Monday, June 30, 2008
yep..granny has got rid of the pain..
she's living without pain now..
sad, of coz, but happy for her on de other hand..
if she were to hang on,she'll be living with extreme pain everyday..
i'd rather she go, and nt live with so much pain..
gonna be away these few days,coz my heart ain't here..
gonna be by her side.. at least i'd feel better bahs..
jus wanna came here and blog this.
jus in case u guys wondered where i am? =)
don't worry,im better le..
sorry to make u all worried..esp 4e5 peeps who were with me..
i'll be strong, dont worry.. =)
jiayou,everyone..
granny.rest in peace =)
--Merci tout le monde--
10:10 PM
Sunday, June 22, 2008
losing?
kinda afraid..
but i haf trust..
that it's nt gonna happen x))
"trust is de most impt thing to maintain any relationship" -> this is penguin's quote x)alrights~
today's de last day..
doubt will haf time to update from tmr onwards..
or rather,gonna nt allow myself to update.
gonna pia~!!!!
prelims after 9 more short weeks..
olvl is jus nearby..
hi.. i saw u.. i wish i'll pass by u real soon.
coz that means i will be throwing away some things =))
jiayous ppl! loves <3!
--Merci tout le monde--
8:34 PM
Saturday, June 21, 2008
jus realised i didn't go friendster for a super long time!
o.O
ohoh n something! i managed to get ahben's zilian pic~! =))
de one that alvin failed to send me during bonding day =P
lalas~! =))
--Merci tout le monde--
11:43 PM
http://www.imeem.com/ianho/playlist/c_O61fEx/tokyo_kosei_wind_orchestra_music_playlist/ i think this playlist is nice! alot of nice music from TKWO x))
El Cumbanchero & Tico Tico are in "Festa" that fsmb once played! =))
nice nice~!
omens of love is nice..
Glenn Miller medley is nice..
rhapsody in blue is nice ..
first love also nice! x)
chinese spring overture is played by fuhua CO before!hahas.
damn cool =P
go listen! x)
--Merci tout le monde--
11:10 PM
Wednesday, June 18, 2008
grandma seems to be getting better?
nt sure though.. but ytd mum said she can see again =))
jus that she's getting weaker..n is starting to eat those drugs as medi =X
discussion among adults.. whether to lessen her pain by letting her go..
or to hang on..
shall not meddle.. let de adults deal with these bahs..
going bac later,nt sure when will be back..
yeaps,will stay strong infront of her.. let her be happy =))
thanks to all for tagging.
i've received all your concerns =))
im getting better le.. esp with u guys here with me..
cheering me up.. encouraging me..
dont worry! i'll stay strong =))
love u guys loads <3
today went out with asyikin to buy prezzies..
came across with many surprises!
promised weijie to blog about this =)
we saw a sissy!!! =X
okays.. he is a man,coz he has short hair,just like any guy..
but he ties a short pony tail on top..
he wears a long shirt as a dress.ithink it is a long shirt la.coz doesn't look like any dress o.O
this shirt is like,kinda short ?cover 1/4 to half of de big thigh bahs?
then he puts on make up,has earrings..
his legs are weird! as in,nt nice.. de shape i mean o.O
my goosebumps came out when i saw him!!!
wanted to follow,but lost him =P
forgot to take pic! that's de pity part =X
n there's this lady,whose eyes followed him all da way..
but she doesn't has any expression! jus looking at him o.O
weird lady too!
n me n asyikin went crazy coz of this guy. talked so much.
then smsed weijie alvin, n i went crazy laughing with weijie =P
damn fun day =P
n we saw a bun-like wrist rest! damn cute!
when u touch it,it feels like a real bun. it smells like 1 too..
n of coz,looks like 1! but it's nt. a great prank tool! =P
i bet i smsed damn lot today =P nicenice~!
now me n weijie are wishing we'll see a sissy during tcb outings =P
coz we know it's gonna be super fun la! =P
k la~ that's all =))
today realli cheered me up =)
thanks weijie & asyikin & alvin~!
gotta go le. takkaires ppl!
i will be fine~ thanks for concern again! =))
n yups.. i pray for my grandma's gd health =)
or rather,i pray that she'll nt feel that much pain..
