AHHHHH!!!!! i was bloghopping,seeing who's blog i can go to. n i went to waiseng's blog.. nth much.. so i went to see his archive, wat he posted 1 day b4 last paper of Os =)) so touched.. still so touched.. so.. happy? hahas.. brought back a lot of memories of 4e5.. how we really worry abt waiseng,think of ways to help him.. i rmb i told miss yeo: i duno wat to do le.. i feel like giving up. n she told me: if u all give up,who's gonna help him? all teachers told me they're giving up,duno wat to do to him. you all must stand by me and support me,to support him. becos of wat she said, i felt so guilty of myself. n i say ok.i take back my words.i wont give up.we'll continue to help him. i rmb when i read his this post,im really happy. cos i didn't knew he really appreciate all our actions so much.hahas..
that year was tough.. but seriously nice =)) really love the class, 4e5'08 =) including the FT miss yeo cheng yong =DDD
--Merci tout le monde--
10:12 AM
ooh la!!! today's de last day of 2010!!! fast fast fast.. real fast.. tsk >.< 1 month since de end of A's! hahas.. hmm.. time to pack up ur things of 2010.. keep the good memories well.. pack the bad ones and throw them away.. =)) yups.. time to clear away all the bad stuff, and welcome the new year with a clear n new mind =) all ready for the new year =)) hahas..
this year.. kinda many things happen bahs..? actually,major thing is As lo.. the very big,major thing.. oh.. n there's harmoc concert =) concerts to be exact o.O ok.. let's look at wat i've been thru this year =)
1. OGL =) this will perhaps be my best memories in NJ? hahas.. really enjoyed myself, esp in walk-in, massdances =)) n also with my super enthu OG9!!! n also a little grouchy but still nice OG15 =) totally loved my dear ignis hse councillors + OGLs, an awesome bunch =D great walk-in performance, nice n fun practices tgt =D i totally loved this period as an OGL, nv regret at all x)) luckily i went.. realli =)) i'll surely miss the OGL times ~~~
2.Harmoc concert =) a concert, that i think, i'll really call it, our own =) becos we really did everything on our own.. the songs - some are written by our SLs the seating arrangement the moving in and out, the sequence of the songs, the placing of instruments/mikes etc.. every single thing,is done by us.. our teachers did nth much (wanted to say nth but,they did do something lol) our conductor,only cared about our music, as a whole.. our SLs are the ones making sure every single part is ok. we had endless meetings. almost every week if im nt wrong,until we're quite sian n tired. but poor huijuan has no choice, n had to bear our grumpy faces.. really glad that it all turned out well.. with almost full audience if im nt wrong. n we all presented the best side of ourselves x) all the long practices, scoldings/naggings, are all worth it =)) I think this is another great part of memories in NJ that i'll definitely not forget. a concert that we planned ourselves, which turned out to be a successful one x)
3. actually nth much comes to my mind le.. it'll be left with A's i guess? hmm.. for As.. nth much to update bahs.. its jus that JE library became my 2nd home? hahas.. almost everyday we'll go at 10.. n i'll go bac at 6plus or 7 plus.. this period was spent with fuhua girls =) est wl kl yz somehow, cant really rmb how, but we came tgt.. and spent the whole As studying tgt x) studied,but also crapped and relaxed when needed x) hahas. that's de way. nt fully mug non-stop..hahas. but yups.i think it was rather useful =) glad i had them =) wont forget the last day of the 1st wk after math paper, whr we girls + alvintan had pepper lunch and sat there for abt 2 hrs, chatting abt our memories in fuhua x) super nice x) i.. really missed fuhua >.< tsk. OH NO.I HAVEN CALL MISS YEO.TSK. guess i can only do that next wk or smth. seriously miss her man! supposed to find her duno when.hhaas.1 month after As le leh.ahhas.. anws yups. dont wanna talk much abt As le.hahas.
4.that stuff bahs.. the one that make me so unsure even till now.. guess i've been saying alot alr.. talked to frens. heard comments. but still, unable to settle down on a decision. not easy uh. =X tsk. hopefully i'll be able to not bring all these over.. and start a brand new fresh year? i wont know if i can =X shall try, shall see =)) i have to say, i realli duno if knowing abt these is gd or bad. gd cos i gt to know abt things that i nv knew. n it really make me, i duno, happy? glad? bad cos i duno wat to do now. duno wat decision i shld make.cos both doesn't seem ideal =X rarr. but, now that i knew abt it, i guess i'll jus play by it? see wat's coming up, and act accordingly as it goes.. let nature takes it course =) i duno wat's gonna happen.. i cant foresee.. so for now.. as normal.. i'll jus keep neutral =) keep the situation as it is now? =) well honestly. i always have the angel devil thing in my head =X angel will pop out thinking of the sweet n nice things that may happen but devil will pop out straight after saying dun be silly/naive, its jus ur thinking =X tsktsk.. i also duno.. cos i think both, seem possible.. =X nt sure which 1 will have a higher possibility of happening too =X oh wells~ back to the old line: let nature takes its course =) once again,i believe in fate =) if we're fated to be tgt, we will be =) sad that i cant rmb that sentence.i know it goes smth liddat. out of how many billions of ppl in the world, i got to meet you that,is fate =) smth liddat bahs. hahas. its in chi though. n it sound real meaningful =) n yups,i agree to that.. its easy to so called test this u noe =X jus go and think of all the "if i nv go -----" "if i nv do....." i always think of all these n i think.. yeahs.. its really fate? =) fate that i live in jurong area. fate that i meet whoever whoever.. many many many many...... so yups! heex x)
yeahs! that's abt all for 2010 =) let's hope 2011 will be a better one for everyone!!!!! x)
--Merci tout le monde--
8:50 AM
Thursday, December 30, 2010
LOTSA MOZZIE BITES ON MY LEGGGGGS =((((((
--Merci tout le monde--
11:54 PM
i think this is de first time i post so many times a day =X but anws, "Just the way you are" by Bruno Mars is GREAT =D super nice lehs~ addicted to it =D thanks to asy~! hahas x) its really really really really really sweet~ if a guy's gonna dedicate this song to me, i'll melt mans~~~ =X okays shall nt be hua1 chi1 =X but this song is really sweet. all boyfriends shld dedicate this song to their girlfriends =))
