heya~! =)
time passed rather fast today?
was doing stuff since i start work, all de way till lunch time =)
i like it like that! hahas..
stupid ivan. duno wat he's talking abt =X
no definite ans, so a bit diff to tell him its wendys treat or mcdonalds treat =X
think tell him later after work.cos now gt others, abit inconvenient =X

anws.. yups..
i was working n suddenly thoughts jus came across my mind..
then thought abt wat xiaoclar said ytd.
oh btw, xiaoclar n elf came to my hse ytd x) xiaoclar helped with the choco cornflakes~! hahas =)
then yups.. we were jus randomly chatting while doing the cornflakes..
then we were at some random topic, abt nj life n ppl we meet n watever.
n she said ya,that time elf n her were talking,n they also feel that im rather lucky..
not like elf,suay like mad.lol..
and yeahs.. suddenly was thinking abt this.. lucky..

i think im really lucky.. or mayb, blessed?
i feel that i always get good stuff? in a lot of areas bahs..
firstly i have a comfortable life? im able to get a lot of things that i wan..
yeah, want. sometimes, they're really not needs =X
i think i got a lot of wants.. so much so that i think, i do take things for granted at times? =X
uhm.. im able to learn stuff? like ballet n organ??
im able to go for tuition in pri sch when im weak in subjects.. yeahs..

secondly.. i think im really fortunate cos i always get good ppl ard me..
i always have nice classes - 3J, 6L, 2C, 4E5..
3J is rather nice, but ya, maybe cos we're still young, nth much to elaborate on..
but 6L, 2C, 4E5, they are all awesome classes..
the people are nice, and enthu, and fun..
6L is like the class that starts the trend for a lot of stuff.
kinda like, work hard play hard?
2C is enthu like mad, the whole year was crazy to the max..
we're always high, crazy, noisy, but studies.. ok la.. nt that bad actually? hahas =)
4E5 wasn't gd initially in sec3 but in sec 4 it was totally great..
we were so super united and had that common goal..
no internal conflicts; we worked hard tgt as a class, determined to make miss yeo proud =)
yeahs.. im really glad i had these classes..
i think im so fortunate to have such nice classes.. really =))

thirdly, of cos, the people ard me..
they include my parents of cos.. raising me up since im born..
i think there's too much to say and my parents wont be reading this anws so yups.
shall keep them in my heart =) hahas..
and of cos, my dearest friends..

pri sch - awesome jia. the one who's always with me,all de way till now..
n our families, somehow, know each other a little.. hahas..
really like sisters i feel? hahas =) i feel comfortable gg her hse n talking to her mum n stuff =D

sec sch- alot bahs? hahas..
i meet great frens in 2C, which many went to 4e5 with me =)
even if we dont, we still remained as close =)
like dan, alvin? still close up to now.. very close =)
then from 2C to 4e5, there's asy, wl?
from 4e5, p3,kl,est.. hahas..
which is why.. i always go out for dinners =X
cos i need to meet them! hahas..
diff ppl on diff days =)
there's the 4e5 bday celebration gang now? hahas..
n then there's de fuhua-nj peeps x)
yeahs.. n not forgetting from band.. i met tcb.. i met aaacjx =)
tcb first, after that aaacjx.. hahas
though tcb is kinda.. split up now.. but that period, i really had lotsa fun with them..
n now, aaacjx, my family.. so close that we can share everything =))
thats why i say.. im really fortunate..
i had super great days in fuhua becos of all these ppl..
of cos there are the not so good ones, but i dont let them bother me much.
cos i'll probably jus treat them as gossip topics and gossip with the nice ones =P
yeahs..
so.. i really feel im blessed, and fortunate, and really lucky.
i met alot of nice people =) n they're always with me.. always =) hahas

as for NJ, i guess it'll be my geog girls? hahas..
yes, perhaps in NJ,i did meet the not so good ones.. more than in fuhua definitely..
but, yea, they made me treasure the great ones x)
so,im still lucky.
cos at least,i have those good ones =D

and then fourthly.. let me think..
uhmm.. i can only think of :memories.. hahas
n its actually made up by the people stated above =) hahas..
ohohs~! i know ~!
this is in probably in addition to the above..
i really think im so lucky to meet good people. not jus the above people.
even like, as an OGL? i managed to get good OGs, OG that are high n enthu - OG9!
n i managed to meet good ignis OGLs..
yeahs~ see wat i mean? i think im really blessed x)

oh okays.. not suitable to elaborate much here, but yeah.. fifthly, i had a nice r/s?
details are not to be revealed here =X but yeahs..
if i were to sorta compare with others, i think im really fortunate to have that bahs..
it was nice, great, and im contented that i have that.
smile becos it happened. yups. i really think, i will..
im really glad that at least i had that before.. so i'll smile, becos it happened =))

yeahs~! so.. after all these.. yeah..
ohohs!!! there's more that i wanna say!
i duno if this is considered lucky..
i hope its not, cos i hope its really cos of my hard work..
but i feel, at times, its my luck that i can score well..
be it in small tests, examinations, or the major Os, or my organ exams..
i always think im lucky to be able to pass them with flying colours? (mostly, but i mean, de major ones?)
but yeahs.. this makes me worry though..
im afraid that if its cos of luck, n that im so lucky till now,
does that mean that my luck will end soon?
but well, we shldn't depend on luck in life uh?
so i guess, no matter wat, i'll still put in my effort n pull it through =)
i believe i can~! =))

yeahs.. that's probably wat i wanna say bahs =)
to me,i realli think im the luckiest..
i feel blessed to be able to meet all the nice people..
to be loved by so many great people..
to be able to experience so many great stuff..
to be able to have so many great memories =))
THE LUCKIEST =)) 11:52 AM

别说 什么都别说 嘘..
你静静躺在我胸口
紧握着你的手
我多么的不舍
因为我们爱过

抱紧一些 如果看不见
我的明天 要怎么永远
i dont wanna lose you
你每个笑脸 我都看得见
那么绝对 那么的完美
如果没有明天

心痛 是因为太爱我 ho..
命运却逼得我低头 you know
我心里的不舍
我永远都记得
你会永远爱我

我想轻轻对你说 绝不会忘记你
在我心中 还有个角落装着相爱的回忆

在抱紧一些 如果看不见
我的明天 要怎么永远
i dont wanna lose you
我无法改变 我又能怪谁
一滴眼泪 让人都心碎
我们没有明天 12:15 AM

im yawning =X so tired >.<
i think also cos a little sian =X
anws. hope xiaoclar managed to see my msg n hope wat i guessed is right..
so hope that she managed to find the right one and can key in my combi!
if nt she has to take de standard combi?! take lit when she didn't take in sec sch?!
hopefully she can find it !!!
she hasn't reply =XXX

anws today is fri!
yay~ tmr's wkend~!
i think i shld bake like.. a bar of choco today? as in use 1 bar to do choco cornflakes..
if nt.. i think tmr im nt free..
sun.. scared mum wanna clean up the kitchen,den duno can do anot?! =X
but if i cant do on sun then die le sia.
mon gg out with fuhua-nj peeps,cant do!
tue maybe gg out with ms yeo n 4e5. if miss yeo's free..so cant do too!
if nt mayb can chiong on tue o.O
rarr rarr~ hope there's enough time~!
anws today pu song ling last epi on tv! =DDD 3:40 PM

hohoho. this is for my regular reader JODIE YEO =DDDDD
ahahahas x))
im super surprised when she told me she always read my blog =X hahas.
who ask u nv tag or wat!!!!! =P
anws, thanks a lot girl!
u totally brighten up my day k!
i was smiling all de way after i read ur sms in the morning~! x)
love you la~!!!!!! hahas
still rmb u were super crappy n crazy in OG2.hohos~
n nope, we wont shu yuan k!!!
we'll get back soon~!!! =DDDDDDD
can go sing all de songs that we always sing in limlim lesson. hahas!
n we can find songs to "sing to" limlim~! =P
go sing kbox or movie next time kies~!
miss you~!!!!

i miss li er too~! was msging her ytd due to some stuff. hohohoho~
geogers rocks~!!!
jus de few of us though =DDDDDDD
love you girls all de ways~!!!!!!!!!! x)))) 8:44 AM

eeeyer.. im addicted to blogging le lehs =X oops =X
anws watching ghost writer now =D hehhehs.. though i watched it online ytd =P

hmm i was looking thru NJ college book =)
flipped thru and saw my OG2 photo.. hahas..
n then i started to think abt my 2 years in NJ.

i rmb the first day.. we agreed to go to sch tgt..
but the 157 was late..
i was panicking on de bus, n i keep asking alvin "r we reaching? r we reaching?"
hahas. and then we met the others in sch...
it was rather demoralising.. becos of the stress that the principle and the dean gave =X
n at the end of the day, the 5 of us met and went home tgt.. saying how stressful it was..
that we wanted to appeal out, blah blah blah.. hahahas..
but im glad that i had OG2.. one of the most enthu OG!!! =))
we're from aqua house.. had the house captain xiaopeng as our OGL..
also zichao, marilyn, ningxin n swetha..
i rmbed that few days were really fun.. OG2 was really united and enthu =)
still rmbed the house session that we had..
becos xiaopeng is the house captain n is our OGL, so we kinda like wanna support him.
so we cooperated, cheered like mad. jumping all abt and stuff.. hahas..
n xiaopeng was biased too, told them to follow us. hahas..
after that we stayed back to play abt..oh TAUPOK!!!! hahas..
our OG's favourite~ n we formed the National Taupok Team =D
n i think we were the only OG that has an OG tee! x)
yups.. OG2 made my starting days in NJ super great =))

n yups.. most of my clique ppl in OG2 belongs to the arts stream..
so we more or less got to the same class..
erms.. my class wasn't that united afterall..
some were united with the other arts class.. so yups..
its like all de arts ppl in a big class, with diff cliques..
this 2 years i did have nice moments with my clique..
movies, bowling, singing etc.. did have nice outings n stuff =))
but last year, the bad side started to float out..
they started to show how evil they can be jus becos of the results they want..
n we started to drift.. had this barrier in between.. didn't wanna get near them..
cos their words are too sarcastic.. too evil..
they're really hypocrites.. cant get well with them..
staying with them will make me feel super ga.. so there's this barrier..
n there's a segregation between geog n hist ppl.. hahas..
geog people are the nicer ones of cos =) they made me feel they're really my frens =)
n im really happy with them =) glad i have them. hahas
jodie lier jos jacq =)

