YAYYYYYYYY
ITS OFFICIALLY OVER!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
2 years of JC life. OVERRRRRRRRRR X))))))))))))))))))))))))))))
lalallas!!!!!!
was super high jus now.
ENDLESS SMS-ING!!!!!! ENDLESS SMILE!!!!!!!!!!!!! =DDDDDDD

hohohos~
but the stupid rain kinda spoilt a bit of my plan =(
n as expected, my mum is still nt home yet =X
BUT NVM. i alr planned to spend next weekend with them x)
this wkend gg msia! =D

waiting for mum to come home with dinner.
AND OFF TO GOSSIP WITH ALVINTAN N ESTHERTAN!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
=DDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDD

anws the feeling was totally shiok.!!!!!!
but didn't express much in class cos jos haven finish.hhahas.
but i didnt stop smsing in the bus!!!! hahas =DDD
now my beautiful life starts~
watching tv playing com doing random stuff without feeling guilty!!!!
no more gg to lib on wkends to mug!!!!
finally can spend wkends with my parents again!!!!
can bake le!!! can cook le!!! wooooo!!!! lallalas!!!!
ENDLESS SHOPPING X)))))
oh.. but mus shop for ppl's presents too =XXX hahas..
nvm~ i'll pay back with my salary next time.hee =)
SPEND MONEY FIRST. EARN LATER.HEHHEHS.. =P

ohs.. and TAIWANN!!!!!!!!
CANT WAIT MAN!!!! but that's april la =X hahas..

okok.. now here it is de current plan..
for now.. fully booked all de way till 2nd week!next week i mean =)
only 2 days left in 3rd week! =DDD
hahaas..
tonight gossiping, tmr morn gossiping,or rather talking.hahas,with jia!
den shopping/movie with NJ girls.
den thurs shopping with fuhua girls.
fri URA then perhaps lib n penang at night!
wahhh.. BUSY HORRRR x)))
i feel so shuang being so busy =DDDDD hahahas
n i needa go lib to borrow books to bake, and cook, n read!!!! x))

i think im jus randomly blogging now..hahas..
jus feel like spamming =))
i can finally do wat i wan!
i will upload lyrics on de blog often k!
cos i realised i have a lot of nice songs, old but nice n i love them x)))
nnnnn
i duno wat to blog le. hohohoho...
anws i can blog anytime i wan now. many new post at 1 go.haha =P
OKAYS I REALLI DUNO WAT TO BLOG LE =P

but ppl..
I FINISHED MY As!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! 7:15 PM

if u come..
if u ask..
i'll say de word..
that starts with a Y..

its..
jus for you..
de first n only... 12:27 AM

oh man.. im addicted to blogging =X
cos this is like.. de only place i can speak my mind..
though i know i cannot totally write out wat i wanna write cos im afraid of hurting ppl..
but still.. blogging is de best avenue..

anws.. smth that i wrote ytd but deleted cos the other part of the post shld nt exist..
so yups.. this was wat i wanted to say..
jus wanna say.. love is such a weird thing.. its jus so ... i duno wat word to use =X
ok.. let me jus explain why i feel so k.
i spent 3 years.. almost 3 years to learn to let go..
to tell myself to not think about it..
this wasn't an easy task. definitely. esp when de memories are so strong..
at times i really didn't think.. i mean if i keep thinking then its really useless..
initially,yes,of cos.. i kept thinking.. but with the busy days.. there were times i totally didn't think of anything..
but at times. i jus wan to think of it. esp when i pass by de places, or when i see couples..
or when i hear songs that was related..
when i mass-sms, i nv fail to include his name. becos i wan him to reply..
i hope to use de chance,to have a chat with him..
but most of the time i didn't receive any reply, n that gave me another wakeup call..
so this 3 years.. slowly.. without any contact.. i thought i let go..
yes,i THOUGHT.

of cos.. i know de memories are nv gone.
becos whenever i did recall them,they jus run across my mind.. without friction.
smoothly, one event by one event..
but i realli didn't know they were still so vivid, so clear..
n i can rmb every single event. even de details of the date..
n yes.. this was wat i realised this few days..

after what happened days ago, after i realised some stuff,
i kept thinking.. all kinds of things.. memories, and imagining the future..
n then when i think of de memories, i started recall the days..
n all the different dates came out..
this is why i say love is jus so weird.. n such a joke even..
jus a night of talk, and my 3 years of efforts are gone.
im bac to thinking about it everyday. every single day..

