Thursday, December 29, 2011
Time to do some reflections for 2011!!
Wont be able to have time to blog the next 2 days.
mayb short posts, but no time for long posts, cos gt slpovers.
so here i am =)
just uploaded the childhood photos on fb! haha.
had been wanting to do that but kept on dragging.
finally did that! haha. nice memories =)
2011 is a rather happening year bahs?
let's see~ not in order of importance!
but will try to post in chronological order~! =)
1) Work
worked in 2 places, EMAS and SPX.
gotta say, EMAS is whr i really enjoyed working at.
though the pay is lower than at SPX, the working envt, the ppl, they are all much better.
made frens, and not jus colleagues.
ivan, shiyun, affandi, yuhao, juwita, hanna.
they are all nice people that i'd made friends with, and im really glad to know them =)
esp ivan - he really gave me lotsa insights =)) a nice fren definitely.
n shiyun - glad that we still kept in touch. awesome~!
SPX, honestly, nth much for me to say about that.
but my superior was really nice to always treat me la~ nice food then haha.
2) A Level Results.
yeah, got the results in march.
and then started to think of whr to go, apply, and etc.
nth much abt this i guess?
but hmm, this probably leads to one of the decisions made.
dont wanna say much about this though, but yeah~ =)
oh, results wise, nt those real good kind but not bad?
kinda satisfied with it,so yeah =)
3) Relationship
This year, was a special year for me, cos i had some1 now.
it was a tough fight. a tough run.
frm last year, till early this year.
the 3-4 months were rather bad. well, there were good times of cos.
but until the final decision was made, it was not that good.
afterall, there isnt any conclusion and stuff.
but yeah, im glad that after all the tough times, everything came to an end.
a happy ending, and a new beginning =)
we overcame all those obstacles, cleared all the misunderstandings and doubts of the past.
and now, we're facing a new phase.
with somemore problems and challenges ahead, both in our diff areas.
but i believe we can overcome them =) just like how we did.
thanks some1, for being here with me. thanks for everything.
u know what i wanna say, shall not say much here too.
green bean =)
4) University
a new phase of life : university.
the last stage of study life.
got into NBS, kinda what i wan to - business.
passed my first sem alr, results not at second upper, but glad that didnt fare that badly either.
stayed in hall. nt very active as i thought i will be, haha.
but nice experience staying with a fren =)
more active in CAC, probably cos of de camp i went.
and yeah, knew alot of awesome frens there. gg for my urley gathering tmr too =)
i think Urley is really the best grp of people i've known so far in uni.
glad i made good frens in tutorial classes too but nt as close to them.
and next sem gonna be separated frm most of them too =( aye~
got into Exco as fin con. stressful, and have yet to fully take control of the role.
hopefully everything will be fine and i'll be able to get hold of it soon =)
1/6 of my uni life is over, hope de rest will be good~!
5) friends?
i guessed this year, i had alot of meetups and catchup sessions with frens.
esp during the period when we're working.
so will have the time after work, to meet and catchup =)
really love those catchup times! really great.
with the girls, with asy, with aaacjx, with jos, recently with geogers.
many many~ =) and it was all so great~ lovely~!
hope will have more chances to catch up with them =)
hmm, and also getting closer to old frens and new frens?
knowing of jack n sl. getting closer to yz dorothy.
awesome max x) really really glad that i have so many lovely people ard me~!
and im glad that many of them found their partners too =)
it was really a happy thing to see friends around you being so blissful and happy =)
of cos i do hope my girls get theirs soon too, haha.
dont worry, they will appear ;) haha.
for those who alr found theirs, stay happy and blissful yeahs~! x)
hmm, i think that's about all bah! haha.
i specially would like to thank my beloved girls, est wl kl, and asy, and xiaoclar and elf, and dan, for staying by my side when i need u guys.
be it during the beginning of the year when im facing the probs and was feeling lost,
or now and then when im feeling down and needed someone to complain to and stuff.
oh, and my secret stalker jodie, and jia, who will also respond when seeing my unhappy tweets haha.
thanks to all of you x)
wont forget u all even though i had some1 now kays.
still need u all by my side, esp to help me deal w some1 when he let me down =P haha.
thanks loves! love all of you! x)
wheee~! alrights~!!!!
2011 had been a happening year
hope 2012 will be a better year~! for you, for me, for everyone~!!!!!!!!!
