"the feeling you get when someone calls you for nothing, but just to hear your voice"

=)) 10:40 PM

OMG I JUS DID A SUPER STUPID THING! forgetful me >.<
was in cac room, and wanna go to the toilet.
so took my usual pouch and went out.
still thinking, shld be safe to leave my phone here bahs.
when i came back, tap card as usual. no reaction.
eh? shucks! i think my card is in my purse!!!! not pouch!!!
omgomg. den thought of keying my matric no which i hope gt chance but apparently not.
die liao lo. whole morn nobody come leh! n my phone is in de room,i cant msg any1 for help too!
even if i borrow phone, i wont be able to rmb any exco's no.!
panick panick. duno how.
den i suddenly recalled this woman who came in to cac room to ask about aircon leaking
then i went to check if she's de one at the counter. LUCKILY SHE IS. PHEWWWW!!!!
went to ask her n tell her i forgot to take out my card. nice person =D
wah totally freaked out nehs~!

now in sch. slacking my time away.
cos gotta wait for 2 plus den can go fin office.
after that mayb go swimming with est? it doesnt look that sunny today =)
as usual, slept off my morn today~
nv go and run =X n it rained also i think? hehs~
tmr onwards starting ntu job le~!
n then gt camp tmr also.
cant imagine myself bringing slping bag and a big bag to work =X so weird lolol
but no choice~

hmm last night i had a super weird dream~!
its really all mixed here and there. but i think it kinda depicts the stuff that im thinking about recently.
1) reporting for work tmr at ntu. there's a scene of me reporting to the person called josephine.
its really who i needa report to tmr.
2) not being able to meet some1.
there's a scene that some1 got jailed lol. i think this scene is super funny.
some1 has a bunny but is hamster like. this part is totally like those chipmunks kinda movie.
that bunny/hamster is v cute and has special powers.
then suddenly there's a storm. n then de windows behind de bunny opened, and the bunny was blown out!!
 n it was drowned into the storm. it tried to struggle to get back but failed.
and some1 was so shocked and kept staring but didn't do anything.
n me n some ppl were like the audience watching this movie and commented "stupid! why stand there! save de bunny!"
but he didn't and de bunny died.
n so, some1 is jailed. cos he didnt save de bunny LOL.
n this was so sudden, and he cant use phone, and cant meet me, and i have noway to contact him.
cant even talk to him or wat. so lost. its like suddenly we're separated.
somehow it's showing what im feeling, when we didnt manage to talk much the past 2 days.
3) some scenes of my mum. some scenes of my friends. cant rmb much.

but quite eerie eh. i realise recently, these few weeks or months, my dreams started to be v related to real life.
they are linked to stuff that are always on my mind. cac work, studies, etc etc.
quite scary. my dreams used to be nv related to reality n stuff. o.O

okies~ time to look through the stuff. den can go and submit stuff and go home le~! =)
i realise we really dun haf much time left! will try to leave all wkends out for u.
but still, we're left with only 4 more including this wk i think? =X
hoping for more time ~ mu~ 1:47 PM

ahhhh im getting very vexed!!!!
i seriously have no idea where i spent that $52.34 on?!?!
i dont rmb spending any money on presents or clothes last wk.
n its nt a small amount!
i bought pumps, but it was only $19.90.
i bought scrapbook stuff but that was $21.90.
i dont have an expenditure of $52.34?!?!
i hope i have. and that i'll recall. at least i know it didn't disappear jus like that.
but right now i really cant think of any!!!!! its like my money jus disappear liddat?!?!
being vexed frm jus now till now, an hour plus alrdy but still cant think of that!!

the same thing actually happened last month.
as in, it was also $50+, but i know i did spend that money.
jus that de details were not right.
it showed that it was spent on 23rd and credited on 26th.
but i only end my exams on 26th and i definitely didnt go anywhere that day?!
i spend that only on 27th or wat. but since i did spend, fine.
but this time, i dun even rmb spending that sum of money?!
n the thing is, the details is de same as the above! also 23rd, and 26th!!!
n the vendor is also the same. some weird weird vendor! and its also USD 39.95.
how ah??!! think gotta go ask liao =((

BUT THIS IS BOTHERING ME SO MUCH NOW!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! =((((((((( 9:23 PM

人生如戏，戏如人生
everytime i watch dramas, i will find the stuff very relatable to reality stuff.
and sometimes, i realise some stuff in reality are seen in dramas too.
at times, of cos, de dramas seem more exaggerated.
like those love at first sight, bang on the street then fell in love that kind of thing.
but others, like returning back to each other after years, with the feelings still there,
or some sweet and romantic stuff, or simple yet sweet stuff, or sad parts or quarrelling parts of the couples.
they seemed so drama but they can actually happen.
nv expect them to happen though. cos some really seemed impossible.
but nth is impossible huhs? haha

n n, i think im quite bad. i gotta get rid of this thinking.
the thinking of thinking that the couple dont look tgt.
as in sometimes, looking at the couple photos on fb,
will feel that its quite a pity for the pretty girl to get a guy that dont really look compatible.
esp the older ones.
as in, getting a bf rather old for them. or really quite bad looking kind.
n esp if i know of their ex. then will compare. n will wonder why they dun wan de ex =X
but oh well, no right or wrong in love luhs.
n they might not look gd, they might look old, but they might have a great inner beauty =)
that's de most important thing!
as long as they treat the girl nice, that's de best =)
and of cos, as long as they truly love each other, it'll be great =)
so yups! shall not have that thinking anymore!
so bad of me.
as long as the 2 has feelings for each other, and truly love each other,
we shall give our blessings! =)

