Omg, today had PE,then went for standing broad jump practise..
i very lan mah,so went for the lousy ppl that side..
then mr yeo teach the few of us the actual way..
but i failed to do so la.. so, hope i will still pass..
then today, hmm... nth much to say actually..
nothing special happened..
we took band photo lar.. then,ya,like that..
hmm.. i realise nth happen sia!
then dun wanna talk le..

i realise something..
i think, he noes about it...
he noes i have feelings for him..
he came online and told me 1 sentence:
some things are impossible,some things cannot be forced.. u noe wat i mean.. the forbidden word on ur display pic...
my display pic is a love... u think, has he known about it?
yeps,i think so... and, he had told me the answer...
my heart breaks... my heart realli hurts... alot...
but it's good.. i noe his answer... mayb,i can give up..
but i think everybody noes.. it's easy to like a person..but to forget this love,it's difficult..
i wish i can do it.. but... haiz... i duno...
mayb, let some other ppl touched my heart bah..
make me touched... and mayb,i'll forget my love for him..
and, be normal frens... or mayb, best frens... but, no love...

So, today, is not a gd day?
becoz i suffered 2 pains..
1 is leg pain, 1 is heart pain...
haiz... ppl , have to learn to take and give up...
since i haf no chance,i should give up early..
i noe, his heart,onli has her...
love cannot be forced.. he dont love me, he is not at fault..
dun worry,i understand this point..
i'm not those that will stick to u until u say u love me or wat..
wish u happiness... rmb,i will be there for u, like u will be there for me..
let's help each other in anything.. frenz foreva..
okiex,stop here.. love yaz.. 10:59 PM

suddenly, i felt that this blog suits me...
ytd, i kinda hate him..
nono,is the day b4... for wateva he did..
he made me cry, and realli cried alot...
my heart hurts alot upon hearing wat he said..
he say his heart hurts too,and will be there for me..
will this be true? will he realli be there for me always?
i hope so bahx..
haiz... today, we 2 nv talk to each other..
i felt like talking to him, but i told myself,i hate him..
until i received a letter which he passed to me thru a classmate..
i read it, and i m touched..
i am realli realli touched by that letter..
although the handwriting is a little ugly la..
but, it's still quite meaningful for me...
thanks... i appreciate it..
however,i dun haf a great day today, for i didn't talk to u the whole day..
it's kinda weird, becoz normally we will always talk to each other and quarrel..
i hope you've read my letter, and is willing to agree to the request..
i duno if i had realli fallen in love with u, but i think so..
is this realli love?
this is the first time, the realli first time i ever cried for a guy...
not those, onli 1 drop or 2 drop of tears, or forcing the tears out..
i realli cried naturally, the tears dropped none stop..
i noe u like her, but... have u changed target?
i'm happi u chose to tell me the secret,but my heart hurts actually..
jus that, i didn't let it appear out on my face...
i dun like her, honestly.. i realli feel that, she is using way to ......
i dun wanna say out, everybody noes about this...
anywayz, i jus wanna let u noe, i dun hate u anymore..
listen to the song, it's like my feeling..
hopefully,tmr, we will be back like last time,at least, like last time...
how i wish... i realli wished to tell u my feelings..
but, i dun dare... i jus hope, u could have a little more feelings than jus normal frens..
at least,let me be ur real close fren... closer than any other gurl.. can u make this real?
i jus wanna tell u... i think, i realli like u...
mayb love, is a kinda too strong for this feeling... mayb, i will change my feelings towards u..
from like to love... will this happen? i dont know...
but i believe,it will onli happen,if we're back to the past..love yaz... 11:35 PM

