i feel happy + guilty =X
i bought another pair of shoes!!! >.<
im happy cos its de pair that i wanted, a pair that i nv had before =)
means its nt pumps, not those slipper type de..
its heels though, smth like gladiator type =) happy!!!
but guilty cos its ex..
wanted to buy cheap one u know.. there's these few pairs, which cost $9.90 per pair, $15 for 2 pairs.
cheap right!!!
den i saw this heels, pumps type de.. super nice la..
like shiny shiny de.. n i wore it,nice!!!
den wanted to buy another one so that it'll cost $15 for 2 pairs.
so chose another pumps.
that's when i saw this gladiator heels, which i really really like, n want.
price :$39.90. 50 PERCENT.can la! $20? so i took it.
den i was deciding.. if i take it,i shld nt take de previous 2? cos i'll be buying 3 pairs lehs!!!
too much right? as in, tai guo fen =X
so i decided to forgo de super nice shiny heels, cos i think i'll rarely wear it..
n wanted to buy de pumps cos its dark one,which i kinda wanna buy..
but in de end,i let it go too.. cos i've gt too many pumps le.. considered 3 pairs?
so yeahs.. i let go.n only bought one..
to think of it, i actually save $15 =))
but still, i spent $39.90, cos de 50% off is for the SECOND pair =X
n so~ i got my mum to buy one that she wants, n she bought it =)
kinda thinking of that shiny black heels now =(( its really pretty nice =X
but yeahs~ forget it~ i really think i'll rarely wear =X
n again, this pair is white =X
arghhh! makes me keep thinking of that black one~~~ boohs~


n yeahs.. spend spend spend!
its GSS leh,how can dun spend =X really..
i saw this purse that i like in JP ytd! 50%! really 50% this time round.lol.
it was initially $60 leh, den now $30!!!
wanted to buy on mon,when i go with asy..
but then.. im thinking,shld i buy? or shld i wait?
cos i think i wanna go buy a cardigan lehs..
a cardigan that i can put on even when im wearing a dress so i'll still look nice..
cos im having about 2 occasions that i'll need to wear dresses..
n i think it'll be cold,but all i have is jacket. so i need to find cardigan..
im thinking of buying it from cottonon or newlook, when going out with clique this fri..
or mayb dano uh? cos i rmb seeing this very nice n comfy one..
assuming that's around $20 plus? then i'll be spending $50 lehs!!
so im kinda in dilemma if i shld buy de purse..
i wan it, cos i nv had that.. n its quite worth it to buy now since its cheap right?
but my purse is still well now..
so shld i wait for better choices? but wat if its more ex next time?
arghhhh cant decide >.<
i shall ask elf n asy on mon for advice.
they'll always give me gd advice =D (i hope so =X)

wellwell~
spent time today at lib.
i think it wasn't very productive today.
but at least i finished reading half de topics.
doing de qns tmr..
then mon revise, tues do de tutorial. marvellous! =)))
gonna check math ans now..
den think i'll go read geog =)
too much chem today,shall leave it to tmr =))

mon study date with asy n elf! =))
bet it'll be a day of fun and laughter, and of work too =X
we shall mug, plus catch up, plus have fun~! wooohs~! x))
cant wait =DDD 11:21 PM

i think i found de reason behind my unhappiness in NJ.
its her. really her. n her..
life's kinda good without them =X
de others are fine.really,just them =X
that explains why they're gd frens =X

i wonder wat will happen if they sees this =X
but i doubt so huh..