--Merci tout le monde--
6:19 PM
Monday, June 16, 2008
cannot see..
a little cannot hear..
getting lesser energy to talk..
i dont know what will happen next..
she even finds it difficult to cough out..
seeing her like this realli pains..
i feel so helpless..so useless..
she must be feeling very terrible..
dilemma. esp de adults.
she still dont know her condition.
if she noes,i seriously dont know wat will happen.
but i think wateva it is,i'll try to go bac asap.
at least let her know we're here with her bahs.
sometimes hope she can hold on,but at times..
realli hope we can jus stop these pain n let her go..
seeing her in pain,muz as well let her go?
at least she wont have to bear these terrible pain..
de needles.. de pain from de cancerous cells..
grandma,no matter what happens..
do know we're all here for you..
ur children.. ur grandchildren..
all of us..
we love you....
--Merci tout le monde--
11:42 PM
Sunday, June 15, 2008
thanks to all who tagged =)
don't worry,im fine..especially when u guys are by my side,how can i nt be fine? =)
yeahs.. everything is like,fixed?
jus hope she'll nt be in such great pain..
tears flowing from many's eyes..
saddening.. but haf to accept it..
yeah.. jus hope everything will be okays..
n yups. i didn't touch any work/study last 3 to 4 days i guesS?
bad.. n i have yet to finish my hw. terrible.though i didn't plan to finish this few by 2nd week.
gonna slowly do these,but gonna try to speed up for revision.
coz im gonna leave them alone again this thurs n fri i guess..
TCB sleepover. initially cancelled..
but after asking for permission,we had it again =)
pushed back though,from 12th 13th to 13th 14th..
nt a very long one,coz gotta go bac to msia on 14th morning.
but hope they had a nice time.
bet the best time is de sleeping time.. sleep till so nice that they dun wanna wake up.hahas.
yeaps. watched movie,played cards,n the guys played smth like playstation + psp..
ate junk food? nt much though. n had seafood at tehtarik =)
mayb we shld save more money n year end we'll have a nice great sumptuous meal =))
n now tcb has a coin bank at my hse! x) we'll fork out money together at diff times for tidbits or wateva, n save the remaining =))
n ytd n today,i'd been missing tcb damn lots.. duno why..
kept on thinking about them..
after sleepover,suddenly feel my room so empty sia..
i eeven thought of having a house shared by tcb in de future =P
when we earn money though.
then mayb we can buy jus a small one.. then we can go there for sleepover at different times..
in de future future,we can make a room for our kids. hahas =P TCBkiddos =P
nice one..
while travelling to msia,i also thought of tcb going out together for a trip.
mayb jus to m'sia? can go further too if we wan. when we have money money..
totally love them.
sometimes i realli think..
wat willhappen if i initially join other ccas when i was in sec 1?
i bet my life wont be that wonderful now..
wat will happen if i didn't meet tcb?
i bet i wont be so happy now..
everytime with tcb, smiles n laughters appear..
loved that feeling.. they make me forget all my sorrows =)
TCB u guys are real great loves! x))
i will plan another sleepover after O's.. 2 nights.. 3 nights .. =))
will say again bahs!
okays.. gotta go.. let's hope i can study a little teenie bit now bahs..
jiayou ppls..
p.s. sorry to yumiko for nt attending ur bbq tonight! =X
--Merci tout le monde--
8:40 PM
Wednesday, June 11, 2008
" be prepared for the worst "
nv knew these words can be so hurting.. until it's said to u..
duno wat's de feeling now..
initially sad.. but thought of wat alvin said..
ya,it's fated.. we cant change wat is already a fact..
she wont be happy seeing us sad and cry either..
so i think de best way now is to accompany her as much..
anything doesn't matter now.. i'll pick every possible moment to go bac to visit her..
treasure her.. let her know we're here for her.. until her last moment..
realli wished heaven can let her hold on till her bday..
but i wished heaven take her away too, coz she had been having too much pain..
i duno.. jus wished she's happy every single day from today..
why?why is it that everybody onli treasure the ppl when they leave us?
at least, now it's not too late..
sorry guys.. i'll try to be happy these few days..
ya, she wont wanna see me sad.. so i'll try not to be sad..
but pardon me if i m unable to attend any thing.. esp yumiko's coming up bbq..
n im sorry if i dont have the mood to entertain u guys or wat..
sorry.. it's just so sudden.. i need to adapt to it..
thanks to alvin anws,for being there..