today, our class had a blackout..
the onli class.. very lucky yea??
at first, we tot we can change to ava room for lesson..
well, jus a wish of thinking..
we onli shifted to the commerce room at 3rd level..
even so, it is better than the classroom, becoz it's a little more breezy...
the timetable changed, so we did quite little in D&T today...
why? becoz none of us brought our textbook..
well,a pity ! but nvm ..
haiz... for chinese, i had became the so called, rep for this semester..
coz the first semester de rep, geejing,is tired.. hahaz..
so our kind teacher, changed a person...
well,hopefully i can still cope.. which i'm worried i cant...
at first,we have to present tmr,but due to the sudden band practise, we went to look for teacher..
and she said now, everybody dun haf to present,jus hand in the grp mindmap..
phew~ at least it's shorten down... heng sia!
then after lesson, i came back for my organ lesson...
i reached home at about 2, and was having my lunch when about 2.10,my teacher arrived.
i haven finish eating!
but if i leave it there, she saw it,she might ask me to continue to eat first
then very paiseh right? so i quickly shifted to the kitchen,
wah seh... scary sia!
luckily i nv eat thing until whole mouth oso have..hahaz..
after lesson neh, i quickly take things then rush to sch for band..
very busy hor? then neh, i checked if the band office is open..
phew,it is..so i went in to prepare my clarinet b4 going into the ava room..
when i was going in, so quiet,becoz ms tan is saying something..
so i quickly sat down, from 1 sit, change to the sit beside,then change to another sit that is in the middle.. after that i sat in front with the 2nd clarinet, coz for blue ridge,i took the 2nd clarinet de
then sec 1s have to play blue ridge first 19 bars mah..
then after band rena told me n alvin we played very nicely..
aww~so happi!
oh yea,today is oso rena's birthday wor!
Hahaz... i said alot of happi burfdae to her liao.. kekex.. see? i so gd ;)
love today's band.. nono,i love band alot esp. when we r playing with seniors..
coz some of the songs are realli nice... then some we can play de,very fun n nice..
love it! shitian says she is gonna print for me the pieces,yay!!
shiok nehx! can play next time ler...
okok,stopping here.. love yaz... 10:46 PM

how can he do this?!
ytd and today,u keep saying our family wont last..
why? why cant u jus wished that we would,and treasure the family?
ytd,i tot u're jus being crazy,i dun care about u..
today,u came to talk to me..
i wanna ignore again,but u said,our family shouldn't exists in the first place..
wat is it? u mean, u wanna dun care us,u wanna leave?
u realli wan us to break so much?
i'm realli angry,and i said " if u wanna quit,quit then!"
becoz ur words.. realli gave me a feeling,that u dun like us anymore..
and u said " ok,i quit! "
u realli quit? fine!
i duno why u wanna break off,but let me tell u!
without u, 1C family will survive on!
as 1 of the member,i will nv,ever, let this break!
i realli duno why u did this..
u guys dun believe on this thing,but we gurls realli do!
we find this fun, and wanted this family to hang on..
now,u told me we will be crying in agony when the family breakks..
but u noe wat? i onli think, the family breaks becoz of u!
n now i'm already crying,becoz our family lost 1 member...
fine... 1C family has no longer dad..
1C members, sisters and brothers..
now, we r independent..
we r orphans,without dad and mum..
although i'm not the eldest,i will try my best to take care of u guys..
trust me...
lao ba, this is the last time i'm calling u this le..
i will show u,without u, we can still survive..
dun regret,and be careful,i will not talk to u,mayb...
since u want this to happen, i wont say anything..
jus rmb,dun regret,when i noe u wont..
i knew it b4 hand, u will not be with us,the moment we get back to sch..
and now b4 sch,u wanted to end all this.. is this fair?
nvm.. since u like it,up to u..
i wont care about u anymore..
never ever..
ended with tears,love yaz.. 12:09 AM

yea~ 1C rocks! hahaz... written by jeslyn.. wootx! I saw somebody behind there! er... 
12:19 PM

2C rocks? But i'm not from 2C! oh,it'll be our future class,jeslyn says.. well,this is written by jeslyn again =D 
12:18 PM

eh? wat is alvin writing? let me tell u.. he's writing : alvin love jane.. romantic eh? pity our female lead is not here! 
12:17 PM

ya ha! 1C family rocks! heeheex =D 
12:16 PM

the 3 juniors,the 3 clarinetists, the 3 sec 1 fellows..jean! why r u smiling until so mian qiang again? 
12:15 PM

mabel,ivy,rena,seklin. looks like,onli ivy and rena is looking here! mabel, where r u looking and seklin, why close ur eyes?! 
12:14 PM

ivy,rena and seklin.. duno who took it using my cam,but i dont mind la,becoz it's 3 pretty ladies! 
12:13 PM

jeslyn,me,jean,mabel,alvin.. the 5 clarinetists on that day.. we rocks! jean, why with that face? spoil de pic neh! 
12:11 PM

hahaz.. the 3 of us.. i'm boxing alvin, alvin stab himself, jean shooting him.. cool! hahaz.. 
12:09 PM