Being an OGL is another great part of memories i had in NJ =)
im really glad i signed up for it =) it was really really nice =)
i met very good OGLs..
we stayed back to practise for long hours, for a lot of days..
it was great! i totally love dancing =)
we were tired but the guys are always so crappy and funny =)
we keep changing our steps, and stuff, but in the end we still manage to put up a great performance =)
totally love it when the young ones are resting and the OGLs of all houses will dance in the hall when the music starts..
i rmb that time they played "Boys n Girls" and all ignis OGLs stand tgt to dance that part of our walk in =D
i totally miss practising for walk in !!!!!
it was super super fun and nice~
n i totally adore my dearest ignis OGLs =)awesome to the max!
wont forget our CNY dinner!!! =DDD hehhehs x)
so fast, a year over le! but those memories will definitely be in my heart =)
i wont forget my dearest OG15 and OG9 too!
the respective dinners were great too x)
n OG9, im so glad i had them. the most enthu OG x) hehhs~

and then of cos, there's harmoc~
SYF year was hectic and challenging but the seniors totally made it nice =)
can feel the strong bond =) glad i managed to participate =)
n then there was the concert.
one that we thought will not turn out well but turn out to be marvellous to the max =)
felt real proud cos it was really put up solely by us..
every single thing was planned out by us.. i really felt proud of myself n my exco =)
though it was tiring.. it was really great =)
cant forget how we always run to catch the bus after harmoc practice.
how at times we'll be the last to board the bus though first to reach the bus stop
all the gossips during practice. but all the effective sectionals =)
all the scoldings, disappointment, happiness, etc etc..
didn't regret joining harmoc =)
jus a bit sad, that we didn't manage to get enough ppl despite our efforts..
n harmoc, seemed to died in our hands. tsktsk =X

lastly.. i wouldn't be able to tide over this 2 years in NJ if not for my NJ-fuhua peeps =)
elf nat dan jr =)
we'd meet for birthday celebrations everytime. rooftop! hahas =))
we'd meet for occasional breakfast at mac on thurs.
we'd meet in the morn, last time at oasis, at the end at bus stop.
we'd gather once in a while to chat.
we'd meet somewhere in canteen and start blabbering n stuff.
we'd meet when one meets problem etc..
it was really great having these frens with you..
old frens that you know will definitely be by ur side no matter wat =)
nth can describe my feelings for this 4 ppl =)
they know my endless love for them =) hahas..

alrights! that's probably all x) heex..
shall end here~
byebyeeeeee 8:12 PM

nice song =D
i said before..im gonna play this on my wedding =D
hahas.. stilll far but yeahs~ x)


anws.. i was jus thinking..
at times..i really feel that im young.. that im still a little girl..
especially at work, when almost everyone is older than i am..
and im new..
so naturally, i'll feel that i shld n will be protected.. hahas =))
that feeling is nice though? =)
but then, i think again..
actually im nt really young anymore.. not a little girl anymore..
im 18.. eighteen.. going on 19 in half a year's time? hahas..
fast ehs =X but yups.. i am..
time that i shld behave like a lady? hahas
i know i am changing in terms of appearance and dressing when i go out..
especially with parents cos i'll dare to wear n stuff..
with frens, i'll consider certain factors.. hahas..
ohs, and when we go back to fuhua for band, we really feel we're old..
my kiddos are no longer kiddos..
went to clarinetists' blog, saw my kid calling her kid kiddos.. hahas..
my kiddos grew up le.. jc le.. hahas..
n we're over the sec sch n jc period.. realli old le.. =X hahas..

as we grow older, guess we'll get excited over diff stuff..
i was super excited jus now upon hearing news of my fren being in a r/s =)
i think its nice to hear that frens are in a r/s,i duno why =)
feel very happy for them~! hahas =))
and i realli love the days when we'll meet, even if its jus for dinner =)
i think that's enough.. im contented..
as long as i get to meet them =)) hahas..

yups.. sorta my reflection? hahas =))
as we grow older.. we get more naggy =X okays,i mean I =X

anws im really happy to have gd colleagues =)
esp happy to have Ivan, who's so funny n entertaining =)
he really made my days in Emas super great =)) hahas.
that's my best colleague here.
actually we're not really colleagues.we dont work in de same dept.hahas.
but still, he's de closest to me compared to others =)
n then there's siti, my role model, who recognises our hard work n appreciates wat we do =)
n there's affandi, who had been helping us all de way..
n there's snow, who acted like my elder sis, giving me warnings..hahas..
n there's dadang, de Mr Nice..hahas..
n random ppl who'll smile n say Hi.. hahas..
but yeahs.. some are over friendly such that i mus be careful of them =X
yeah,that filipino =X
he wants to ask me out?! oh no man~~~~~~ CRAZY.
but im thinking of a nice way to reject him =X
tsktsk. nvm. heck him =X

*[added in:]
PHEW! he wasn't as bad as i thought.
i said it wasn't gd for us to meet out. n he said im right n we're frens =D YAY.
phew~ hahas =D *
time passes very quickly today! nice x)
mayb cos i was high-ing all de way jus now over the news of my fren being in a r/s =DDD 3:38 PM

by lu2 qiao3 yin1 and wang lee hom..
nice! its mix of canto and chinese.
wanna find de full canto der but didn't manage to dl =(
still,this is nice =) 12:38 PM

YAY 900TH POST =DDDDDDDD
but this includes all the drafts and stuff luhs o.O
okies.. luckily elf is not angry.. thought he's angry, frm de way he sms =X
but he's nt so yups! x) haha x)
today.. so far.. is a happy day? =) heex..
erhs.. dun realli know what to blog..
this week was a guai week.didn't go anywhere.lol.
bt sat gg ntu though! i mean ntu talk,but at suntec o.O
then sun doing cornflakes!
mayb i shld do a bit today or tmr right..
if nt im afraid i have no time =X

anws~ suddenly played wedding dress ytd!
now my goal is to perfect it =)
hahas..
n.. shuo hao de xing fu ne!
wanted to try tu ran hao xiang ni but i always ended up playing the melody part only =X
tsktsk..

oh anws. de orange juice i jus bought is nt nice =(
its not those real juice..
its those syrup kind de.
NOT NICEEEEEEE

stupid ivan is right beside me.hahas.
mumbling to himself. LOLLLLL 12:00 PM

kekex!
snow is so cute..
she came to warn me abt that filipino guy. hahahhas.
she say be careful of him, he dont seem like a gd guy..
"not everybody here is kind" hahahas..
"everytime he come and ask me for dinner, i say 'NO!' "
hahhas.. she's so cute n funny x)
but she's nice x) she say cos she treat me like younger sis. hehhehs x)
like that feeling x)

anws yeahs.. quite gaga.
always "attract" this kind of weird people..
that time at shengsiong is ahhua. now this duno gama wat =X
i think they're jus over-friendly..
but too ... disgusting? =X
n scary.. seemed.. nt gd.. hahas..
dont worry ppl! i definitely wont go out with them or watsoever.hahas.
luckily i didn't give my hp no.! hahas. im clever =D =X hahas.
only gave my email,but i can jus ignore right =) yyyyuuuupppss
i only go for chi guys - singaporean prefered.hhahas =P 10:37 AM

one of the songs of tank's first album?
a song that i used to like anot =)
feels nice as i listen again now, heex! x)

oh anws~
hope my kiddos are ok in their new sch!
n hope aiyin receives the call from JJ soon`!!!! 10:02 AM

will naturally link this song to first love =)
cos its usually when you'll have a lot of first times? =)) 9:28 AM

by 陶喆
did i mention that i like his songs too? =)
anw i think song is realli nice =)) 9:07 AM

sweet. sad. nice. =) 9:05 AM

recommended by my colleague. really very nice lehs! =) 4:53 PM

am i really the kind that filipinos like? =X
tsktsk ><
2nd time le hors =X
eh but the cruise one is absurd =X
i know xiaoclar still can rmb everything -.-
suan me for duno how long hors? =X 3:53 PM

this song always reminds me of him.. cos its considered the song that made me fall in love with him.. or rather, get closer to him =))
and his singing.. hahas.. i rmb i became his fan hor?? =P and ahma(mic ting) =P 1:40 PM

12:58 PM

from moonlight resonance =)
sang by 林峰!!!!
super nice, but super sad too =X 12:48 PM

a song that i really like.. especially the lyrics..
cos i think that is really how i feel.. 12:42 PM

IMPOSSIBLE?
I M POSSIBLE =)) 12:24 PM

a rather old song, but its really nice =)) 12:11 PM

我不想多说..
就让所有的一切留在心里..
让我自己承担..
是时候让自己扛下所有的事了..
是时候不让朋友为自己生气,烦恼,心烦了..
是时候面对一切了..
一切... 都会过去的...
所有的开始,都会有个结果...
只不过,不知那结果,是好,是坏,是喜,是悲,是笑,是哭...

其实,所有的事都是这样的..
好或坏;对或错
黑与白; 是与非..

suddenly.. thought of 范范's 黑白配 =)
really think hei ren lao da and her are really sweet and compatible =))

你知道吗?我真的好累..好累..我快要支撑不住了... 12:04 PM

11:11 AM

10:54 AM

a song that i kinda like..
i like their 合音 =) 10:34 AM

the song that accompanied me 3 yrs ago.. 10:19 AM

shld i? 10:16 AM

10:06 AM

YAY. knocking off in.. abt 20min? =))
hope its not raining le =X
YAY. mum not working OT!
gg to ntuc with her to buy cny stuff =D
hohoho x)))

ohohs.. 温岚's 同手同脚 is nice!!!
for her bro.. so its abt kinship stuff..
like depending on each other =)
very old song,but nice! go listen! x) 4:51 PM

listening to tank's songs after so long!
i realised he disappeared!!!!!!!!!!!!!
i miss him~ i love his songs lehs!!!!!!!!
hope its nt cos of his heart thing =XXX

如果我变成回忆
我们小时候
全世界都停电

songs that i loved the most!!!! =DD
ohohs and
给我你的爱!

and if i didn't rmb wrongly, caipeace let us hear 三国恋 in class! =D 1:05 PM

Already gone by Kelly Clarkson is nice =))
"i want you to know that it doesn't matter
where we take this road, someone's gotta go~"
"you know that i love you so,
i love you enough to let you go~"

解脱 by 李玖哲 is nice too =))
cant seem to copy&paste =((
lazy to type so~ jus go listen and look at the lyrics =)
actually i like the tune more =))

and these songs made me realise, wow..
perhaps im nt the only one facing this situation?
if not, these songs wouldn't have existed.
all songs comes from a real life story (that's what i think)
it can be from the writer him/herself, or it can be a story heard..
either way, it's from a real life story?
felt kinda amazing that there are actually songs that can describe most of our feelings =)
still rmb i once wanted to write a song myself..hahas.
but its nt so easy la uhs =X
n i think i've yet to get back that writing feel =((
that time i wanted to type in blog using chi.. but de hanyu pinyin n stuff kinda slowed down my speed..
n when i finish typing the first,i forgot what i wanna say after that le..
its jus not flowing nicely..
so i gave up typing.. cos it'll be weird n meaningless? hahas..
wait till i get the feel of writing again =D

i hope mummy dont work OT today =(
ohs,i failed to load de video for her ytd =X
shall try today~ hope she's lucky~ =)

umm... nth much now bahs? o.O
listening to songs anws =)
ohs n im re-loving 李玖哲! after that jie tuo song =P

long nails long nails~~~
i still find it weird~!
cos my nails are initially small..
then now.. even though its long, i still think it looks like a child's hand =X
i still think it'll be weird when i paint lor! =X
but since i alr bear till now, mus as well jus paint and see?
if nt i'll waste my effort of leaving it long~