"She's so beautiful and i tell her everyday"
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"So don't even bother asking me if you're okay you know i'll say ~ When I see your face There's not a thing that I would change Cause you're amazing Just the way you are ~ And when you smile The whole world stops and stares for a while Cause girl you're amazing Just the way you are"
=)))))))
and oh!!! "The Luckiest" by Ben Folds is nice too!!!!! =D had been hearing this song for quite long though.. this is a slow,soothing and also sweet song =) but not really for lovers i feel.. more for married couples? =) suddenly looking at the lyrics now.. n i think.. if i can still rmb, i'll play this song on my wedding =D still long i know =X not implying that i wanna get married soon -.- NO OKAYS. but yeahs.this is a nice song that i think one shld dedicate to his/her the other half =) i will do that! hopefully when i get married (hopefully i will =X), i'll still rmb this song =)) n i'll play it.. n tell my husband,im de luckiest =D lalals~
--Merci tout le monde--
4:53 PM
oh yay! this is so cool~ =D i worked only half day last wk,but i earned full day's pay! which means i earned $26 even though im nt at work! cos its supposed to be full day, but the company is entitled to half day. so its nt our fault that we dun wanna work full day. but we dun haf to. so we'll still earn full day pay! omg im loving my job =D easy money =D =P
--Merci tout le monde--
12:37 PM
oh nice. i found a new excuse =X love is smth that shldn't be rushed =XXX
--Merci tout le monde--
12:29 PM
this process is repeating itself, again, and again.. i'll see smth.. i'll feel gaga.. i'll talk to ppl.. they'll tell me to give up.. to stop waiting.. n maybe, sometimes, i will... somehow,i decided that ok,mayb i realli shld.. but then de next moment, i'll receive smth, that breaks this again.. n i'll be back to the girl, waiting for sms-es, n stuff..
i.. gotta admit.. i'll feel gaga seeing some stuff.. but ya.. who am i to feel it that way? im not ur anyone.. in de past, yes.. now? nahs.. nth.. im in no position to feel anything.. im jus.. i duno.. jus someone.. a normal someone..
they keep telling me.. set a deadline.. nth happens,forget abt it.. but i know, its useless.. really useless.. in my heart, that deadline probably dont exist.. it probably only shows the ppl that yes,i've put a deadline.. probably tell them that i'd given up.. but i know deep in my heart.. probably.. no.. i wish i could.. i wish it'll jus be like wat happened for de past 2 years.. not thinking much abt u.. nt having hopes.. cos i know u're happy with others.. with ur life.. so i'll jus lead mine too, and say, im happy to have those memories with u.. im happy to have a nice r/s in de past.. those memories.. enough.. im contented.. but i know now,that i cant return to the past.. because wat i had always thought is nt true.. apparently.. n then.. yes.. once again.. my hopes are up.. but i always try to psycho myself,to not think abt it.. becos high hopes = high expectations.. n i always make myself to not imagine anything happening.. cos everytime,i realli think its everytime now, all that i'd imagined will not happen.. n u noe why..i keep imagining us tgt.. so.. sometimes i'll think.. mayb we realli will nt be back tgt again..
i know i've been posting all these same things again n again.. but thats becos they'd been appearing again n again.. n till now,i still cant make a decision.. sometimes, i'll hope there's a shuai n nice person appearing in front of me.. den mayb.. i can make a decision =X ok that's rubbish =X like wat xiaoclar say,its abt de feelings n heart. n oh well. that probably explains why till now, no decision can be made. tsk =X
AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH love is realli so irritating =(( its super nice when sweet stuff happen.. u'll be smiling away when u look at sms-es.. but when it comes to this kind of situation, its realli irritating.. n sometimes wish, maybe i shldn't go into it. tsk. BLAME IT ALL ON DE GUYS =XXXX go read my fb note that i shared. i think its so true lo. most of them =X tsk.
--Merci tout le monde--
12:00 PM
ate portugese egg tart jus now! given by colleague =) nice lehs! hahas. now continuing work.. =))
listening to jiu4 shi4 ai4 ni3 now, by tao2 zhe2 de song that.. makes me.. a little more attracted to him =))
--Merci tout le monde--
10:26 AM
Wednesday, December 29, 2010
OMG. i duno wat's wrong with me today >.< tsk! 2 super embarrassing stuff happened today!!! no.1 i was in some1's fb acc. den saw a familiar name. so thought it would be fun so went to find de person to chat. tried to trick de person, n get the person to guess who i am. gave de person clues, n still blame de person for being so dumb for nt being able to guess in de end realised smth is wrong.den i went to see de pic. n realised is nt de person i know! its jus another person with de same name same surname!!! omg. so embarrassing leh! immediately log off! den forgot to cross the convo,let some1 see! n the person that i talked to still post on some1's wall! omg embarrassing to the max can?!?!??!
no.2 my fren ask me to help her delete 1 person from her a/c, but i mistooken, thought she say delete her fb a/c!!! so i went to deactivate!!! i still tell her weird things, then she say she dun understand, but didn't realise why until she msg me n ask if i delete de person or deactivate her a/c. omg lo!!!!! >.<
wah siao. duno what happen to me seriously >.< yue4 bang1 yue4 mang2!!!!!! gagaagagagagagagagagagagaga =XXXXX
--Merci tout le monde--
9:51 PM
im once again kinda bored.. finished my stuff le. colleagues too busy to show me or tell me wat to do? =X tsk sian with fb liao >.< also worried that will be caught and kena nagged/scolded. though i think it wont happen? =)
was in other ppl's fb acc. den thought saw a fren's name. so went to chat n ask de person to guess who i am. turned out that its another person with exactly same name n surname -.- oh gosh,damn embarassing hor! luckily i nv say out my name. heng!!! but think de person will feel super diao!!! now i dun dare to go into that acc le.tsk. >.< waiting for de owner to reply me on wat shld i do =X meanwhile.. slack slack slack =X
--Merci tout le monde--
1:47 PM
Monday, December 27, 2010
its always like that.. everytime i wanna give up.. thought of giving up.. something will happen.. n i cant give up again. tsk.
