YAY =))
n boohs =((

yay, cos i got wat i wan for chem =)
got that A. phew~ at least i didn't let my effort go to waste =))
yay, cos i improved for GP =D
climbed up to C! =D
though the grammer is still -.-" terrible can =X

booh, cos i have bad feeling for de other subjects..
somehow i feel..
i'll get A B C D E =X
i hope i wont get that B for math.. but i tink i will cos of paper 1 >.<
hopefully p2 will pull me up, n of cos p1 cant be very lousy =X

ahh~ stupid blogger cancelled my words..
shall not type further =X 7:53 PM

ehh~
was initially starting well..
doing math..
until i saw that FPS has a 30% sale n start to shop online.
hehs =P

anws..
some comments of prelims turned out gd.. =X
like for GP. de qn i did was GENERALLY well done.
my tcher said last wk that MOST ppl got 5 n above for summary..
gave me hope, but im afraid im de exception =XXX
hope not.seriously >.<
somehow my points went with wat the markers talk about =X
lets hope i did elaborate correctly >.<

same goes for geog.. so far..
for human i mean..
somehow the teacher quotes smth that i think i wrote o.O
so that gives me some hope.
n she didn't pick me out to secretly talk o.O
somehow i feel mayb i didnt do that badly..
but i dun dare to think too much..
im worried it'll turn out to be nt wat i expected..
n all my dreams are shattered >.<
so for now, i jus seriously hope everything will be ok..
if nth goes wrong tmr shld be getting back chem p2 n mayb gp..
hopefully for chem i can successfully get my A.
as for GP.. i do hope for a C, but a D that indicates a pass n an improvement will be gd too =)

jiayou! 9:15 PM

can i confess?

i wanna confess smth..

i love this person..

really really love..

whatever i want, i'll get..

when i cry, this person will be at my side..

when im sad, this person will be worried for me..

when im feeling stressed, this person will scold me silly..

becos im stressed, this person tries to make me happy..

this person brought me for shopping n let me buy clothes..

this person, even till now, after exams, still allow me to buy shoes.

i asked this person..

will u be angry with me for always spending?

this person says, if i m angry, in de first place i wont even let u stay there.

awww =XXX

thanks mummy.. thanks thanks thanks mummy..

i know u let me buy even though i have lotsa clothes/shoes,

becos u know that im stressed during exam period n u wan me to be happier..

i know u let me buy even though i have lotsa clothes/shoes,

becos i told u that my cousin said she's happy cos she have new clothes..

n i told u, n u somehow can sense that im envious =X mayb that's 1 reason too..

i know that u r working very hard.. injured urself, aching here n there..

yet im so unfilial n keep buying stuff..

sorry mum.. i'll work hard n earn enough money to give u a gd life in de future.

even if im nt working in de future, i'll make sure that's becos my husband's earning a lot,

n i'll make sure i'll give u n daddy a gd life..

my promise..



thanks mummy..

i love u <3 9:30 PM

HMM!!!!! =))
today was a... okok day bahs..
let's see wat i did..
finished de integration qns.. that was.. around 10 qns?
finished 2009 a levels paper 1. i got 74! okok la. at least i got my A =X
but quite sad. i realise it is rather diff to achieve 80 n above in jc =X
that was kinda my goal..but i dun think i got it before =( sad~
n i still make "careless" mistake..
still rmb miss yeo said b4 there's nth called careless mistake =((
its cos u haven been doing that usually so u didn't do it in exam too. oops..
hmm.. so i mainly did maths today.AGAIN =X
actually i didn't do alot leh =((
then did a little geog..
rock cycle and the rocks.. but its quite confusing~
shall wait till i meet my fren and sort out with her =)
memo a little.. mayb will recap later.. n memo abit before i slp bahs?
was yawning jus now but not really now o.O
mayb i shld read gp notes too =X OOPS =(((
im worried for thurs GP man~~~~~~
i got a bad feeling~~~~~~
haish~~~
wells! we'll see how it goes~
hope tmr will be a productive day!
doubt im gg lib bahs~ duno lehs~ see how =))) 10:55 PM