--Merci tout le monde--
10:25 PM
Wednesday, December 28, 2011
i think i'd changed.
i'd changed to be more demanding.
i dun like this me.
when some1 told me i could use log green bean,
i wasnt v happy.
if it was me in the past, a few years bac, i guess i'll be v happy.
cos its like,a secret code that only we 2 know.
but somehow, im nt that happy now.
was it cos i was thinking of some stuff jus now, thats why?
perhaps a few days ltr i'll be ok and will be happy using that again.
but right now, i somehow will think further/deeper and will feel a little sad instead.
i duno whats going on in me.
i duno is it my prob.
this is not going to work.
i mus learn to not expect too much.
i mus learn to be contented.
i used to be contented with everything ard me.
n now, i still have all de good things ard me, so what am i complaining?
perhaps its cos of the people ard me and the way that they behave.
n tts why i'll compare, and wanna match up with them.
but no, i shldn't. i will not and must not.
im contented with my life, im contented with what i have.
though not openly shown to others, its ok.
why do i have to show others what i have?
right, i might be envious of others when i see some stuff.
but i have other stuff that the others might not have too, and that people might be envious of too.
jus that i dont show out, but not showing out doesnt mean its not present.
as long as i know its presence, its enough =)
nice, blogging always makes me feel better.
was feeling down and going to slp w red eyes, but had de sudden feel of blogging.
n here i am, venting out, and as i vent out, i wrote n wrote,
and i got to reflect upon myself and end off again with a positive note =)
i like this!
okies,im still de old me,i haven change,heex.
nights everyone
nights some1, log green bean =)
--Merci tout le monde--
11:51 PM
Tuesday, December 27, 2011
i used to wonder, how can ppl forget their first love, or their other ex-es, and move on to love others?
wont they think of the first, or their ex?
n then i wonder about what these people will say: "the feelings i had for you, is now a memory"
actually i picked that up from a tv drama serial haha.
but same same la ah =)
n in another case, i did wonder, is there really a case where someone who confess to u and u dont like them?
i believe there is la.
but i used to think that when someone expresses their love to you,
you'll somehow have some feelings and might agree to it.
haha. but then of cos, now i know,this is nt de case.
but still, im quite amazed by how people know if the one is or is not the right one.
perhaps i nv encounter this so im nt sure of this.
so far, only met one, and feel that's de one already.
didnt meet any that makes me feel i like but will nv love him o.O haha
but anyway, responding to my own qns above, i somehow found de ans.
perhaps that was the thinking when we were young.
now that we grew up alr, we start to understand more.
mayb its instinct, mayb its fate, or wat, that somehow tells u that he/she is or is not the one.
it may seem bad of the person when they say the other party is not the one.
and that they cannot start over again becos they fell for another.
but i guess, this is fate, disguised somehow and telling u, that u 2 are not the right ones.
somehow, im glad, that i wasnt faced with these.
i used to imagine hw it'll be, whether i'll really be able to forget the first when im with another.
but thank goodness, i dont have to experience that, haha =)
perhaps i'll have less experience, haha. but that doesnt matter la ah =)
everybody will face diff situations, but i realised afterall, u'll realise all love stories are about de same nia haha.
ok, i realised my thoughts might nt be concrete bt hmm~ whatever, hehs.
but today, had some thoughts, n i really feel very happy.
i think im v lucky.
i face problems, but they always turned out to be solved.
unhappy things will always turn out to have a happy ending.
i think im v lucky, to have that some1.
thinking back about our past, looking at our present, and imagining our future,
i really feel very glad, blessed, and happy.
n of cos, frm ytd's incident, i know i have those great friends around me too.
to protect me and stand by my side when some1 let me down.
to be ready and there to help me punish that some1 haha =P
thanks my dear and loves~!
becos of all of you, im a blessed and happy girl =))
--Merci tout le monde--
5:52 PM
Monday, December 26, 2011
feeling so sian~
somehow i think its de thought of gg to sch tmr D:
n its left with the last 2 weeks le,rarr~
sch is gonna start soon =(( boohoos~
not ready at all. really =(
suddenly wonder if i can get back to hall life,tsktsk.
anw, today was a nice day =)
somehow went out longer than expected.
guess some1 was trying to make up for it yes?
n u did la, haha =) de day really turned out great =))
yeah, morn was rather terrible =X
but i guess its these unhappy moments that will make us appreciate other better moments more =)
n its these upset moments that made us realise the important things =)
went to f21,wanted to buy de shirt, but i duno why, dont seemed as nice today! =(
n so i turned out to not buy it, save de $39 for other purposes x)) hehs~
vivo was FILLED WITH PEOPLE =X
had secret recipe and that service staff is nice hahaha. polite i mean.
like a maid sia "yes ma'am, thank you, enjoy your meal~" hahaha
i suspect its a thai! he really sounds like one o.O
last few days of 2011~ duno how i'll spend it? haha
somehow hope the countdown plan will be on~! =)
every day spent with you is a nice one =) today, despite the morn, was really great =)
thanks dear. hope u will be able to join for de countdown!