today was a better day.. i didn't think as much..
maybe cos today was de 2nd last day to mug fully.. n im determined to finish my pop today.
so yups.
but i still thought of him when i heard related songs..
i think the songs really brought back the most memories..
as in,they'll make me think of it.
songs that he introduced.. songs that we commonly like.. songs that i think suits my feelings,
during, and after the relationship..
n i realised i love a lot of songs x))

well anws.. last 2 days le!!!
n i get to enjoy!!! n i think i'll probably keep on thinking abt it =X
i duno how true it is..
but i realli think it might be unlikely,cos i keep on imagining about it..
the more i imagine abt smth, the more unlikely that its gonna happen =X
watever. im nt gonna think abt it anymore.
i'll leave it to fate.. if we're destined to be tgt, we will be..
if we're not, we're not..
at least, we had it.
dont cry becos its over, but smile becos it'd happened =))

alrights!!! done with all my venting =))
im back to study =))
2 more days!!!!!!! =)))
im gonna mass send to everyone except bio students!!!! =D
see im nice k! im nt like ALVIN TAN who mass send to suan ppl hors.. hahas =))
OKAYS.. I CANT WAIT FOR 30TH NOV 5PM X))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))) 8:53 PM

after much thought.. i decided to draft that post..
becos i know i'll be hurting her..
n i cant bear to do it..
as for the front part about de memories n stuff..
too sad,u guys dun haf the fortune to read about it =)
i dun have de mood now,so i dun wanna purposely write about it..
those who saw it,lucky u.but i doubt there's any.hahas.
okays.
back to study.

girl. hope u're ok.
im sorry for having those thoughts.
to prevent you from getting hurt, i kept them away.
u'll nt see them =))
im sorry, but i promise i'll be here for you from now.. promise..
=)) <3 10:21 PM

haish.. im tired.. physically.. mentally..
only caught 4 plus 5 hrs of slp last night >.<
im nt supposed to come online today.. i needa finish my urbanisation >.<
stupid urb.. took away all my brain cells!
n the info didn't stay there i think =( but i hope it did =X

nvm..i shall endure.. 4 more days..
4 more days to freedom x))
i cant wait for that to come.. seriously..
after ytd, de more i cant wait for that day..
i need to talk to elf everything.. i wanna talk to asy.. but she's definitely nt free =(
n she lives far.. impossible to get her down. n she has sch de next day i guess..
elf is de next victim o.O lol.

anw sorry girl.. if u're reading this.. my 9th dec date..
promised not to think about it. only to think about geog. n u. hahas
but its so impossible..
i started thinking in de morn..
n yes elf.. u can read this too..
honestly.. this is bothering me..
i've been asking myself nt to think about it..
im so afraid its all false hope..
of cos,to be honest, i do hope its really true..
it jus gave me too much happiness to know about the truth of all these..
but im so afraid its all jus my wishful thinking again..
i know i gotta wait till after As.
i know i cant let this affect me..
so yes.. i'll try my best to focus on my dear geog n only geog..
n after As.. after the 30th.. i can think for all i want..

haish.. but saying is always easier than doing..
gg to the lib can make me think of the past..
taking 198 and passing by sci centre can remind me of the past..
jus this 2 areas n the memories flooded my mind..
if only geog is like that.. stays in my mind w/o me having to spend so much time memo-ing -.-

i hope im nt hurting her.by saying all these.
but i realli need an avenue to vent out..
i cant call any1 cos i'll definitely not stop in half n hour n continue with my work..
so blogging shall be my way of venting now..
n after that.. after 30th.. i'll probably start pestering my frens.hahas.

ALRIGHTS.
that's all i gotta say..
really felt slightly better =)
thanks bloggie =))
FOUR MORE DAYSSSSSSSS
WAITINGGGGGGGGG 8:45 PM

OMG...
catching up with frens are so super fun!!!
n this is so cool..
i have this pretty pri sch friend that was in P1 n P2 class with me..
n same cca.
n we didn't keep in touch ever since we left pri sch..
but today she msged me thru fb.
n we started talking on msn like we're very close friends.
REALLY LIKE VERY CLOSE FRENS!!!!
we confessed everything..
its totally not like we'd lost contact.
so weird!!! n so cool!!!
i've nv encountered this b4!!!!
this is so so so so fun!!!!!! =DD


ANWS.. I WANNA SAY..
IM BOOKED ALL DE WAY TILL 9TH =DDD
pls book me if u wana go out with me =DDD