--Merci tout le monde--
4:46 PM
Sunday, December 26, 2010
yay~ nice staying with mummy at home x) we were trying clothes jus now. hahs. all de new clothes x) heex~ then now she washing them~! n asy says shld give half de pay to parents.. so.. mayb i'll increase de amt to give them.. hahas.. n im gonna buy itouch with my pay~! set =D shall see de condition.. either buy during 1st or 2nd pay? o.O
anws sorry for the emo posts of de past few days =X shall nt think so much!!! nvrtheless,thanks to all my frens =D love all of u to the max =DDD
--Merci tout le monde--
11:30 AM
Friday, December 24, 2010
i stoned a lot today.. n i guessed u guys know wat's in my mind =X n then i suddenly thought of this 2 words: daydream and think.. i rmb asking "what's de diff btwn de 2? gt diff meh?" n the answer was "think,is jus think. daydream is thinking until engrossed that u cant hear the surroundings" at that time.. this was just so sweet.. becos it wasn't "im thinking abt u" but "im daydreaming abt u" i guess.. i'll nv experience that anymore.. but.. i guess i'll nv forget that bahs..
--Merci tout le monde--
7:40 PM
倪安東 - 散場的擁抱 (HQ官方版MV)
i heard this song before "sorry that i loved you" but i didn't read the lyrics.. until elf showed me.. n yeahs.. its realli like wat's happening now.. totally.. exactly.. this is so scary =(( esp some sentences.. like.. "你选的电影象某种预告 不坦白的主角 最后留着眼泪坚持独自走掉" ~ "你煎熬不肯定什么是最想要" ~ "苦笑冒充微笑浪漫得不肯逃" ~ "我知道我们和你们不能比较 但我的爱多强悍出乎你预料" ~ "我知道太美的回忆像副手铐 越是挣脱越缠绕我比你明了"
elf say this is to let me be in de shoes of that 3rd person.. n i told him.. it makes me feel ga.. n feel like.. mayb i shld back out.. though he said no,its jus to let me understand de feelings better but.. i think its realli so unfair to that 3rd person.. but yeah.. i noe.. there's no such thing called fair n unfair.. perhaps even if i insist on backing out, no. 1 they may still nt be tgt.. no. 2 they may be tgt but it might nt be love.. might be some kind of pity? n of cos, no.3, they r tgt n truly in love. but if no. 3 happens, all the things that happen all this while, all that i've heard n stuff,will not appear.. but well..things can still change.. we wont know.. i duno either =X haish..
but this is realli getting irritating.. i thought i became stronger.. asy said i did.. that day.. but.. ytd.. no.. totally feeling down.. esp when im alone.. facing de comp n de tv.. in de living room.. i kept staring at the phone.. waiting.. n at night i discovered smth..that made me feel worse.. but i noe i cant do anything.. i know im back to the me that keeps staring at the phone, hoping to see that name appear.. but everytime before i see,i'll tell myself it'll nt happen.. i wont see that name.. i did have surprises sometimes.. but.. not ytd.. not today.. i know this is bad.. im losing me again.. but.. as u guys noe.. nobody can control this... once again.. im hoping i wont think too much.. i will not have any hopes.. becos higher hopes will bring abt higher expectations.. i know things wont happen fast.. i know everyone needs time.. so.. perhaps.. wait.. i duno how long i can hold.. we'll see.. we'll jus see..
humans are like that.. we always think of what if.. or 如果.. its de same anws =X what if i insists that time? what if i took the courage and asked that time? what if i didn't know a thing? what kind of life will i be leading now? what if everything wasn't true? what if ..... i still have a lot.. many popped out jus now.. but they disappeared.. yeah.. what if.. what if.. what if.. if i insisted that time.. will he agree? or still say no? if i took de courage, will he agree? or insist we break? but perhaps at then they were tgt alr.. if i didn't know a thing,i'll really know nth.. then again,my regrets will be there.. or mayb..even now,my regrets are still there =X if everything wasn't true, i'll probably be de dummiest person in de world.. being fooled like nobody's business.. if everything wasn't true, i'll probably collapse.. mentally esp.. perhaps i'll totally change my character.. i duno..i realli dun.. too many "ifs".. if i were think of all de possibilities of all de "ifs", i think i'll really become super emo =XXX
this song is super super super super super nice n touching... n ni an dong's singing is jus superb can.. can totally feel his emotions lor.. if im his ex i'll sure be touched to the max and agree to get back =X but its realli so omg la.. heart totally will melt de can =X tears nearly rolled down just now when i was watching de MV. esp when u see him singing it.. his sorrow face =(( had been repeating this song today for super many times.. but think nt as many as alvin tan la =X
n i.. imagined ni an dong as him...
