Essentielle Elegance

Saturday, March 25, 2006

never say sorry.
when it's all over.
u might think that at least,u apologized.
at least, u wont feel that guilty.
if u really think this way,
u're absolutely wrong.
very very wrong.
even if u say 1 sorry, 10 sorry, 100 sorry,1000 sorry,
no matter how many sorry u said,
there's still no change.
the heart has been broken.
it cant be mend back anymore.
especially by the word "sorry"
the word "sorry" will onli be rejected by it.
for the heart thinks that the sorry is too late.

if u onli realise ur mistake after the whole thing
then forget about saying sorry
becoz u had already broken a heart.
will u feel guilty?
will u feel better if u apologize?
if u do esp immediately u apologize,u're inhuman.
if u jus get that out of ur mind after u apologize immediately,
u're not a fren that can be trusted.
if that thing still goes around ur mind till the next day or a few hours later,
at least,u're better than inhuman.
but true,dont let it bother u.
although u hurt someone's heart, u shld feel sad,
but u shld not let it bother u as well..
why?
u've hurt someone,u've felt guilty
but it's all over.
wat's done cannot be undone.
wat u can do now,is to take note of wat u do.
and make sure u dont hurt another heart again.
take it as a lesson.
dont be harsh,dont be too straightforward.
treat ur frens well. esp ur close frens.
dont ignore them when they need u the most.
like this, u wont hurt an innocent heart.

trust me. trust me not.
up to u.
but do treat some as advice.
if u dont wan,i wont force.
this is jus wat i think
this is jus wat i feel like writing

--Merci tout le monde--

11:44 PM

Friday, March 24, 2006

Cancer

Turn ons
Try to adapt yourself with the changing moods of the Cancer. At one moment they m ay be laughing and enjoying and in another moment they may cry or sulk. You may have to adjust with the moody and sensitive Cancer. They are like the tides in the ocean always fluctuating. Cancer people love food so if you know how to cook and can be poetic and romantic (added Bonus) then you know the way to their heart.

Turn offs
Cancerians are very sensitive people and can get easily hurt. So do not play with their emotions and sentiments. They are like tides that can take you with it. They form emotional bonds with even inanimate things too so do not ask them to discard old caps or souvenirs these things hold special meaning to them. You have to realize that the crabs have soft heart and are vulnerable. Do not contradict their tested line of thought and action it would only lead to confusion.

JULY [T= True, F=False,D=Duno]
Difficult to fathom and to be understood[D]
Quiet unless excited or tensed [F]
Has reputation [D]
Easily consoled [Ok lar]
Honest [T]
Concern about people's feelings[T]
Friendly [T]
Approachable[T]
Very emotional [V.V.T!]
Unpredictable and temperamental [D]
Moody and easily hurt [T!]
Witty and sarky [D]
Sentimental [D]
Neither forgives nor forgets[F?]
Caring and loving [sometimes
Strong sense of sympathy[D]
Judge people through observations[T]
Loves to be alone [sometimes
Always broods about the past and the old friends [T]
Likes to be quiet [Sometimes]
Waits for friends [T,but now,not realli coz kena agitated by ppl who are always late]
Not aggressive unless provoked [mayb]
Loves to be loved [V.T]
Easily hurt and takes long to recover [T for 1st,as for 2nd,mayb bahx]
Overly concerned [hopefully not]
Puts in effort in work [depends]

my name begins with L or X? is it Lim or Xiao? by right shld be Lim right? but i duno.

Does your name begin with: X You need constant stimulation because you get bored quickly. You can handle more than 1 relationship at a time with ease. You can't shut off your mind. You can do 2 things at once. You are very talented.

Does your name begin with: L You can be very romantic, attached to the glamour of love. Having a partner is of paramount importance to you. You are free in your expression of love and are willing to take chances, try new sexual experiences and partners, provided it's all in good taste. Brains turn you on. You must feel that your partner is intellectually stimulating, otherwise you will find it difficult to sustain the relationship. You require loving, cuddling, wining, and dining to know that you're being appreciated. "You require loving, cuddling, wining, and dining to know that you're being appreciated ".

if u wan this email tell me.. i'll send it to u =)
anyway,i started to hate her even more.
SHE SUCKS. F**KING B**CH
ps,i'm affected to say those vulgar[??] words since last year. forgive me.

--Merci tout le monde--

11:11 PM

Sunday, March 19, 2006

i'm so jealous of them,realli...
they are so close, play together,go out often together,eat together,do all things together
they trust among themselves and share secrets.
they hang out together,happy or sad...
how i wish to be one of them. But i dont know why i cant.
how i wish to have a grp of frens like them. but i dont know why i cant.
how i wish to find at least a true fren to share joy,secrets,sadness with me, but i dont know why i cant.

u guys noe? I'm so jealous of all of you.
i wonder when can i be like u guys
find a grp of frens i really trust, i realli believe.
I always believe that frens are very important.
they makes up our lives.
we need them during our daily lives
I believe in true frens.
but i've been hurt too many times. I cried more for frens than my parents,relatives,anybody.
I've shed too much tears for my frens in the past
so much that i'm afraid to trust anybody now.
i realli hope i can stop crying becoz of frens.
i realli hope i can find my real true frens
but i dont know where are they.
i dont know when will they appear in front of me.
giving me comfort,sharing with me the secrets and joy.