haha another random thought after watching dramas.
there should be a book for guys, named "what girls are thinking"
and all guys, esp those woo-ing girls or having gf/wife should read.
and the content should be the hidden meanings behind girls' actions & words hahaha.
many times girls feel angry and upset and will ignore the guy and dont say a thing.
n most of the times we hope guys will do what we want them to do.
but often, they dont. becos they dont know what we want frm them too haha.
n when they dont do what we want, we'll get even angrier.
n they will get angry too, cos they dont know what happened that made us angry!
n then things will get worse lol.
but mus always rmb that cannot let this hurt the r/s!
one mus always understand that the other party cannot read ur mind.
thus we mus communicate and express our thoughts when needed! =))
communication is impt~!
though sometimes it might be hard to say out, its still essential to do so  =)
tolerance, communication, compromise! =D 11:41 AM

woosh tired!
would most likely slp early tonight. earlier than 12 definitely.
gonna wake up at 5am tmr!!!
needa report by 630 at tanjong pagar. woosh~
thank goodness gt linwan =)

but adecco is really a rather bad company
1) ask ppl to come down and say most likely secure job, but nv give call in de end.
2) alr signed contract, then tell ppl they r not needed and say dun need come alrd. wth?!
3) say 6 days 7-7, in de end actual work is 1 night 6-10, den de rest of de 2 morn as reserve.
4) say 1-230, in de end mus stay for rehearsal, until duno what time? n we jus stay ard n do nth n waste time.
thank goodness they gt give money. if nt really will smack them!
went back at 6 with linwan. jus tagged along saying i also have stuff.
if nt have to wait there alone, plus hp low batt, how to survive?!
n stomach hungry like siao le~
n yes. they made me cancel my meeting with exco. tsktsk.

but kinda looking forward to working tgt with linwan! =)
n yes, last few days of may le!
n oohs, will miss dance tmr, haish =( hope next wk can catch up! bt its last lesson! >.< aye~

this wkend passed rather quickly?
back to sun again.
this coming fri noon onwards is senior camp~!
n tts abt it actually haha.

ohoh! while waiting for duno wat during the event, we managed to explore mbs rooms!!!
cos our job is to take the lift up to a certain level to see how long it takes.
n then wait there, for duno how long. at least 1h. n we left. duno wat time de rest left.
but while waiting, we all went to explore de rooms n take photo.
wah de bathroom is big!
but gt no lock?! so insecure!!!
n de balcony is quite big too! nice scenery haha.
will upload photos on fb~! =)

still rmb that year, i wished to let you see me at prom in my prom dress.
and i was disappointed that it didn't came true.
little did i know that now, the chance is here, n this time, as ur partner by ur side =) 9:10 PM

Love, is such a magical thing.
was having a htht with some1 last night.
lots of feelings flow. lots of  thoughts. n we got to realise some stuff..

Love. What is it?
There isn't any definition for it.
There isn't any explanation for it.
its just the feeling. that feeling that only he/she can give you.
that smile; the smile from deep within, when you just feel so blissful.
those tears; the tears that you bear, when he/she makes u angry/upset/sad/disappointed.
the heartache; that kind of heartache, or pain in the heart, which u dont feel jus cos u're hurt.
sometimes, its jus some words, that makes ur heart kinda ache kind, but u're actually smiling.
the emoticon will be :')
smiling with tears.

Love isn't about saying all those sweet words.
Love isn't just about those mushy stuff.
The absence of those words doesn't mean love doesn't exist.
Plainly saying "I love you" doesn't mean love exists either.
This is why many girls are deceived by those bad eggs out there with glib tongues.

It's the feeling, that both have for each other.
It's about knowing what he/she is thinking without him/her telling you.
You dont have to be in the same tune always.
But you know what he/she is thinking.
You know what he/she wants, and you try to give it.
Compromise, tolerance, acceptance.
and you just want to do anything and everything, to see that smile of him/her.

you two can play like two little kids at a moment,
but can behave like an old couple another moment.
you talk about all things in life.
you recap about the past memories you once shared.
you share with each other everything, good, bad, complaints, happiness, sadness.
your lover, is just like your best friend as well.
you will go through alot alot. not just the happy stuff.
but moments of unhappiness, upset, anger, disappointment, tears, etc.
the whole journey, is not easy, is not always happy.
there are times you quarrel, you cry, you're angry, you're upset, you're disappointed.
but in the end, you'll still forgive.
you wanna scold, you wanna yell, you wanna quarrel.
but the moment he/she does smth, says sorry, gives you that look, your heart softens.
n you're no longer angry anymore. all the negative thoughts subsided.
you look at that person in front of you, and you can be angry with yourself.
becos a moment ago u jus wanted to punish him/her, but the next, you know you cant bear to.
this, is probably love.
no matter what happens, it'll end off again, with a smile.
forgiveness.
becos u know, u dont want to end this with a silly quarrel.
you know that the small thing is the quarrel, the big thing is the love/the relationship.