AND.shld i cut my fringe?!?!? =XXX
i duno lehs~
at times it looks fine, but at times i think it sucks =X tsktsk~!
but it'll be rather ex now i think? n i dun think i'll be able to book james alr? =X
alamaks~~~ =((

okies im getting bored..
but i dun wanna start work =))still time to slack! =D
anws.. CNY IS COMINGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGG =DDDDDD
its like.. ok, a week n 2 days more to be exact right?
but wooohoo~! hahas =D
we haven really 大扫除 yet =X
mayb this wkend? but sat mayb gg to the NTU talk,n i need time to do my cornflakes! =XXX
im think,mayb i shld do some these days after work o.O
so i can bake more o.O
shall see how x)

okies.. enough of blogging =X
i shall tumblr/ blog hop x)
i only ask for you to be truthful and honest to me that day.. 100%.. totally..
that's the only thing i need =] 11:43 AM

=))
felt much better after letting it out, and having dinner =)

talked with ivan jus now..
he was rather vexed over his gf and best fren..
diff to say here.. lazy to type.. heex..
but yeahs.. interesting to hear his story =)
but cant help much =(
still,im quite happy..
im always happy to have people confiding into me..
though i cant help much,im always happy to lend my listening ear =)
i think that alone will help quite alot.
cos to me,a listening ear is sometimes enough =))
hope the others feel so too!
hope ivan is alright~

umm.. suddenly duno wat to type..
ohs! i may go to the ellenbrough market cafe at swiss hotel or smth? =D
hehs~ sounds cool~
sekali its not =X
but nvm~ free dinner hors! cannot complain~ =)

chatting with ivan now on fb.. and.. hmm..
i think its really not easy to have a gf who gets jealous easily =X hahas..
but... u cant blame her..
who can accept that ur bf is best friends with his ex?
i think.. its normal for her to imagine wildly..
and what's more, she knows everything abt them in the past..
its.. not easy for her i feel.. not easy..
hope that his problem will be solved soon bahs..
hope i can help him =X

alrights.. time to load video for mummy =) 7:05 PM

go listen to JJ's 爱笑的眼睛!
i think i said this b4, but its ok, shall say again =) hahas.
cos its really really nice~!!!!!! x)
i heard vivien hsu's version but i dont like =X
JJ's version nicer!!!!!! =))

anws my nails are real long now..
not bad ah.. i can actually bear with it.. hahas.. =D
and and~
i watched finish pusongling! hahas =DDD
time to rewatch that n mysteries of love! =P
hmm but shall load for mummy to see..
she mus be sad that i watched it w/o her =X hahas..

umm ytd met zijie at SP concert! =D
i think he's one of de few rulang ppl that i feel comfortable talking to lo.
we were rather close in 6L, nt too bad? =)
i met him quite a no. of times, all coincidentally.. n we'll stop to chat a little while..hahas.
nice! like that feeling x)
if only everyone could be like him.. den it'll be so nice ~!
like to meet these kind of old frens =) hahas x)
hope we'll meet again~! =)

ytd.. smth kinda happened..
was awkward for a little while..
turned moody.. didn't know what to do..
sense that awkwardness.. luckily everything went ok.
i know de kiddos are a little scared n stuff..
but yeahs.managed to clear off that awkwardness somehow..
hope he's okays.. i know he mus be feeling bad but.. nth can be done now uhs..
dont wanna keep mentioning it cos i know u'll be pissed/angry..
thought i heard that but since u dont wanna say it le,den forget it..
back to normal. as frens. buddies. family =)
sorry dude, if it was really my fault.. sorry..

glad that i have some1 to sms with..
and glad that nat dot elaine were there to shift his attention away, to reduce that awkwardness.
somehow i felt smth but.. nahs.. shall not brood over it.
everything will be fine =)
thanks to kiddos too =)

the concert was rather fun cos of the kiddos..hahas..
all de stupid/funny jokes/actions that they do.. hahas =)
still love them as usual x)
我决定不去想了.. 我累了..我不想猜了..
那只会让我的心更乱..更烦..
可是..你知道吗? 所有的事,却不停地在我脑海里重演,重现..
像个停不了的电影,一直,一直地播下去...
i'll not think, i'll not ask abt wat happened.. becos i know im not in de position to do so..
its between the 2 of you.. i've no right to do anything.. to know everything..
no right.. at all.. 11:56 AM

EEEEEWWWWW
THERE IS A DEAD RAT IN DE OFFICE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
its beside de two printers, near the wall.
wont be in contact with it but will see it as i go to the printer to print/scan stuff..
EEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE
its so disgusting!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
reminds me of the time when i saw rats at my granny's hse in penang too!!!
they got this sticky thing that make the rat stick to the ground/itself, den it cant move.
den when i got near it struggled?!?!? YUCKKKKKKKS!!!!!!!!!!
its super disgusting n eerie n eeeeeeeeeeeeeeeewwwwwwww!!!
brrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr
hope some1 quickly removes it!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! 9:26 AM

I dont know why, but i jus thought of this:

" Sometimes, the end isn't the end.. In fact, it's the start of a new beginning... "

I rmb i heard it somewhere..not sure if this is de exact sentence though..
I jus thought of a way to phrase it =)
and I was watching Pu Song Ling ytd and i thought of this:

" At times, when the person who don't support you, it doesn't mean that the person don't understand how you feel..
Instead, he/she love you more than you think and what he/she did is for your own good..
Conversely, the person who supports you in whatever you do, might not be the right one for you.."

erhs.. I think I didn't manage to phrase it well.. Can't really think of the right way to phrase it..
but what i wanna say is smth like this..
You may wanna do smth.. smth that perhaps isn't good.. perhaps will get you into trouble..
but u're jus so frustrated, so much so that you only wanna so called "take revenge"
your whole mind is abt doing that, ignoring the consequences..
at this time, the person you like, dont support you..
he/she keeps asking you to bear with it. tolerate it. don't do stupid things.
at the same time, another person, who perhaps likes you too, supports you in doing this.
he/she will go "why not? u shld do that! u shld ......"
totally sharing the same thoughts as you..
n then, you'll go with this, & ignore the first..
but wait..
sit down & think carefully..
is it really true that de 2nd 1 loves you more? understands you more?
perhaps not..
the 1st does understand how you feel, and does love you as much, or even more..
he/she might not support you, but that's becos he/she wants u to be safe, to be alright..
he/she doesn't wan u to get into unwanted trouble..
the 2nd one may help you to get the satisfaction and happiness that u wan..
but that only lasts for a while..
who knows, u'll be dead and that's it..

yeahs.. this is probably wat is gg on in the show? hahas..
dont know why,but i jus have a lot of 感触..
somehow, i'll imagine that i'll be de first..
n then im worried that i'll be de 2nd.. =X
i bet its super terrible to be the first.. until the partner realises his/her mistake and comes back..
n i suddenly thought of wat esther said before.
she didn't go with the guy becos he supports her in watever she do,no matter its right or wrong..
she wants a guy who'll not follow her, but has his own decision..
n then im kinda worried, that i'll be those that jus support my partner's decision..
but then again.. i think i wont..
in de end i might respect his decision i guess.. but before the decision is made, i guess i'll express my opinions?

speaking abt respecting decisions, i suddenly link to relationships =X
somehow,i feel that 'i respect ur decision" usually appears in r/s stuff.. hahas..
suddenly i thought of triangle love..
n i think its so terrible when a guy cant exactly determine who he likes..
jus like pu song ling?
initially he's so devoted to sumyu..
but then when siutsui told him everything, he is confused again.. n seemed to like siutsui too.
tsktsk. but duno if that's becos what de fox fairy do la =X
but yeahs.. its jus so terrible lo..
if im sumyu,i think i'll jus back out.. dont know why..
i feel that.. rather than de 3 being terrible, i'll jus quit n let the 2 be tgt?
but actually.. i still think it depends on de guy.
i mean, as what ppl say, 幸福是不能勉强的..
there's surely only 1 person that the guy likes more?
i think in a triangle love, there can be fair competition,
but the eventual decision will depend on de only girl/guy..
n the 3rd party will jus have to leave..
actually there isn't any need for any fair competition..?
becos it actually depends on de guy/girl's feelings, isn't it? =X
if the guy realli likes both equally, then.. i duno wat to say >.<
jus break with both. tsktsk =X

oh wells.. dont know why im blabbering abt this =X
jus some things in my mind bahs.. =))
okies~ shall quickly catch my pu song ling,if nt no time alr!!! =P 1:38 PM

okies. supposed to be packing my stuff..
spent my morning from abt 9 to 12 packing?
settled only gp chem and math =X
turns out math has de most so far!!!!!! tsktsk..hahas.
anws.. after that went out for lunch,bought stuff for choco cornflakes, den back home.
while lunching at mac, suddenly have the urge to blog..
thought of lotsa things..
saw huayi sec ppl, was then thinking why did they come to this mac.
n my ans to it was: the one near fuhua is dominated by fuhua, yuhua, and hongkah ppl.hahas.
den thought of how often we'll eat mac when we're in fuhua a few years back..
yeahs..a few years =X
n then saw jj ppl, de j2s.. n i thought: i dont think i went back to nj on sat b4.hahas..
n yeahs. that was last year's stuff too.
then im thinking.. wow.. i passed sec sch life, jc life..
its kinda.. amazing to me.. i actually survived all of them.. haha.. 18 years so far..
n then i thought of lotsa things.. so thought of blogging them =)
i foresee this to be a super duper long post. hahas.
so if you dont have the perseverence or determination, dont bother reading =P
didn't meant to type it for anyone to see anyways.. jus feel like typing out what's in my mind =)
this is my blog isn't it? supposedly my online diary =)
lazy to write out,so shall type it out online.hehs =)
i'll probably be writing reflections of my WHOLE LIFE, WHOLE 18 YEARS,right up to now, ever since im born.hahas =D
so yeahs. it's gonna be super long! =P



oh and.. i think i'll probably be repeating stuff..
n u might go "why she brings this up again?"
actually i think i blogged this para before too =X
but yeahs. its cos, they're jus so precious and important, such that i keep thinking of them =)
they're deep in my memories, such that they'll keep appearing when ever i think back..
hahas.. so if you happen to take part in these memories that i keep mentioning, lucky u x)
u'd taken up a space in my heart, my mind, my memories x))
so, be honoured,hahas =D



anws.. before i start..
i think the stuff may not be in order..
my memory isn't that superb to know which really comes first..
n, i prefer to follow my heart, my mind, and jus blog when smth comes to my mind =D so yups~!
=))
ohs! n JJ's 爱笑的眼睛 is super nice!!! =))))))