cynthia and yiling, burying alvin,and if im not wrong, alvin's still laughing away? so,he likes to be buried! 
12:07 PM

hey.. de seniors helping to bury alvin... omg.. someone is helping alvin to make his b____ [dun dare to say out =P] and i caught it! *shy* 
12:06 PM

wootx! alvin in de sand! wait... let me see clearly.. oMg!! alvin! when did u... u... change sex?! 
12:04 PM

alvin getting up from his coffin.. er, wat's that stick? 
12:02 PM

this is alvin when he jus came out of his "sand coffin" hahaz... oOhs, a chio gurl is behind wor (it's xiaorena if im not wrong =P) 
12:02 PM

took this when mabel is not realli prepared? mabel,why r u scratching ur head? who is rena talking to? kk?! r u trying to kick emily?! wat about alvin? looking at himself? zi lian kuang 
12:00 PM

Jeslyn: Cheez! She told me that i should feel honoured,becoz this is the first time she's willing to let ppl take her photo so automatically..hahaz.. Er... the 2 behind.. so weird eh? 
11:57 AM

Mabel! Heeheex.. so kawaii neh! but hey, open ur eyes? 
11:56 AM

Geex! My dearest 2 chio and cute de clarinet seniors. Both oso SL neh! =D Love u 2 to the core! Rock On! 
11:54 AM

hmm,let me continue =D
well,i stopped at,i'm being pushed inside for the 2nd time..
but i managed to control myself,hahaz..
but this time not fun,onli me n jeslyn went into water.. so we came up quite fast.. after that, we jus play along de water nor..
i was looking for seashells and picking them.. some are so nice!
then alvin say he wanna go to another end,whr we have to cross a bridge lar..
at first me n jean didn't go over.. after some time, we still went over..
jeslyn and helena sat on the rocks..
then me n jean climbed up,with cynthia who is oso doing so..
but it's not easy.. alvin is helping us, but u have to be fast..
and daring oso.. but i dun dare.. so, we had a hard time.. and i'm so worried,that i'll drop down..
so i stayed there, and sit down,whereas alvin went down and showed me a water snail..
hahaz,so cute leh!then alvin threw it down into the sea..
heard that there are crabs,but i didn't manage to see them,so sad..
after a while, we went down, took our clothes and went to take our bath..
i wanted to go back and take my slippers,but they say the others bringing over de things over..
but i dun believe, so wanted to go back, but saw alvin they all coming,so went back again..
after that, we sat mrt to jp, and then went for dinner..
nono,before that, we went to the words "siloso" and took pictures there..
then we went back to jp and settle down at pizzahut
we divide ourselves... my grp sitting arrangement is:
seklin rena cynthia helena
alvin me jean jeslyn

we ordered a whole meal set, then everybody paid $8.50..
hmm,nice meal.. the seniors treeat us very well =D
we spent a long time calculating the money.. hahz..
then when that kk leaving,he pointed to me n alvin,saying we nv say gd bye to him..
at first i wanna say and wave,but then he talking,so i put my hand there,then when he wave,i oso wave
then he duno say wat,forget liao =P
after leaving the shop leh, we wanted to take 157 with jeslyn la..
but 198 came first,so she called us to board the bus..
and we left her alone,soo she bu de..
we chatted a while on the bus,then i alight first, and went back with my mum..
wow,a great day! first time update so long seh.. hahaz..
ok,today... nth happen actually..
stupid leh,actually going to library do project,but that stupid library nv open..
we wasted our time there le lor..
haiz~ stupid sia.. duno how to tell teacher...
2 more days le leh!!! so sad!!! i want my holidays!! wahhh!!!!
hmphf! so sad.. nvm lar.. no choice.. ok,shall stop here.. i will update my pics if i can..
bye bye.. love yaz 8:34 PM