hmmhmm.. i think im gonna go lib tmr!
but im quite worried that i wont have de mood tmr =X
hopefully i'll still have the mood to study at home if i dun go..
n im gonna cut my hair tmr! i think o.O
wanna cut my fringe.. n jus cut my hair a little.? =)) 10:25 PM

woohoo~!
finally the day that everyone awaits.lol.
today's really kinda a waste of time in sch =X
we only have math? =X
no PE, no econs, and GP was jus watching video, and we're released half hr earlier..
ytd was slack too. only math and geog, n leadership bahs?
econs was cancelled..
had a total of 4 and a half breaks today?!?! n that's why we ended at 5 -.-"
n kinda slacked throughout.. only did a few pages of chem =X
n de rest of the time was spent in canteen? breaks till i feel sian sia. for de first time =X

but after 5 went for buffet with SC n octave ppl! x)
hohohos~ fun fun fun x) n full full full =X
anws dhoby ghaut's sakura is indeed better than jurong's/clementi's to some extent..
maybe its partly becos we went early today. we're de first.
so everything was jus displayed and we got all the first-round food. n it was great!
though its only 1 storey, lesser than clementi,i think i'd say its better than jurong's?
more sushi types.. more food in general, esp those raw food and seafood..
love de prawn! n de mussel? a lot of things!!! ice cream is nice too =D
but ya, de cake doesn't taste that nice o.O
but nevertheless,i enjoyed de food there =DDD
n de atmosphere is good! n its nt that hot though we're outside x)
n we had fun crapping n laughing throughout..hahas x)
love SC n O x))) we're a great gang tgt! hohohos~

my aim for this june, really,is that i can mug =X
really mus start mugging le.. esp my geog.. seriously i cant imagine what will happen >.<
i realli got a feeling that i'll die during prelims..
all de topics lehs!!! =XXX
hopefully i can get the momentum and STARTMUGGING.
wanted to start today, but apparently i think i failed =X
mayb i'll finish gg thru my math lecture test b4 i sleep..
tmr's organ is in de morn, 9 =X i think my pitch will go totally off >.<
wellwell~ gotta work hard~ 2 more weeks to exam :O

BIG EVENTS THIS MONTH:
- TAKING OUT BRACES - 10th June =D
- ORGAN EXAM - 9th June =X
- CRUISE - 18th June x)
- OUTINGS/MEET-UPS!!!
31st may - study date with asy alvin
11/12 may - fsmb camp
4th june - kbox with clique!
- HARMOC ELECTS STUFF
interview - 14th june
elects camp - 10th june

weeeee~
may this june holidays past slowly~~~~ =))) 12:16 AM

EXPLODING
EXPLODING
EXPLODING >.<

i seriously wonder if any info stayed inside my head.
i dun dare to recap >.<
mayb its time to read n focus on gp now..
BUT.
still mus memo egs/stats?!?! >.<


I CANT IMAGINE A'S >.<
I WAN MY GOOD MEMORISING SKILLS BACK!!!!!!! 12:41 PM

o.O
i wonder if my organ tcher is made to propaganda me.lol.
last week she mentioned about it, then today she talked to me again.
somehow she realised that im J2 alr.lol. n she asked about post-jc life.
i said maybe business,den she asked if i wanna consider music in MOE?
she said MOE is opening and recruiting for music teachers in govt sch..
will be gg NIE, den will need to bond for 4 years..
suddenly reminded me of wat ms lee said that day..
if wanna bond, bond during uni, with the duno what awards thing..
somewhat better o.O

hmm.. den ms tan seemed to be promoting for MOE.lol.
talked about being civil servant, then got a quite high salary..
n quite some stuff. seemed to be encouraging me to go..
but i think i'll have a quite limited path..
cos i duno much about music history, esp when i see those from MEP =X
n my theory will be real basic. grade 5? that's provided i pass it this oct =X
but then again, i might be learning all this in uni..
hmm.. but its like,learning history! =X n playing organ.. it seemed like we'll lose out to those playing piano =X
duno lehs.. quite some considerations here n there..
but then again, it does sound somehow good..
n im thinking,if i were to go to pri sch, i can teach math too! =D
but if i go under de music course in NIE, then doubt I can take de math one right?
nt very sure about it.. guess i'll explore the NIE/MOE website when im free o.O

and smth quite sad..
she said yamaha is based on commission =XXX
so i think if i wanna go and teach after A's, it can only be my part time job lo.
cos its like..im new leh.. nt easy to get students!!!
n i wonder if they'll teach you how to teach students..
if not.. uhh.. i wonder how i can survive =X
mayb i can seek help from ms tan though.lol..