umm.. was playing on my organ while waiting for my com to load..
then.. thought back.. wow.. i think at least 10years playing on the organ =) hahas..
i nv regretted learning organ.. my parents didn't force me in the beginning too..
they followed my uncle and let me go for lesson.. n i kinda fell in love with it =))
still rmb i learnt ballet too! hahas x)
actually i do love ballet too~ the people are nice, the teacher is nice =) hahas..
i still rmb, her name is called lena foo =)) n i rmb my best ballet mate is called crystal..hahas..
i love her alot..hahas..
and i rmb my best organ mate is lynette =)) lynette quek wen xian! hahas. n her sis is called lindy =D
a name that i named myself before..ahahas..
it was quite funny, cos we didn't know we were both from rulang..
until the end of P2, then we started asking each other, and realised we're both gg to 3J.hahas.
n we became very gd friends =))
n hmm..i was rather tomboy in de past.. hahas..
i dont like skirts. i always wear bermudas, with sandals.hahas. same as lynette =P
we kinda lost touch cos we went to diff sec sch and our organ class split, due to too little ppl..
many left.. soyeahs.. left with 4, and the class has to close down..
n den i went for private lesson all de way till now..
hmm.. i quit ballet somewhere in p2 p3 i guess? cant really rmb..
but i know i quit cos my ballet and organ class clashes..
there isn't a way that i can arrange them, so i had no choice,i chose organ over ballet..
probably 1 regret that i have so far bahs.. kinda miss dancing =(( hahas..
i do enjoy myself when i was in ballet la.. ahhas..
n i rmb ppl always say, why is that you are still so plump even though you go for ballet class?
tsktsk.. =X

yeahs.. im quite sensitive towards the word.. especially in the past.. hahas..
very sensitive towards words like fat, overweight, TAF club.hahahas..
now im still slightly overweight =X abt 2kg to the so-called acceptable weight?
but now, i know abt controlling and is controlling, ensuring that i'll not gain but will lose weight..hahas..
like wat they say, 女大十八变? hahas..
we'll get to be more concerned over how we present ourselves, how we look.. hahas..
i used to be so sensitive that i'll be real sad and can even cry when ppl say im fat..
used to be teased in pri sch especially..
and was always nagged by relatives when we meet during cny n stuff..
hahas. den will wanna pretend u nv hear, jus keep quiet, and try not to cry =X hahahs..
thinking of it is so funny..hahas..
i think i only started slimming down when i was ard sec 3 bahs?? shld be ~ hahas..
cant really rmb exactly when i start to change for skirts..
i only know i jus told my mum that i feel like trying on skirts.. hahas.
bought my first skirt duno when, den slowly i changed.. =))
knew more abt being pretty as the years passed..
3-quarter pants in sec 2? den my pants changed to knee length bermudas,
n then slowly to shorts? hahas..
n now i feel weird wearing 3/4 pants..hahas.. cos i'll think it makes me looks short.
that's wat ppl say isn't it? n im really used to wear shorts now.. hahas..
and now turning to like dresses more too? =P
yes, to be more princessy, like a traditional girl, according to xiaoclar.. hahas.


actually sometimes i do wonder.. wat will happen if i nv change n slim down?
hahas.. then i'll perhaps get fatter? =X n i think i'll look like some kingkongg =X
i think i did change quite a lot lehs..
from a cute young girl, that's rather small size (true horS! i love my baby n toddler pics,so cute =P)
and then.. started to get plump since pri sch? according to my mum luhs..
cos her friends rent a room in our flat, n they always buy supper for me.. and so.... yeahs.. ahahas..
then.. as normal all de way till mayb sec 2 to 3.. when im more aware abt appearance..
think partly cos of love? hahas.. den will wanna look better and nicer.. hahas..
den yeahs.. sec 3 sec 4 get close to kailin and girls,den will start to turn into a lady le..hahas.
den.. more n more lady like.. hahas..
but i kinda like it.hehs~ girls mus be like that mahs~
ok, im traditional,but yeahs! i.. prefer to be like that.. hehhehs x)


umm.. pri sch.. honestly i dont really rmb doing as much crazy stuffs.. hahas..
we were still young =))
i only know i met some great teachers - esp Mdm Foo and Mrs Lim..
till now we still visit mrs lim..hahas.. waiting for her to contact me n say her hse is ready =D
miss her lots~! x)
n hmm.. 3J was a nice class with Mrs Lim as the FT =)
6L was the great class that i really had fun with.. i rmbed we were the most enthu class!
we started the trend of badminton~
we were the class that lead a lot of stuff during the grad night. hahas.
the first to do many of the things.. hahas.. the class was super great =)
of cos, it was the people who made it nice =)
i rmbed we had our dinner ard 2 years back? hahas. quite nice =))
n i rmbed being a prefect.. smth that i realli like =)
a pity i didn't had de chance in fuhua.. so was the monitress in exchange.hahas..
but being a prefect in rulang was gd enough.. rather gd experience =)
i kinda miss the class that i was in charge of.. i rmb it's 1F too =) n i treat them very well.
as usual,they are those cheeky kind, but rather obedient. de girls are sweet.haha.
i rmb i bought things for them before =)

ahh~ n we have singing sessions - singing national day songs - every wed, when teachers are having meeting.hahas.
n i love them~! hahas =))
ummm.. pri sch.. ahh! i hated band =X
hahas.. cos ours is brass band~
n i joined CO that time.. hahas..
CO was gd in rulang kays~ hahas..
but yeahs.. honestly.. i think that's probably how it was in pri sch..
not as much precious memories perhaps..
but i think there are many minor stuff.. hahas =)
nevertheless,im glad i was from rulang =)
i think they really instill gd character into me =)) hehhs~


umm.. then yeahs.. there's fuhua.. hahas..
actually i think i really posted a lot of stuff abt fuhua le lohs.. hahas..
too much to blog..really..
till now, on fb, i keep seeing status like "fuhua is still the best"
"i love fuhua"
and u'll see many fuhuanites liking them x)
i think once you leave the sch,you'll realise how gd it is.. realli..
n after mdm oen left, ppl start realising how good she was..hahas..
i rmbed i did her a favour on grad day..
cos miss yeo was the organiser,so 4e5 helped her a lot in preparing the stuff..
as the monitress,im like her assistant.hahas.
den mdm oen needed help,so i went to her. n she got me to help her get her specs from her office.
hahas.. quite cool, quite nice =))
i duno why,but i like to help ppl, hehs =) i like to leave gd impression in ppl x) kekex..

i.. suddenly duno wat to blog abt.. hahas..
cos there are too many things for me to blog already..
gd times with 2C'06 in sec 1 sec 2.. frequent outingS!
we always go east coast.. hahas.. n my hse.. hahas.
i rmb they practically come my hse everyday! esp the last few months of the year?
n we'll hang out in sch till rather late..
i rmb there was once we were caught by mrs tay. it was exam period.
so she's like "u all still haven go home& study?!" hahahas..
we were still playing in class lo =X hahas.
& ikhwan's random creation when we're having D&T exam:
D&T - Danlim & Toh Jingxi!!! hahas =D that's de super funny part..hahas..
n the racial harmony day, how we managed to get everyone to wear ethnic costume.
but when the judge came to check, they said "39", n we realised zw nv change.
n we quickly ask him to rush to change,n after that i think he went with azhari to find de judge!
hahas.. super funny =D
n oh! i rmb we went for CIP and we were singing while picking up litter! =P
but mr koh & mrs tay say we're too noisy, mus keep sch's reputation =X hahas..
& we made miss hoe angry before.. i think we forgot to bring stuff..
n the whole class tried to find ways to apologize to her~ =)
i rmbed we stayed super late one day.. me with all de guys =X hahas..
but i know im safe cos im with 2C guys =P
ummm.. kbox was our frequent place too. for the clique that comes to my hse.
OHS! i rmbed smth! 14 ppl in a 8-person lifT! n we squeezed like mad.
totally sticking to one another lorhs~! n they were like saying "dont fart ah!" hahhaas.!
& i rmbed i scored very badly for 1 of the chinese exam. jus passed. 25/50.
i always get an A. n i cried real badly.. then the guys stood in a line beside me..
i heard from alvin/dan after that that they want to comfort me but dont know wat to do.hahas.
yes, the guys are that silly =P sec 2 mahs! hahas x) but im touched =)
n i know i cried quite a lot in sec 2. n sometimes too pissed by the class.. hahas.
but my tears always work. they'll know they did smth wrong n they'll apologize.
there was once, when we stayed back late.. jus the few of us..
i think mic ting bahs? n zw jr n duno who. cant rmb..
we were jus playing but it kinda get out of hand. den i was chasing them. then they started blurting those kinda vulgar kind of words.
then partly cos im tired i think, n mood starts to turn bad.
n cos of those words,i jus stopped, n then cried.
i rmb they ran to the boys' toilet.
so i jus went back to class n cry. then they were super shocked.
n they asked mic ting or whoever, n then they dont know wat to do.
they tried to come beside me then i'll turn away n stuff. hahas.
in de end both of them took 1 of the sides. den i jus face down.. hahas.
n they kept apologizing n stuff. hahas.. in de end i forgave them la.. hahas..
they were scared out of their wits i guess =P
the guys of 2C are jus cheeky to the max la..hahas.. can be irritating..
bt when u think back now, they are really the cause of all the laughters..
n they really make up alot of those memories =)
seeing them still as close now makes me happy too =)) hahas..

okays~ i kinda think.. this is really far too long~ hahas..
mayb i shall stop here =)
so today, updated till sec 2 life.. hahas..
i guess i still have updates abt sec3-4.. fsmb.. n things in between?
perhaps mentioning of NJ too.hahas..
mayb i'll update tonight,later,i duno.heex =) woosa~
i need to get back to packing my stuff!
kinda no mood ah =X but i guess i have no choice =((
byesppl~ =))
idou..seemed so real.. like wat we used to be.. kinda hope it'll be true.. 2:21 PM

oh man~
they started to deduct cpf alr!
no wonder no wonder..
no wonder money went in but after withdrawing,it dropped to ard de same no. -.-
seemed like i nv earn any money like that sia!!!! >.<
ok i realli have to control myself liaoz..
no more spending on any useless stuff..
sure will have dinner with frens, but shall try to minimize the number of dinners =X
n shall choose de place carefully =X
n i have to give parents lesser money too.
this time,alr withdraw le, n its de first time im giving my parents (For this job)
so yeahs..
but from the next pay, i'll really make sure i take care of my savings =X
if not, i'll never be able to get my itouch!!! =X
i shall jus not touch my money as much.. n then i'll see wat i can do bah..
see when i can buy the itouch! tsktsk~

suddenly feeling a little down.. duno why =X
tmr.. will perhaps be packing my stuff..
maybe looking at recipes and baking, or leaving it to sun..
see how again bahs =)

i think im still feeling a little ga for my pay!
actually i think, when they pay fortnightly, i'll spend more!
i dont rmb spending as much when im in sec 4 =X
mayb cos that time we still dont have all these dinner and stuff.. =((
oh wells! at least i lead a happy life =)
the money still can be earned back =)))))))
okies,i'll STAY HAPPY =)))))
suddenly...mutou... 11:33 PM

ahhhh.. a little sad..
no more classy ellenbough market cafe at swiss hotel!lol
cos we nt gg on fri,gg on tues..
partly my own fault cos i said i wan tue.lol.
cos wanna meet dan on fri mahs! though haven ask/settle it,but thats wat i plan..
nvm~
alr gd that she's treating!!!
cannot be so greedy right..
not everyone can get the treat lehs! mus be contented =))
yupyups! heex x)
eating swensens on tue..hahas..