yoz! hahaz.. ytd nv update.. coz no time.. very tired,so went to sleep.. let me update today to make up for ytd de...
wow,ytd, a great day! lurve it!
hmm,got this number from de seniors : 220605
noe wat is it? hahaz.. ytd de date lar...
muz rmb this day... nono,will rmb this day.. hahaz..
it's realli a great fun!
went to sentosa with alvin,jean and seniors..
the seniors r: jeslyn,mabel,rena,seklin,kokkeong,yiling,ivy,helena,cynthia,victor,qt ah? think so..
then still got emily,xiao rena and her bf, that's all issit? forget ler =P nvm lar,heeheex..
first time went to siloso beach,realli!
everytime go sentosa nv go dere de.. then first time go beach n play..
the water is damn salty de!!! disgusting!
then first time went down,the senior push me,then drop into de water..
water went into my nose,then the whole mouth got the water..
eeew! damn disgusting coz realli very salty.. dun wanna eat salt le =P
well,later i will update de pictures.. not alot lar..
ok,let me start from our journey..
firstly,in the morning,i wake up at 7,awoken by my mum.. then she go work..
i on com coz boring,then chat a while with jeslyn n kk.
around 7.30,went out to meet with alvin n jean for breakfast..
after that we walked to lakeside mrt and took mrt to JE interchange..
at first we waited at the 2nd story de control station,then 1 senior come, call us to go up..
indeed,all de seniors upstairs,then we like,very gan ga,so we stayed there..
after that jeslyn came up to us and pull us there..
train came,we boarded it.. no place to sit,nvm,stand..
then that senior,onli noe her last name is tong =P
frenchhorn de.. she,me jean n alvin started with our lame jokes n riddles..
then jeslyn came in.. real lame.. but it's very fun =D
after a long journey *actually not that long la =P* we changed mrt to harbourfront.
at first a bit blur blur,duno walk whr.. hahaz.. but nvm lar.. still got there anyway..
when reach harbourfront neh, jeslyn wanna go walk there,but the others wanna take bus
in the end,still sit shuttlebus,but then,b4 that,we went to buy things.. food i mean..
after that nehx... we sit shuttlebus there,reached liao,we go to siloso beach straight away,found a shade n settle down..
after everything put down,settled,we proceeded to the sea!
at first nobody go down,then i very sad,coz i wanna play with water..
slowly,they begin to get close to the water =P
rena was the first to get wet.. then slowly,1 by 1,get wet..
in the end all started playing in water.. shiok sia..
alvin siao de.. wear jeans n sport shoes come,so he changed into shorts,then naked the upper body..
hahaz.. dun xiang wai wai.. then he swim swim swim.. hao lian..hahaz..jkjk..
then duno why suddenly lar,they started to bury alvin in the sand..
not onli that,they oso changed him into a lady..
nono,upper body is lady,lower body is guy.. hahaz.. dun get my meaning? forget it =P
after that continue to play a while,then we took photos oso...
around 12 like that, we went to wash up,then go and eat at sakae sushi..
nice,but then not cheap nehx.. actually everybody onli needa pay less than $10..
but becoz of the stupid service charge lor.. they onli come,take order,go away nia..
then the service charge is charged as 10% of de total.. siao !
forget it.. but it's nice.. actually wanted to have de sushi buffet de,budden it's at 3 ..
and we all too hungry liao,so no choice.. have to eat nor..
after eating,we went back to beach,then we played volleyball..
i didn't play lar,coz dun realli noe..then later very paiseh..
then me n jean sit down,then i started to go and pick seashells..
i realise got alot of seashells leh! jus that alot is broken ler..
got some realli very nice.. and i collected alot..
jeslyn collected some too.. and she gave me.. so sweet of her =D
then i forget somehow, jeslyn pulled me inside,then wanted me to play..
think alvin started.. he came to ask me,then i say i dun wanna plaay
then jeslyn came and pull me in,ask me to start de ball..
i keep rejecting,but nobody wanna take de ball.. then i very scared i play very lan mah..
but nobody wanna take the ball neh..
rena then started to shout xiaoqian, then clap clap clap.. like a cheer like that
then kokkeong n qt started to clap together..
then i tried,and hit the ball, haiz~ fail.. nv over net..
but jeslyn said something encouraging " very gd leh! first ball already so good. jia you! "
heex.. but i still psps lar =P
after playing,they go ride bicycle.. so sad,i duno how to ride *shame*
so wat? duno how to ride then duno lor.. nth to shame,hmphf *proud*
hahaz... lamer.. then at first they wanted to have a 2 person bike,then me n alvin together
but duno which senior say the 2 person muz be can ride de.. so i say,forget it..
then at first they ride,i wanted to follow,but they went faster n faster..
so i thought,forget it, i walk slowly.. and wanted to follow de same route..
but walk n walk,realise then no matter how long i walk,still cannot see them..
so i decided to u-turn.. then i duno wat to do,so listen to my hp de songs...
then i duno wanna go back to beach neh? or go and continue to "chase" after them..
i go back to beach,i saw that xiao rena with her bf, then dun dare to stay,so walk away..
as i was walking,saw alvin de bike,he said some1 fainted,then i quickly walk.. i tot very near mah.
who knows, palawan beach is beside tanjong beach (i think) and tanjong beach is beside siloso.
so,meaning,i have to walk 2 beach like that.. diao~ then i duno leh.. i jus walk walk walk..
then half walk half run.. in the end, i stomach pain.. haiz~
then i go there,nth liao.. so u-turn again,go back..
they call me sit tram with kk,but i dun wan, later nth to talk,hahaz..
then i walk walk walk lor..
jeslyn came up later.. she shouted me,so i stopped,and waited for her..
then she ran to me and ask me why i walk alone,then i say nth lar..
after that we 2 walk together.. so romantic.. jealous?
hahaz.. jkjk.. she got lover de.. real n fake oso have..haha..
after our romantic walk,we went back to the beach,and started walking near the sea there..
coz more fun to walk,and more smooth..
then we walked on the water,cooling cooling de.. very shiok..
when we reached our destination,put down our things and went into water again..
i'm pushed in again,thank god,i nv fall into the water ..
i managed to control myself..
okok,i think i stop here.. becoz i wanna watch show liaoz..
continue de rest tmr.. takkaires.. love yaz.. 10:26 PM