--Merci tout le monde--
8:50 PM
Sunday, December 25, 2011
on valentine's day, people always say,
there's no need to specially buy presents or what.
because as long as u're with ur love, everyday is valentine's day.
den here, i wanna do some slight editing/addition.
to me, doesn't mean that presents are a must on special occasions/festivals.
but doesn't mean that they cannot be given randomly too =)
everyday with ur love one is a day worth remembering =)
sorry gong. i admit compared to you, im less frank.
i promise to be fully truthful and nt hide them within me le okays.
--Merci tout le monde--
11:16 PM
Thursday, December 22, 2011
not to mention, enjoy the last 2 weeks of holi before the crazy sem starts~!
--Merci tout le monde--
12:50 AM
results out le.
gpa 3.81. only got 1 A-. n its my stats. still maths, as usual,lol.
surprised by my mktg, actually got higher than my OB?!
when i thought my mktg will be the worst =X
but oh well, my elective was the lousiest.
n becos of that, i regretted nt SU-ing it.
if I SU it, i could have gotten a 4! =(
blame it on my stubbornness. keep thinking that i'll be able to get thru it.
n then it proved me wrong. haish.
at first when i see,im still ok de.
but den when i realised i could get a 4 if i SU my elective,
start to feel sian alr.
saw 1 tutorial mate's fb status n knew he did well.
somehow wanna ask around and see how others do.
but den again, i dun wanna compare either.
if they do gd, will make me feel sad.
if they do bad, it'll probably jus make me feel better, but also bad cos im like, ba zi ji de kuai le jian zhu zai bie ren de tong ku shang?
oh wells! i jus have to pia for next sem le!
with CAC workload, really hope i can do it.
hopefully the timetable will be able to let me spend more time on studying.
and with some1 being away for a month, it gives me no excuses but to work hard and only study that month.
n hopefully, accounting & FM, which i hope are similar somehow to math,
which means i will be able to do relatively well? let's hope okays~
JIAYOUZZZZZZZZ!!!!!!
LETS ALL WORK TOWARDS OUR 2ND UPPER >.<
--Merci tout le monde--
12:31 AM
Wednesday, December 21, 2011
as time passes, as we grow older, we tend to miss the past more n more.
i miss how we used to have the luxury to take long mrt rides,
to diff shopping centres all around singapore.
i miss how things can be so simple in the past.
how we can still play near exam periods.
how exam dont seem that important? i mean,those sec 2 times.
today saw jingyu's msg for me.
n i somehow really hope that we can have a 2c gathering at my hse next wk.
wont forget the days where my place becomes a 2nd hangout place for 2c peeps.
those days were really great.
oh wells~ we cant always live in the past. we gotta move on~
borrowed some baking and scrapbooking books today.
suddenly have the urge to try out cheesecakes,haha.
n wanna bake some newyear cookies also?
shall look thru de recipes and see how bah~
so fast, its thurs le.
as much as i wan de weekends to come, i do not wish for them as the sooner they come,the sooner a week ends and the sooner the sch starts.
back to life in hostel, suddenly feel i might nt get used to it again? =X oh wells~
tmr's results.
probably will check before gg out, though nt sure what time its out.
bless me >.<
--Merci tout le monde--
8:32 PM
Tuesday, December 20, 2011
end of tue lo~
somehw feeling gd,mayb cos this wk most prob nt gg sch le! =P
today's starwars failed =X most probably jus sticking to the assigned timetable =X
jus hope tt will have some1 i know n hopefully quite close in all classes bahs!!
went out w kiddos today, sinful day w all de food haha.
n somehow unlucky day for us,esp alvin?
felt guilty suggesting empire state.
getting more n more disappointed w them le sia?
no pizza, no ribs,gdness =XX
but hope they like de souvenirs~
tmr shall be a slack slack day~
shall nua in bed until max 11, den prepare n go out w yz to lib.
wanted to look for cooking books, n i shall look for scrapbooking books too! hehhehs~
i need ideas and help~ im really bad at art =(( boohoos~
n i gt sudden urge to go to ntuc and buy all the healthier snacks.
to go on diet :O
i feel fat =(( boohs =((
thurs will be out w asy!
n results will be out that day =X will probably see it before going out i guess.
hope everything will be fine.
seeing ppl knowing their results today are scary =(
congrats to those who did rather well, like est and sl i believe.
n to those who didnt do as well, dont be discouraged k! have faith~!
i hope i can do rather well of cos =X but somehow i dun feel positive ehs =((
shall see bahs~
if i do well, shopping will be a reward.
if not,it'll be a vent of unhappiness lolol.
den fri~ morn nth yet. night exco cohesion.
still duno if wanna stayover but mayb most likely not lo.