oh yups.shall sms dan abt next fri den =D
thinking of meeting njfuhua peeps but think jr cant =X shall see how =)

anws gonna knock off soon le! =))
off to enjoy! =DDD 5:12 PM

omg my colleague is super nice.
she treating us dinner?! =X
she had this place in mind: ellenbrough market cafe @ merchant court swiss hotel?!
it sounds super class?!?!?! =XXX
i think she's my new idol lorhs.
ok,not really idol, but someone that i think i shld look up to!
1. she has a lot of confidence; she wears wat she likes,ignoring other's opinions.
like she dares to wear sleeveless even though she's rather plump..
2. I think she is rather charismatic?
we don't have those speeches kind in office la.. but she got de aura (oops,is that how u spell?)~!
till now im still quite scared of her, though she is nice..hahas..
its like, realli treat her as someone of higher position than me, dun dare to step too close to be those normal frens/colleagues..hahas.
3. i think she's a rather independent person. n according to ivan, direct =)
yups,she's very open, very direct..
she got her own flat.. i think she's 30 by now, if i guessed correctly..
she is cool. she slapped her bf and kicked his motorcycle down cos he betrayed her.lol.
omg she's really damn cool man..
oh and no.4,she's nice!
she let us take her cab down to jookoon mrt when de company bus isn't here.
she jus offered to give us a ride ehs!
n now got this treat out of nowhere~!
i think she's really rather rich o.O

in conclusion,i think she's super cool..
n i realli look up to her!
i think girls shld look up to her as a model example lohs..
but i think if i realli turn to be like her 1 day, it'll be de day that i really changed 360degrees =X
okies mayb i'll try to learn the charismatic part..
the confidence part..
according to ivan,i have to open up more =X
oh wells,im trying.. n he says try slowly,dont explode all at once..hahas..
hmm.. i discovered i actually learn some stuff here..
nt really abt work but abt how to be a person of gd character? =))

anws.. this wasn't wat i wanna post initially =X
i wanted to say actually my company has quite a lot of nicelooking guys!
i saw this guy,i think vietnamese,who gt a rather cute face!
but he's got a ring,so i think he's married =X
then there's the angmoh boss who gave me a ride on my interview day!
but i think he's married too -.-
and there's this filipino guy,i duno his name,but he's quite a nice chap too.
he sweet-talks to girls,so not really a gd bf i guess =X hahas..
i mean, dangerous =X
and there are 2 singaporean guys.
1 of them is quite handsome and muscular (jus nice kind)
but his face is so scary.. too cool le =X i dun think i saw him smile before lo.tsktsk =X
then there's another 1.. also didn't smile much.. but did smile la..
but i think they are quite close to this girl,which i believe is one of them's gf o.O

alrights..realise that there are quite a few targets but all of them has a "but.." =X
oh wells.. jus analysing,nt as if i'll really be tgt with any of them.. hahas..
ivan was talking to me abt couples of diff religion n stuff..
n i told him " i'll only marry chinese,that's it. simple enough"
hahas.. yeahs... duno why.. but i made up my mind that i'll definitely marry a chinese =) heex.
some filipinos i met in my company are nice.. but i think the language is a barrier.
sometimes i dont really catch wat they say =X so,nah,out.impossible.hahas.
okies~ 3 more hours~! =)) 1:50 PM

hahhas.. there's actually a tumblr called penguintastic, a fanatic of penguins too
hoho! =P

still slacking cos no one seem to be bac at work yet =X
oh wells~
cant wait for 5pm to come,den 7pm, cos im gg out with jos~!
n i hope rubi at ion has saleS! $5!!! =XX 12:40 PM

IM FRIGGING COLD!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
MY FINGERS ARE LIKE FROZENNNNNNN !!!!!
i shld go and buy some mittens right =X
they shld invent a new kinda of jacket that includes gloves!!!!!
i mean, the gloves are attached to the jacket kind. all in one =X
n my nails are real long. it goes into my skin when i clutch my fist.
i nv had this o.O
now i know why ppl can get hurt by nails =XX
i am an obedient girl..我很乖..没有打扰你..而你突然的信息的确令我感到意外,开心=) 9:29 AM

Hmm.. shld i say im lucky or im nt? =X
i think im really fortunate and lucky,to be in this company..
becos i earn 6.50 per hour,not a lot, but my job really rather slack =X
there are things to do,but im able to sms, to blog,to do my stuff while working =X
n im never rushed to do things..
instead,my colleague keep asking me to do slowly -.-
which is de part that makes me feel im nt fortunate.
becos he's making me bored by nt having anything to do!
when i go n take smth to do,he'll come to me and take away,den give me smth,
but ask me to do slowly,dont rush =X
i think maybe his speed is slow,so i cant do fast,if nt he'll have more,
since some things only he can do,n i cant..

i know its fortunate to not have much stuff to do.
but sometimes really quite sian!!!
I kinda dont mind working full time without having time to blog n stuff u noe =X
though when there's too much stuff will get sian cos its more or less de same thing..
but, mayb cos i wont feel so bad cos im really working for de money =X
tsktsk..
okies.i know some ppl might be scolding me for nt knowing how to appreciate my job =X
i'll appreciate it n accept it as it is, n work till my contract ends kies? =P
okies.. off to do my work SLOWLY..... 2:21 PM

here you go! nice quotes x)
some of them are actually posted before.. in 2007 o.o
but i think they are real nice so i shall repost them! =)


`. I love you not because of who you are, but because of who I am when I am with you..
rmb, just be yourself =) till now,i still believe that if you cant be yourself in front of that person,
perhaps that person isn't the right one? =))
you wont have to hide ur true self and act as someone that isn't you..
becos if the person truly loves you, no matter who you are,how you behave, he/she will still love you =))


`. Why would you want to be someone else when the someone you already are is so amazing?
right.. this is for everyone =)) just be yourself x)


`. Maybe God wants us to meet a few wrong person before meeting the right one, so that when we finally meet the person, we will know how to be grateful..
yes.. so be patient =))


`.To the world you may be one person, but to one person you may be the world..
awwws~~~ sweet x))


`. Anyone can make you smile or cry, but it takes someone special to make you smile when you already have tears in your eyes..
yeps.. if that person appears, hold he/she tight.. he/she might be the one for you =))


`. We all grow into the beautiful person that we're supposed to be - some earlier, some later...
jus be patient =)) it'll be ur turn soon, if it has yet to arrive =)


`. A stranger stabs you in the front; a friend stabs you in the back; a boyfriend stabs you in the heart, but best friends only poke each other with straws..
nice ehs =))


`. if you truly love someone, then the only thing you for them is to be happy.. even if its not with you..
yeps.. heard of this quite many times..
if you really love him/her, but he/she dont.. perhaps, letting him/her go is the best choice =)
happiness cannot be force.. 幸福是不能勉强的..
since you know he/she dont like you, why force him/her to be by ur side?
你留得住他的人,但留不住他的心..
this is so drama..hahas.. but i think its true =)
instead of forcing him/her by ur side,with him/her sad that they cant be who they wanna be,
and with u being sad that his/her heart is not here,why not,jus let him/her go =)
u'll be happy seeing him/her smile, n ur mr/miss right might be waiting for this time to approach u =))


`. Never frown, even when you are sad, because you never know who is falling in love with your smile..
i heard this from wei4 ying1 qi2 (wang renfu) in mr fighting (ge dou tian wang)!!! hahas x)
yups.. so ppl, SMILE =DDD


`. No man or woman is worth your tears, and the one who is, won't make you cry..
also from wei ying qi! hahas x)


`. Don't cry because its over, smile because it happened..
yeps.i love this =)
u will cry,but after that, smile =) becos,it happened =))


`. if two people are meant for each other, it doesn't mean they have to be together right now..
hmm..perhaps! =))
well,we cant predict tmr =))


`. Love is acceptance and willing to accept any negative sh*t they give, so never let go and just believe.
Every guy out there will hurt you, but there will always be that one guy you're willing to continuously love..
And he will be your only exception..
hehs.. nice =)) its a very long one actually,but i extracted this out =))


`. Believe you can, and you're halfway there..
oh man,nice =)) YES THAT'S DE SPIRIT !!!!!! ;))


`. Make one person happy each day, even if its yourself =)
hehs,reminds me of what miss yeo said :
today, i have a task for the class. in fact not only today,but everyday..
you have to smile to at least 5 person a day =)
HAHAS =)) n the class started smiling, some turning to their partners, side, front, back, and smile.. hahas =))


`. The fate of your heart is your choice; no one else gets a vote
yeahs right =))


`. Friendship isn't a big thing - it's a million little things..
hahas =)) nice uhs =)) n i agree =))


`. It's in the tough times that we discover the depths of our strength
cool`! =D


`. If someone wants to be a part of your life, they'll make an effort to be in it.
Don't bother reserving a space in your heart for someone who doesn't make an effort to stay..
i think this is for all the ladies out there, all de silly ladies =)
i don't know if im one of them, but i guess i'll listen to this as well.. hahas =))
anws i think this is so true.. so dont be silly and keep waiting for the guy, especially when he ill-treats you, or go for other girls, n yet u think he'll be back to you eventually..
forget it bahs! if they realli like you, they'll do things to make you go back to them..
if not, let go,move on.. you'll find the guy that will do anything for you eventually =)
that guy will come.. hahas =))


and i guess i'll end with this =))

`. The reason that seesaws have two seats is because that way there is always someone to bring you back up when you go down..
YAY =)) yups!!! so cheer up ppl!!!
rmb, you're never alone =)) there's definitely someone there for you =))
be it ur bf/gf, or your best friend, or a stranger, whoever..
just know, someone will be there for you =)
at least, someone =) if you're fortunate, many someoneS. hahas.
n u know wat? i think im de fortunate one..
i know a lot of someoneS who were there for me when im down and i needed them =))
thanks to all the someoneS!!!!!! x)
i love u all~ <3 11:56 AM

jus came back from lunch! hee =)
shall not start work~ if nt later kena nagged again..hahas..
mayb i shld use this time to tumblr + blog! =DDD



anws.. went to eat nasi briyani.. hahas..
ok la,nt bad..de chicken is big! hahas.. n they give a lot of rice =X
didn't finish like, a quarter to a third of it.
partly becos no. 1: the others finish eating,i feel bad letting them wait.
i already tried to eat super fast lehS!!!!! much faster than my normal speed lo.
so xin ku =XXX
cannot always eat like that.. my appetite will grow bigger!!!! =XXX
no. 2: i was really rather full too.. n they give really alot.. so yeahs.. =)



ohs..one of the nicenice angmohs left =( tony mills..
he's de nice guy, who's very big size, n helped me arrange the stationery =)
im supposed to be doing it but in de end he's doing it n i helped him..hahas..
n heard that the big boss is leaving too o.O wow.hahas.



and and.. one of my boss,considered my supervisor, philip, dont eat lunch!
he says 2 meals a day,not 3.lol!
if only i can train to be like him ~ hmmmmmmm.....



anws.my nails are really super long now! hehhhs =D
quite cool =P
but my toe nails are still as ugly =X tsktsk!



okies this post is super random.. cos i dont really have anything particular to post abt..
jus that i dont seem to have other things to do other than blogging =X
i wanna read blogs but there isn't much updates!!!
wanna repost photos from aiyin's blog to facebook but no access to fb uhs.. =X
ahhh sian =((
anws i think the photos are nice =D hahas.
n looking at the photos make me happy!!!!
n make me miss de kiddos too~~~ nvm, we can meet on sun!!!! x)
love the kiddos~~~~
i wan all of us to list each other as family under fb!!!! >.< hahahas ="P
11:44 AM

i'm gonna reach 900 posts soon!
given the rate that i am - 3 to 4 posts a day. hahas..
hmm jus wanna say a few things!