--Merci tout le monde--
3:50 PM
Monday, December 20, 2010
actually sometimes im quite fed up with my relatives too. that family i mean.. wat my other relatives said are true.. they're nv free for us. ppl say they keep gg to batam, then they say "no, only went back during new year" but did they ever come n visit us? no hors. nt at all. ever since granny passed away they were never here at all. de first time they called was becos they need help.. they nv called to express concern.. they came to sg so many times. went on cruise, etc. but they nv dropped by to visit, or give a call, ask if we wanna go down to look for them or smth. really dun understand why it turns out to be like that.. we're relatives aren't we? jus a call to express concern is so diff? wat's so diff? u have time to drive from JB to SG, u have time to visit sentosa, no time to drop by n say hello? have a meal? its realli de sincerity lo.. wat my mum say is true also la.. if they dun wan,dun wan lo. we wont suffer.. next time if u guys need help,dont blame us if we cant help. u guys weren't there when my uncle needs help. drove my granny away de night when she was brought there. dun allow her to sit on de sofa, saying she's dirty. really feel like cursing that u'll face de same situation,or worse in de future. but no. we shall be nice. we'll still entertain u. like how mum still lends money to u. a thousand dollars jus like that. why? cos they're siblings. hope the wife will really wake up. u wan a high class life,but u cant live it. den forget it. ur frens? jus frens. ur relatives are the ones that wont abandon u no matter wat. open ur eyes big. go reflect reflect reflect.
--Merci tout le monde--
11:28 PM
i felt like i haven blogged for many days?? hahas x) since thurs x) nice 4 days!!! x)) cousins came over on thurs.. thurs.. went for keppel interview!!!!!! hahas.. after breakfast with cousins, came back, started preparing.. got my cousin (also admin de) to teach me on how i shld prepare myself x) she taught me how to put on makeup, how much to put, how to dress etc, to make a gd impression =) took cab down.. the boss was an angmoh!!! met 2 bosses. both are nice ppl!!! x)) n yups i got the job!!! =D received calls that day.hahas. ohs.a shocking thing.hahas. i was at the bus stop.. waiting for e bus.. quite some ppl passed by n kept looking =X rarr. n the bus took super long.. then an angmoh guy in a car (saw him coming out of keppel too) stopped at the bus stop. n asked whr im gg, n if i wanna take this ride. i.... agreed =X hahas n was sms-ing p3 thruout.. n est.. n.. duno who le.. hahas.. but i did keep a lookout of my surroundings..hahas.. but he was super rich i think! his phone is connected to his car! so when he's talking on de phone,i can hear wat the other speaker i talking about through the speaker in e car. cool right!!! n he's a super nice guy la. apologised for being on de phone.. den kept saying welcome when i said thank u =) n i alighted safely,of course.hahas. oh he's got a ring =( too sad~ =( hahas. anws.. i did tell my mum.. but she kinda mistaken it as if that's my boss. but he isn't =X i shall not clarify further,cos it'll make her more worried..hahas. i didnt dare to tell her abt it when im on de car man. hahas. anws alighted at JE. n met my mum n relatives =)
went to resorts world sentosa (RWS) and universal! didn't go into universal la.. went to tour ard de outside nia.. nice enough =)) took lotsa pics x) esp of that candylicious shop!!! hahas. some are overpriced but some are really affordable.. but didnt buy any in the end la.. n then went to sentosa. took de luge ride =) still as nice =)) n went to eat at koufu. OH THIS IS WHR DE TRAGEDY HAPPENED!!!!!! a bird flew in.. wah,was kinda complaining cos very unhygenic uh.. den it started flying ard. i think its trying to find its way out. flew in from de back n flew to the front, *bang* , hit the glass door. then flew again to the back n *bang* again!!! A SUPER LOUD ONE.!! n it dropped down on de floor.. n cant fly le!!!! den a stall owner came out n picked it up and let it into the air outside.. n lots of feathers dropped.. bet its heavily wounded =(( poor bird.. they have poor eyesight, cant see de glass doors =X poor thing..
after that went to walk de bridge.. took photos with gingerbread women and banana boat =D shall upload them on fb tonight.. or tmr.. =))
after that.. took my god dad's car.. 14 ppl in 8 seater car =X mum sat on de floor. i sat with her initially. after that didn't =X den went to flyer! didn't went up cos i didn't bring my 1-for-1!!! =(( walked the helix bridge and went to MBS =)) SUPER NICE VIEW =))) photos again on fb x)) but realli super nice luhs! lotsa white balls at marina bay there, n found out later that they are those "wish balls" whr ppl write their wishes on top =) damn nice =))) anws im so gonna go there again, de helix bridge, with my bf (i wonder who o.O) i think its a nice place to date! so sweet to walk the long walkway =)))))) yay~~ hahas.. n yups. explored MBS =)) got this fountain thingy.. hahas. my cousin said its some rainsplash smth.. its like a well, n is used to collect the rainwater, which will fall down as if like a fountain! nice invention =) useful and beautiful x))
then went to maxwell food centre and eat =)) nice~! hahas =)) n i think.. back home =)
day 2: fri 17-12-2010! sheng's bday!!! hahas.. went off for harmoc in de morn.. not bad,did improve =)) yay~ long time nv conduct le.quite nice =)) went off at 12.. den rushed when im home..n we went to my aunt's hse for sumptuous lunch! after lunch was de ice-cream session again =)) n kit-kat cake!!! hahas. photos on fb! =D den after that my god mum's family went home.. brought my relatives down to orchard! oh we alighted at clarke quay first. den we went to take the hippo boat cruise or smth? =) but it rained =(( but still took some photos =)) after that we walked to PS. den ate pepperlunch there. den met up with cousin n went to orchard.. stayed there till night lo =) squeezy~~~~~~ but the so-called exhibition was super nice!!!!! =D MUSIC!!!!!!!! they made the musical instruments out of those white-coloured-wired-lights.. n de christmas tree was made up of snowflakes, which are made up of treble clefs and crotchets =) we sat right beside the performers. a vocal, a guitarist, a drummer =) sang lotsa nice songs. love Last Christmas x)))) not long after.. i think we went home =))
hmm.. sat was a packed day.. market-ed for almost half a day. came home, and rushed down to JP after we packed our stuff. shopped for only an hour or 2? but i bought pumps and zocks! hahas =D den squeezed into godfather's car n went back to msia. jammed for 2h o.O steamboat for dinner.. n monopoly-ed with the kids.hahas. yup that's about it?hahas. nth much =)
sun.. got up early to prepare.. mass dressing up session..hahas. did my own hair and make-up =)) cousin helped my mum&aunty with hair+makeup =)) den took quite some self-portraits.hahas =D heeheex.. but i realise it wasn't that obvious in pics o.O no wonder ppl need exaggerated make-up when they perform =X but im quite satisfied with my attempt.hee =)) dun wanna elaborate much le.. but i finally bought jeans =)) n a blouse =) shopping again with asy tmr.hahas. but i'll control myself n only buy office wear =) i know asy will be able to help me =D i think its diff cos cant find those that wont look too mature =X we shall see =))
gg down to meet my agent later for de job thingy.. then after that coming back home first i guess.. before gg to sch for harmoc.. yups.. n thurs onwards.. guess there's nth much to update =(( well! we'll see how =)) photos on fb soon! =)
--Merci tout le monde--
9:18 AM
Tuesday, December 14, 2010
TODAY WAS A FAIRYTALE - TAYLOR SWIFT
Today was a fairytale, you were the prince I used to be a damsel in distress You took me by my hand and you picked me up at six Today was a fairytale, today was a fairytale.
