haish. should haf gone to lib today to study, if i know my parents would be home that late.
kinda wasted my time at home today again.
trying to do eom but i just cant seem to do it.

jus dont know why i cant find that thing to push me to do my things.
n pw is realli getting me crazy. i seriously have no idea how to start on it.
got back results. other than maths, the others aren't good at all. esp phy geog. speechless.
though kinda expected that,still, disappointed in de results.

suddenly i feel i hate myself.
hate myself for being so not hardworking.
hate myself for being so not self-disciplined.
hate myself for so many things.

im tired.. real tired..haish.. 9:58 PM

alright,1 week since i've updated? =))
today's sch holiday for NJC! in lieu of college day =D
n today is kinda productive for me! i spent about 4 hrs like that studying in lib =D
did maths n econs!
n a little of geog.
did slack a little,but yeah,at least i did wat im supposed to do =)
n i duno if im cheated?
cos i photocopied de organ books.
den they didn't bind for me,n it cost $50! =X
but there are 2 sets la. but still i think its ex? =X
im like so shocked la.
imagine if i buy my things first,gdness.
i'll haf no money for that,that'll be so malu!=X

well wkend was a tiring one.
sat went for yulin's church thingy.
played games n crapped with de gals.
kinda fun in a way.hahas.
den rushed back to jp for dinner with kl wl est =)
thanks girls for that balloon n rose!
it's still well okays =P
im thinking of making de rose a dried one! but i duno if i know how to make it anot =X
but yeah,nice time catching up =)
shall catch up again next time k =)

sun went for cip. damn tired.
was with yulin n we went to chinatown point there.
ok la,nt that bad.
was kinda demoralised in de beginning.
but after that became better.
we went to eat subway n continued with the last 2 flowers.
den we went to find de others n help to sell de remaining ones.
tiring day,but at least we finished our cip! =))

ytd had first harmoc after long break.
didn't turn out too badly la.
weini came back n visited us! =))
but think 2nd chro ppl realli going to bass/1st chro le =((
cos we're de biggest section now =(
aww~ 2nd chro~ =((
but dun worry k. we'll still be one section.
rmb minghao? =) he's still part of 2nd chro wat =D
jiayou kays =))

haish.PW >.<
we're always facing obstacles when we think we're going fine alr >.<
IDEAS IDEAS IDEAS =XXX 6:32 PM

woots. today is de handover of harmoc.
seniors (or exco) were worried that im sad i didn't get sl/sc, cos i said i wanted that.
actually,i was kinda worried that im getting that,cos i somehow feel i cant handle their faces.
the faces that u'll face if they're tired,or stuff. all that huimin mentioned..
i realli feel a bit =XX was still thinking how am i gonna deal with that.
in de end,i dun haf to worry,cos im not sc. somehow im kinda relieved! =D
n was glad that was chosen to be vp. thanks for giving me that chance my seniors!
(though dont know if u guys will see this o.O)

yups.got de presents from seniors.
got a file n hanger from jeremy, to discipline them =P
got a pouch,with letters from seniors. nice nice =))
took a couple of pictures with seniors. shall wait for pictures to be uploaded! =)

well.it's our turn to take over!
first thing : 2nd chro outing! hahas =)
next,i duno what we'll need to do le =X maybe preparing for next prac or smth o.O
hope everything will get smooth!
JIAYOU HARMOC!
N THANKS TO ALL HARMOC SENIORS,ESP 2ND CHRO SENIORS!
U GUYS ARE SUPER UBER DUPER GREAT!!!!!!!!!!! =DDDDD

HARMOC J1S: JIAYOU!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! x))
HARMOC EXCOs: LET'S LEAD THE BAND TO GREAT GREAT HEIGHTS!!!!!!!! x)))) 9:17 PM

YAY! HAPPY BDAY TO ME & RUIYANG!!!!!! =DDD

woah,lots of people to thank lehs! =D
presents first? =)
thanks to siang gor (cousin) for the kettle umbrella x) first present received during the wkend! =D
thanks to jessvin jie (cousin) for the nice cake =D
thanks to god-father and aunt/uncle for the red packets x)))
thanks to OG2/09SH08 clique (yulin jacq hilda li er & sab) for the instant cupcake,cupcake case and handphone pouch plus letter =D
though i know most mus be by that kuku ahma yulin =D i mean de idea =P
thanks to the 4 fhss-njc peeps! for the nice nice surprise,the cake n the blackboard!
shall elaborate more later =))
yups,that's all for presents =D