1. i decided to bake this/next wkend! if possible,both x)
i think i'll prepare choco cornflakes (for sure) and maybe cornflake crunchies? =D
thinking if i shld bake almond cookies. o.O but this time without asy,i wonder how it'll turn out to be.hahas.
thinking of choco chips cookie but its nt for newyear! hahas.
i shall go look at my recipes =))

2. i saw my handphone bill ytd : 3792 sms!!!!!!
i think when my plan is over, im gonna be so so dead~~~~~~
how am i gonna train myself to keep to 500sms? =X
i used to think that ppl who exceeds 1000 are crazy.. ok mayb 2000 when i exceeded 1000.
now im near to 4000!!!! holy~ =X

3. im deciding whether to go to JJ lin's concert with elf.
decided to go initially, but upon seeing the money in my bank dropping n dropping, i cant bear to spend so much =X
but after hearing jj's songs ytd, i feel like gg again! tsktsk.
waiting for elf's decision after looking at the price o.O

4. im thinking if i shld rewatch the mysteries of love right from episode 1.
cos i've been watching the last few episodes on tv and first few episodes online cos i missed them.
i watched epi 3 to 7 on tv,so i caught 1 n 2 online,den 8 to 12 online too,
while watching epi 14onwards on tv, but missing a few like 18 20 22? cos i was outside.
so its like.. im also jumping ard when im watching online sia.. n im kinda mixed up by de sequence.
so im thinking,since i alr finished de tv one,
mus as well i re-watch right from episode 1 again, yes?
give me ur opinions ppl =X

5. the same thing is happening for the ghost writer, pu song ling =X
i'll be missing 1 episode tmr cos im gg out but i can catch it on sat..
but i missed quite some episodes in front??
n a little in between.
ok,the prob is cos i go out with friends for dinner. so i miss the show =((
i think i'll be rewatching too?
so shld i do de same for pusongling as i did for the mysteries of love? o.O

6. im loving ivan, my company bus mate, as a friend! hahas
dont think the wrong path~ =P
i think he really brightens up my day lehs. he's super funny.
ytd he shocked me when he tell me his gf ask him abt me!!!
but he told her that im only his friend and stuff.. den im like ok.. n he told me "she's not mad"
phew~ hahas..
he told me this morn that her gf is de will get jealous kind.. normal la uh..
n he said, so he have to clarify stuff n make sure its clear lo.
yeah, trust is the most important thing btwn a couple right =)
n he say she wanna meet me when she come sg..hahas! cool man!
i think his gf is a cool girl.waahhahas. n she's quite pretty =)
anws they damn cool lo.. 5 years le.. 3 years of distant love! impressed =)
they chat everyday thru skype though =))
n he said they dont go for date de sia. they always hang out as a grp! quite weird o.O
but it seemed normal to them o.O
he hang out with her friends,she hang out with his friends.hahas.quite nice =))

then he was telling me abt him nt telling his gf abt a very close girl friend he has.
cos his gf will probably be very jealous n anyhow imagine n get things worse.
n his girl friend is mad at him for nt telling his gf abt it? o.O
okies kinda weird,but i have no idea why,neither does he =X
suddenly reminds me of alvin tan.hahas.
but i think for his case, my bf/his girl friends' bf will understand? hahas.
but it actually also depends on who the bf is o.O
if its someone alvin knows that its easy. but if its someone alvin dont know, nt easy =X
he experienced both kinds if im nt wrong. hahas.
he's still be classified as the 3rd party for many times..hahas.
poor him =P

7. i'd decided to rewatch front episodes of pu song ling, up to where i've watched,
n then continue de rest on tv. suggested by alvin tan.
after that,i'll catch the mysteries of love online =D
yup that shall be the plan tentatively =)

8. i think aaacjx will put each other under "family" in fb! heex =D
posted on their walls but duno their reply yet. shall see tonight! x)
hohohohos~

9.sometimes, maybe its good that we dont have any hopes,
becos when things come in, u'll have a surprise n u'll be happier =)) that's wat i feel! =)

10. i think i dun haf anything much to post alr.. hahas =)
was actually thinking of posting some quotes here =)
but currently i have work to do!
shall do that when im bored with no work later x))
BYES for now x) 8:58 AM

anws.i realised that i have some things to say.. but there are too many =X
so jus go to lurvememories.tumblr.com
i realise, a lot of wat i wanna say is over there =)
the author is in de same boat as me..hahas =) 11:44 PM

was looking at juniors' photos.. n wanna say..
他们长大了... hahas..
n 我们变老了 =X
no la.. nt really =) but duno why..
feels happy to see that my kiddos grew up alr =)
though they are still cute as usual, so cheeky as usual,
n they always nv fail to make me smile n laugh when im out with them,
they really grew up alr.. hahas..
again i think i sound like a mama here.. hahas..
still rmb they used to call me SL mama or penguin mama.. hahas =))
really love the days with the kids..
was looking thru their prom pics,den reminded myself of my prom in fuhua.. =)
photo taking session.. hahas..
but its sort of the night when u see all the kids turn into young adults..
the way they dress,the way they behave..hahas..
couples suddenly became open of their relationship,hahas..
no more kids behaviour,like dun dare to touch guy/girl..
ppl jus take photos with girls hooking the guys' hands,
or the guys hugging the girls at their waists..
to me, it seemed jus like a big family, whr korkors take photos with meimeix.hahas
or shld i say moimoixzxz and korkorxzxz..hahas..
2 years le.. 2 years since i left fuhua.. real fast..
till now i still cant really believe that i'd finished JC life..
seemed that sometimes im still acting so childishly..
but im eighteen.. moving to nineteen soon,in half a year's time..
time to be more mature? =)
but dont worry,i'll be young at heart =)) 11:31 PM

jus finished watching last episode of the mysteries of love!!!!!!!
of cos, in de end,happy ending =D
but i didn't know the happy ending was so abrupt =X
it was like,the last 5 min?
it was still very sad when it was the last 15 min sia!!!
crying like mad then kena suaned by my parents >.<
say i silly,like that also cry =X
but really very sad and touching mahs!!!
kingsley (lin feng!!! the male lead =D ) was in coma, then awesome (female lead,yang2 yi2) went to encourage him..
n she managed to make him wake up..
before that, quite a few episodes back, they broke up, kingsley initiated.
cos of the unhappiness that de family caused.. ahya,if i say all then nt nice le.so go watch! =D
hmm then.. so.. when he woke up, and after so many incidents,
he realised that awesome is the girl that he really love.
so he tried to get her back. wait for everyday, stick to her and stuff. sweet lehs!
but awesome find it irritating lah.actually its cos she wanna forget abt him, but he keeps coming back.
then she told her boss,who is kingsley's buddy, and eventually kingsley,
how she felt when they jus broke up. how she wanted to die, wanted to end everything so that she dont feel so terrible..
how she cut her wrist, how she cant eat, cant sleep, dont have the will to move on..
super sad here leh!!! think kingsley's heart break like mad luhhs..
cried a bit here.. den he left..
when he got his award, he sort of confessed.. said how he felt n stuff..
he got the global scientist award or smth.. den he said smth like..
"i realised that the most precious things have to be felt and experienced by the heart. there is no formula.."
and a few more meaningful and nice ones but too much to rmb =X
but its super super super touchingggg!!!!!!!!
if im awesome i'll surely be touched like mad lo.. she is lah.. hahas..
i cried as much as she did =X lol. that's de part where my mum saw n started laughing -.-
she coldblooded leh. from last time till now she always laugh at me when i cry when watching show =(
really very touching mahs!!!!! =X
but yeahs.. in de end they got back tgt =D cos awesome knew how kingsley felt..
saw his true heart and sincerity x)))
this shld be de way man.. if u like sm1,shld go for it!
at least try like 2 or 3 times luhs. mus put in effort to make the person feel touched mah!
some ppl uh, jus rejected once then give up liao =X
but of cos u mus see how the other party react la.
if they really give those irritated face kind,den mayb forget it.
but i think usually, if the other party is kinda sad, then is afraid of accepting or wat,
use ur true heart and sincerity to move (gan3 dong4) the person =)
i believe the true heart and sincerity is the most important one =)
jus sweet talk is useless.this kind of guy pls go n die =X
this kind of guys are jus cheating ppl's feeling lo, esp those playboy,tsktsk!
of cos once in a while mus sweettalk ur girl luhs. but some are really too much..
so girls pls be careful,mus be able to differentiate de gd n bad!

anws im gonna rewatch mysteries of love =D
initially wanna jus rewatch the episodes that i missed.
but i realised im kinda mixed up with the sequence. as in which part comes in first =X
see how bahs.. but im now at epi 13.if i re-watch.. hmm =X
i shall see =D
now i'll be left with pu song ling to catch!!!! x)))
ahhhhh i cant bear with mysteries of love.hahas. i miss lin feng!!!!!
he's damn shuai~~~
actually i prefer him in moonlight resonance. cuter!!!!!!
but in mysteries of love,he's de guai guai type,abit gong3 gong3 kind but is super smart and sweet~ hahas =)))
WAH MY EPISODE 13 LOAD FINISH LE!!!!! gonna watch gonna watch =DDD
bye ppls! =DDD

o.o i suddenly have the urge to watch all from beginning =X hahas! =))
i thought of us.. when i watched this last episode.. probably cos i can partly understand the feelings,so i cried that much..
wonder if the same thing will happen to us? 10:01 PM

i hope im nt falling sick again =(
feeling so tired n seem to have headache..
think its partly due to my teeth lo =(( gaga.
currently nth much to do too..
uhm..wanna post smth but forgot..
oh yes.. my colleague offered the CNY biscuits. the one that i like alot!
its actually love letters but its not the roll kind one.. its those flat flat,like a flatten cone kind..
but i was so tired n my teeth is so pain that i dont have de feel to eat.
sad!!!! =(( i love that sia~
im gonna ask mummy to buy the big one x)
shld be doing CNY shopping this wkend.geex!
surprisingly,CNY is in 2 weeks' time! =D yay!
cant wait to wear the new clothes~! muahahhas =)
had been trying on them at least twice alr.heeheex.
super satisfied with wat i've gotten this time round.
esp that flowery dress, and that white dress. i think they're really super nice! =D
hohohohos =) thinking of it makes me happy.kekex =)
ouch..my teeth >.<
i think my eating speed will slow down again sia.. which is gd also..
cos i wont eat much..! =D cant gain weight le hors >.< n i haven reach my target.tsktsk!
i think my face is getting rounder too =( according to photos taken last fri n sat =(
gagagas!