cos sat gg msia visit relatives + shopping =D
see hw see hw =))
n woots~! i think lg is so cute, haha =P
--Merci tout le monde--
11:13 PM
Sunday, December 18, 2011
a simple weekend.
but passed rather quickly =(
joined some1's class chalet.
played a little, chat abit, den went for private time alone =)
impromptu movie - alvin&chipmunks3! haha x)
den back to chalet, all aslp~ so we joined them too~
this morn, all woke up rather late, haha.
went to marina n walked a little. headed home in de noon.
simple uhs? but time passed v fast leh =X
3 more weeks of holi left =X
still packed as usual.
now busy w planning of timetable.
supposedly dun haf to do anything, but in order to be in de same classes as my frens,need to change classes =X
sian. makes me feel v sian lo.
n duno why. today really feel rather sian since back home.
jus feel like nua-ing.
somehow feel that there's stuff to do but dun feel like doing anything =X
love to nua nowadays eh.
ayeeee~
this week is once again packed.
w outings though? managed to find days to nua though.
ok la.
though i duno what i can do at home but, i somehow rather nua =X
alrights.
may this week be a good week!
last 10plus days of 2011 alr! WOW =X
this wkend really seemed short. dont seem to spend alot of time tgt =(
but then we had another first time ;) hehs~ nice x)
n tdy when u took out de lucky charm, i feel so touched, i duno why. haha =))
--Merci tout le monde--
10:36 PM
Friday, December 16, 2011
AWESOME DAY TODAY =)))
met up with pri sch tchers - fav mrs lim and mdm foo in the morning.
had some great catch-up and talking, with awesome food~
heard some stories, talked about some near adult stuff, haha.
den played monopoly w ryan n mrs lim haha =))
den shopped ard bugis while waiting for time to pass, before meeting liuye to pass her some stuff.
really glad i have such a good predecessor~
n after that off to meet my awesome urleyians!
nice dinner at medz, rather cheap actually.
but de food that i ordered was okok only.
guess shld have try others? o.O
but luckily nt v ex.
had a bday surprise for great GL tommy x)
took lotsa lotsa photos~!
didn't know orchard central has 12 storeys high. with long escalators.
haha.
had lotsa laughters w them as usual, love my urleyians =))
after that was de worst. red-line train broke down.
lotsa ppl packed ard that area.
by right we can take red line to city hall n change bt there's too many ppl.
so we decided to walk to dhoby.
n clever me n tommy, didnt think of de purple line which can take us frm dhoby to outram, den change to east west line.
instead, we only thought of circle line,which will take us a whole loop before reaching buona vista in 45min.
n so we took de circle line and otw i wondered, why dont they jus link harbourfront and dhoby tgt? den it forms a cycle circle line.
n then i look closer. THEY ARE LINKED. JUS THAT BY PURPLE NORTH EAST LINE INSTEAD OF CIRCLE LINE.
OH MY GOSHHHHH.
*bangs head* lol. really lo. dont know what's in our mind. guess we're too tired alr.
n so, we alighted, took back to dhoby again, n took de originally correct route.
n we wasted like, i think 20min becos of that. plus de walking n stuff? D:
super super tired~
But nonetheless,i think today is a good day =)
tmr, hope morn will be fine cos gonna go finance office again.
but my predecessor told me to not take her emotions to heart.
cos she's one who displays her mood out. if she's in bad mood,will jus vent on you.
so cannot take it seriously and let it affect you.
hope i can do that!
n after consulting some people, somehow decided i shld aim for banking and finance.
if i really cant den will take tourism perhaps? or now im thinking of HR.
but ya, first choice banking n finance bah.
but i will still aim to work in a hotel ;) ahaha.see how see how~
okies~ go settle some stuff n perhaps go to slp le.
nights~
n i cant wait for gossip session w dan n alvin tmr
n i cant wait for chalet on sat =)
--Merci tout le monde--
1:22 AM
Wednesday, December 14, 2011
haish. how.
i feel that im starting to be fearful of my cac job.
or mayb, the finance office lady, i duno.
i always wanted to join a cca becos i dun wan just a study life, but a cca for me to play too.
but now this job is like, another workload upon my studies =X
but well, since i've taken up this job,i cant quit halfway.
gotta chiong it till next year.
really hope that i can manage well. n hope i wont make much mistakes anymore.
today called finance office lady n she dont sound pleasant again.
n i think that was the thingy that made me feel gaga today.
somehow stressed, somehow moody. totally dun feel good.
hope this thingy will be settled soon ba.
gotta be strong enough to bear these scoldings or black faces.
im sure gonna face lotsa such stuff in society next time.
take this as a learning opportunity ba!
tough, but im sure i will benefit eventually huhs?