then followed by sms-es :
thanks to zaiwei and edlyn who tried to stay up late till 12 but didn't managed to. =)
the following are all in sequence! x)
alvinTAN,meiyin,chingyee,weijie,meichia,danlim,kokkeong,yulin,kaiqin,michelleTAN,aiyin,
choonseng,jingkai,nurmatha,kailin,dorothy,gor,jeslynn,esther,liuqi,asyikin,pitrie,jingyu,
wanlin,cousin,vannie,haziq!
yay! thanks to all! =D
most unique sms goes to choonseng la.hahas =D
nevertheless,thanks to all! x))

lastly, thanks to those who wished me on facebook!
michelleTING,weijie (Again =D),kahyan,weini,ruiyang,alvinTAN(again too =D), jazzrel,
msChong!(shocking! =P)jasmine,jiahe,asyikin,desmondGOH,isyana,benedict,waiseng,jean,
charissaWONG,qianwen,jiayi,jeremy,lingyong,akash,kimyong,alvinYUE,yufan,jingyi! =)
yeahs! =D

THANKS TO ALL!!!!! =DDD


okies.. i shall talk about today! X)
didn't managed to get to slp ytd till 11.50 or smth i think =X
wanted to stay awake! but was afraid i cant wake up this morn.
forced myself to slp
hmm hmm..
den this morning was reading de sms-es and replying =))
smsing alvin de elf on de way to sch =)
reached sch, saw yulin ahma and gt de present frm her =)
den was eating bread halfway when natalie called and asked me to go to rooftop.
met jr who was lost.hahas.n he walked in front of me.
saw a couple =X which i thought is sm1 i know =X n saw a guy playing guitar alone there =X
den saw de 2 ladies,trying to light up de candles on de small cake.
n that stupid elf,is trying to block me up, but failed,cos i came from de other side.lol!
but de cake was super nice, like my cousin's lehs! fruits de,with white choco at de side.
its from icing room if im nt wrong =) very nice ehs! =D
den they sang de bday song,gave me prezzie,we took photo x)
haven upload photos into comp yet.mayb upload pics tmr or wed =D
need to get from elf de photos too =))

after that rushed down to lt2 (my civics class =D)
was taking temp n talking with the gals,suddenly de class started singing bday song!
woah,kinda shocked luhs. but thanks 09sh08~! =D
we spent a super nice time in tb22 during gc too! ms ang gave us half a period.
den we started crapping n stuff, n i laughed till i cried.
realli cry till like crazy la.damn funny.
all stupid stuffs.n we began to call each other de chinese names cos we're signing a doc.hahas.
super nice =D first time we realli felt de fun being as a class ehs.hahas =D

pw was abit gaga,but somehow we managed to list out most of de things to do.
roughly we got an idea where we stand and whr to move on =)
after pw,hilda li er yulin n i went to island creamery!
nice nice ice-cream =D n i got a free scoop cos its my bdae! =D
de super funny n nice thing happened!
li er was holding her ice-cream slightly slanted (she has 2 scoops too)
n was admiring de photos.suddenle. *BLOP!*
her icecream dropped on de table! both scoops!
n her hand has only de ice-cream cone with no ice cream! hahas!
n she was feeling so damn sad. n its so wasted luhs!
den we suggested she scoop up de ice cream and eat de ok part.
so she used hilda's plate,den scoop de icecream up and eat de untouched part.hahas!
after that she decided to buy another icecream.hahas.
funny luhs.n we took some photos! =D
nicey nice x))

hmm yeah,think that's about all for today! x)
anws de journey on 174 is super long today.duno why =X
n awws~ my parents are leaving for msia later =(
gotta be alone these 2 days again.. n 3 nights =X
bon voyage to my parents~!
okies.stopping my post here.
tmr is harmoc handover!
wonder who will be de next batch of exco,n who is de president? =D o.O
stay tuned! =P 7:55 PM

I CANT GET TO SLP! =((
no idea wat's wrong too.
i woke up at 6AM!!!!!
yes,today is sunday,and i woke up at 6 =X
i slept at 12,when im nt tired,but gt nth to do =X
so i made myself sleep.i shldn't haf done that man.
then i wont wake up that early today =X
i tried to get myself to sleep,but cant,stomach aching =(
so i woke up,on lappy n watched "my queen", de nice nice epi that is not shown on tv yet =)
den went to play games in facebook! =D quite fun =)
actually i feel i shld do study stuffs.like do geog research etc.
but i got no mood leh! =XXX
that's bad.but who cares =D
lalas~

gg for sakura later! (sakura again =X)
but yeahs.with family n relative =)
celebrating me n my cousin's bday in advance! =D which is 1 day more =D lalalas~
1 of my cousin bought me a cake ytd, and 1 gave me a kettle umbrella!
shall upload de pics when all are ready =D