PRELIMS' OVER.
honestly.. dun have the very relaxed feel..
jus that i dun have to coop myself in de room to study today.
totally slacked and watched tv throughout =X
while arranging my stuff.. which was super messy due to prelims -.-

well.. the indication of the end of prelims is that that's de end.
that's de last sch exam. official exam. next? A LEVELS.
seriously i cant believe this >.<
but so what if i cant believe? its true =X
n its really frigging scary.
n the worst is,this really dun seemed like prelim.unlike O's.
still have de "ahh,this time sure die. nvm,still got A's " =X
can u imagine de same thing happening at As? i cant imagine =X
n i seriously hope it doesn't happen..
i got a feeling that some ppl are mugging once they reached home
even though they say they wont =X (referring to those who supposedly finished their papers today =X)
shall resume my pace on maybe mon?
this weekend shall relax.. mayb do a little work but super slow pace bahs..

hmm did sorta some reflection today on prelims.
came out with some plans. HOPEFULLY I REALLY DO THEM -.-
they dont seem to work even when i started them in jan k =X
well.. nth much to blog le actually..
wonder if aaacjx is still meeting on wed? o.O
my zhong qiu jie~ =))) 10:58 PM

I've got smth interesting to share.
real interesting.
i myself think its weird yet wow.lol.
actually not very wow, but a bit -.-"
ok this is it.. (u can skip to the back for the summary if u dun wanna read =X)

i was doing nth ytd after i got home except watching newspaper n tv.
then at 11 plus i was outside,still watching tv but checking out words on dictionary.
then at 12 plus, i came into my room, n i started reading econs..
was sms-ing with xiaoclar until she went to slp..
den i cont reading until i finished.. 2 case studies? yup. den suddenly felt like dancing.lol.
so i played orientation songs n tried recapping.
n den i decided to went to bed at almost 2? yups.

n de interesting thing comes..
i woke up at 4 plus.. initially to go toilet + a little stomachache.
n i suddenly got warm. ok.i shld say,initially my feet were very cold.
so i covered blanket.
n den i suddenly got warm n kicked away my blanket. n then..
i cant get to slp.. duno why..
so i got my phone n played music thru earpiece.
i still cant get to slp.i tried, n i realised that i can open my eyes big.
n so i decided to take my mum's phone n play solitaire.
n my hands got tired, n i decided to slp..
but den, again, im nt slpy.so i lie on my bed.
for many times i said "after this song if im still nt slpy i shall get up"
but somehow,i keep telling myself "after the next" =P
n den,finally at 545 or so,i decided to wake up.
n i did my math! a 3 hr paper.lol. really 3 h. until now..
i jus marked n bathe n packed my bag for tuition =)

SO IN SHORT.
i slept for.. 2 plus hours??
n the thing is, im nt slpy now?!?!? =X

OH ANOTHER IMPT THING.
i know elf will say ridiculous n siao.
im actually thinking of how to do econs while slping -.-"
somehow i feel that im half conscious, n my dream is abt econs,n im thinking of how to ans =X
disgusting right =X

but anws..
i think i will slp this afternoon..
but i'd decided to make myself nt slp more than 1hr or 1half hr..
cos im gonna slp early tonight. YES. 10plus hopefully,before 11? =)
I WANNA ACE MY PAPERS TMR.
i think i can do it.
i shall remain calm. remain clear-minded. shall have no fear.
I WILL CONQUER THE 2 PAPERS TMR.
i didn't get my A in common test, im very upset.
WATCH OUT MATH N CHEM. I WILL CONQUER U.
U WILL BE DEFEATED. MUAHAHAS =))))) 9:25 AM

I WANT IPOD TOUCH/NANO =XXXXXX
after As. i'll check out de price then..
i'll decide then..
i'll use my money (if i have)
or get subsidy from parents.lol.
its time to throw my zen away =X
though it still looks new =X
or shld i send it for repair or checking? but i bet it'll be more ex right =X
we shall see.
but i think.. i'll prefer ipod.HEHS =D 11:00 PM

woops im here again! heeeheex =)
today is a happy day!
i duno why,hahas..
anws keep thinking that today is fri,but happy that its nt =D
means there's 1 more day,woohoo!
anws not much time left too =X completed chem though.sorta.
left inorganic 1 chapt. did 1 paper today.didn't do well =X
but i dun think its diff. lets see for the next paper bahs..