hmm.. music..
i did consider before that i wanna excel in that,
and have a career related to it..
but then.. it seemed like i wont be able to excel much in that..
n in sg, the market may be quite small uh.. =XX
ahya.. see how bah..
consider again after A's..
n i guess i really have to spend time to research and consider..
right now..
hotel management [under business (management)? im thinking of human-resource too o.O]
banking, perhaps also under management?
teaching - music, math, preferably.
these are the main jobs bahs..
aside from those, will be like tuition teacher? yamaha music teacher? o.O
i wonder.. 3:51 PM

haish.. sometimes i really wonder.. =X
m i doing the right choice? i believe i am..
n i know somehow they're wrong by choosing nt to go..
but then again, there are pros n cons for either choice =X

to go:
- essential. since my gp is so lousy.
- useful. to some extent. like wat ms kaur said, its another chance to practise another compre.
who knows, what they teach will really be useful in some sense?
- i feel i should go. at least its another chance.
who knows i may really improve? its better than nt going isn't it?
at least i go,i may improve.if i dont go, most likely i wont improve.at all. nt even 0.01%?

not to go:
-more time for other things,like study econs?
-can go home early
-it may be a waste of time.

i'll still go though.i did my work.
n i dun wanna be de last in my class.i dun wanna pull down my class.
really hope can get at least a B, or a C this time round =X
i kept quiet when they said they dun wanna go.
"ahya,it'll be a waste of time. i nv do the work anw,so its useless going"
i really kept quiet. but in my mind, i thought..
somehow, i feel gd cos i did do my work. i listened to my teacher, i had another extra practice.
but honestly, i'll not feel gd if they did well and i didn't.
but then again, from the start, i'm already lousier than them. so i don't really have anything much to say.
i really hope that life can be fair for once, and show that people who put in effort shld receive more rewards.
i really hope that going tmr will really help me..
really feel like proving to them that they are so wrong..

she mentioned smth today "ahya.i won't care about the work alr.i'll jus study"
maybe it's fuhua's/ms yeo's teaching bahs.. that gave me this mentality.
no matter wat,i'll finish all my work. i still think its essential.
u do, u'll understand whr u got it right/wrong, n u can learn better.
having the same mentality as ms yeo, i believe that we mus do work that teacher assigns.
that's de purpose right.if it's really useless, why shld they give it to us?
well well. mayb de work is really useless in her school.
then im realli glad im in fuhua. a neighbourhood sch.but a gd sch.
im glad i went to such schools,that developed me into who i am today.
i may not be the best. i may not be good in certain stuff.
but i believe i have the right morals/values to bring me far in life..
i decided nt to pon over it anymore.
honestly i really cant find a common communicating point between us..
i so miss my 4e5 peeps =(( really.. 7:42 PM

wooh~ mother's day is over!
didn't do much things..
but gave mummy her presents this morn =))
she loved the handphone pouch =DDD she even told aunt that its nice n she likes it..
woooooo!!! =DDD very happy to hear that =))
went out with mum to jp to join my aunt n family for the mall walk.
the whole family came down today to accompany my aunt n uncle cos its mother's day.hahas.
managed to do some work out. though its only a almost 2km walk, it was quite useful.
we walked rather quickly,and sweated a lot. cool! =))
n we got delifrance breakfast for just $2.50 instead of $6.50 =)) yayy~!
after that went to fairprice to buy things.. den went to buy hair accessories =))
n i think we went back home after that? =))
then read newspaper,bathed etc.. sat down in front of the tv from 2 till jus now =X
but i did do my work in front of the tv =)
n for once i think im quite efficient =)
didn't do much. but i completed like,3 of my hw? =)
finished geog. finished econs. finished math fpq.left assignment,which is due on thurs =))
did organ theory too,which took me quite long (n its jus an 8-bar composing melody assignment =X)
hopefully its correct =X
having organ tmr cos i missed it ytd..

