.
on my way back,also keep thinking "aww~ i wont pass by this route anymore" >.<

but today's a fun n busy day bahs
couldn't sleep well? keep thinking of things ytd b4 falling asleep.
today woke up at 5.20 like that??
stomachache,n cant sleep on le.so went to look at phone,saw some1's sms.
replied,n received his call,n talk to him x)
poor thing,onli sleep like 1 hr? had to spend de rest of de time at work =X
when i reach there,saw mingzhu's tired tired face..hhaas.
gave her 1 box of de choco cornflakes.hahas.
saw all de noon shift ppl,all half dead liao.. so quickly did some tidy-ing up n let them go home =p
after that,ard 7plus 8,lotsa ppl started coming in nia..
de queue is super super long can.
we even open another counter outside nia.sharon helped me with the counter.
den i pack.
everything was super cheap le.big bags of vege at $1 to $2..
bags of fruits at $2 each. everything selling at low price la!
then everybody shouting shouting shouting..we also have to shout "cash only~!!"
apparently there's still ppl who still give us de nets card -.-"
super sianded.den still got 1 give me de "i nv hear/i duno"
i duno shout how many times?! n i shouted in both chi n eng la >.< gaga la

didn't realli rest today.packing non stop.
but kinda nice la.duno why.hahas..
mayb coz he's there too =D
making faces n stuffs =p

yup.n time pass fast.soon its time to knock off? x)
yups..kinda crapped ard n stuff.
de guys were doing stupid n funny stuffs.guessed they're too tired..
they jus keep shouting "sorry~!we're closed~!happy new year~!"
hahas..funny =D
then we students went in to get our BIG angbao x)
after that quickly rushed out to give them my choco cornflakes =D
suddenly got that she bu de feeling le.
cant find him anws.stupid him went home >.<
but think he gotta rush to take his fren's car.so yups,too sad~
he didn't get his choco. giving him this wed or wat ba x)

went bac with parents,den went to jp.
ate swensens,bought 2 belts n all shops closed~~
no shopping could be done,so we went home.

packed my clothes.tried my clothes.hahas.
planned wat to wear this coming tues when i go bac msia =)
trying to plan my schedule this week.
mon tues is for family.
wed to sat still nt planned,
but i gotta leave 1 day for est to go bac fuhua, 1 day for tingfang to go bac shengsiong,
mayb 1 night for him,n sat is definitely for mrs lim,provided the others r free too =)
yupyups~
n next week sch starts~~~ =X
fast ehs..
kinda sianded again >.<
i somehow think im also affected coz cant see him much =X
realli keep _______ ____ =(((
boohs~!!!!
i cant wait for wed nia~ or tues~ =X
misses~!

okokays~im nt posting alr~
takkaires peeps~!
guess i'll update tmr,since i'll be stuck at home =X
bybyes~! 9:47 PM

rarr~ im tired..
jus gonna post a short 1 i guess.
since i doubt many r reading anyways huhs..

well well.
fast.
tmr's de last day of work.
kinda happy,coz im tired of working liao.
tired of worrying about handling money,getting scolded/accused..
rarrr~
but also sad..
yups,de parting part.
cant bear my shifu lizhen.my best shifu.
sure miss her laughter n miss playing with her..
missing all my colleagues.er,nt all.but alot.
like meizhen,chaoqun,liqun,mingzhu,gaoying,chenjing..
i'll be back to visit them!!!
also miss tingfang n meijing..wonder if we'll ever meet again huhs.
hope we will~! cant forget de times we had x)
always gossiping n complaining n sighing n laughing.hahas.nice~!
shop pet shop pet~ our fav job! =p
hmm.will kinda miss de noon shift ppl too.
that idiotic mingli,super fast cashier.
i always almost died being his packer >.< but he's funny at times la.hahas.
but most of de time irritating n mei2 ren2 xing4!
n also desmond!he's de best cashier.hahas.
quite a gd packer too x)
at least he's better than mingli.though nt much better =X
hahas.nicenice..
n last but not least,sure miss him la!
hope we still will contact even after i leave.
hope de phone calls wont stop everyday~! x)) lalalas~

did choco almost everyday,coz i had been baking for lotsa ppl.
baked for auntie,baked for relatives,n for these colleagues.
didn't have time so onli baked for morn shift colleagues.
mayb i'll bake more n give to noon shift colleagues next week ba o.O
woosh~!
im off to take a nap now~ before going to OT again n chiong again for de last time tmr =)
takkaires ppl~!