gonna do geog now - population.
since we went thru it today..
urban is far too much >.<
but still, hope i m able to finish as much reading..

math.. i had actually touched on every chapt since ms ling made us do tys.
but nt much confidence yet.
might try doing a paper tmr.
if i score badly (most likely will =X) i'll probably work on weaker topics?
but it also depends if i have de time >.<
still didn't do econs as promised.haish =X

anws..
i keep forgetting to post this. almost a wk ago le =)
last sun, was gg jp for breakfast before gg for tuition.
den took 198. it was de nasty driver, who used to demand for us to show our ezlink cards.
but he turned over a new leaf!
he said gd morning to whoever boarding the bus.
though its nt very clear. but he did attempt to look into the person's eyes..
den he'll say "cya"or smth when ppl alight. but cos he mus say hi, he only said once when he opened de door.
i think its very polite! not the 1st driver that i've seen.
but mayb cos he turned over a new leaf,somehow i feel proud of him.hahas.
so to give him some encouragement, i said thank u when i alight! x)
n he said u're welcome with a smile.
i can feel that he's happy that he's being appreciated =D
if all drivers do that,i dont mind saying thank u to all.
n i hope this sets as an example.hahas =D

ohs. n like wat i posted on facebook.
suddenly tot of miss yeo's "smile to 5 ppl everyday" quote when i walked out of sch today.
cos bid gdbye to security guard n he smiled as usual saying "gd bye,to you"
n he said "wow,working hard ah" n i smiled =)
den tot of this quote.n i sent sms to 10 ppl.hahas. including aaacjx.
i said i hoped i brightened their day.
n happily, some replied. n they made me smile more! hahas =D
i brightened wanlin's day certainly,hohohos x)
realli liked this feeling.
think im enjoying more n more of smiling to ppl/ helping ppl x)

oh another gd deed! donated to a physically disabled guy in de market who's singing n walking about using his clutches..
not donated by me, but i went to donate the money by my parents.hahas x)

GOOD DEEDS X)
I LOVE DOING GOOD DEEDS.
IT MAKES ME FEEL GOOD =DDD

"dancing dancing good good" (by xiao zhong.hahas. funny song! =P) 10:08 PM

HATE INTEGRATION >.<
ALWAYS CANT SEEM TO SOLVE THE QUESTIONS. RARRRRR
mayb cos my brain is alr almost dead when doing it. cos night time liao. no more energy =X
anws..
today stayed at home n it wasn't that unproductive..
did complex. initially was gd but slacken off =X
read thru chem bonding n recapped all de formulas..
wanted to do exercises but didn't =X
think i'll do them tmr.
read like, 2 case studies? n note down some notes..
den did THREE qn of integration >.< stupid.
ok.didn't seem that much. mayb de number of subjects i did made me feel i did alot =X
but still.. at least i didn't slack my way thru. until night time =X
tired of staying in de room de whole day liaoz..
gonna do geog b4 i slp.. having consultation tmr.
den doing chem in sch b4 chem consultation.
shall do econs when im back home.
to be honest,time seriously flies.
i've yet to touch much of my geog yet
even though i packed them on sun n said i need to read all those>.<
sucks. 10:39 PM

突然想起一些人生中的无可奈何
hahas.. saw this at cy's facebook wall =))
yeahs.. was thinking about it ytd n today too. tsk =X
well.. wanted to post ytd.. feeling rather emo..
but after a while gt better n i was busy reading my newspaper cos i spent too much time watching tv >.<
yes.ytd i practically did nth at all apart from reading 1 chapt of chem during my journey to n fro frm amk =X

on my way back.. reminsce about de past (did i spell correctly? =X)
took 335.. so passed by those places..
i always love to take 335.. n i know, partly becos i want to recall those memories..
i duno why.. mayb cos they do make me smile..
smile becos it'd happened. that's probably de reason i guess =)
yeah.. once i pass by that route,i'll start thinking of wat'd happened then over there..
den i'll think of wat we've done during that few months..
what sweet stuff.. what funny stuff.. what sad stuff..
n then back to that final point.. n till now i still duno what's de main reason..
i know what he said wasn't de reason but what can i do?
n somehow..i realli feel like asking him why did he do that..
at times,i realli wonder what is his feeling.. is he really being true to me,to her?
do agree that some guys are really playboys n can change gf very quickly..
but really didn't occurred to me that he's those kind..
n made me feel.. yeah.. quite betrayed.. kinda cheated..
like wat xiaoclar feels when she found out they were close frens bahs..
jus that im nt to the extent of angry, but upset?
n makes me wonder what he really is,who he really is.
is he really de one that i always know? i wonder.. =X