but still.. i think i'll buy a lot of CNY goodies.heeheex.
i like to shop for CNY goodies! sure will buy a lot de lohs =X
but once a year,nvm la! =D
cant wait to shop for them sia! mum say buy some this wk buy some next wk o.O
was thinking if i shld pay for it.
dont mind paying but if im giving them money as well,then i'll be left with quite little =X
mum says dont need to give them money,i jus buy de stuff o.O
mayb i'll pay for them,then if gt enough,i'll give them some? o.O
see how again.heex.n haven treat my auntie they all yet! but think that will maybe be cny period?
so,i'll probably get another 2 weeks' pay..shld be can =)
omg,im like saying out all my expenditure =X
but nvm la uhs.. i nv say the digits right..so u guys wont know much..heex =))
hope i can get my itouch soon!!! but i think i can only get it after my job ends lo.
if im spending money at this rate =X tsktsk.

okays im hungry =( half n hour more n im gg for lunch =)

anws.thanks elf =)
yups,that's de way i am..
even if u all scold me,u guys noe i'll still react that way cos its me..
so u all will probably jus scold me at my back but still support my decision ehs?
hahas.. okays,now i think im silly to do that/think that way =X
no matter wat,thanks elf,for saying that.kinda enlighten me =)
that's why i say.. aaacjx is really like my family.
they'll scold/nag at me (er,mayb only xiaoclar n elf =X) or openly laugh n stuff (xiaoclar n jj u noe wat -.-)
but yeahs..wont feel anything much..hahas.. cos i know they mean no harm =)
in fact,sometimes,de scolding/nagging is for my own gd~ hahas =)
<3 AAACJX =))) 10:15 AM

I AM TIRED.
AND MY TEETH HURTS =(
COS OF MY RETAINERS.GAGAGAGAGAGAGAGAGAGA =((((

and my nails are long o.O
shld i keep them long and ask my cousin to help me put nail polish? o.O
i'm kinda challenging on how long i can keep. nv like to keep long nails..
but this time,it's quite clean o.O let's test my limit =)) 9:17 AM

i didn't mention smth sad =(
the dentist tightened my retainers..
my teeth are aching due to the retainer =(( *cries*
its really painful sia! esp when u jus remove it. its super super tight =(
i cant remove/put on my retainers quick n nice n glam-ly alr =((
elf mus be happy like mad =X

omg i didn't know its 11.25 alr!
ok,my show is nt gonna load so fast =(
nt watching le i guess..
off to slp,to be ready for work tmr =)
gonna post many many many times again.hahas =))
wat we used to say:gdnight.sweetdreams.sleep tight.dont fall off ur bed ah..mutou ludou!
i..kinda miss those words... 11:21 PM

oh the nice day has ended! =( back to work tmr~ hahas..
kinda missed this kind of days that i dont have to work.hahas.
suddenly thought of gg beach sia.. but wont be able to cos will be working =( unless i take leave o.O
but sia la.. take leave = nv earn money, and + spend money = doubly sinful! =(
today went for dental. initially thought de dentist said "can drop down to jus put in the night"
happy lehs! n then she said "eh wait. when did u remove ur braces?"
i said june.
den she said my original dentist (today's is a relief one) prefers her patients to wear retainers full time for a year =X
so i can only drop down to night time earliest in july =((
there goes my hope of eating non-stop during cny =X

OMG MYSTERIES OF LOVE IS SUPER SUPER NICE!!!!!!!!!
super exciting now!!!!! tmr last epi le,ahhh!!!!! >.<
but why awesome so cold towards kingsley =((( the poor couple =(((
tmr last epi,guess it'll be nice!!!!! x)
totally feel like watching it online now =X tsktsk. but the video is loading rather slowly =((

hmm anws.. back to today...
met up with jia for brunch at subway =) chatted quite a lot with her.
went to rubi and saw my shoes!!!!! in love with it,n after much thinking,i bought it =X hahas.
but i didn't regret, heex.
kinda lost my mood when im on de train back, but when i reached rubi, still bought it =)
think it realli kinda suits =) n the more i think abt it,de happier i am =D
n i tried matching some clothes with it,hehs! =D

awws~ the guy is so sweet n shuai~
but he's those cool cool type.. =X but his smile very charming!
anws im talking abt the yuan2 shuai4 if u guys know who.hahas. shuai! =)
no wonder he's called yuan shuai,heex =P

ohs.. went to pasir ris with the kids to help them with the chalet thingy =)
the family suite realli nicer ehs! better than those usual upper and lower storey kind o.O
anws hope elf and xiaoclar will be alright..
silly guy, scold de kids for small matters..
in de end some misunderstanding and both parties get angry with each other =X
im ok la. stupid elf. i know u feel abit gaga but im really ok!
anws alr took half day leave,no harm taking another half day.. so jus help the kids lo.
im realli fine! dont feel gaga or wat =) so dont worry k!
the kids did wanna makeup for me in a way, they are nt as bad as u think la! =))
one family kays, erase all the bad incident today hors!!! =))
xiaoclar,stil korkorxzxz and moimoixzxz with elf kays =)
SMILE MY DARLINGS =))))))) <3 AAACJX ever kies! x))

cant wait for the end of work tmr,cos i wanna watch mysteries of love! =D
doubt i can watch any tonight,since its loading sooooooo slowlyyyyy =(( 8:58 PM

i kinda miss baking o.O
but i have no time to bake =X
n i seem to lose a little mood in making new stuff?
n there isn't any major shops that sells baking ingredients anymore =X
choco cornflakes i'll make for sure. making cornflake crunchies =)

ending work soon.
nt coming tmr cos morn got dental, noon needa help juniors.
there goes my $50+ plus transport fee? =((
but im gonna catch up with my hk drama tonight n tmr x)

n xiaoclar's right..
reading my blog is like,knowing my life =X
cos i kinda like,post everything that happened everyday -.-
especially when im bored at work o.O 4:58 PM

I AM SO TIREDDDDDDDDDD
I WANNA SLPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPP
=((((((((((((

didnt have any day that i can wake up naturally this wk >.< mayb tmr =X but still,have to wake up by 8 i think.dental's at ard 9plus.. hope my dentist will tell me i dun haf to put retainer for de full day anymore!!! =XXX anws bought clothes again ytd,but cheap cheap de =) n im loving them, ever since i tried on again ytd night.hahas. but i didn't manage to get my sneakers or flats =( no size!!! sadddddd =((


OK IM REALLY TIREDDDD =(((
imu..suddenly thought of mutou ludou.. wonder if u still rmb wat it means? 8:29 AM

oh ya. sorry to alvintan for no letter! hahas. this time really no letter for u =P
but yups,u'll probably still get it one day. tired of writing to u le but.. haish.. hahas.

n hmm.. i jus realised.. i dont like to make cards for ppl o.O
mayb cos my art is bad =X
i prefer buying those nice letter paper + envelopes,and write to ppl x)
I LOVE WRITING LETTERS!!!! heehee x)
let's see who'll be the next one to write to =P 12:29 AM

TIRED,LONG DAY. BUT FUN,DEFINITELY =DDD
everything's fun when u're with the right ppl =DDD
went out in de morn to get stuff, met jeslyn again x)
went jp, buy tidbits with kids, eat mac breakfast, n played 1 round of monopoly deal! ahahas.
den went down to paya lebar, to teoheng! =)
rather ulu place, but teoheng's really quite gd =)
the system's a little confusing cos they kinda mix all de singers tgt,so its quite diff to find..
but the touch screen is gd, and the remote control is gd too.
n they change mike readily for u =) the ppl are quite nice too.
no service charge as well.. u jus pay for the room? nt bad =) can go next time! x)
nice singing with the kids.hahas. a pity jj's nt there =((
nt full attendance cos aik cant stay and jj cant come early.. so yeps..
after teoheng went to clarke quay for bak kut teh! x) very very full =XXX
n then meet jj at vivo n sat down for a while, kena chased,and came home =))

that's probably de summary.. sounds boring, but with the ppl, it's nv boring x)
once again the day is filled with craps and laughters and suanings and watsoever =))
had fun talking abt random stuff too x)
yups,that's how it goes with these ppl.those that really make u feel they're ur family x)
i know i've been saying all these quite a lot of times..
but im realli glad i know all these ppl in my life..
i rather u guys see this alot of time, feel shy (lol xiaoclar =P) or watsoever..
but jus wanna let u all noe that u guys really made a difference in my life =)
i dun wanna haf regrets in de future for not saying out what i feel..
so, here i am telling all of you, you guys are awesome, you guys made my life beautiful x)
pri sch peeps (esp jia), 2c, 4e5, fsmb, tcb, aaacjx, and some nj peeps (jos, li er,though i know they wont come here =)))
thanks to all!!! x)

ytd's dinner was nice too,with the usual bday-celebration-gang,hahas..
jus a dinner with random topics, chatting,sharing food,nice =D
we shld go for this kind of dinner,ordering big shares and sharing tgt. so sweet x))
thanks for the girls (asy est wl x)) ) for being concerned, and listening to me x) love u girls!
=DDD

today was really a great day, a very happy and relaxing day with aaacjx =))
laughed a lot,smiled alot, chat a lot..
actually we realli didn't do any particular unusual,unique stuff..
jus being tgt, crapping as usual, makes my day =)) <3
the feeling.. cant be described.. =) but i really enjoyed my day today..
but..
im guilty for disappearing the whole of today =X
only seen my mum a while ytd.. came home late too..
today didnt see my mum at all!!!
so i have to make up for it,tmr full family day =))
this coming week,will probably nt have much dinner dates.? need to save up =X
i withdrew $150 in a week?!??! >.< terrible terrible!!!!
at this rate i wonder when i can save enough to get my itouch.tsktsk!
i'll start saving =X I CAN DO IT >.<
i promise,i won't think much..no use thinking abt it too..
living my days as happily as i can, while i wait for the day when we meet and stuff..
hope you're doing well too =) 12:11 AM

listening to songs & looking at their lyrics =)
actually.. some lyrics are really nice.. beautifully written =))
they can actually be like poems - for chi..
or totally like a letter, expressing wat u wanna say to others - mostly for eng?
thats wat i feel =) hahas..
currently listening to forever &always and back to december..
trying to rmb the lyrics~ hehs..
still rmb that time i heard "sorry that i loved you" again and again to rmb the lyrics.hahas =)
back to december.. is the lyrics the same as what you're thinking? i wonder... =X 12:53 PM

so far the day has been good =)
i've work to do all de way..hahas..
actually i think i found work le.. i can jus do refiling =)
jus that im nt sure whether the latest shld be on top or at the bottom =X
saw 2 files of totally diff filing system.tsktsk.