there is a wall.
a wall blocking me and my true frens.
the wall is my past.
i once trusted them. i trusted them to be my true frens.
but they hurt me.
they hurt me so accidentally.
i know they didn't mean it, but they dont know that it realli hurts.
guys,u noe?
ur "sorry", ur "i didn't mean it", means nothing at all.
it only brings more tears.
i hate the life. i hate the life of crying for nothing.
crying for u guys,but u guys dont know.
thinking i cried for other things,but i'm actually sad at your actions.
when can i stop crying for my so called, true frens?
they said they were my true frens.
but in the end,they went with others. why?

i'm tired... i'm really tired of my life... can i take a rest?
plz, give me a break.
my heart has been broken too many times.
it needs a rest. i beg u.

--Merci tout le monde--

6:56 PM

Saturday, March 18, 2006

i dont like people to force me to do things
i dont like people to ask me to do faster or what
in chinese, i called it cui1
esp when i'm trying my best to do the thing
and people keep asking me to do faster,he/she is already finishing up another thing liao
i get fed up
i will wanna slam the work and dont do liao
great that i didn't do that,if not then it's all finished
rmb,dont do things that i dont like to me
i can turn nasty if i want to
i'm getting irritated with people.
sorry if i'm too scary above.
but i'm not in a good mood today
esp when that person tell me watever
even my mum also felt the same lor
wat rights has he/she have to do these.
fed up,totally fed up
i wonder if he/she purposely do that to "play" with me
watever,i cant be bothered

i do wonder when i can have my real true frens
jus when...

I wan sony ericsson Z530i!
please come out faster!
My K700i is dying le =(
i need u to come out, not coming soon! please!
anyway,thanks dad for being patient with my hp
without u,it cannot be with me till now =P
thanks dad!

--Merci tout le monde--

6:34 PM

Wednesday, March 08, 2006

long time no see! 好久没到这个地方来~
lol.. hahaz.. using 5566 song, super fan i m!
k,nonsense.. anyway,long time nv update againz..
simply sianz to update.. jus came today..
er,took class photo today, so damn weird.. lol.. but kinda fun la..
azhari shld lie on de bench lo.. but they were counting le,so didn't..
hmm.. got de report card de report slip.. ok la.. but mr koh say will affect streaming =X
but i still ok lar.. not say,very bad lorx.. danlim got quite gd?
then she damn happy.. then say she got very gd results.. haiz..
not i wanna say la,but she like that say,i will like, feel kinda stressed lor..
i dun wanna win her la,coz i noe i cant.. but she seems proud to me lo.. k,hope that's not the way.
well.. finished de notice board le.. wanted to watch big momma's house 2,but no time le..
GOTTA FINISH UMBRELLA TODAY! hopefully la.. duno can finish anot lehx..
still needa do science..

MY HOLIDAY IS PACKED!
saturday - morning go SPH(singapore press holdings) for de audition (wanna noe come find me). then after that if got time go band. then 3-4.30 got tuition, 5-6 got organ.
sunday - chinese project meeting.. for xiao wang zi + yue fei thingy..
monday - morning 9-12++ got meeting for science ppt, 1.30-5.30 got band..
tuesday - morning so far nth.. 1.30 to 4 got band (sectionals)
wednesday - go SPH for duno wat talk.. 9-5
thursday - organ exam, report at 11.10. then have to go band camp after that..
friday- band camp until 1pm.. so far no meeting oso..
saturday - band 8.30-1 ? think so.. then tuition 3-4.30 lorx..

gosh larx! gor still ask me to enjoy my holidays.. how to enjoy?! packed like siao lorx.. onli got de night to relax sia.. somemore got 5 projects lo!
eng, we need to do a play.. but think this is to be done this week.. so, 5-1=4 projects
4 projects include:
- science ppt.. do on sex diseases or wateva.. something like that.. grp: danlim,me,alvin,ikhwan. date due: sch reopen de monday, 20th.
- IPW.. but this still have some time la.. but we wanna try to finish fast lor.. but this holiday think cannot meet lerx.. grp: danlim,me,xiaohui,michelle,jingting
- chinese, xiao wang zi.. need to do like,yue du bao gao like that.. do a book like that.. then, need to decorate or wateva.. for de speech day thingy.. grp: me,wanlin,jean,jingyu.. date due: lastest by 24th
- chinese, my grp special.. same as gladys' grp. we need to work on de textbook, about yue fei.. needa do research on him.. last time me n jean did research for lu xun.. till now still rmb sia.. then coz cannot use com,we use de printed de ppt,then wanlin present,i show de pages to everybody.. muahahaha~ date due: mayb 2nd/3rd week of sch reopen.. depends on how fast de teacher teachs..

see see see? haiz~ sadded larx.. all da bez la,i can say.. totally packed.. and de cultural night!! so damn not fair lorx.. band onli perform 2 songs nia! somemore 1 still combine with CO lorx! that means onli 1 song nia lorx! so damn not fair manx...ah ya,shant talk le.. gotta get down with science and umbrella! my umbrella so ugly =X too sad,i'm not an artistic person.. bleahs~ kkk.. love yaz..

p.s: thanks gor for buying so many tic =))

--Merci tout le monde--

5:40 PM