Today was a fairytale, I wore a dress you wore a dark gray t-shirt you told me i was pretty when i looked like a mess today was a fairytale
* Time slows down whenever u're around but can you feel this magic in the air? it must have been the way you kissed me fell in love when i saw u standing there it must have been the way today was a fairytale it must have been the way today was a fairytale
Today was a fairytale you've got a smile that takes me to another planet every move you take, everything you say is right today was a fairytale
Today was a fairytale All that i can say is now it's getting so much clearer Nothing made sense until the time that i saw ur face today was a fairytale
Time slows down whenever you're around yeah yeah
But can you feel this magic in the air? it must have been the way you kissed me Fell in love when i saw you standing there it must have been the way today was a fairytale it must have been the way today was a fairytale
Time slows down whenever you're around I can feel my heart,it's beating in my chest Did you feel it? I can't put it down
But can you feel this magic in the air It must have been the way you kissed me Fell in love when i saw you standing there it must have been the way
But can you feel this magic in the air it must have been the way you kissed me Fell in love when i saw you standing there it must have been the way today was a fairytale it must have been the way today was a fairytale today was a fairytale
-end-
if only.. everything was like a fairytale..
i suddenly thought of the "fei2 tian2 xi3 shi4" show.. to find a guy who has telepathy with you,who knows what u're thinking.. that would be so great.. so blissful.. how i wish i can see an sms of concern.. if only he knows what im thinking.. =X
OKAYS SORRY P3... I'LL TRY NOT TO BE THAT EMO =XXX LOL
okays still a little headache now.. but nt sneezing as much le =X hope i'll get better after a day's rest =X
--Merci tout le monde--
10:31 AM
Monday, December 13, 2010
hi im back to post =)) actually im quite tired now but.. realli wanna post..hahas =))
today was a nice day =)) morning was kinda bored.. jus tv-ed all de way~ used de lappy too.n i learnt a new hairstyle n put it to use today x) i wore my cardigan =D nice =D went out with fuhua ppl~! was initially suggested by vannie n jr.. in de end it was the committee (me est jx p3) who met first! hahas.. went to eat yoshinoya~ n jr came n we pooled! x) 1st 2 or 3 games were quite malu -.-" i dont really know how to play pool, but still think its rather fun.hahas =) a couple actually came to play pool! quite cool! its de first time i saw couples pooling as dating? o.O ok mayb im a country pumpkin =X hmm after pooling.. vannie n wanlin came! went to subway, then walked ard a little.. n off for RAPUNZEL!!!! IT WAS NICEEEEEE =DDDDDD it wasn't as childish as i thought x)) the songs were nice? x) n most scenes were cute n funny! x) n some were sweet~ honestly.. i think the guy looks like him -.- ok sorry =X but its true =(( his face jus popped out in my mind =X but hmm.. after the movie.. or mayb during the movie.. i was thinking.. trust is perhaps the most impt thing in love.. there are bound to be ppl and things ard to disrupt the r/nship. yeah,obstacles i would say.. to test the strength of the r/nship. without them, u wont know how strong ur r/nship is.. so, for a r/nship to last, trust is one main ingredient.. n i believe, in a r/nship, both have to be truthful to each other.. there shldn't be any lies.. any dishonest acts.. ok,that reminds me of Os/As "candidates with any dishonest acts will be ...." =X well anws.. yups.. only r/nship that has encountered such obstacles, n had managed to overcome them, will be long lasting.. n yeah.. that's how people can still be as loving and understanding after many years of marriage x) i look forward to achieving that =))
anws yups! realli loved rapunzel X) glad i watched it =D had been wanting to watch a movie.hahas. after that i had dinner with the gals.. a rather fast dinner? hahas. at taiwan xin wang =) n we went home after that! gossiped on de train.. ahhas. laughed like mad =P n wanlin is a water woman today!!! firstly she dropped the coke in the cinema. hahas. spilled onto vannie's n her legs.. then 2ndly, at jp, she felt water dripping down.. she thought was from the ceiling,but i thought it was from her bag.. in de end,it really was.. her bottle wasn't capped properly and her whole bag was wet. so we took out all the things and she literally poured out the water.lol! the scene was super funny! imagine 3 girls standing at one side, emptying a bag, with water dripping out endlessly! hahas! laughed like mad! n wl was like "stop laughing le la" hahas! n we kept warning vannie to hold her soyamilk properly.. if nt wanlin may do smth to it again =P
really a great day out =D had lots of laughters.. esp at night x) but now i feel so sick.. my right eye's a little pain.. n had been sneezing since i bathed =X feeling so tired.. so i shall go n have my nice slp x) bye ppl~
(imh)
--Merci tout le monde--
10:48 PM
rarr.. im back to the period whr i feel like a dumbdumb, always looking at my phone, hoping to see a sms from some1.. n then i thought of the past.. i thought of that period, when i start to get more easily contented.. when the replies comes slower, i feel contented that at least he still reply everyday.. when there are lesser sms-es, i feel contented that at least there are some sms-es everyday when the sms-es dont come everyday, i feel contented that at least we still sms.. slowly.. i realised.. sometimes, we can feel contented easily.. its just how we define that boundary..