stupid lar! jus becoz of 1 stupid hp bill, i so called, quarrel with my mum..
actually not counted as quarrel lor..
jus that these few months,always got something that costs $60 ..
then my parents' fren go n call,they say i dl things.. but the thing is, i tried out 1 month without downloading ANYTHING...
in the end? it's still there..
then my mum was like, saying that my frens use my hp n dl..
then i say, cant be.. coz if they dl,sure in my phone de mah..
then they somehow dun understand, ask me " why cannot? "
so i explain lor " if they dl confirm in my hp right? "
is like, i a bit bu shuang lar,coz how can they anyhow say my frens?
but i nv like, express, jus nv talk..
then they ask if i'm angry.. ok,i say i nv..
night,i go to my room.. my mum came in..
she asked " u angry har? " i jus say " mei you ah (dun haf) "
then i nv face her or wat lar,coz i duno wat to do mah..
then she suddenly stomp lor.. then she walked out,and banged the door..
then i heard her telling my dad " say her then she bu shuang"
but it's that, they yuan wang me n my frens mah!
stupid lor! fine lar, i dun dl things le la!
feel like crying now lar! everytime oso like that de..
i wanna apologize oso wat,but can i?
i'm that kind that cannot say sorry de... i cant say out de mah..
wat she expect me to do? i oso dun wan like that..
still rmb the past when i'm young,i dun dare to say,then i pasted notes everywhere,writing "sorry mum,plz forgive me"
then she nv talk,then i oso dun dare to open mouth...
they want me to change phone,but i dun wan! it's like, wat the...
very troublesome lor de thing is..
then later ppl keep sending wrong,i keep calling wrong...
then if i dun say later she bu shuang again...
i oso feeling bad de lor...
ai ya,forget it lar... everytime oso like that...
hope it wont be serious can liao...
bad mood now lor.. becoz of 1 telephone bill... stupid..
kk, stop here, love yaz.. 10:51 PM