*misses**tohim*=p 4:40 PM

update update,i've gt many things to updateE! x)
day by day bahs??
let me see...
nth much happened until sunday??

onli elf noe wat happens.. n of coz my family.
didn't manage to control my tears n broke down infront of them..
super foul mood.feeling super terrible.
left work at around 4? n back to work at 6?!?! =(
OT nia.but OT is much better =D
was a packer instead of cashier.
had laughing times with liqun n de cashier i was helping.mingli i guess? =)
he's somehow nice n somehow bad.. =X
but quite a nice chap i guess?
yeah,n time flies~
n i was much happy that night den de noon..
n smth happened de next day..
bestie,u better read on..

went back to work de next day,monday(or ytd)
suddenly meizhen mentioned to me about the $53.95 that im short of de previous day.
she said it was an extra receipt,n shld be cancelled away.
meaning someone jus scanned extra,but its supposed to be cancelled away?
so if its cancelled, i shld be right.
n i have no wrong!!!! made me cry for nth de previous day?!?!
n de worst thing is,de asst chief told me de previous day that its MY fault,
coz i took de customer $50+ n i returned de customer $50?!?!
i already found that ridiculous that day la.but thought its realli my fault.
walao.feeling so accused!!!! >.< rarr~~

n so,went bac early,ate dessert with tingfang again n went back to prepare..
supposed to meet dearie chuf on bus,n coincidentally met alvin n junjie at the 334 bus stop.
so we travelled there tgt,n onli left je interchange at 6plus coz we waited for many many ppl?
hmm.who was there? let me recall..
alvin junjie benedict kelvin zijie damien junqiu celest yanting serene chuf me sisi.
i hope i didn't miss any??
well.alvin jj zijie damien junqiu celest serene sisi didn't change much?
kelvin too.benedict's voice change..
yanting didn't change much too,but guess i didn't see her for too long..
so i cant recognize her when i first see her o.O
but yeah,managed to catch up a little on de journey there.nice chats =D
then met esther n mrs seah,baoyang and shaoan there.yufan dorisa cerys joined us later on.
ate n somehow chatted.
on,de guys were super noisy on de bus.lol.
even noisier than 4e5 de previous time nia! =p
n yups.chatted somehow..recalled memories? =p
n me n chuf left earlier coz of me =X sorry.
didn't take much pics.heard that all pics were taken after we left >.<
but managed to take grp pics la =)) that's nice x))
yups,its nice having such gathering once in a while. hope to haf more! x)

okays.that's all for de update?
now smth else =X
dear sweetie is in love (u guys shant noe who.onli she n me noes =p)
duno why,but felt happy knowing that x)
mayb coz i noe in love is a sweet thing bahs,since i've been in it before.
so would wan them to have a taste of it? x)
n yeah,love will make u grow up x)

n omg..i think im also like,nearing it =X
so weird so weird!
telling sweetie now..
ahhh~!
all de symptoms i once experienced in first love is repeating.
so isn't it like,obvious?=X
ahhs~! bestie elf,u better contact me soon,i wan talk to u about it too!!!
ahhhhs~!
thank god sweetie's online for me to pour out my thoughts =p

k la k la..
think that's all. nth to update le?!?1
ohohs.5 more days? n im quitting =D
thank god i told my chief earlier.
heard today that they cant quit,can onli quite after chu1 san1. woots! =D
meeting chia tmr,very long since we had a chat too! x)
missing all peeps~~
hope to meet more soon`! =D 6:29 PM

okokays~ im here to update!!!
hahas.
update about wat happen to us on mon,12th jan,hahas x)
that morn,we're feeling super nervous..
super no mood in doing anything,duno wat to do..
den received sms from dear A n C,saying our batch did super well in eng.hahas.
heart pumped pumped pumped~!!! hahas..
est came n we went to buy her contacts,then met kl n we went sch early.
met mr ng,mr tan~! n had small chats with all frens..