JIAYOU MANZ >.
but yeah, on de side note, managed to meet some1 today for a short while =)
n went for final theory practice with kaikai, didnt score well leh haha.
hope evaluation can pass nia, seriously =X
sorting out gifts for friends =)
lalala~
cant wait for fri night's supper-cum-catchup session w alvin n dan!
tmr gonna visit mrs lim n mdm foo is gg too! =)
den most prob urley dinner.
n den sat gonna go for chalet! nt sure if staying though haha.
hope it'll not be weird =P
fri gonna go sch in morn, hope it'll be ok!!!
alrights, shall maintain my positive thinking!
i can do this~!
=)))
--Merci tout le monde--
8:19 PM
Tuesday, December 13, 2011
Bac from phuket!!! x))
Wah,reluctant to come bac nia~ received sms abt "work" aka cac even when im thr >.<
De moment im bac i gt de feel tt work is starting again.
Tts why im reluctant to come bac =X
But of cos i do miss sg la! N u ppl x))
This trip was really short, to be honest.
N we didnt had chance to travel round phuket.
Walked alot, ard our hotel area to de beach.
Actually it got kinda bored cos we got nowhr to go n jus keep walking ard de area.
But its really a long way down, walk till we were real tired.
Nvtheless its gd exercise, to make up for the sinful food haha.
Didnt get to buy much stuff cos its nt v worth it, nor did they sell v nice ones.
Managed to get cheap deals for bags though! x)
N gt my "i love phuket" shirt haha
Gt some souvenirs for frens too x)
Food was mainly seafood, n perhaps de crepe/pancake thing?
N phat thai, some noodles :)
Yeah, like that lo.
But de most interesting thing of phuket is really their nightlife.
Im kinda surprised, n it was really really an eye opener.
Our hotel was located near this street which my uncle says is a gay street.
So we saw alot of "ducks" or gigolos?
N of cos, thai gt lotsa ladyboys.
Its quite amazing to see so many of them.
N de gigolos only have their underwear on?! =X
N i think de most disgusting one is seeing de angmohs touching them or they seducing them =X
Quite scary bt interesting hahaha
N then along de street to de beach, almost all r clubs?!
N u see ladyboys everywhr.
But tt is only after 9plus. Go thr in de morn n its an empty street.
But after 10, goodness, totally 180degree change nia.
U see ladyboys dancing or standing at roadside to "jio business".
I think thr r real women among them also la, but im nt v sure o.O
Sonetimes its real hard to figure out.
But wah, u'll nv see tt many of them anywhr.
N they dress real sexily? Its really almost naked kind k.
N mayb cos they r ladyboys, they openly shift their boobs n stuff :O
Some stuff are really hard to say somehow, but well~
i told my mum "i wil not let my bf/husband come here alone. Mayb not even with his guy friends"
Haha. Really leh!! I think confirm will get seduce one sia~
Girls take note hor. Either go w ur bf /husband or if nt dun let them go haha.
But really alot of angmoh there la. Gr old gt young ones.
Young ones r usually couples or grp bt old ones, usually come for the ladyboys or gigolos =X
I really find it disgusting sia. I duno why lolol.
I jus cannot accept bah o.O
But in all i think its still quite nice la! Gd experience hahaha :)
Nv knew de night life there was really so wow.
Oh n yes. Everywhr u hear ppl asking if u wan massage hahahha.
Photos will be up on facebook soon! Do take a look x)
I guess tts abt all tt i wanna update abt bahs? Haha.
Woots~! bac to reality, time for work le hahaz.
N also play of cos, more events lining up, awesome~!
shall make full use of my remainining holi~!
--Merci tout le monde--
4:51 PM
Friday, December 09, 2011
1) finished "hi my sweetheart"! x)
2) flying to phuket tmr~!
3) had an awesome day today! and a packed week this week i realised.
wanna update about point no. 3 x)
this week.. mon.. i slacked at home ehs?
then tues i updated alr. bad morning with gd noon outing with girls.
wed.. went to find my predecessor and sort out stuff, den went cac room to do my own stuff.
thurs,went back to sch, settled the tue morn troublesome stuff with pres.
then had exco meeting, then exco cohesion at sentosa~!
didnt really do much stuff, a short time at sentosa only.
only played a game act? we only stayed thr for 3 plus 4 hours? haha.
i think this was the shortest sentosa outing i ever had :O
wonder what did we play last time. we can actually spend de whole day there o.O
mayb different people behs~
but ok la, nt that bad =))
today, awesome`! packed ttm haha.
morn went for morn jog with yz.
though it didnt pay off cos i ate some sinful stuff tonight =X
only ate 1 cracker and an apple for breakfast and had subway wrap for lunch in sch.