Heyz... know wat?
I'm getting to hate her more and more...
And now,add 1 more, Him...
I realli duno why,but i hate them,realli have reasons..
she is realli getting worse and worse each day ler...
getting more and more BL... duno wat is BL ah? nvm lar...
this is a short form i made myself,coz i dun feel like saying it out...
and u noe? the 2 of them are damn tut de...
sometimes,the way i speak,is damn obvious that i'm bu shuang..
but they,can jus continue to joke...
esp when chatting online, the way i type,is that kind of,realli bu shuang de attitude...
but they can realli treat it like,nothing..
i realli started to hate them... am i getting,real,cruel?
ai ya,i duno larx... i'm very confused... and now,stressed...
actually,the chinese novel thingy,we thought our teacher very kind...
who knows,now,she wants us to read at least 1/3 of the novel..
and still do a ppt presentation or, a mindmap...
this time,i m realli tired... i think,i'll prefer mind map bahx...
haiz,i duno lar.. but my members,sure not gonna do anything de...
haiz... how? i oso duno...
but noe wat? i realli getting to hate my frens...
slowly, one by one...
i thought of something 1 day...
wat if,i realli hate these frens,and 1 day,i joined to be ah lian?
will this happen? as in, join in,to agitate my frens...
i think, it wont happen.. coz i still dun think, my heart,my mind is like that..
well,sincerely,hope that nothing will happen...
why... why muz so many things happen...
every year,every single year,i will sure meet up with a frenship problem...
i always think,i'm too over sensitive...
but at times,i'm realli not...
this,is the first time... the real first time..
i hate my frens... i hate them to a maximum...
some of her behaviours,make me think that, having this fren,is so embarrassing...
and it's true... they do make me feel very embarrassing...
him, making me feel that,he's realli disgusting, and stupid idiot...
well, i think, some of my frens, may have looked at this...
and,have a great change on me... thinking that i'm not wat i am...
well... i oso duno... hopefully,i'm still the original me...
that's all for today... take carex my bloggiie... love yaz... 12:29 AM

Haiz~ Nowadays,getting more and more bad-tempered ler...
Esp. today, damn no mood suddenly in the afternoon...
I oso duno why.. from this afternoon till home,totally no mood...
dun feel like talking to ppl,and honestly here,i suddenly dun wanna talk to alvin and jean..
i realli duno why.. feel so irritated...
my problem,i know.. but i was ok when we're having lunch together with seniors..
we were shopping happily in JP,but suddenly,i duno why, my mood changes..
i suddenly dun feel like talking,and suddenly like, felt that they r so irritating..
i know this shouldn't be wat i'm suppose to feel,but... i cant control..
I realli duno wat happen to me.. sometimes,i will hate some ppl..
hate them for? hate them for being so irritating,so lame,so bo liao, so stupid idiot, so kaypoh..
I realli do think this way.. why? i oso duno..
i'm getting real bad tempered ler.. i felt as if,i'm gonna change...
gonna change into 1 person that is completely not me at all..
Haiz,i duno lar... depends bah.. mayb,all becoz of stress... hw stress...
ytd,i cant get to sleep.. then i was thinking of my hw... my project, chinese and china project..
both,haven started.. duno wat to do.. haish~ left 1 week.. how much can we do?
feel like telling our chinese teacher to cancel this project... at least let us have a breath...
but anyway,guys,forgive me if i show u bad temper, forgive me if i gave u a cold look...
i'm not in gd temper nowadays,so sorry...
But today, actually the band is gonna watch a movie called the phantom of the opera
but ms lai lor, duno say wat,then nv watch ler..
then this sat, we sec 1s oso not going for the charity thingy..
so sad sia... when she say we can go,we so excited.. now we cant go,sad..
but after band, clarinet section went to have lunch together,but not all lops..
then after that, alvin,me and jean went to JP with LiPing,ChiaLi,Jazzrel and Amanda..
we had quite a fun there lar,but sort of,met a gang of gangsters,then we're like,all so afraid..
the seniors are very worried about us...
hmm,so touched...tmr having organ lesson lerx..
haiz, finally.. long time nv have lesson,miss my miss tan,hahaz...
kk,shall stop here.. once again,sorry to my frens and forgive me..
take carez,love yaz... 10:54 PM