n slowly..tick tock tick tock~~~
got nearer nearer,n we started cheering when de msg(s) came out..
but a sad thing is de msgs for each class per subject is not announced =X
den 10 pointers.quite many from 4e5..
gaoyan..esther..yunzhong..xueli..pitrie..n others..
den 9 pointers..nt many ppl..
mic n wl started sighing.im getting worried too..
coz i smhow feel 10 n 12 has a "bond" with me >.<
but 8 pointers out,i saw my name x)) ahhs~!
saw dan's name..nat's name..jr's name..ahhh`!hahas x)
we went up de stage,wobbly legs,smiling all da way..
totally cant stop smiling..hahas =)) nice nice~!
n next..7pointer..
i shouted de moment i saw de name.ALVIN TAN SHI CHUAN!!!!
woahs~ shout shout shout shout shout~!!!hahas..
i was overjoyed.realli overjoyed for him.
he himself was super shocked too.hahas.

after collecting results,i went to find bestie,gave him de best hug.
n we both said at de same time after de hug "we won XXX"hahas!!!
yeahs.im proud of him.proud of him! =)))

yups..after that went bac to band.saw happy n sad faces,esp from sec 4s this year..
due to de chinese paper..
well,cheer up kids! this year is de most crucial one.work hard kays! x)

n yeahs..o lvl results.
some r happy,some r not.
some got 8,but nt happy.
some got 13,but very happy.
different ppl,different expectations.
no matter wat the outcome is,we still muz accept shldn't we?
jiayou ppl.get over it,n move on.this is onli a part of our life.
we shld get better n make sure we dont ruin de life after today! x)

well..had chat with nat alvin jr jk jus now..
kinda nice x)
decided on nj as first choice.
super hoping that we'll all get into nj.
though nt classmates,schmates is gd enough!
bless us~! x))
gonna do some research n gonna go for my online registration le.
bye ppls~!
x) 9:11 PM

heya peeps!
guess my readers are getting lesser..
all are having sch now! =p

went bac to sch ytd to visit the kiddos..
gave cookies,had sweet comments,n also useful comments? =p
felt that they did improve quite alot,much more frm wat we heard last time =p
but of coz,there's more room for improvement x)
chatted with elf quite alot..n also saw de kiddos..
missed their laughters n voices lots x)
guess i'll see them again this mon huhs =p

went bac to sch's mac with dan today to see cai lao shi x)
long time nah see her loh~!
hahas..
she didn't change that much la.
but heard alot of comments n things from her.hahas.
nicenice x) miss her loads.
doubt we can meet her on sat,so me n dan met her today lohs.
when she left,cont to chat with dan in mac.nice =) love her to bits x)

n yups yups.. mon is de day our results are released!
fast huhs..4 more days nia! wooh sah~
feelings so mixed now.lol.

n n n ..
i got my pay!
nt alot,but shiok la! hahas.
i jus took out money today n gave to my parents.feel so nice =D
i'd decided to buy de bag i saw at og!
if gg out with kl,den i'll go buy that. =D
using my OWN money.realli own money,nt pocket money.muahahas =D

still deciding whether to go bac tmr to chat with ms yeo not..
or mayb,i'll wait till mon den go chat with her lohs~
see how ba.still thinking o.O

k la..update till here le..
takkaires ppl! =) 7:39 PM

alright alright~
dear bestie alvin tan is missing me~ =p
this is my first 2009 post! =D
today's de 4th le.fast hors? =X
heard we're getting results on de 12th? kinda confirmed? =X
8 more days..fast huhs? >.< person ="))" inside ="X" card =")" things="))" ard =")" stop ="(" about =")" private =")">.<
yet to discuss with any1 yet.woots.
cracking brain~

tues shld be baking if everything turns out well.
trying not to go out =p
den wed if can,go bac fuhua!
i miss missyeo~hahas =p
miss de kiddos too.wanna noe about their new life =D
sat gonna meet 2c peeps plus cailaoshi? x) yeah,finally she's back! =D
hope they'll go out de whole day.
den i can meet after work =))

yupyups,nth else more to blog le?
hope i can see MONEY when i update my bank book these few days! x)

ohohs~!
my in-laws-2 a.k.a. ye man nai nai ge zhan da shi nai is coming up!
this wed 9pm,woots! =D
i cant wait~! =D love it~ x)
those who have scv,must watch chn 55! =) 4:49 PM

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