but dinner was pasta with garlic bread, and after that cheesecake w caramel frap :O
anw went back sch collect stuff and realised gt quite some stuff to do.mayb will sort out later or tmr depending on my mood~
then after that went for FTT practice of which i failed all 3 =X but i improved everytime? haha =)
met asy after that. dinner at pasta mania in the end cos bbq chicken closed down alr!!!
changed to some real korean restaurant without noodles and rice =X
after that went for chilling out session at starbucks - awesome~! x)
i really love chatting with her haha. non-stop since we met at westmall.
really talked about everything and anything under the sun haha.
complaints, happy stuff, sad stuff, gossips, updates, haha.
n then we talked about the past, those memories in fuhua.
how we got to get closer, what brought us together, what we always talk about last time.
how we miss band, how we miss the crappy times with the 2C people and TCB.
those eerie and goosebumps about some1 and some1, but yet so funny.
shared about our friends, our updates, what we doing now, what dilemma we facing, what problems we facing.
expressed our love for each other hahahha.
gossipped about others and their updates.
and then about future, housewives issue again - how we dun wanna be full-time housewives but dont mind being part-time one haha.
about her going overseas perhaps and finding overseas husband there.
or about me migrating overseas in the future but who knows~
about all the stuff that might happen, our family, our loved ones, our feelings, everything..
love talking to her. alone. haha.
my les partner. n she can always give me good advices, n im thankful for that.
n oh, we came to discover and conclude on smth.
quoted from her friend bala though, that people who face break-ups, will change.
yeah, we looked upon a few cases including ourselves and yeah, it's true.
mostly, if able to survive, you'll change to be a better, stronger person.
n we shared on how we had changed, haha.
still rmb elf told me, when i got into a r/s in sec 3, i changed to be a happier person.
no more emo nemo like i was in sec 2. n asy agreed today.haha.
n she said, if i was still who i am in sec 1/2, i probably cant survive until today.
nice, glad to know that i'd grown up to be a stronger person =)
was talking to yz about facing those tough things and times in life - my current situation in cac now and her past experience in starhub.
n yeah,like what asy say, its the tough times that made us stronger.
indeed. agree to the max.
like what i said that time, since we chose this path, we gotta face it.
once we are able to overcome these obstacles, we'll be experienced and we'll be a much stronger person =)
n then we went on to talk, on whether we're happy today. n we both felt that we are? haha =)
life is not perfect. i dont smile every single day. i jus cried a few days back. haha.
but like i've always said, im thankful for my friends and loved ones around me.
though life might nt be as smooth as we wished it'd be, i have these people around me,to help to put a smile on my face =)
im satisfied, im contented. really.
i dont need anymore, actually. having these people with me, is enough.
its easy to be happy and contented.
just dont expect much. and be glad that you're still alive today, and that things are good around you.
its so much easier and better to feel happy than to feel miserable, isn't it?
its either happy, or sad. so why make urself sad? jus live ur days happily =)
it'll be so much better =)
my wish, is for everyone to be happy and contented with their lives.
remember that no matter how tough life is, you'll be able to survive it, with your loved ones around you, be it friends, bgf, family, etc.
when life gives you lemon, make lemonade ;)
--Merci tout le monde--
11:21 PM
Tuesday, December 06, 2011
tired. duno why im so tired.
today, okok la.
morning was bad. very bad.
so sick and tired of being scolded by the fin office lady already.
really, everytime after getting scolded, totally feel like giving up the job.
really feel that im nt suitable for this job.
n sometimes i do wonder why i wanna take up exco position.
no doubt de ppl r nice n its a gd experience, but the burden is really rather big.
but well, like what some1 said, it can be done.
since we'd chosen this path ourselves, we have no one else to blame.
since we chose to take this route, this position, no matter how hard it is, we gotta pull through it.
if we were to just give up like that, what does it tell about us?
people who cannot take hardship. people who give up after facing problems.
so yeah, we will pull through this. we will push on.
we will prove the people, the world, and ourselves, that nothing is impossible, that we can do this.
I believe if we can get through this, we will be a better person =)
JIAYOUUUUUUUU!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
so glad so glad, that i have my lovely friends around me.
people who will immediately get back to me when im feeling down, like xiaoclar, and my girlfriends, and jia, and others.
so glad so glad, that i have some1 with me.
who will allow me to complain, and let me know that im not alone, and that we're all in this tgt =)
thanks people. without you guys, i really would have collapsed.
i would have given up and not be able to hang on there.
n i know my mum is there for me too. wanted to tell her bt i know i'll only worry her more.
so yeah, shall nt tell her abt this.
hopefully everything will get better after i clarified all with my predecessor tmr.
jiayou!!!!! I SHALL NOT GET SCOLDED BY HER AGAIN >.<
I WANNA PROVE HER WRONGGGGGGGGG RARRRRRRRRRR~!!!!!!
on a side note, went bugis today with the girls.
nice lunch at tcc =)
didnt buy anything but was ok la,didnt felt v ga.
probably cos i dun need anything bahs.