for now.. i realised perhaps im getting more n more greedy.. mayb i shld narrow down the boundary.. cos i think i shld feel contented alr.. =))
anws. i realised i haven try my eyeshadow leh!!! but there's a wedding dinner this sun!!! duno when i have the time to try =X n ohs. i realised.. i go to msia every week.hahas! 1st weekend, penang. 2nd weekend, johor shopping this coming 3rd weekend, johor wedding dinner. HAHAS =DDD i love wedding dinners x) cos i can dress up and have nice food! =DDD
--Merci tout le monde--
10:20 AM
Saturday, December 11, 2010
TIRED!!!!!! BUT HAPPY!!!!!!!!! =DDD today's JB trip was nicey nice~! x) LOVED MY MUMMY~~~~~~ but the clothes today aren't cheap though i saw de "sale" word everywhere. becos i have such nice taste that the clothes i saw are new.. "new arrival" =X cheapest was mum's RM43, most expensive was mine,RM99 =X but mum said its cos there's a lot of effort in de sewing part.. which i realised.. so yups..kinda worth it. n its spotted by my mum.. hahas =P still rmb that time my aunt nagged my mum saying i have a lot of clothes cos of her. cos she keeps telling me that its nice, making me wanna buy.hahas. then my mum was like,but its realli nice wat! i shldn't lie! hahas love my mummy to the max x)) but now i realli love that dress alot. a halter dress x) super nice! a fully white dress. hehs x) n i loved another flowery dress i bought! also a little halter kind? o.O n i kept looking at flowery clothes today! ahhas n then i bought the blouse that i saw in far east! the 1 that i have to wear a tank top inside x) n i bought a cardigan too! n my white shorts! hahas~ i got everything x)) lallalas~ so im super happy =D but on our way back i kept yawning.. n my legs are super tired.. very suan1 =X n my mum's asleep now.hahas..
anws today i met bad n gd ppl! 1st: BAD stupid person at the bakery shop at JE!!! i was standing there,trying to pop my head out to let the person see me, but they continue to talk amongst themselves. n i thought the lady saw me but she still ignored me. so i continue standing there,and when she saw, she get another girl to serve me. like wth =X n then when de girl serve me, she jus like, throw the money into my hand?! super pissed! i hate ppl with bad service attitude. big dislike >.<
2nd:BAD was queueing for the toilet at kranji station. den there's this aunty who jus walked in as if she nv see us n stood in front. cos im standing at the side of the cubicles,so i can get in to any 1 that is available. then de aunty jus walked in front of me n stood in front of 1 cubicle. then jus nice de person from the last cubicle came out n the aunty walked towards it. the person behind me n i were like "excuse me excuse me" but that aunty ignored us -.-" i think de person behind me was quite pissed too =X
3rd: GOOD my mum n i board de yellow bus CW1 but had no change. we thought they can give change but apparently no. so we wanted to get off. but this kind uncle behind us helped us pay!!! so nice of him =)) n my mum wanna pay him back, by giving him de 10bucks n getting change from him but he says its ok. n that he'll jus pay for us. nice right!!! =))
4th: I DID A GOOD DEED TOO (to me) hahas.. there's this aunty carrying her child.. then her child dropped smth.. but she cant bend down cos she carrying her child mah.. so she shouted for her another child but duno whr that child went. so i went forward to help her pick up the shoe x) the 2nd time he dropped a booklet n i picked it up again.hahas =D lalals~ i love doing gd deeds. make me happy x)
ohs! n some retail assistants are nice x) they make me have gd impression on them =) one of them is from de shop that i bought the flowery dress. she keeps saying u're welcome to me when i said thank u =) n she's very sweetlooking too =) n will help me look for a fitting room. like reserve or smth.hahas =))
but the custom person is weird -.-" i realised it might be better to know a little malay =X cos when im back this msia custom person said smth.. i only heard "Satu" =X but he pointed to the side. so i thought he meant that i must go the other counters cos actually his counter didn't write "msia passport" but my mum say its ok. so i wanted to go the other counter n i told my mum that. but hers is ok.so she's like "Huh why cant" den de guy called me back n said "jalan jalan" which apparently is supposed to be "go go" -.-" so stupid =X
okays! that's abt all? x) i think im gonna slp now~ gg out again tmr =X n needa wake up kinda early. 7plus bahs.. gotta reach boonlay at 830 =X
oh i didn't mention smth! ytd was de first time i realised a pair of legs, or rather our feet, can have so many blisters at 1 go -.- guess how many i had? 5 =X 2 super big ones at my little toes, 1 above 1 below =X i only saw the below one today =X n 3 rather tiny ones on the 4th toe on both legs =X i think im realli throwing that pair of heels =X sucks sia! but this didn't happen b4 leh! i used to love that heels! =(( n i didn't get any shoes today.sad. was looking for pumps but.. nahs~ all aren't nice~
okokays! think that's really all x) nights all! x)
to my dear xiaoclar: i know its hard.. its nv easy to begin with.. u've tried all methods.. i'd offered my methods.. =X well.. i can only say.. i'll be there for you.. we'll be there for you.. but eventually.. it still depends on you.. really.. how u gonna manage it.. how u gonna make urself come out of that.. this is cliche,but it realli takes time.. n most importantly, u mus be ready to "influence" urself, to really forget.. if u know that there's no nice ending in de end, why hold on to it? u're still young my girl.. there are still many guys out there x) u'll find that mr right 1 day =)) dont think too much alright? no matter wat,rmb, we're always here for u x) im always here to save u =D love u xiaoclar x)
as for us.. i'd say.. leave it to fate? ehhs. nt entirely.. actually it really depends on u now =X but i'll nt bother much abt any rumours, any interruptions,watever.. i believe, if we're meant to be together, if we're meant for each other, no matter how many obstacles there are,no matter how hard things will be, we will still be together eventually =))
--Merci tout le monde--
11:17 PM
Friday, December 10, 2010
i wish.. i wish.. i wish.. i wish that u will approach me before 31 dec.. i wish that u will sms/msn/call me.. i wish that i know what u're thinking.. i wish that i can tell u everything that's in me now.. i wish that u can be with me when i need u.. i wish that i can dont hide anything and be frank with u.. i wish that u know wat im thinking.. i wish that u will be there for me.. i wish that u will be there to wait for me after my work.. i wish that we can be like before.. i wish .. i wish.. i wish.. but i know all these.. are jus my wishes.. my wishful thinking.. they.. will not come true.. i know im dumb.. to be thinking of all these that wont come true.. but.. somehow.. im still holding on to that 0.01%, hoping that it will come true.. haish..