Really, love is just so magical.
you cant really explain what it is.
when you feel doubtful, you dont know if love really exists,
really, jus follow your heart.
your heart tells you everything.
it takes time though =)
when you have that heartache feel for just that someone, and not anybody else,
high chances that he/she is the one already.
it's a kind of feeling, that nobody else, can give you =)
so much for ytd =) lotsa tears, but brought me smiles too.
you're right, this is probably true love. 
that heartache feeling.. you're really the only one that can gave me that. 
despite those disappointments, every meeting up with u is more than enough to offset that.
so glad, so glad that we found each other =)  my one, and only love =) 10:01 AM

oh yes!
i wanna watch movie!
snow white n huntsman!
n madagascar!
im waiting~!!! x) 9:33 PM

decided.
gonna put B&F, den HR, den tourism.
read thru the mods, realised HR mods are like,more interesting than tourism ones?
lolol. so yups. gg for it!
even thought if i shld put HR as first choice eh.
bt i wanna try BnF. so yups! that shall still be first choice.
gonna be full core mugger to push up GPA frm next yr~

oh yes. results out last night.
didnt do that well. hope to push one of them to A- but none this time~
so kinda pulled down GPA as well.
I think it was the minor tests that pulled it down.
oh well. as what xiaoclar said, did my best, no regrets.
certainly, i believe i can do better. but i think i did my best during finals to pull up whatever i can.
hope next sem onwards can be better!

ok,tt's all for results!
tmr is friday le~! =)
tdy went to sign for MBS job le.
will miss dance class on mon! =( but will gt free open class to replace it =) so still okays~
but de following wk gotta work doubly hard to catch up~!
haven recap de dance n master the open class one! shall do that later =))
n still mus cont with my maths olympiad solving for my tutee!!!
wah, thankfully for solutions available that gave me some clues on how to work on it.

okays!
shall do abit of taiwan itinerary now~!
n yes, i jus learnt that its itinerary and not itinery :O

oh! i needa buy black flats!
cant walk ard in my heels for MBSwork la =X will dieeeee. haha.
n tt needs makeup also!
n some1 says my makeup very thick when i only do simple one?!
GIRLS HELP ME PING2 PING2 LI3 hahahha =P 9:11 PM

woots. dun really have mood to blog~
nt much to blog also actually bah?
mon went to watch dark shadows, not bad.
but i think the chi3 du4 of movies today become wider liao.
PG13 but some sexual scenes. feel so awkward when i know my mentee is beside =X
n had dance! quite cool x) wheee~ but quite hiong also haha.
but likey! mayb later go prac if can haha.

ytd cac day.
today work, den tuition.
tmr same.
initially no tuition but tutee needs help for olympiad.
YES OLYMPIAD.omggggg~
i thought i managed to solved de qn jus now but apparently i didnt manage to! =(
have to go work on the questions now so can teach her tmr =((
aye~
n hope still got de mbs job leh.
but haven receive call till today. n apparently need to go down to sign contract.
if so, i think not much hope le niaz.
sadded =( if nt gd pay leh. haish~

but gt job from 1 to 11 june, wkdays.
work at ntu! higher pay than ritz carlton too haha.
n office job. hehs.
not bad not bad~
see still gt event jobs to accept after that not =)
wheets~!

okays~ tts all~
this wk past rather slowly anyway. hmmmmm~ 9:06 PM

"There's a reason people like you and I find each other.
Maybe it's God, maybe it's fate.
But I know it's not an accident that I found you"

saw the above quote from tumblr =)
once again, love looking at these meaningful quotes =)
truly agree and can understand the phrases =)

watched a.. documentary? 一步一脚印，发现新台湾
its something like singapore's 星期二特写
Always thought it's some boring show.
But today's one, really touched me. cried.
its very touching. so heartwrenching yet so touched.
it's about this 2 little girls, who passed away last year/the year before.
it shows the story of them, how they overcome the challenges of the illnesses.
i think both have cancer. one of them, called Dora, had 7 operations since birth.
her cancerous cells spread from place to place.
she removed her kidney on the 7th operation, bt it doesnt stop.
instead, the cancerous cells spread to her bones.
n this is where the doctor announced that there is no cure. becos there's no way they can remove the bones to stop de cells frm spreading.
n this is when the mother decided to not focus on medication/cure of the illness.
instead, decided to focus on fulfilling her wishes, and do whatever she wants,
let her live the remaining days happily.

another one, called yihua. i dont know if its cancer (i watched halfway)
but she has to have her leg amputated.
despite that, she remained strong. and lived on well after that.
but this is not the end of the sad story.
the medication etc is not working. the gd side effects are not working.

and one day. the mothers gt the news, that they have limited time left..

these 2 girls are very good friends. staying by each other's side during this tough period.
they nv quarrel. if they did, they reconcile after 5sec.
at the last few months of their lives, they get to fulfill alot of their wishes.
including going to beijing for their last performance.

gotta say, its really heartwrenching seeing them say their heartfelt words.
to their family members. to hei ren & fan fan. to each other.
they are really brave girls. braving through this tough battle.
though they didnt survive in the end, they survived through stages by stages.
n they didnt give up. n they face them all, with a smile. with a light heart.
im really impressed by them. n i salute them.
we ought to learn from them, really.

in today's world,many of us are getting to be very not appreciative of life.
n are unable to face the challenges and overcome them.
unable to take these hardship.
little things, and we complain, and find alternatives, such as giving up, or pushing to others.
little things and we break down.
yet this 2 girls are so little, yet they are able to have the courage to brave through all these.
2 words.love life.
smth hei ren and fanfan keeps saying.
and i truly believe in this and feel very much for this now.

