okays..
tmr is o level chinese for HCL sec 3s..
i know i shldn't be here..
BUT..
i jus cant resist =P
ah ya.. jus so no mood for chi can? >.<
but i haf a feeling tmr i'll like, freak or wat =X
boohs!
nvm.. shall do my best x)) i'll still hug to my chinese till i sleep..
at least i try to read right? x)

well.. actually jus wanna say..
im lurving my dear fsmb!!! including my beloved TCB and CLARINET SECTION! x))
thanks ppl.. for standing by my side n cheering me up..
n also assuring me x))
yeahs, im definitely getting better, so dun worry much yaz?
n honestly, i dun realli like de splitting into main band n junior band =X
it's like.. boohs! suddenly nt so fun liao =X
i miss my sec 1 kiddos!!!
but nahminds.. we still haf open hse n saturdays to be together! heex!
n i wanna go out!!! im kinda sick of de studying?
haish. duno how i gonna survive =X
but anyways.. thanks to all for cheering n encouraging me!!!
love ya guys!!!! =D

k la..i gtg..
anws.. jus before i go..
HAPPY BDAE TO AIYIN!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! =D 8:12 PM

thanks to kK, xy n charissa..
well..
yeahs.. hope everything will go fine bahs..
dont worry! i'm getting fine le..
we jus haf to accept everything that comes by n go on with our life huhs? =))
jiayou bahs!!! =D
everything will be fine! =)) 10:19 PM

sometimes i think im so foolish..
still thinking about those stuffs..
sometimes i wish i could forget..
but they just cant seem to get out of my mind..
what can i do?
im tired of these le..
trying so much to forget..
and trying so hard to not think about it..
yet everyday im looking around..
hoping to see that familiar face..
when i see the face, i thought i'll be happy..
but yet it seems that it made me shiver..
it made me so cold.. so worried.. so scared..??

drama serials always show a couple who love each other,
but cant get to see each other, everytime passing by each other..
im afraid this will happen, so i tend to look around everytime.
but yet the more times i see the person, the more im worried.
coz the following word comes to my mind: "有缘无份"..
isn't this more pathetic?
so sometimes i rather we nv meet..
at least..
i duno..

i can jus say. i realli hate that feeling.
but jus glad there are friends around me..
n i have friends that always try to put smiles on my face..
thanks ppl.. 9:41 PM

haish. today is such a sucky day?
not the whole day of coz. but a pissed day for me can?
n for alvin tan too..

i was still angry with the guy in de morning.
n after lunch when i saw him.
n damn pissed n speechless..
who knows at 3 plus, my tears dropped for him.
n i feel so helpless for him. n bu4 zhi2 for him.
it's jus so unfair? there's no need to treat him liddat bahs?
will that bring gd to anyone? no bahs?
i duno la. so sucky.
n i see no need to say it to everybody n like.. discriminate him in front of all people?
have u thought of others' feelings?
haf u thought how will he feel?
n how will we feel?
sometimes it's jus so unreasonable can?
but yet we can do nth, can onli keep silent.
i realli haf nth to say le..
jus hope everything will go fine bahs.

im tired le la can..
sucks.. 9:27 PM

AHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
放羊的星星 rocks!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! =DD
i know mic tan is agreeing with me!!!!!!!!!! heex!!!! x)))
<3 放羊的星星
<3 我们的纪念
<3 仲夏夜之星
<3 仲天骐
<3 夏之星
love them sooooo much!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
im going crazy!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
woohooosss~!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! x))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))

michelle!!!! im going crazy le!!! boohs!!!!!!!! =P!!! 8:54 PM

hmm..
jus read some ppl's bloggie..
saw some "inner" parts of some ppl ya..
suddenly i seemed to understand de real meaning of different categories of ppl..
some, are cold outside, but warm inside.
some, are warm outside,but cold inside.
some both cold,some both warm o.O

i realise alot of ppl are of the 1st and 2nd bahs.
more of 1st?
haish. wanted to say many things..
but..
dont want to rake up again.
boohs!

trying to not think so much of the past.
but it's jus so hard.
this is something i had discovered so far..
it's jus so hard to forget memories, especially those special ones.
n of coz,difficult to forget the special people who made these memories..
sometimes, i may tend to think that if we did not make this memories in de past,
i wont haf such a hard time forgetting it now.
but on de other hand, without these memories,
i will not be who i am now, n i will nv noe the real meaning of happiness.
these memories are jus so precious and beautiful and memorable..
n it definitely includes 2C'06. duno why. =P
this class realli made a great difference in my whole life till now.
the memories of the different events just cant seem to be thrown out of my head.
they are jus so nice and sweet.. still love u guys as much =))
thanks ppl. realli..

n i realise i became very naggy le! =X
duno? but jus seemed that i haf a lot of things to talk o.O
n my hand is injured today! boohs! >.<
i mean,finger..