danced walk-in song jus now =D
glad that i still rmb it =)
mayb dancing mass dance songs later.hahas =P
really in love with dancing! wait till after A's.. im gonna search for dance classes i think x)
meanwhile reading math too. math test this thurs =X
reading thru vectors now.. hope to finish reading the whole book before i slp.
then perhaps tmr i'll complete looking at the qns.. hope i can do some complex no tmr too.
oh nono,i think i will look thru binomial n poisson first. since im doing it recently =)
happy, cos i managed to solve all fpq jus now =D without much frustration,wooh! =D
tmr gonna do assignment in de morn i think.
n i'll do gp in de noon in lib bahs..
worried that i cant stay still for 1 h 30min at home =X
yups.no sch tmr for NJCians, cos it's college day in lieu =)
i wonder if i'll see quite a number of NJCians in de lib tmr o.O
well well. hope im able to start on econs tmr too =X haven started on any! n its like..2 more weeks to ct?!??! >.< gosh~
wish me luck =XXX 12:19 AM

WEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE
HAPPYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYY
=DDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDD


En Armonia II was a great great great success x))))))
not to deny that there are indeed some imperfections that could be better,
but i think we really did a very wonderful job x))
all my worries did not come true =D
the band was stable together, except for some bars in some pieces..
but generally, we were tgt, n i think we did not speed up =D
THATS GOOD!!! =DDD
n i seriously love our bad romance today. or rather, jus now.hahas.
it was the best! ok no la,i think we had 1 rather gd one quite some time ago too.
but today's was great too x))
the feel was totally there k.. n the speed is jus right. and the drums and guitars are on beat. =D
jus that the last part was a little off,but we managed to salvage it =DDD
though i heard some nt so gd comments about attitude jus now,hahas.
but was glad that most of the audience gave thumbs up x)
that was really satisfying x)

n most importantly, it was the sense of fulfillment and accomplishment and contentment and satisfaction =)
everything did not go to waste.
that 2 full weeks of practices really paid off.
tired,indeed.
but if this was the result, im glad we had that 2 weeks of full practices x)
really really happy that it turned out so well.
n i feel real proud of the exco, cos we managed everything ourselves.
not much of teachers' guidance, but mostly planned and arranged by ourselves x)
marvellous ppl =D we were AWESOME =D

n yup. everything had came to an end.
its realli so fast. cant believe it.
that 1plus hr today was totally amazingly fast.
zoooomz. and we finish playing 3 songs?!
n zooooomz.. we ended the concert. hahas.
really wanna thank all ppl for coming. they made it all worthwhile.
was super happy to know that we sold so many tickets. almost fullhse i believe? x)
really super happy sia.
i realise i keep repeating myself. but im really really very happy.hohohos..
MANY PEOPLE SAID WE WERE GREAT.
THEY SAID OUR MUSIC WAS AWESOME.
THEY WERE AMAZED BY HOW HIP HARMOC CAN GET =DDD
HOHOHOHOHOHOOHOHOHOHOHO
lalallalalalas~
BIG THANK YOU TO EXCO.
BIG THANK YOU TO THE BAND.
BIG THANK YOU TO THE TEACHERS.
BIG THANK YOU TO THE PA.
BIG THANK YOU TO THE AUDIENCE X)))

lalalalallalaallas~
i cant stop thinking of wat had happened jus now =D


ohohs~ nice dinner today! hohoho~
fun time crapping and laughing non-stop.hahas.
LOVE 2ND CHRO~~!!! 11:39 PM

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