oh.n de weather is cold today o.O
nicenice~
n i think i woke up cos of de aircon.
it was super hot ytd,somehow,n i on de aircon,which i didn't on for the past few days.
mayb cos im used to de cold weather just with the fan,so i cant slp well with the air con last night o.O
n its fast! 7.37 le. but bet my family will onli wake up at 8plus 9 o.O
i shall try to do my geog/econs now =)
but i bet i wont do it.HAHA =X 7:32 AM

alright! it's weekend again! =D
hmm..not much homework this weekend,but ALL PROJECTS -.-"
i finished my geog essay outline! =D was thinking if i shld do de essay,but think no need bahs.
guess she's jus gonna go thru,so hmm! =) see how la =D
now left with ECONS PROJECT,which actually is left with report now =D
but still mus research to further support it.
den there's HUMAN GEOG PROJECT.pair work.need to research plus do out the essay.
but this is by wk 4.so mayb shall start research this wkend =D
and there is STUPID PROJECT WORK =XXX
somehow there is some feeling that i know what to do.
but everytime when we're doing, we cant do it >.< rarr!

but im afraid i cant do much this wkend la.
relatives coming from johor => either i keep myself in de room (which is kinda rude)
or i cant do anything =X
but tmr or sun gonna eat out with family ! =D
but mayb buffet AGAIN. wah,this is so terrible =X
still,it's nice la =D

good thing anws.im getting interested in phy geog! rocks n weathering seems ok =D
gd gd x))) but heard chem isn't gonna be easy =(
oh,n i gotta be super aware now.
my relatives may pop out anytime.
n i have to use de fastest speed to bring my lappy to my room and shut my door!
n im currently thinking wat are the things that i can do without lappy.
cos my main hw is research =X

alrights~ shall not blog le.nth to blog liao o.O
next tues is passing over for harmoc! wah,excited =P
wonder who's gonna be de P? i realli wonder.after all de ....... =X =P
takkaires ppl! jiayous~! =)
next week most likely getting back de papers le.good luck huhs! =)) (i mean for jc ppl! =))

3 more days~ =DDD 6:34 PM

awws~ 3 days of the 5 day rest is over =((
sadded luhs~
but okay la. at least i didn't spend them just like that.
got bac my phone le =) lalas~
n went to imm after that. bought things =X
i think i spent alot during these days.felt so bad >.<
ytd went marina with yulin n jacq and i bought a watch and a keychain.hahas.
yulin bought hairbands n smth else,forgot.
jacq wanted to buy a watch too but no stock =X
but yeahs,tiring day after walking here n there.hhas.
n we crapped damn lot.esp that lame yl la =D
nice day,but we forgot about pics =(( sadd~

yups.today after collecting my phone,
went to watson to look at stuff.bought blusher n eyeliner =D
duno if i know hw to use it though =X nvm,shall seek help =D
den i went to try clothes!n took pics.hehhhehs~ fun fun fun x)
but didn't buy la.still under de so-called recession period. =((

oohs.. CIP is suspended o.O
kinda happy! but also nt happy too la,cos it means mus do it at a later time? o.O
n i haven realli do my work!
yulin's mom wanted her to start revision for promos now sia!
wah scary~ >.<
totally dont have the mood to start at all la.im nt starting i guess =X
blahs~
monday still gotta meet for PW =((
PW SUCKS LA~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ =((((((((((


haish..
where were you when i needed you?
i jus wan you to be there beside me..
i jus need your shoulder.. is it that difficult?

oh did i mention?
i suddenly thought that it would be nice baking with ur loved one =D
was baking n then thinking of that suddenly.
those with a partner,do try it! hahas x))
guess i'll do that with my partner when he appears in my life =)) 4:40 PM

Well, life is jus unfair la huhs?
HAISH! =P

anws. CT IS OVER =DDDD
at least for me la.wahahas.
honestly i ain't feeling the very high mood leh.sad!
but still never study la.nt intending to study today =)
mayb not tmr n fri too! woops =P
feel like baking! so im gonna bake tmr =D
this is so going to be fun x)
duno why,suddenly have the mood x)
but i duno whether to bake cookie or cupcake? o.O
most likely baking cupcake i guess. =D
I saw the channel 8 show jus now, so cool la!
but that is pastry chef mah,so very pro. kinda envious >.<
but I'm not really that talented in baking =X ok ok only.. so..yeahs..

anws,dead for the papers. as usual,only better for maths.de rest..HAISH.
wonder how they'll turn out to be >.<
i feel like gg out with frens!
Hope can go out with 4e5 peeps on mon,but duno can anot =X
fri maybe gg to buy prez x)

alright,duno wat to say here le o.O
ohs~my phone is spoilt again =X gonna send for repair tmr =)
then shall go imm - daiso to look for baking stuffs =D lalallalaas~
GOOD LUCK TO PPL STILL HAVING CT X) and JIAYOU! =D

*oh man. suddenly think of pw. SUCKS =X* 9:43 PM

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