we should treasure every single thing/person around us.
we must not take things for granted, and that includes the very basic : good health.
we will nv be thankful for that or appreciate its importance until something happens.
that's human. that's us.
good health. safety in the country. disasters-free. comfy house. our parents. our friends.
all these are things that we tend to take for granted.
n will only regret to cherish when smth happen.
so lets now rmb these, and cherish/treasure them.
dun wait till we lose them, then we know their importance.

tell them you love them, now.
your parents. your family. your friends. your loved one.
i love you dar =) 9:44 AM

"I vow to love you, and no matter what challenges might carry us apart,
we will always find a way back to each other"

"I promise to never forget that this is a once in a lifetime love"

"I vow to fiercely love you in all your forms, now and forever"

"I vow to live within the warmth of your heart, and to always call it home"

THE VOW =))
*hearts* 1:43 PM

a short meet up. about 4h.
had lotsa laughter, had lotsa fun.
nice as usual, with all the nonsenses and funny stuff.
but not forgetting too some sweet moments.
and one photo to keep n rmb that beautiful moment =)

a tinge of sadness as we parted. maybe cos i know the next meetup is about the same.
just a few hours, in another week's time.
but everything will be alright =)

looking forward to the next long day that we can have.
miss u already dear.. 
cant wait for next wkend to come again. but again it'll just be 3 4hrs.
but its ok. at least, we get to meet =)
cant wait to see u again. really~~~ 10:12 PM

wheee~! feel that today's gonna be a good day =)
cant wait for 5plus to come~! gonna meet some1 x)) lalala~
had my first tuition lesson tdy.initially she seemed bored and reluctant to learn much.
but at the back she seemed better already =)
hope my teaching is ok! =X suddenly ask me bio stuff sia. osmosis diffusion etc.
den duno how to answer her haha.
shall read up n tell her next wk!
n i'll needa look for assessment books for her too o.O

wheeets~! =))
mus make tonight another short and nice one hehs x)
gg back to whr we first went!! =D

cwtsu!!!!!!!! *muacks* =P 3:33 PM

能有让时间暂停的魔法，是摄影。
摄影是让瞬间变成永恒的魔法。
Photography is a magic that captures an instant, and transform it into something everlasting.
Photography is a way, that captures the present moment, such that it becomes a moment that will stays with us forever =) 3:43 PM

there is no one couple that has a fully 100% happy relationship
because you need those sadness/challenges to let you appreciate what you have.

but sometimes.. those challenges/sadness can be very overpowering.
n it takes alot of courage and perseverance to go thru them. =(

but even so, i believed they can be solved/eliminated.
dont lose hope; dont give up.
one day, we will get what we want.
everything, will be solved =)

the road is tough.
but with him/her, it makes it a little less tough =)
suddenly i realised, fate isnt really with us recently.
so little time together,with quite some stuff happening.
n u're right. without studies, i tend to think of such things more.
so many things that i wish to do/have, but i cant. n we cant.
boohs~ updated our blog anw. sudden flow of feelings again =X 2:55 PM

Heya~ blogging on phone nw.
Macbook no batt n dun wanna charge n use since its jus gonna be a little while.
So decided nt to on com. N its time i slp soon too. Haha.
What a tired day tdy is!! Worked frm 9 to 9. Siao~ de feet is crazily painful!!
Totally ko-ed by de heels like seriously.
Standing ard 12h w heels is no joke.
Esp when i stood for 10h ytd too.
Goodness~~ legs aching, feet aching more.
I Really feel that i walk w my feet crooked for de last 1h! Freaking pain lor >.<
for once im really scared of heels.
Saw some on de way bac n i feel scared of it hahhaah.
Seriously dun understand how ppl can walk so much in heels! High one someemore!
Act i think i used to be more able to walk in heels.
Bt nw, recent years, nt as much alrdy oops =X
Gd training though. I need to learnt o walk more in heels in order to go out w them.
But uhm... Hahaha.
They r nice bt nt v frenly act~
ai mei jiu shi zhe yang~

Summary of job:
1) ppl are rather nice, most of them ;) de aunties, de girls there.
De managers/captains look fierce bt r quite nice too.
Will ask if we're ok. Will help us girls in heavy stuff

2) food's nt bad. All meals provided.
Didnt spend at all these 2 days haha :)

3) de buffet for de guests were really awesome.
De greatest sadness was really tt we cant take photo of de food.
Its seriously damn nice la! All de tea breaks, lunch n dinner all smells damn gd.
N de dessert ytd was like omg~ super lotsa variety!! N all looks super awesome!!
Today had macaroons for afternoon tea omg~ damn nice pls!!
Sad tt they dun give workers de left overs. If nt damn shiok!! Haha.

4) job nt tt tiring actually. Quite manageable n cool :)
Bt de heels really..