--Merci tout le monde--
9:55 PM
Wednesday, June 04, 2008
boohs~!
im slacking again~~~~ >.<
well well.. jus wanted to blog smth! =D
lalas~ went back to band today.woots~!
had some self-prac with the sec 3s n 4s..
played merry widow, el relicario.. sight read 1st's score for both!
cool man`~! =P challenging. reminds me of de past~~ =))
went for lunch at 11plus.. ate with part of de tcb(alvin.darren.asyikin.ahben.me) + xiaoclar,aiyin&jiehan..
had fun! hahas.. crapped damn lot..
was laughing almost de whole 1hr??
crapped about ahem* den ahben began to imitate her..
den start to kajiao alvin.. darren n jiehan were teasing asyikin on de way..
was crazy-ing with xiaoclar and aiyin on de way there too.. hahas..
den on de way bac we keep linking *Ahem with 2 of the tcb members =P
somehow we linked something o.O
den when we reached spiral we saw smth. ahben laugh + scared till he held on to de railing..
n on de way up we're like laughing and crapping luhs~!
all de way until band starts.. ahahs..
damn nice~! loved today's lunch break man!!! x)
realli missed these laughters~~~ loved u guys la!!!! x))
well well..
onli completed 2 hw today >.<
still left with these :
el : 1 compo 1 compre
cl : szechuan earthquake thingy, 1 set of paper 2, 1 zuowen, chengyu 51-100 >.<
em: done for now. waiting for ace-learning.
am: henderson paper 1 n 2.
phy: electromagnetism induction >.< plus tys,but that i duno if i wanna do =X
chem: 1 yearly tys paper, extra revision worksheets,but not compulsory~
geog: study for test
ss: done.
woow~! hmm..i plan to finish de chinese set of paper 2 by tmr.. henderson paper 1 by tmr.
n mayb henderson paper 2 also? or chem tys.. woots~
i plan to finish all hw by this week de sia! looks like it's pushed bac again >.< yucks~! =((
okays.. off to practise my organ. long time no touch~ =X
takkaires ppl`!
love tcb and fsmb~! x))
--Merci tout le monde--
9:54 PM
Tuesday, June 03, 2008
well well.. supposed to be asleep..
was listening to FSMB's inspiration I recordings..
loved our grease =)
though de tone may nt be perfect, but i still think it's nice =))
totally missed those times..
on de stage, shivering, fear of squeaking and weird tone, bad running notes..
in de end,it all came out well.. de solos were great..
everybody enjoyed. de audience, de teachers, de conductress, and of coz,de band members.
almost cried, esp when seeing de conductress shedding her tears..
touched? yeah i guess. it all came out too well..
too well till we didn't expect it'll turn out this way..
i believed our playing touched many ppl =))
yeaps.. it's definitely a day i wont forget..
for it's our inaugural concert =))
021207, Inspiration I.. SUCCESS..
the next one coming up, 281108, Inspiration II.
im looking forward to that. it shall realli be de best performance we'll put up.
our last date =))
FSMB.loved u guys.. truly.. =)
--Merci tout le monde--
11:29 PM
ahhh~! didn't know DSA can be so gaga? =X
i first time hear of writing testimonial for urself! =XX
boohs~ thought of giving up,but .. haish.. forget it..
jus try to get it done bahs~!
hmms.. loves xiaoclar la! x))
so sweet ever =D lalas~~ gonna see her tmr! =P
yeps,going bac tmr x) shld be staying whole day bahs..
morning practise ourselves, noon sit in! awws~ miss de band! >..<>.< yucks! =((
gonna buck up liaoZ~! miss de kiddos & TCB lots la!!!!
wish 12th 13th is here soon! =DD lalas~ CANT WAIT! =D
okays. off i go to chiong~ byes ppl~! x))
--Merci tout le monde--
9:00 PM