do u believe in fate?
i think i do.. but i don't know o.O
n u know something?
YOU made a difference in my life =) 9:28 PM

boohs!!!!
today is my first time alone at home!!!! >.<
n something terrible jus happened can?!?!
not jus la, erms.. half n hour b4?
so suckY!!!!

there is a super big bug in my room.
n i mean real big
so damn disgusting!!!!
n i went to take newspaper n slam on it.
i scared it haven die,so i went to step on it.
as in,on de newspaper..
n it's so ...... brrrr.. my hair realli stand luhs!!!
n i went to take up de newspaper.
den got yellow juice come out!!!!
eeeee!!!!!!!!!!!
n coz it's like so fat, so dere's so much juice!!!!!
n it's like,nt dead
so i cover back de newspaper n continue to step
n cont. to shiver >.<

n i duno how m i gonna get rid of it. i tried using de newspaper but duno how
den i went to take de dustbin n shift it inside,but cant.
in de end i took SIX tissues n grab it. n THREE to clean de yellowish juice!!!
today is such a terrible experience la!!!
n i cant stop thinking about it!!!!
esp when i look at that scene!!!!
arghhh!!!!!

BUG SUCKS BIG TIME >.
boohs!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
im worried i cant sleep >.< !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

whole mind thinking about u jus now..
if onli it was in de past... 10:16 PM

boohs!
ignore my last post bahs..
it's jus.. i duno =X

but my instinct seems to tell me smth is going wrong..
very wrong.. but i duno wat is it..
=X
jus hope everything goes fine bahs..

anw.. today had movie marathon with tcb x)
watched 3 movies..
mr bean holiday, the littleman and click x))
heh hehs~
n we gobbled lotsa tidbits =X oops =P

nice though! hahas..
im lookin forward to sentosa again!!!
geex! =D
lurved tcb~! x)))

hmm hmm..
n morning went to lib with kailin..
found some bakery books..
interesting! but doesn't seem very easy o.O
somehow it looks easy,but somehow no? =X blahs!
no. 1 i need oven..
baking de..
n next,i need to haf a shop dat definitely haf all de ingredients =P
n no. 3 i need my aunt or any other helper o.O
my mum cant read eng,sadded,so cant help.
so my aunt is a great help! =D but duno when den can ask her come down =((
but it realli looks interesting!
kailin had brought me into this >.< =D
im looking forward to cooking n baking n wateva!
im becoming a kitchen lady.. muahahas =P
lalas~
it's gonna be fun!!!
if i haf all de stuff =X shall see if i can ask my mum to buy x))

k la.. that's all.
n i've done all my work! lalas..
now off to watch my lucky star!!! =DD

tatas~

oh yeahs.. bought a converse bag x) thanks to daddy!!! =D


taggie replies:

alvin : ya blah >.< but thanks x))

weijie: hey thanks too! hahas.. x)) i wan outing sooon`!!!! sentosa!!!! =D

wanlin: did i put ur name? o.O i forgotten =P hahas =D 8:54 PM

honestly..
i realli feel very confused..
my mind is full of so many different things..
i felt so lost..

some things.. it's over..
but we jus cant stop brooding over them..
it's jus like..
i duno..
but i feel.. it's jus like a joke u noe?
1 moment u can be laughing at some1 who is so stupid doing that.
and another moment u might be the 2nd stupid person doing de same thing.
i mean. u dun even noe that.. can u believe it?
it's jus so unpredictable?

n yes.. life is jus so fragile.
not onli de life as in de one that might becomes death de next moment,
but de whole life journey im talking about here..
jus like de chi saying, ren sheng ru xi, xi ru ren sheng..
a life is like a drama, and a drama is like a life..
it's like.. there r some things we always thought u will nt happen..
but it happened in real life..
sometimes i realli wonder wat if de drama realli happened in real life?
now i hoped that wat is happening to me now is a drama..
or rather,is like de drama..
at least, i feel some ease..
at least, i dont feel that it's so cruel after all..

suddenly im back to de emo me..
thinking of so many things.
be it de relationship. de kinship. n de thinkings of people.
i mean, life is jus so fragile. so cruel at times. so hurting.
n yes,i do agree that life is unfair.
sometimes i feel that im jus too fortunate.
too fortunate till im too spoilt.
too spoilt till im too arrogant.
i duno..
but it's like.. i think im realli much more fortunate compared to many others.
i have caring parents, who spent so much money on me.
but i feel so unfilial. coz i kept spending their money.
i rather im those who r poor, n noes how to nt spend money.
like this, perhaps i wont haf de feeling i haf now.
i feel so unfilial. i dont seem to appreciate them as much as i expected to.
i gave them black face. i ignore them. i talk back to them. i gave them attitudes.
it's jus so sucky. at this point i realli do hate myself.
but i duno why, sometimes it's jus difficult to change de attitude.

looking at others, they haf such sad family..
their parents dun communicate well..
they dun haf a nice family to talk to, to chat with, to play with..
they dun haf a good home environment,that they can call a home sweet home..
some haf good parents, but their family is poor.
they gotta save here n there and cant eat those wonderful food..
some haf a ok family condition, with more than enough savings..
but the parents cant communicate well.. quarrels are almost there everyday..