Might or might not work next wk. shall see if there are other jobs first~
okays, shall go slp le! Tired~
n stomach gonna growl alrdy. Ate at 445 liddat tdy. Woops.
Gdnight all~!
tmr meeting dotty, yay!
N its friday alrdy! WKEND!!!! x) 12:29 AM

还记得以前，每当我要放弃时，你就会出现。
你的信息，或某个举动，会又让我赶走要放弃的念头。

我相信现在也一样。
每当我觉得累了，想放下不管时，
我会想起你，想起有你的陪伴， 陪我度过这难关。

所以，我不能放弃。
我要坚持下去，勇敢地应付这艰难的挑战。 10:12 PM

我累了。
physically. cos of work.
stood in heels for 10hours. goodness.
didnt do much. merely standing ard, helping ppl pour coffee/tea.
clearing plates.
arranging cups etc.
but i guess its de heels that killed. n the standing.
thought everything was ok.
but on de way back cant stop yawning. felt real tired.
imagine if i were to work till 9, i would still be on my way home.
fortunately we had more than enough ppl with little jobs so we were asked to go back early =)

this job was actually ok.
considering it.
but was thinking of finding higher pay one.
but shall keep this in mind. whenever i have no job, shall jus call and ask to work =)
can earn money ;)
meanwhile, search for more~

n, im also tired, psychologically.
cos of one stuff.
dun feel like saying here. jus wanna say to the close ones.
currently only told linwan, cos smsing with her.
haish. duno when this thing will be over. tsktsk.
its like some kind of bug that no matter what u do it cant go away. yucks.
n worse, it can change species =X
rarrrrrr.
dun like this. dun like it at all.
always affecting me.
n i think it makes me feel im v petty and selfish. at least, this is what i think.
so. I. DONT. LIKE . =(((

guess i shall turn in early today.
eyes are red cos of the makeup remover i think.
the worst part abt makeup is removing them.
1. after one full day out, u're so tired that u jus wish to bathe n slp.
but u needa remove the makeup >.<
2. the make up mus be removed properly and thoroughly somemore.
im always afraid of no 2, that i didnt remove properly.
esp de eyeliner. n tt explains why my eye will go red =X
makeup is really troublesome.
though it does makes us pretty, i dun wanna wear it all de time.
n im glad some1 dont like me with makeup. if nt having to put on everytime we go out will be crazy~

OKAYS DUN WAN BLOG LIAO.
byebye~
on de side note: its wed le nia. tmr thurs liao.SO FAST~~~ 9:57 PM

so disturbed by that premier pure marketing thingy, that makes me so skeptical about all the jobs available.
as long as they dont state the details, and it mentioned abt flexibility of the job and high pay, im quite skeptical about them.
thank gdness that the guy who contacts me is not one who clings onto me.
i said my parents dont allow n he let me off, i think.
he replied saying he understands and didnt ask me further stuff.
phew.
but im really quite disturbed.
n now thinking thrice before i apply for jobs.
too scary le.
if not because of sinlin,i'll really go n try out this.
cant imagine i even spent time writing out my thoughts cos of this. goodness.
in de end i almost gt scammed.wahhhhhh. cheated max pls!
the thought of it really.. OMG >.< 11:26 PM

Wheeee~ on the way for a swim w est~!
didnt bring earpiece plus needa conserve batt so gt limited stuff to do
Feel like saying stuff bt will be spamming too much on twitter so shall write here :)
Think holi really makes me blog alot haha :)

De sun is so strong!! :(( so gg to apply lotsa sunblock ltr lo.
i dun wanna get tanned! This shall be one of de few times i swim in e morn
Really v long since we said we wanna swim so decided to go w our schedule n choose a morn to swim.
Really hope i wont get tanned!

Tdy's a packed day.
After swimming, go home changed n mus go out again. Meeting yz for lunch.
After tt, interviews. 2. Both event jobs de.
Hope they allow me to have time to consider. So i can choose de better one after hearing out both.
N den at night, dance class~! kinda excited =D
Nt sure hw it'll be, duno if de ppl thr r really beginners lolol.
Hope it'll be fine n fun! :))
Bt think i'll be dead tired at de end of de day haha.

Oh, finally finished roomie's bday card! N settled de present on sat. All done :)
Next is probably elf's.
I really take v long to finish one card sia. Lol.
Bt theirs r special ones uhs. Oh wells. Haha.
Hope can get it done soon, den can give them :)

N oohs. I feel that may will come to an end soon.
This wk, somehw there's stuff everyday again.
Wed thur will be de hotel job which will probably makes me tired. So fri will be to rest.
Next fri event work, to 30th.
Den end of may le! Wahhhh~
June will probably be working month.
Exco work also. Speaking of which i needa start on my cac stuff too.
Had been trying to nt touch it at home. Wanna jus do all de work when i go sch, n dun do them at home =P
Which is y im impressed by my pres n vp but dun wanna be like them.
I think will get super no life =X
N saw de tweets of de female vp.
Felt quite bad.
We were all kinda against her cos she's too strict n make us uper stress
Bt she tweeted all de emo things n what she gt for sacrificing so much =X
Aye i duno wat to say either :(
Its like she's really too demanding bt we do sound abit too over much against her too =X sorry~

Ok looks like i blogged pretty much alrdy.
Reached stadium le. Shall put on sunblock n wait for est! Bye ppl~!
make this wk be a gd one for all x) 8:48 AM

today, a day with mixed feelings.
largely great, a little hiccups towards the night.
but it still ended well =)

shan't say much. all will remain in my heart.
in short - strictly pancakes with asy in de morn - nt bad =)
signed up for studiowu - girls' hiphop x) hope it'll be ok!
went tampines today, explored ikea and de malls.
went singapore flyer's popeyes, see the beautiful scenary of mbs again =)

going to slp le. tired.
doubt im running tmr, feel like i wont have the energy.
oh no, i jus recalled that i shld write a simple card for mummy.
content is more impt. shall jus use a nice card and do so.