hmmhmm.. i realised i cant really make eye contact with ppl sia..
not really cant,but mayb dont like or smth?
i noticed that when i walk abt in my workplace,even when i walk to the toilet,
i'll naturally put my head down and avoid eye contacts =X
i only eye contact with ppl im comfortable with bahs?
o.O
sometimes even when talking to ppl, i'll only see de eyes for a while,
and will naturally look away even though im still talkin =X

hmmhmm.. nth much to post today i guess..
ohohs.. finished my pouch for asy.ahya,i shld have taken photo!
laterlater =) tonight having dinner with fuhua peeps! x) lalas~
though quite a no. cant turn up in de end, guess it'll still be as fun x)
cos we're fuhuanites.muahahas =D
this year's CNY,will most probably go back only on de 2nd day?
change of plans.. so gotta change my plans for clothes too.hahas..
was actually alr planning on what clothes to wear on each day.hahas.oops =P
cos was trying on them mahs.. den was matching the top and bottoms n stuff x)
uhmmmmms....
yeahs..
OH MY PAY! >.<

i went to calculate ytd,cos i was filling up my timesheet..
den was calculating how much i'll get this time..
only $400++?!?! if i multiply by 2,it wont reach my $1200?
actually the exact isn't really $1200,its when you round up to the nearest $100 =((
but yeahs.. super little! den i realised i lost $110 cos im sick for 2 days. RARRRR!!!!!
super sad lehs!!! $110 lehs!!!! i jus withdrew $100 n guess i'll spent them all today =(
sad la sad la sad la~~~~~
im gonna stay healthy and nt fall sick again manz...
n im not gonna take leave unless necessary (like next tue,dental appt)
wanted to take full day n go out with frens or smth..
but after the great shock ytd,i decided to go back for half day's work. I WILL >.<
when i read abt those, i felt sad.. sad that you did those with her,and not with me..
sad, and mayb a little regretful, that i didn't do enough stuff with u that time..
but then i thought abt it: at then, we were still young?
still young to think abt all these bahs.. so, i cant really blame it..
though i dont know if u were the one who suggested the place (to be honest if u r,i'll be quite heartbroken i guess),i guess i cant do much..
for now.. we'll jus see as it goes.. 11:55 AM

OMG THEY ARE DOING SMTH TO THE CEILING TO REMOVE THE DEAD RATS!!!!!
kinda dun dare to see but wanna see if they're really rats. TSKTSK!!!

okies.. haven remove yet.. cos the ceiling thing kinda broke n they cant take de whole thing..
n de smell is getting stronger now..!!! =XXX
okays.. i heard smth like "we'll come bac tmr" =XXX 4:12 PM

i blog like, 3 to 4 times at least a day i realised =X sorry ppl >.<
oh wells,mayb only 1 or 2 will be reading..hahas.. sorry to whoever came to my blog =X
im jus too bored.. =X
anws a week's gonna be over soon =)
keep thinking today is fri,but its only thurs =X
i wanna watch my show sia ~ i missed 3 out of 5 episodes this week..
for both pu song ling and the mysteries of love =X =((
anws.. im feeling so tired.. duno why =X
i still have 2 hours before i knock off!
surprisingly im only here for 20days.. but i feel that i'd been here for quite long..hahas..
did i say this? i feel that this job is better than shengsiong..
no 1 of cos is pay.. no 2 is envt/work..
nt as stressful,in fact rather slack.lol.
den can use phone,can blog,etc..hahas.. but no fb le =X
n smhw,i dont feel so bad when coming to work.not so sian i mean..
though i'll still look forward to gg home,its nt as bad as that time when i worked in shengsiong.hahas.
so yeahs =))
im kinda looking forward to sat.! wanna sing my heart out =X
n i feel like writing letters to kiddos.. hehs =))
see my mood =P 3:18 PM

hmmm.. suddenly feel like posting some songs that i really like =))

eng:
Like a Rose - A1
Try - Asher book
You belong with me - Taylor Swift
Today was a fairytale - Taylor Swift
Sorry that I Loved You -Ni An Dong (Anthony Neely)
Just the way you are - Bruno Mars?
Pretty Boy - M2M
The Luckiest - Ben Folds
Love me - Collin Raye
Two is Better than one - Taylor Swift & Boys like Girls
Our song - Taylor Swift
Because you loved me - Celine Dion
Keep Holding on -Avril Lavigne
Already gone - Kelly Clarkson

a lot of songs by taylor swift..hahas..
anws, they include sweet songs, and sad songs.. hahas =)
n some are quite old =X but still nice =)

chinese:
爱上你 - BY2
就是爱你 - 陶喆
K歌之王
雨爱
突然好想你
外套
临时演员
寂寞寂寞就好
eeeks.suddenly cant type chi =X
di4 qiu2 shang4 zui4 lang4 man4 de yi shou3 ge1 (i hope this title is right =X its by xiao3 gui3 =)) )
bei dui bei yong bao
hui you na me yi tian
di yi ci

i think there are still a lot of songs out there..
but tentatively,these are e songs i saw..or appeared in my mind =)) heex..
sometimes.. when i listen to the songs, whether they are the songs that you recommend to me,
or the one that you sang n made me fell in love with u,
or songs that suits our situation, i'll think.. will u sing to me?
will u dedicate songs to me n say "thats wat i wanna tell u,that's how i feel" ?
cos some songs, are really really sweet and touching, so much so that i hope you'll say that's for me..
but somehow..perhaps..its jus wat i hope for.. thats perhaps so not u =)
2:22 PM

okays..i think i smelled smth stinky.. =X
i tried looking up n finally saw wat my colleague was telling me..
smth like a stain on de ceiling =X
n i looked ard de office, there are a few stains =X tsktsktsk!!!
but how do they know that are really ratS? =XXX 1:49 PM

there are dead rats in the office?!?!?!
EEEEEEEEEEEEEWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWW
i still cannot see, BUT I DUN WANNA SEE AS WELL =XXXXXXX
tsktsktkstsktsk 12:47 PM

yeahs.. i think.. i know what i wan already =)
i know what my heart wants too =)
shall keep it a secret x)
no one shall know abt it.. just my heart n me..hahas..
eh..mayb xiaoclar noes =X
duno if i'll tell any others,but i doubt so..heex =))
yups..kinda felt better when i have sort of a direction,a path to take =))
thanks xiaoclar =)
talking to u,is kinda nice x) hahahas.. glad we have each other ehs? =))
i have u ,u have me.. hahas..
same sentence to u : u're not alone =) u have me! hahas..
laoclar will always be here for u =D hehhehhehs~~~
duno why,but really feel very happy.. =)) thanks again xiaoclar! laoclar loves u to the max x)
we'll jiayou tgt k! x) <3

today,ivan (my philippines bus-mate) told me lotsa stuff..
anws,he's one of de closest company bus-mate i have.hahas.
always meet him in de morn & when we go back..
he's a very nice guy,very funny and entertaining.hahas.though sometimes its diff to understand his slang o.O
but hmm.. he entertained me quite alot..n kinda chat quite some stuff with him..
he was the one who told me abt girls nt being able to hide their emotions n stuff..
de thing that i blogged abt ytd =)
n today, he told me abt friends and family..

he was saying abt how ppl he knows,guys he mean, abt de same age as me,
who treats their parents like invisible ppl:
once they reach home,they go inside the room. take their food in, play in it,
jus cooped themselves totally in their room, nt talking to their parents at all..
den he told me, actually, the people who are hurt most will be the parents..
it'll be so painful when ur child/children dont wanna talk to u and ignores u..
that'll be especially painful for those real good parents that give their children everything..
yet they get nth in return,not even a hi mummy/daddy, or a short chat..
perhaps jus some sterns, some irritated faces..
he's right.. we can choose our friends.. our friends can choose us..
we wont know if the friends ard us now will be with us forever..
perhaps now we'll say yes, but we wont know abt the future..
i experienced this b4.. had some close friends, but lost touch and that's it.
but our parents wont change..
no matter wat, they're still our parents..
u can hate them, u can be angry with them, you can get irritated with wat they do..
they can be gd, they can love you, they can give everything to you,
but they can also be bad, treat u badly, scold u, beat u, watever..
call it fate? its all destined.. they're made to be our parents.
no matter wat you do,they are still ur parents. it cant be changed.
perhaps ur parents divorce,remarry.. but the "original" ones are still the original one..
its all in de blood..in de genes..
so he was telling me, no matter wat, we have to spend time with our parents..
he asked me "do u hug ur mum? ur dad?"
then im like.. hmm.. nt really.. i do hook hands, n stuff, but not hug bahs..
but im glad, that im nt like who he described - cooping in the room,ignoring my parents..
ever since i started work in sec 4, i start to be very sticky to my mum.
i'll feel guilty for going out late and dumping them at home..
i'll leave wkends to them, mostly..
i'll make sure i'll appreciate them, as much as i can, cos i dun wanna regret..
i dun wanna wait till they die, den realise that im so unfilial,
den regret that i didn't treasure them when they're alive..
hope you guys think this way too =)
rmb, no matter wat, they are our parents.this is de fact.
though i admit, some are really incorrigible - i did met some =X
but perhaps, as a child, we jus give them at least some respect..
no matter wat, they are our parents =)

hmmhmm..
why not think it this way: at least we respect them,we treat them for how they deserve it..
at least, we wont regret in de end..
if it's them who dont treasure it,doesn't matter.. u did it.. that's enough..
at least u know u dont take it for granted.. at least u tried to make it gd..
at least ur conscience is clear? =))

another thing.. abt friendship..
actually im kinda gaga abt this..
he asked me : do i tell my friends abt my family prob?
i thought abt it..i think yes..
n he told me,he dont.. cos he feels that, its his problem.. n..i think 家丑不可外扬?
ok i dont know abt the last word, but it's yang2 =X
n yeahs.. he told me he'll jus keep within him,go out for a walk, n go back home after he felt better.
his reason was that who knows one day, ur friend is mad at u, n started telling others abt ur secret..
i gave him de "wont ba? " look..
n he was like "u wont know.."
actually,true..
not that i dont trust my frens la.. actually, i do believe those that i told secrets too,will be with me forever.
mayb thats wat i hope.. but ya.. life is unpredictable, isn't it?
so abt this.. im nt very sure wat's my opinion..
perhaps i may listen to him: "if u really wanna say, you can say la.. but mayb,keep at least abt 10% to urself?"
hahas.. maybe.. =)
to think of it.. mayb the only person u can share to is ur partner bahs..
since he/she will most likely be the next person in ur family?
but then again,u wont know..hahas..
i'll leave this open to you guys..
for me.. i dont know..
perhaps i'll try not to say as much to others.. i'll change target to my soft toys..
but, its jus so not me.. =X i'll see how it goes.. hahas =))

okays..this is again a rather long post. but i think.. quite meaningful to go n think abt it? =))
enjoy ur day ppl =)) 10:08 AM

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