3rd time there this wk? haha. n im gg de 4th time this fri =X lolol.
1st time was iluma instead of bugis actually. but still ard de same area~ haha.
4 times in a wk,awesome not?
hao la. dun wan blog le.
bye ppl. wish me luck tmr~
somehow, when we cant meet on wkends, i dont really look forward to it coming =X
miss u ~
--Merci tout le monde--
10:02 PM
Monday, December 05, 2011
watching "hi, my sweetheart", jus finished ep 5.
but this was an episode that kinda brought me to reflect on some stuff =)
some associated words/phrases:
being serious in love, forking out all ur feelings, regrets, happiness.
xue hai changed, no longer trusting love, cos he was hurt by baozhu.
but little did he know, she didnt want the r/s to become that way too.
it was her mum's doing, and she cant do anything. in fact, she's feeling very bad too.
like what she mentioned:
当你在伤心的时候，也许对方比你更伤心。
n den it occurred to me that somehow, this seemed to be true in most cases?
one party always initiate smth, the breakup or whatever, without saying the reason.
n then de other party will be sad and blame/hate the original party.
little did they know that the original party is feeling much worse than them.
what to do? who to blame? both?
or the heaven for playing a joke?
actually.. now i think, its the heaven's playing, but not to play a joke on us.
heaven wants us to test and see the strength of the r/s.
that period might be terrible, but that's de purpose.
if the 2 are not meant to be, this will serve as a lesson learnt.
a lesson learnt on the type of guy/girl that is not suitable for u.
n this will allow u to appreciate the next one better.
if the 2 are meant to be, they will get through this obstacles and get back tgt again.
one day, the truth will be out =)
mayb cos this is what i experienced, so i feel this way.
nt all will agree with me i guess but well, i dun need ur agreement haha.
sometimes i will think, if all these were to not happen, i guess i'll really have regrets within me.
im so glad that things turned out the other way.
though i admit those times were quite terrible at times, at least its all worth it in the end.
im glad, and im thankful, that im blessed with this.
somehow i have so much to say but i dont know what to say now.
but jus now while watching de show, alot of feelings and scenes suddenly pop up in my head.
if you love that some1, dun lose hope, dun give up. grab your chance.
especially when u r certain there is smth there.
but if you know he/she dont like u, or that its totally impossible, den i guess, let go.
try it first, give it a shot, you wont know until you try.
but if u tried n tts it, let go,move on,find another.
that's perhaps not yours.
so dont harp on it, look forward, the one that belongs to you might jus be in front =)
most importantly,have no regrets.
jus chiong.
there's nth to be shy about. if ur happiness is there, grab it. dont lose that chance.
becos once u lost it, it might be gone forever.
you only live once, so cherish all de chances you have and grab them when they are there.
even if it failed, at least, u tried. no regrets =)
we're lucky. we lost each other once, but we got back.
though painful, it made us know the feeling of pain, smth that we wont want anymore.
it made us know how big a space we have in our heart for each other.
though we didnt chat, didnt meet, we are still present in each other's heart/mind.
ytd's chat brought back those memories again. the simple life/love that we once had.
though its nt as simple now, i believe it'll still be awesome =)
more memories making in process.. nv ending .. =)
--Merci tout le monde--
12:17 PM
Sunday, December 04, 2011
wheeee~! =)
finally, all painting done~!
satisfied with my room, haha. managed to arrange de stuff n its a neat room now!
i hope i'll be able to keep it like that =X
though usually i'm unable to >.<
i will try this time!!!
hmms~ caught "already famous" ytd, not too bad la!
i gt cry ehs =X duno why wl say its quite bad hahah.
though i admit xiaogui didnt appear alot of times and he seemed quite retarded.
but still, i think de story plot wasnt too bad =)
today, didnt started off well cos of smth that happened ard midnight.
thought it'll be a dull day, quite affected in de morn.
but everything went off well in the noon n onwards =)
went bugis! didnt really look at clothes though, thought will be better to shop with the girls,haha.
looking for bags, but cant find! =( didnt see any nice totes that i expected to see.
sad leh~ i thought will see nice de.
but its all small bags. dun have the big ones that i wan! sad~
in de end went to bugis junction and found a bagpack at 77th street! awesome xD hahaha
i like x)) lalala~
hope on tue when i go with girls, will see new stuff again hehs~
haish. smhow feeling abit ga now cos of my cac stuff =X
duno if i'll be able to deal with the stuff.
on fri received call frm president, den makes me feel like i duno lotsa stuff.
ytd she smsed me to ask if i know what is asset budgeting =X
duno duno, everything also duno =(
meeting my predecessor on wed, hopefully it will help =((
rarr, jiayou manz!!!
im gonna do things well n prove that finance office wrong!!!
tsktsktsk.