words for today..
everybody, has their own type of challenge to overcome.
sometimes, they can be very strong, so strong that you feel like giving up.
but never have those thoughts, at all. never.
everything will be fine in the end. after every storm, there'll be a rainbow.
even if there isn't, the sun will rise again. nt tmr, den de day after. if nt, de day after that.
believe in faith.
believe in yourself.
nv give up.
everything will be ok, everything will be alright.
im here, with you. we'll overcome this obstacle.
mayb, i wont be of much help. mayb, it really depends on yourself.
but rmb, im always here for you. whenever you need me.
n rmb, i need you, to be there for me too.
so i dont.allow.you.to.harbour.those.silly.thoughts. never okays. u heard me.
i need you with me, to work together in building our future =) 
jiayou dear. you can do this. i have faith in u, always. 12:15 AM

SORE THROAT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! =((
partly blaming myself still eating the fried stuff but =XXX haha
but now really pain le nia =(( boohoos~
but on de side note, i love pi pa gao hahaha.
but its nt v effective la~

today is a rather happy day~!
nth much in de morn,jus slacked at home~
then went to borrow some taiwan itinery books!
hope they are useful~
i think they are x)
shall read up on them tmr or on sun and show it to parents x)

watched avengers~!
omg  AWESOMEEEEEE~!!!!!!
thought i wouldn't like it cos i didnt really watch the shows of the characters.
but it turned out rather gd!
very impressed by how they do the movie. seriously.
though i had a small experience at USS that time, this was still too awesome.
too impressed by them.
great job done indeed. the great feedback mus have been a good reward for them =))

thereafter went to meet the other tcb elderly~!
finally stepped into jcube haha.
ok la, nt that bad, but really nth as much too.
smth similar to clementi mall i feel.
hopefully the other shops quickly open and it wont seem that bad.
but erh.. de garden plaza is abit disappointing~~~
nvtheless, awesome time with the peeps x)
round 2 with dearest asy tmr~! x))

oh n today, suddenly all the agents call back -.-
send so many then they didnt get back. n today, ALL CALLED.
one called in de noon, agreed to go down.
another called in de evening, and the 3rd one called while im still on de phone.
so missed de 3rd one.
going down for both interviews on monday.
shall see how it goes. hopefully they can offer good ones.
n for an instance, i really kinda regret gg for the hotel banquet one =(
made me cant go for any job next wk =((
gt urge to nt go but, kena warning that i cannot dont go at the last min if i agreed to work =X
n they got my ic n bank account so.. oh well..
to not spoil my reputation, shall jus go and work~
hopefully one of the job interviews on mon can allow me to work after that! >.<
if nt i'll be rather sad =((
n becos of this job i gotta go get black heels. aye~
shall search for one that i can wear out also. ooh la~

okays~! that's all for today~!
tomorrow will be a gd day~! out with asy for strictly pancakes~!
and possibly meeting some1 x) wheeee~!
n sun gg for dimsum for mother's day celeb~! =D den shopping ard in orchard? x)
the days ahead are going to be awesome~~~ =DDD 11:31 PM

The Vow,

9:11 AM

finally went for my run~!!! 8:54 AM

okays, went for 2 interviews today.
1st is hotel banquet waitress.
2nd is the event helper at MBS.
2nd one intro by linwan, expected will be in.
initially yz supposed to go tgt but she gt another work interview so cant =(
but gt linwan so still nt that bad ba~
and the pay is rather good. though v early and long hours.
but just for 6 days so yups!

as for the first one, abit underpay uhs.
6.50 only. banquet waitress in hotel.
n long hours too. 9 to 9.she kinda use reverse psy to make me work till 9 =X
i was thinking since only 2 days,ok lo..
i think abit sian cos i feel cheated. supposed to go and interview.
but in de end today she kinda make me set a day to come down and work =X
so ya, no choice, next wk gonna go work for 2 days.
shall work and see how it goes first?
decided nt to approach for waitress jobs already. shall work next wk n see how it goes first.
wl say gonna be tiring so.. shall see how!
if ok, den i'll look for other waitress, but mayb 7/h de.

becos of this 2 jobs, i really can only look for event jobs.
for now, 16 17 gone, 25-30 gone. 1-2 cac camp.
so yups. from 21-24, mayb can still go for this hotel job. but then again, see how it goes next week first?
mus see the environment and stuff uhs.
but the hotel really grand la. hopefully the working envt will be ok!
den now, hoping to see if gt those a few days events to work at de lo~

realised alot of waitress wanted.
and also sales/promoters.
not what i wan leh~
saw a few like, 1 month commitment de.
but i can only commit after 2 june, so if i call now abit too early? =X
so actually, still got quite some free days now.
oh well~ really hope gt event jobs popping out!!

n hmm~ think im really gonna go for dance!
but gonna seek for mum's permission again, see if she's ok w me gg.
cos will be spending again =X but will try to earn uhs!
feel bad cos they keep working OT den i keep gg out=X
MORE EVENT JOBS PLSSSSSS~~~~~~

ohoh but i kinda got my tuition job already~! x))
maths and science. needa go read up on them. mayb tmr! =)
before watching avengers w vannie.
actually i hai hao for de movie only leh!
but like, everybody also watch. n all say until so nice haha.
shall go watch also n see how =) better nt waste my money!~ haha.
n tmr meeting tcb oldies~! miss them much~!
gg jcube!!!! first time gg there, woots!
n they got the payless or wat shoe shop, same as what i saw at suntec today!
gt a pair of pumps quite nice!
shall go see tmr =DDD

oh n yes. becos of de hotel job, i needa spend more.
needa buy heels.cos my current one is nt fully covered
just bought a net cos needa bun my hair.
n probably needa buy bronze colour eye shadow also.
needa put on make up leh! =X
but that i decided to ask asy tmr. somehow feel she knows more =)
act was thinking of jus using my current pink/purple one.
dun wanna waste money buying another uhs.
nt that i will use that frequently too.
shall see hw tmr~!