ppl who'd moved on, any1, can u all enlighten me with an ans for this qn:
do u still think of ur first love when u have ur next gf/bf? o.O
mayb not literally think of de person,but wanna reminsce de past, think of de first love memories?o.O
i really wonder about this..
i think i will eh.. duno why.. n i wonder if my next bf noe,will he be angry or wat? o.O
actually had been thinking of this since i started de r/nship.
thinking that if it didn't turn out well,perhaps i'll nv dare to step into 1 again.
cos somehow i'll be unfair to de next,if i keep on thinking about de first.
ah watever.. i will know about it one day right.lol..
then mayb i'll come back n ans my own qn.hahas =)

anws..
got msg from my amk cip-in-charge.
happy that she's sad that im nt gg back.hahas.
sounds evil. but i mean,i feel happy that i'd left an impression on others =)
i realised i realli like it alot.
that's perhaps why i wanna be in de tourism sector?
i wanna leave a gd impression on ppl =)
i wan tourists, bosses, whoever, to rmb me,rmb singapore =)
i wanna make an impact.hahas =)
she said she'll ask me for help next time. gladly.i told her.really.
volunteering shall be a big part of my life =)
if time allows =X not now =X
but yeahs =) im really happy to hear that from her. so nice =)
i jus wan ppl to be happy. to enjoy..
that day's kidsread was really nice.
im happy i made de kids smile n laugh.. by doing stupid things..
like pretending to cry, n stuff..hahas..
but its really great to see their smiles..
i'll volunteer at children's organisations next time =)
mayb kidsread again too.hahas =)
BIG BIG SMILE.
SERVICE WITH HONOUR.
hahas=P 12:34 AM

IM HUNGRY!!!!
BUT I CANNOT EAT.. COS ITS SO LATE ALR..
MAYB IM GONNA SLP SOON..
SO I WONT FEEL HUNGRY..
BUT I FEEL SO BAD.
COS I DIDN'T DO MUCH THINGS. OOPS=X 11:25 PM

WOOSH. 4 PAPERS DOWN. MORE TO GO =X
but still, felt rather relaxed today..
i know i'll regret in de next few days for not studying now..
but i realli dun feel like it =X
tmr. tmr i'll get back to normal studying k =X

anws sunday.. stupid JE will be closed. that means i mus travel to bukit batok to take the mrt?
=XXX haiyo >.<

and anws.. today's geog was DIFFICULT..=X
i really crapped my way thru can.
watever that i'd decided to leave out CAME OUT. like wth =(((
but my tcher is in a good mood.LOL.
anws im gonna start consultation with her after prelims. decided =)
i shall try to leave out some time to still do gp/econs essay/phy geog..
hopefully i can really leave out some time for it =X
shall plan well this week.. i know i'll do human geog tmr. n math tmr night. =)
gg je lib again. think im loving it =X lol.

ohohs.. i wanted to post about wat i wanna do after As.hahas =D
i have a list of thiings to do eh! =DDD
they are not in sequence =))
1. dance lessons - maybe hiphop o.O but see how. will go with my fren.!hahas =)
2. volunteer - will be seeking ard. thought of tutoring at some centres or wat =))
3. bake again! x)) n mayb cook too! hohos..
4. read books! all kinds. gonna spam lib =D esp my chi love stories! missed them! >.<
5. go out! hahas. anywhere. doing anything =D spend money? x)
6. find job of cos.hahs.
but as for job..i duno when i wanna start.. mayb not starting so early.. enjoy myself first..
but that will also mean i'll be spending alot ..
n if i dunn start work in late dec/early jan,it means i have to wait till after CNY
unless there are jobs that urgently need ppl till before CNY.
i wanna have long break during CNY! =X
shall see how.
anws i really look forward to after As.lol..
but meanwhile..really mus work hard =X
ok im gg to study now~
nono.. go n arrange my stuff first.. my notes r everywhere =X
cya ppl! 9:20 PM

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