I CAN DO THIS!!!!!! woosh!!!!!
--Merci tout le monde--
9:47 PM
Saturday, December 03, 2011
HI STALKER JODIE =DDDDDDDD hahahaha
didnt know till now, u're still stalking my blog hor, ultimate stalker~~~ hahhaha.
secretly finding out about my life right, u ah~ =P
well anws~ NICE DINNER TONIGHT X))))
met up with awesome NJ geogers~! talk & complain about life now~
gossip bout the NJ times, the teachers, the people, the funny moments hahaha.
had so much laughter with them x) I LIKE (Y)
was still thinking what we shall do after dinner but we ended up spending our whole night there?
from 6 plus all de way to 9 plus haha.
blame them for their slow service~ =X
didn't try their pizza today and their chicken wasnt tt gd.
de ice cream was super big portion though o.O
mayb next time shld really jus have their pizza~!
n i guess 4e5 outing can go there~! nt much ppl and can sit quite a big grp of ppl =)
n the food quite cheap? n can stay there long hahhaa.
awesomez~! shall discuss w est~!
and I WANNA SINGGGGGGG =XXXXX
but im quite scared i'll pack all de fun events den suddenly asked to go back cac do stuff =X
so trying to leave days out. aye~
shall ask est when she free for singing~!
n n n, mus plan days to go for driving practical lessons also? hmmmm~
i've yet to read the book yet though.
think next fri go settle PDL during practice den see how again bahs~
aye~ feel like dec will pass v quickly lor.tsktsk~!
hope not please~ i wanna enjoy my holi onez~~~ =((
so many things that i wanna do kays~ rarrrrrrrrr~~~
bought my black book today, shall start planning on how im gonna do de stuff.
probably going paper market tmr if possible to get some materials x)
alrights~! shall go to slp soon x)
oh yeah! had a chat last night from 12plus to 2 with dan.haha.
so nice x) talked about alot of stuff, yay~!
i love htht and catchup sessions.`! more please~~~ <3
nights dear =)
--Merci tout le monde--
1:10 AM
Thursday, December 01, 2011
缘分，是个很奇妙的东西。
im really amazed by fate, and its doings. haha.
im getting closer n closer to people unknowingly.
like, AAACJX? i wasnt really close to the kids, cos they were all in 3rd clar.
but one day we jus met cos alvin said there's smth n asked me to go along.
n thr, we got closer, like a family now.
like, dorothy?
we were nv in de same class, only in band. not even that close in band either?
but somehow we chatted online knowing we were both gg ntu.
talked about hall, and then we start to get close, even closer after getting into ntu n hall.
like, yunzhong?
though in de same pri sch, in same 4e5, we weren't that close.
but randomly,suddenly, started to jio each other to run, den to study tgt for finals.
n now we lunched tgt during finals. mug tgt. run tgt. n we're gonna go lib n borrow books n bake =D
its jus miraculously weird, funny, cool, whatever.ahaha.
since pri/sec sch, i knew them, yet we only got closer in uni. how ironic?
though sometimes when i look at facebook,
i will wonder how did the uni frens get so close.
perhaps their tutorial grp is really close. n yeah, was a little envious.
but i thought, why shld i be?
though im nt that close to my uni frens, they are awesome too =)
n despite from the tutorial mates, i have my urleyians and my exco who r nice to be with too.
n most importantly, i have my true friends around me.
people say, we dont need alot of friends, we just need a few good ones.
n i think i have a lot of good ones.
my girlfriends, aaacjx, they are all awesome people.
fuhuanites ftw~! haha x)
im so so so glad that i have them.
they made me who i am, they made everything in life seemed so good, so ok.
everytime i face problems, i have them there for me to complain, to seek advice from.
everytime i feel low, feel stressed, i have them there to support me, to push me on.
they made me feel, all these stress, failures, are nth.
i have them with me, no matter what =)
thanks people. you guys are awesome. i love u all!!!!
x)))
im so thankful i have you guys.
having you guys is enough =))
oohs, im suddenly reminded of sl n jack! haha.
they are another pair of friends that i miraculously became closer to, due to fate haha.
friends that confide to me when i only know them for weeks/months.
friends that im able to help, when they faced trouble, and witness them get back their happiness again x)
so happy, haha. a great good deed hehs~
cant wait to go out with them again, wheeee~!
my life is a happy and blessed one, becos of all these people~! x)))
BIG LOVESSSSSSS~
as for u, u know ur importance in my heart la hehs =P
dun need to openly confess la hors ;)
--Merci tout le monde--
5:31 PM