okays, i think my this blog post is v messy.
jumping here n there.
cos somehow i think my thoughts aren't flowing thru too.
aye =X
ok la dun wan blog le =(
byebye~

oh n sad!
some1 gt nights out, but we're each at one end of SG.
so cant meet. aye =((

6:05 PM

LOVES~!!!!!
hearts hearts hearts x)
short & nice call jus now x))

its wednesday~! midnight of wednesday haha.
meeting my girls in less than 12 hours!
EWF, then playnation, then shopping around~! wheeee~! x))
cant wait =D

oh right, reminds me,i wanna write down my schedule~!
give me a moment~
*leaves com*
okies im done~! =D
this wk, kinda packed too. almost everyday got event.

somehow i think de mbs event is fixed,since linwan says gt nth much?
so working frm 25th to 30th! to be confirmed on thurs after the sorta interview.
then received a call for tuition this evening!
bt also nt confirmed yet. say will call me again at night or latest tmr.
hope will call and give me gd news tmr!
i wanna give leh~ near my hse eh! st 41/42!
but then i duno can teach sci not. mus go brush up!
shall spend thurs/fri morn go read or smth if its confirmed =))
n whether its confirmed or not will determine what job i wanna sorta apply for.
cos there is one that called me but i didnt manage to call back cos always engaged.
its another 9days job. which im ok with.
but that will mean i cant give tuition next wk, which is when im supposedly supposed to start.
having agreed to the mbs job alrdy made me cant give tuition on 26th.
so yups. gotta see how~

hope gt more event jobs popping up~! =))
right now, waiting for my phone to be charged full~ if nt tmr out full day =X
but still gt 20% leh~ =((
aye~ still say wanna slp early =X

12:57 AM

aiyo, i said i wanna slp early but im still here.
cannot, mus go slp soon!!!
tmr mus wake up and run! like v long nv run le sia =X woops~~~

today~ went to return hall keys with roomie~!
will miss her~~~ hope we can really stay in touch~!
after that did a short shopping~
met some1 cos holiday in lieu, went imm for a while, diinner at market n home~
decided to watch autumn's concerto among all taiwan dramas
but i haven even finish 1 epi.
was so tired that i slept on de table lolol. couldnt open my eyes~!
tmr gonna be in sch de whole day~ cac stuff~ haha.
i know de girls esp yz gonna say i crazy haha. no choice la~

wed gg playnation w girls! x)
thurs, out with asy?
fri tentatively nth.
sat hopefully out with some1.
sun mothers day =)

I NEEDA WORK =X
jus realised de hotel person did reply me. mayb will call tmr~!
n why tuition so diff to find~~~ =X
dun dare try P6/sec 4,very risky leh~
n that day i went to see A math tb in popular, wah, also worried that i cant rmb sia.
aye~~~
but i duno what to look at when im there.
i think i need to get the tuition first, before i know what i need to focus and read up on.

alrights~! i wan go slp~! tmr shall wake up early for run!

reflection of the day:
maybe its because we lose it before, thats why we have that certain behaviour/thinking now.
because we're afraid of losing it again.
=) this reflection is referring to the qn that i asked u "were u angry with me before?"
same as me, when u feel angry, a while later, u'll feel sad, angry with urself, then forgive/forget etc.
i guess, its because we dun wan this silly thing to make us lose each other =) 
duno why, but im glad we had this feeling. n i hope this will stay forever =) i believe it will~!
n whee~ i like it that we talk about future. though abit scary, knowing how much we need to have =X
save save save~! still have at least 5 years? at least until u come out of uni haha.
we shall eat cheaper food so u can save most of ur current pay, until i earn money when i work =) haha.
jiayou lg~! we can do this haha x)) 12:15 AM

aiyo.
still rmb nt very long ago, i was blogging about how happy i was knowing ppl got tgt.
admiring those who managed to last so long, and feeling happy for them.
yet recently i seemed to see alot of new faces with the boy/girl =X
got to confirmed another similar thing last night again.
a fren who was with his gf for quite long, if im nt wrong 5 yrs or wat.
they broke up. heard that it was somewhere before our exams.
n then he got rather close with another girl of our clique.
erm, real close. like the way he care for her, them sharing dinner, he offering her sweater, studying tgt during exam period etc.
n this morn when she's feeling dizzy he was like, so caring towards her, pulling blanket over her etc.
on one hand, im happy for them cos they look quite gd tgt.
the guy is caring, n de girl is those dependent, weak and need protection kind.
but on the other hand, do feel abit... like what i mentioned in de prev post?
its like, it seemed like he alrdy got over it kind?
we kinda tested them thru the HTHT last night and hmm, seemed like our guess is almost there.
probably they'll get tgt rather quickly o.O
but oh well~ no rights to interfere~
no matter what, wish them all the best.