hi everyone.. mayb u saw the entry i post earlier on..
yep,it's by me.. i duno why i wrote that,but it jus came out from my heart..
and it's true,and realli,dun ask me who m i refering to..
coz it's impossible for me to say out, as i dun wanna hurt anybody.. and i mean, anybody..
well, u can see,i changed my way of writing? coz i realise,writing in a big para,seems ugly..
so,i decided to break them into sentence by sentence..
i think,it looks nicer =D
well, today, alvin and i went to FIR auto session..
we got 1 extra ticket each,but nobody else have the album..
so,that ticket is wasted..
i went there at about 1 plus,and i saw quite a few ppl queuing up..
so,i went in and "booked" a place..
after a while,alvin arrived with my lunchie..
i'm worried he cant come in,coz if he cant come in, i will be so helpless with my hw all not done..
and i will be so helpless with no food to fill up my empty stomach...
luckily,he managed to came in, phew~!
at around 4, the officers led us into lines to stand..
we're in the first column! i mean first column,but not first line..
hmm,we're around the 4-5th line bahx i think.. but when FIR came,a little changed took place.
we moved a little bit infront and took damn lot of pics (me)
then we sang together with FIR alot of songs..
Qian Nian Zhi Lian, Wu Xian, Love *3, Lydia, ba ai fang kai..
oh yea,b4 that,we heard the top 3 of the K-Box competition's singer..
that champion,oh my gosh~ completely speechless man!
he's a guy, and he sang wuxian.. at first he sang wuxian, the guy's part,which is sang by ah Qing
well,that is nth.. but when it's faye's singing,he mo fang faye!
and it's like, totally resembles faye's voiice!!
everybody was like,so shocked and all started to cheer..
cant deny,he's realli pro.. indeed,the champion...
when we started the signing session, the host said that we can shake hands..
when i heard it,i was damn happy! this is the first time i shake singers' hand..
i went up,and first,said to jian ning lao shi (ian)" lao shi jia you" he say "hao,xie xie" and shook my hand
next,is faye.. she shook my hand, and i said "faye, ni hen mei, jia you wor!"
she said " hao de,xie xie ni..."
lastly,ah qing! whose name is oso Real.. hahaz... same i said " ah qing ni hen shuai,yao jia you wor!"
then he shook my hand and said " hao, xie xie ni orh~!" and flashed his charming smile..
b4 me was alvin,and ahqing said hello when he signed alvin's album, but smiled to me..
oh my gosh,he's simply so shuai!!! aww~ i'm attracted to him liao =P
ah qing ni hen shuai!
FIR,wo yong yuan zhi chi ni men!!!
heeheex... after that i put on a very happi mood and went home loh! heeheex..
well,that's all for today.. good nite diary.. love yaz! 1:00 AM

i hate,i hate her..
i duno why,but i jus hate her...
she's irritating, idiotic, all those bad words i can use to describe..
i nv had this feeling b4...
nv ever..
this is the first and ever time i wanna have this feeling..
i noe,i cant hate her, i realli cant..
but, i realli cant stop myself..
wat should i do?
i hate her for being so irritating..
doing this and that for nth,nth at all..
she jus did that for nothing..
i feel that,she's jus being lame and boliao..
how how how..
jus wat should i do?
to make myself not hate her?
ii hate this feeling..
but however,i cant get rid of it..
this feeling,how i wish u could disappear..
with u,i feel so helpless..
i hate u, this feeling..
hey gerl, when u read this, u might think , m i talking about u?
well, dun ever think of coming to me and ask,becoz i'll nv give u an answer..
this answer,will onli be in my heart..
now in my heart..
tmr in my heart..
and everyday in my heart..
the whole life,this secret will be in my heart..
nobody else,and i mean nobody else..
will noe about this..
trust me... 12:55 AM

Well... Today, is quite a good day lar.. But... A rumour Appeared.. Let me tell the whole story...
At first, Alvin asked me to accompany to have his lunch at KFC.. it's near my hse,and i haven eat,so i agreed... after lunch,we went to sch to have band.. jus then,our seniors oso have band,and had it earlier than us,so they went for lunch,and we happen to see them on our way to sch.. that time,onli got the 2 of us.. then duno why,the seniors suddenly keep looking at us at first.. then i ask Alvin to walk first,we walk separately,but he doesn't seems to hear it,so i jus heck care oso,thinking nothing will be happening.. who knows,everything happens as wat i expected earlier.. the seniors suddenly say about us.. then when we go,they saw me,keep calling my name in a... weird way.. b4 we reach sch lar,got quite a few senior call " xiaoqian",then i was like,"har?" then they will say " oh,u r xiaoqian ah? okok,nth nth".. i find it weird,but mayb becoz i tagged on a senior(rena)'s blog,so they wanna noe who i m.. then when we reach sch,they r like, " xiaoqian,ur alvin is downstairs leh".. then i was like " he's not mine, he belongs to jane.." then the seniors keep calling me,then wat,my alvin.. oh my gosh! i'm not so bad taste lor,to have him as my bf.. ok lar,i admit i oso not very gd looking lar,but i have no interest in him.. he's onli my 1C family member.. But today we joined the seniors,then got 1 senior ask me to sit in between them,so i jus did so.. then i got to noe her name is Melissa.. then another senior is Jing Wen... both r very pretty de.. n i realli muz say, all clarinet de senior,all very pretty! Heeheex.. so far,i noe clarinet de seniors got Jeslyn [the senior which taught me first and the best senior i have =D ], Mabel [ the cute cute sectional leader i ever came across =D ], LiPing [although nv realli noe her,but noe she very expert ], JingWen [jus noe her today,very pretty] , Melissa [ very pretty oso,seen her quite a number of times actually].. still got 1 more,think is chia li or wat,not sure of her name.. she chat with me once or twice bah.. esp. today and sunday lar..
still got a few senior though,jus that i duno their names.. but they all look very frenly =D oh yea, on tues,the seniors taught us.. then they started to play songs.. very nice! i wanted to clap and cheer,but no one wanna do that.. so sad,all not enthu de.. then i saw the seniors,all so enthu,esp. the winnie and kok keong,both dancing the Y.M.C.A. hahaz... CooL! how I wish i'm in the batch of them,so that can be as enthu.. my batch,doesn't seems to be those type that are enthu.. except some,but rare...so sad.. i wish to be enthu,but 1 person enthu,very weird lar.. then when doing the fall in fall out,i feel like shouting out the commands like wat the seniors will do usually.. like "check bang " "up 2,3,4, bang 2,3,4" "turn 2,3,4,bang 2,3,4, left right left bang,fuhua!" but i will be the onli 1 doing that,then very pai seh,so have to keep quiet.. Sec 1s! Plz be more enthu can? coz i wanna be enthu! If not so boring de...