ONE MORE PAPER TO GO =DDD 12:13 AM

IM HAPPY AND SAD!!!
happy cos i received an invitation from NUS to apply for the USP!
super happy to see that, cos its like a recognition and confirmation of my results!
though i tot it wasn't gd =X
if i've known its considered not bad, i'd have applied for STB!
THATS DE SAD THING!!!!!!!!!!!!!
STB early cycle closed le =(( i cant apply le!!!
using As will be much more diff cos everybody will be doing well too =((
ahhh sadd!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
my stb =((((((

but still im very happy to receive NUS's invitation!
but dun think i'll go la..
no.1 need to stay for 2 years.
no. 2 its extra modules kind, apart from ur major.
no. 3 i saw ESSAYSSSS n RESEARCH?!!?!? =XXX
but its till 31 dec.. so perhaps i'll see how n explore more about it after As? o.O

I NEED OPINIONS =XXX 9:36 PM

oops! im here again =X

anws.. this wkend was kinda gd =) though a little slack =X
friday was awesome!
had a super duper nice lunch with gals n extra alvin tan. hahas =)
wanted to have a nice lunch to reward ourselves for working hard till then, completing half of our As =)
we went pepperlunch at jp n we sat there for 2hrs!
so fun. we were reminiscing about our secondary school life..
all de great great memories~
we decided to revisit the old days after As. HAHAS =))
gotta admit, we're old =XXX tsk..

anws.. chem-ed almost everyday.
i think i sorta read thru all stuff le..
but just that some stuffs i jus cant rmb =((
hopefully doing more papers help. but no more time!
gonna mark nyjc paper n gonna relook at all a level papers tmr..
all de best to me =)
i can do it! x) lalalas

today time seemed to pass quite slowly! HAPPY =))
mayb cos i'd always been gg to tuition.
suddenly no tuition today n the day seemed rather long x))
didn't do much but did stuff. so shld be okays..
currently on my 3rd task of de day =))
hopefully i can finish the tasks i've assigned to complete.

anws ytd saw this big big ant's "hive" again!!! =X
n my uncle go n knock it using a book n ants started crawling out!!!!!
super gross!!!!
n my cousin was great. he designed a very nice poster for de PAP grad day. ahahs!
he's pro~ =))

n n n..
actually i forgot wat to say =X
we're still counting down.. =))
16 more days =))
jiayou girls!!!

ohoh! i wanna say~~~
i'll go two-way to cut my hair!
surprisingly mum say "go cut la!"
usually she wont say a thing. that means she don't really agree to it.
but since she said so now, I WILL GO =DDD
my fringe is getting long n disgusting now =(
i shall get james to do a nice haircut for me =D
n i think i'll go before A's end..
becos i dun think i have time after that. cos i wanna cut right after!
but .. ah. dun wanna elaborate. jus no time.
so i think i'll go de days before human geog x)))

OK BACK TO ECONSSSSSSSSSSSSS
PLSSSSSSSSS
LET ME GET A GOOD GRADE FOR ECONS =XXXXXXXXXXX 3:47 PM

i know i shldn't be here..
but really felt like posting =))
this week was a wow week. spent almost everyday in lib. really.
with wl est n yz (ytd) / kl (today)
we did learn cleared doubts with all de discussions!!!
really loved studying with them =))
de craps in between brought some smiles n relaxation..
hahas..
love my girls =))
its jus like O level days like wat kl says! hahas =DDD
they r still my darling girls, de best girls =DDD
they're de ones who're at the same line as me :
"26more days n we'll be free =D"
unlike those ppl from so-called prestigious sch that goes "Play? shld think about working hard and get those As please!!!"
not as if im nt aiming for that but that's jus not my way of motivation.
work hard. play hard. FUHUANITE'S MOTTO =PPP

ANWS JIAYOU EVERYONE.
ESPECIALLY MY DEAREST FUHUA PEEPS
MY DARLING GIRLS IN CLIQUE =))
RMB. AFTER THIS 26 DAYS (for those taking geog.de rest,curse u =X jkjk =P)
WE'LL ALL BE SHOPPING TILL WE DROP DEAD =DDD
PLAYING. CRAPPING. DRINKING COFFEE. WATEVER =DDD

JIAYOUUUUUUUUU

As.. u're finally here...
since u're named As.. please give many of us de As that we wan =))
rest assure. we'll all conquer u!!!


p.s.: asy pls dun be sad! i nv forget u! =))
u'll be called after our As to join us!!! hahahhahhas x)))) 11:11 PM

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