im suddenly thinking.. will i be like taeyang in de "wedding dress" mv in de end? =XXX
--Merci tout le monde--
9:27 PM
Monday, December 06, 2010
HELLO IM BACK FROM MSIA =DDD as usual, ate a lot. n i meant A LOT this time, esp with my cousin n aunty.lol! all of us seemed to gain weight -.-" totally destroyed my plan le =( i kinda slimmed down a little from the loss of appetite de lehs! =X now my appetite is back =X duno if its gd or not.. =X lol
anws went to JTC with dan for interview.. mayb i'll only receive info not so soon since i told her i dun wanna work so fast.. hahas.. but honestly i realise im running out of things to do! =X oh ya uhs..i wanted to look for volunteering ard here. SGcares de is all at the east n north side! =(( why no west side de -.- or mayb i shld jus watch dramas.lol! see how bahs =))
anws.. had a chat with dan.. somehow.. got to know more opinions.. hahas.. well.. again.. as i said.. we'll see.. hahas =))
hmm everyone shld be prom-ing now!!! hahas.. somehow i dont feel gaga for nt gg eh.. hahas.. hope everyone is having fun!!! =))
haish.. i duno wat im feeling now.. its like.. a mix of feelings? when i first knew about the stuff, i mus say, i really felt smth.. my heart really melts upon hearing all those stuff.. becos i nv knew he'll feel it that way.. that few days i was really affected.. and becos i need to focus on geog, i have to make myself not think about it.. that few days.. were gd and bad.. gd cos i managed to know about the stuff.. bad cos they were really affecting me.. terribly..
throughout the period.. i've been thinking.. u guys have been saying.. is it really the truth? is she, or now i'd think he, really speaking the truth? these days i've been thinking.. n i really thought a lot.. sometimes, i'd think of him naturally.. but sometimes,im thinking, m i making myself think of him? that few days, i feel that i missed n loved him a lot.. but these few days,i feel that maybe that feeling is really gone.. somehow.. i dont know.. i cant confirm anything.. becos i dont know which is the truth.. on one hand, like wat many said, she might be suspicious.. but on the other, i believe she is not and i feel like,n i think i shld believe her.. on one hand, i'd like to believe watever i'd heard is the truth.. but on the other, i seemed to feel that even she is being cheated.. that he isn't telling the truth.. i dont know.. i really dont know.. i rmb i once thought before, whether he is really what i knew when im with him. i thought of that after we broke.. im thinking.. all those promises.. all that he said.. is it really the truth? or they're jus lies for me to hear? white lies.. n in de end, i'll choose to think of the positive one, that is, he is speaking the truth..
i realli dont know.. 1 week alr.. n there is nth.. n i'd heard news saying smth, implying that wat im hoping for will not happen.. actually.. i realise my hopes have dampened.. as the days went by.. my hopes.. weren't that high anymore.. i do feel like clarifying everything.. but again, i said, i wont start the ball rolling.. im feeling a little tired, i feel like giving him jus 1 more week.. but another side of me asks "what if he approaches in de 3rd week?" ah fine.. stick to the normal.. 1 month.. 31 Dec 2010 will be de deciding date.. after that day, that shall be it. if he didn't approach, 1 Jan 2011 will be a new start. i once waited.. from sec 3 to sec 4.. he went on, got a gf, and destroyed my hopes. from then i told myself i cant hold on. since he'd moved on, i cant be so stupid to hang on it. it wont do me any gd.why lead a miserable life? at least, we had those memories enough.. a sweet beautiful first love.. that's probably enough.. really.. that period was really a great one.. those memories are what i'll not forget.. i guess.. never in my life.. i may have let go, but those memories will nv fade. cos its my first. my very first. it started unexpectedly, at an unexpected age.. i nv knew i'll have it that early.. it started well.. it went on well.. for a few months.. that few months were great.. really great.. i felt loved. i felt being cared for.. i have lotsa beautiful feelings that i can never get, n will never get if we didn't started.. i think many of the dates are still vivid in my mind..even until today.. cant forget the places we went.. the things we did.. the words he said.. cant forget all the first things we did.. many many "First Time"s.. n i rmb.. i wrote that somewhere.. in the letter to him bahs.. taking my clar for me.. (kena spotted by many juniors i realised =X) walking me home.. sms-ing.. msn-ing.. shopping.. alot alot alot.. still rmb alvin telling me, that period i changed a lot.. to a much happier n cheerful person.. its all becos of him.. n i'd say.. yes.. it was a beautiful first love, one of great memories to me.. so.. i would say.. i probably wont have any regrets.. actually, i'd really wonder if we could really get back if he really approaches me.. like i've said, i may try.. but if he really didn't approach.. forget it.. at least we had that. its enough. im contented enough, that i have that beautiful first love. mayb we shld leave it there, n let it be imprinted, and left deeply in our hearts.. perhaps..