Realised that i had been blogging quite alot on r/s stuff recently?
duno eh, jus seemed to come across them lorhs.
bt seriously. what happened to this uni fren of mine, really made me ponder over smth.
somehow, the duration of de r/s might not mean anything huhs?
we used to say during 1 of our htht that they r tgt so long le, stable le.
who knows..
will tend to imagine wild and ponder a little over this.
but i guess, i shall not think too much.
all these, are fated. destined.
i always believe in this, that we shld leave everything to fate.
what's meant to be yours, will be yours.
if not, even if you got it, you'll lose it one day.
bt of cos, u mus also learn to treasure it.

the journey is nv easy. so many years, esp if u were to marry the person.
no happiness everyday. there'll be quarrels, unhappiness, emoness, etc etc.
its jus how u deal with them. how you tolerate, accept, compromise, forgive and forget.
thats how u sustain it =)
im looking forward to achieving that =)
sometimes, when i look at other couples' photos, i will wonder.
why is it that they went to so many places, did so many stuff, bt we didnt seem to do so?
makes me kinda wonder what had we really been doing. 
really wanna go and explore all the different places. we mus start on our mission soon okays~~~
though we still have lotsa chances in de future, i wanna start exploring now~!!! 10:54 PM

its rather amazing, or you could say disgusting/puzzling,
to see how ppl can get over a r/s so quickly, n move on to the next soon after.
there are probably some explanations to it.

1) he/she probably dont love that othee party tt much. The love wasnt thr.
So after breaking up, he/she can get over it fast.

2) the other half did smth so bad that one can only hate him/her nw.

3) that person really is fast at recovering. He/she knows tt its over n no use brooding.
Gd ones r waiting in de future so cry n tts it. Enough.

I guess thats what i feel?
But normally, it doesnt take so fast for one to come out of it.
Esp when its one w so much memories.
Well i believe no matter wat, those memories will still be in de heart.
But jus duno how ppl can go into another r/s straight after.
Mayb rebound love. But if tts de case, its gonna be so hurting to tt new partner.

Oh well. We have no position to say anything.
in love, thrs no right or wrong.
As long as both parties r willing, why not.
We wish them all de best :)

Hmm. But smtimes its really sad to know of couples who look gd tt break :(
Hope they really will find de real right one~ 6:03 PM

omg awesome day at zoo today!!!!
a day filled with fun, laughter, tiredness, hahaha.
but it was awesomeeeee~!!!!!!!!! x))))) =DDDDD

at first thought it'll be awkward with xinyan.
but it was kinda ok actually =)
relived our childhood la!!!!! hahhaa.
so long since we'd been to the zoo lolol!
n once we got in, at ard 10plus, we went to catch 3 shows in a row.
n lunch after that.
but in between we got see de animals also luhs.
but this time it wasnt jus seeing animals.
we caught 2 epic moments!!!

1) snake eating rat!
ok firstly, we saw it eating at the top. of the branch. AMAZED. SHOCKED.
THEN!!!!! *BOMPED!!!*
IT TOPPLED DOWN!??!?!?!??!?!??!?!
i think it lost balance. so it totally dropped down onto the ground. WE LITERALLY SCREAMED OKAYS!!!!!!!
hahahhaa i think the scene mus be super funny!!!!!
n den after that we kept loooking at the snakes in that exhibition glass.
saw another eating rat!
in total saw 2!
n the one that toppled down is SUPER DUPER FAT. IT ATE 2 RATS OMGGGGG~
imagine they eat those big white mouse.
n we really see it swallow, n move thru the body YUCKKKKKK!!!!!
but its so damn interesting haahhahah.
we helped them attracted so many ppl to watch it.
wah, really first time!!!

2) tortoises mating!!!!!!
omg this is really damn super epic n funny!!!
initially we jus took photos. there were a couple of ppl there too.
then, we were the last ones there taking the photos of the tortoises.
suddenly, one of it climbed onto the other!!!
we thought they were gonna fight!!!
but then suddenly there is some sound. kept repeating somemore.
then xinyan or somebody asked "is it mating?"
n then the tortoise turned around and ya!!!!!
at first we didn't see anything much.
like jus the sound and the top one keep "climbing/clinging" onto the bottom one.
n it keep drooling LOLOL.
and after that we saw the bottom!!!!
saw the male's part going into the female's part ahhahaha omggggg.
somehow didn't know it worked like humans LOL.
wah totally interesting!
n everybody started crowding over to take videos!!!!!!!
more details pls see de video on fb wahahha omg this is so damn funny.
but so damn cool la!!!
but we literally laughed like mad and this became our topic for de day pls wahahhaha.

ahahha yes those are the 2 main stuff haha.
n then we really finish walking thru de whole zoo haha =)
nice nice =P
n after that went back Lot1 for dinner and we had a long nice chit chat session there haha =)
really really great =))
so far i had really a fulfilling week!!!!! x)))) 11:00 PM

omg. tired.
i wan go slp liao.
tmr gg zoo!
with mic jingyi yunzhong haha.
today went out whole day w linwan =)
nice catchup sessions along de way.
went dhoby and bugis.
spent lotsa money on scrapbook materials,gdness~
i mean cardmaking materials. first time siol.
n settled most presents alrdy.
n that makes me super pok >.<
met est and elf at bugis.
didnt buy any stuff other than people's presents.


okays. u'll realise that my sentences are all v short
cos im really quite tired alrdy.
shall go slp.

haven find job.
abit sad, cos need money.
but then again next wk is kinda packed for me with activities.
so hopefully the person who called me today wont ask me to work next wk.
i wanna go out and play somemore =X
next wk have activities from mon to thurs le leh.
so pls, let me work from de following wk onwards k~~~ 12:18 AM

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