Oh Yea,Got something i wanna say to Jeslyn,Rena and Kok keong,these 3 seniors.. thanx for tagging my bloggie!! heeheex.. esp. rena and kK (=P) coz i nv go tag u all,then u all come and tag. arigato nehx!!! heeheex...

And Jeslyn,I will jia you de! Will not disappoint u!

Clarinet and Clarinetists,Rocks!!!! 12:40 AM

Wow!!! It had been a long time since i update loh!!! hEeheex.. gonna be 1 month liaoz... but anywayz,take note,im changing blog skin AGAIN.. coz i felt that this blogskin,has a wonderful picture,but the columns all very small,then wanna see the entries,very difficult..so leh,wanna change again lops... ytd the band went to sentosa for the balloon hat festival.. it's nice lar,but quite hot.. then sec ones in charge of carrying things... then the percussion things are like,so heavy,but that joe,the manager,keep saying "faster faster", as if sec 1s very super,can carry very fast like that... he come carry lar... so heavy,will onli ask ppl to take,then ask the seniors help,he himself dun wanna help.. hmphf.hate him sia... then i saw that sisi,her hairstyle so ugly!!! damn short de hair,realli not suit her lor.. makes her even uglier... too short le bah,that hair.. duno how to doll herself de.. but no matter how she doll,she oso not nice de la =P oh yea,came back from china on thurs.. hahaz.. in china damn fun de!!! we made a family,but cant think of a name yet,so temporary called 1c Family,formed in China... coz 11 of us went to china,then duno how,we suddenly formed this family lor..hahaz.. including our daddy,but we call him lao ba... he is the tallest in my class for ur info(extra de info lar =P) he's called chao yong... then got lao da to xiao mei, from no.1 to no.10... we go according to the birthdays de... then we joked alot in china,it's realli very fun.. then got 1 gal,which i dun wanna reveal her name,we called her SIA,which is singapore international airlines.. hahaz.. no lar,de real 1 is stupid idiot asshole.. bleahx,so bad right? but hack care,she damn slut de lor.. so seducing man.. at night hor,in our hotel, this SIA wears 1 strip shirt,then 1 of the shirt,think is called spaghetti is it? ai ya,duno lar.. 1 of it,the back is damn low,then can see the bar stripe lor.. damn idiot man.. so seducing,then the shorts oso damn short de lor... then hor,there's one time,her shoelace dropped,then she purposely pulled down her shirt,then bent down to tie her shoelace leh.. as is infront of our lao ba lor! So damn disgusting man!!! eeeeeee... say already oso wanna puke man.. our family hate her like hell... but no choice,heard that lao ba like her,jus hope it isn't true lops... haish.. but i realli enjoyed the china trip... it's realli fun,esp when our family is together.. we always joke,esp. with lao ba with us... 1C FAMILY IS THE BEST! 1C FAMILY I LOVE YOU!!! hahaz... okok,i tink im stopping here... hope to cyaz soon! hahaz.. will try to update asap de lar.. Love Yaz! 6:32 PM

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