--Merci tout le monde--
7:49 PM
Thursday, December 02, 2010
omg i tell u. today is the best-est man >.< I WOKE UP AT 4 AM. NICE RIGHT>.< sucks lehhh!!!!!! i seriously duno wat's wrong with my body clock now. i tot i'll have a nice sleep after a long day.. was feeling so tired on my way home.. but in de end i only slept at 12 plus. n woke up at 4 -.- tried to make myself slp more.. so i switched on my phone n listened to songs. classical songs. useless. change to 933.useless. change to classical 924.useless -.-" dun wanna let my parents worry so cant do anything.. other than lying on my bed n listening to songs/radio in my phone. have to wait till they go out then i can use the com.. actually i was a little tired.. didn't really feel like waking up.. but i jus cant get to slp. i really didn't think of anything. serious. my mind was like blank or smth. but i jus cant slp =X mayb im actually thinking abt some stuffs but i duno -.-" but anws my dark eye rings are really getting damn obvious. i think i need to put damn lots of layers of concealer later =X rarrr!!! mayb i need sleeping pills =XXX
--Merci tout le monde--
7:15 AM
Wednesday, December 01, 2010
WOW MY LEGS ARE SUPER TIRED!!!!!!!! i think tmr my legs will ache leh.. means i cant wear heels le =(( saddddd~~~~~
anws today was SUPERB.hahas =)) morn breakfast with jia. with lots of stories to hear =D catched up quite a lot x) went her new hse.. quite nice!!!!! hahas x) de living room is spacious =)) n her mum's fried rice is nice~ hehs =)) think she's so far the only friend that i can chat with her mum de..hahas =)) n she can with my mum too.. a little =)) hahas all de way till 12 plus, n i went to meet jos.n li er!!! ohohs.. in btwn contacted mrs lim, n she moved hse too!!! cant wait to go her new hse.hoho! =) totally miss her man~~~~ we didn't visit her last year, n she thought we forgot her le.hahas of cos no luhs! =)
anws went town with jos n li er! wanted to catch movie. in de end we decided nt to, cos no time for shopping x) so we walked ard PS. n i bought 2 yards of ribbon! for tying hair!!! x) n that's de only thing i bought today -.-" we went sakae for buffet at 3. n ate till 4 plus! ahhas =) 22 plates i think! x)) hahhas.. then we walked all de way from park mall to far east.. n walked for quite long.. searching for our stuff but found nth =(( i saw 1 of de shirt!!! but its 29.90.. so i duno if i shld buy. but quality indeed was quite gd la. but was thinking shld look ard first.. in de end we went bugis.. n they bought smth each.but i didn't! hahas. so in all we only bought 1 stuff each.hahas. but it was nice!!! cos we ate sumptuous buffet, nice envt n enjoyable~ then after that we walked n shopped so much.. which helped to digest n burn off calories, n at the same time we're enjoying ourselves!!! cos we're shopping!!!!!! hahas =DDDD super super nice x))
yups.. went out at.. ard 815 n only back at 1020 jus now.lol!!! heex.. thats why my legs are tired -.- tmr's another long day with fuhua girls!!!!! i shall see my leg's condition.. if realli cant, guess i'll have to wear my pumps again.!
ANWS. my stomach has been growling at night for the past few days.. but i dun wanna eat after 8pm. will feel guilty =X so i ignore it always.. n went to slp after that.. will anything happen to it? =(( hope not =XXX oh i've been feeding it water!!!!! =XXX
--Merci tout le monde--
11:36 PM
oops sorry.. but i have nowhere to post.. =X was randomly looking at photos.. n i suddenly rmb him saying 1 stupid thing, when i ask why he didn't smile for his ezlink card photo. "it's feels stupid to smile into a non-living thing" n i go LOL n abit =XXX hahas.. okays.bye =X
--Merci tout le monde--
12:32 AM
i realise i really have a lot of super nice songs that i like.. n they make me think of him.. think of us.. i wanna copy paste the lyrics but blogger don't allow me to do so! hmm.. mayb i realli have to type in =X 1st song! 爱上你 by BY2 =)) i think this is really nice!!!!!
lazy to type.. haha =) anws i think song is really super nice =) i like de way they harmonize. is that how u say? hahas =) tmr im gonna type the lyrics for... Love, Me!!!! =)) by collin raye~ =) i still rmb its introduced by him.. forgot where he heard it.. camp or smth.. then he went to search,say its very meaningful.. yeah indeed, it is =) its de eng version of 会有那么一天 by JJ Lin =)) haish.. wonder if he rmb this song..
n yeahs.. i think i was too high jus now after the paper.. lol.. totally diff kind of feeling now.. alvin's right.. when u have nth to do,u'll think more about it.. i think now my whole mind is about it.. about him.. gaga >.< oh wells! i cant do anything.. except follow my mind n think =X hahas.. doubt i'll think much tmr bahs.. will enjoy shopping with the girls =)) more shopping on thurs! hee =))
okays.. i dun wanna post le..hahas =)) im off to stone~~~ nono.. off to find dramas!!!! =D