it's like.. for de 2nd case.. can de parents think for the kids?
i mean.. i still think it's so painful for kids to bear those pain.
they r still undergoing sch life.. which is so stressful.
n yet u guys are quarrelling and nt being able to give them a peaceful place..
do u noe how we kids realli feel?
it's like.. it's so stressful in sch, n when we reach home,
most of us would expect a nice environment to rest, and can chat de problems with parents..
but u guys spoil these dreams of us children.. u noe how it feels?
n when we cant score well,u guys scold us.
can u think back, who is de one who didn't gave us chance to study well?

n some parents jus scold their kids for nth.
jus becoz they cant do well. i mean,wat's this?
some ppl jus cant study,wat do u wan?
u cant force them? everybody has their own goods in different places..
wat's de use of forcing them if they cant do it?

sorry if im getting too agitated.
jus heard some cases n im getting so sick of it.
im glad i haf gd parents,but i realli feel sad when i see others like that..

n anw.
thanks to all frens out there.
michelle,asyikin,jr,alvin,wanlin,kailin,esther,jingyu and many more..
not forgetting de 2C peeps last year.
u guys realli make a difference in my life..
n also TCB and band mates..
u guys realli brought laughters and smiles onto me =))
thanks ppl.. i realli appreciate u guys..
<3 10:35 PM

YAY`!!!!
OVER OVER OVER~!!!!!
x))
but then smth weird.. coz we didn't shout out loud or wat o.O
mayb coz other classes having exam bah? o.O
BUT I WENT SHOPPING TODAY~!!!!!!!
MUAHAHAS!
heeheex
so shuang can.
although onli me n kl =X
but still nice!!! coz we bought things! hahas..
i bought 2 shirts, 3 pairs of earrings n 1 book x))
gonna start reading de book. it seems nice! x)
kl also bought 2 shirts.. she spent less than me alot =XXX
coz she cant find de one she likes..

we went to novena, den to amk, den to marina sq..
shopping jus rocks~! x)))
i wan MORREEEEEEEEE =D

n im supposed to be sleeping now by right la.
but im losing de mood =X
weird!
n im worried i'll be tired tmr..
awws =X
but nahminds~
after tmr, i shall go shopping again on sat with parents x)
if can,i'll look out for a bag!!! =D
de converse 1.. if it still makes me crazy..
if nt i shall nt buy x))

n i wanna buy more music books! as in those pop songs de..
shall go check it out x))
n mon mayb going out with tcb! hahs.
SHOPPING =P that's what me n asyikin plan la =P

lalalallalas~~~
n BAND IS STARTING!
YAYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYY
YIPEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE
x)))))))))))))))))))))))))))))


k la~ shan't upload anymore.. BYEEEEEE
ENJOY SHOPPING SPREEEEE~!!!!!!!!!! X)))))))))))))


tag reply:
guin: toad guin~!!!! yeah yeah,miss ya la x)) but i miss ms chong more.. hahas =P yeahs! it's starting soon le! weeeeeh~!!!!!! looking forward to wed!!!! x)))))) smoochesss~~~~~~ 10:39 PM

ONE MORE DAY!!!!!!!!!!!!!
today is de best~!!!!
coz no need to memo anything x))))))
as long as dun need to memo, im HAPPY x))))
n tmr's A maths!!!!
ms yeo say muz SCORE o.O
didn't do well for emaths,so shall try to score for a maths x))
cannot dui bu qi miss yeo =D hehs~

tmr shall be de best day !!!!!
becoz it's de LAST DAY of EOY.
n it's de START of FREEDOM plus SHOPPING for this year!!!!!!!!
until de end of this year.
n until de TERROR starts AGAIN next year =X
but who cares?!?!?!
im gonna enjoy myself first x))
it's time to reward myself with shopping!
for getting down and revising so long these weeks..
n nt going shopping >.<
woohoos~!
n i wanna cut hair!!!
i duno wat to buy though, but i jus wanna go shop n shop n shop!!!!!!!!!
GEEX!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
N BAND!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
miss de kiddos~
miss de gang~
miss de playing~
de musiC~
de conductress~
de BAND!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
<3<3<3!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

ok la.. still cannot slack all de way..
later too relax till tmr flunk how =X
promise miss yeo muz score x)) so muz gambatte =)))
chiong arhs~! x))



taggie replies [sorry for de super late reply!]:
chingyee: thanks! u also takkaires n jiayou~! x))

aiyin: hahas~ okays! guai!!! x))) i look forward to see u all soon`!!! woots!~~!!

jazz: coz EOY mahs x) now update le lops~ x) miss ya~!!!

huini: heya~! x)))


tatas~! x)
p.s.: memories are jus so nice,aren't they? =))


i noe it's over le..
but it's jus so hard..
so hard to get rid of u... 1:24 PM

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