LAST DAY OF 2009!!!
i thought i would be posting the 700th post on the 1st day of 2010..
hahas.. but i still got 1 more to go i think..
maybe i'll update a random 1 later to waste that post =P

hmm hmm..
so fast sia..
2010.. gonna be a super hectic year bahs..
but realli cant wait for it to end..
becos we'll be enjoying life after that.
n can u believe it? we'll all be 18.. realli considered adults alr. omg la!
seriously i find it a little too ridiculous. so fast sia >.<

anws~
gonna mass send sms-es later le..
this year im gonna be special and dedicate to group by group =D
TCB la, AAACHJX la, then for friends, mayb NJ ones, then fuhua ones, which may further divide etc.
shall show my sincerity =D
get touched huh people =P

went to my working place last year
to look for my master x)
had a very short talk cos its her working hrs..
if talked longer she sure kena scolded..
quite a few stopped working le =(( sad sad..
n shifu say now its rather tough.. same as my parents lo..
needa tolerate people's attitude =X poor them..
i was jus thinking will i be gg back to work next year after A's..
but now..i doubt so bahs.. shall look for other new opportunities x)

ohohs.. did i mention?
my cousin got his job in a kindergarten!
he's working in my kindergarten.wahahas! =P
damn cool la =D hope everything will be ok for him!
but i think sure ok de la. he damn gd with kids.
patient and fun and caring.. good bro! =DDD

nt very efficient today..
realli cant push myself to start the stupid GP.
ok,i started a little.. a tiny little bit =X
rarrrr..
next week's kinda busy lehs.. hope i can do a bit by a bit a day..
boohs =((

wonder wat time dad n mum will be back..
if early,we'll go jp..
if nt.. i think mayb nite time we'll go boonlay to look at the countdown thing =))
ok la..
think im trying to do my gp now =X
toodleS~ 4:00 PM

suddenly having the urge to blog again =)
well well..
everybody's worrying about next year..
esp my batch's JC ppl.. n the kiddo's batch, de sec 4s next year..
read elf's blog..
some superstitious thingy..
wellwell..
sometimes u must admit it realli mus be true..
but i suddenly thought of that "bing bang yuan"
that pingpong show. whr this girl xiaofen always read the horoscope book
n she trust it so much that she defeats herself b4 she does anything.

so if elf is reading this..
or if nt, to anyone reading this..
its ok to read those horoscope or zodiac stuff.
i mean,i do read it.
but like wat my aunt n mum mentioned b4..
this kind of thing.. u have to choose to believe and nt to believe.
u cannot completely believe these things, but neither can u totally ignore it.
believe and smile in the good things. look forward for them to happen..
for the bad ones, u may wanna read, and be careful of it.
but do not let it bother u. realli. DO NOT.
ur life is still controlled by u.
though sometimes i believe it's all destined,
we choose to control our lives, we decide/define our own happiness..
so just do ur best in watever's coming up.
put up ur best, and everything will turn out fine..
everything will come to a conclusion, so don't worry about it..

upcoming sec 4s, esp my dear kiddos..
don't worry.. everything will be okays..
look? both elf n i walked thru it.
elf faced the difficulty of failing subjects..
yet he came up with a 7point..
i faced the death of my grandmothers..
yet i walked thru and ended up with a 8 point too.
nth's impossible.. realli.
its all about you.
whether you have the determination or not..
whether you have the confidence or not..
whether you have the courage or not..
jiayou kids!
we're here with u.!
u guys go for the O's, we go for the A's..
n we're gonna celebrate tgt after that =))

studied for 7hs today. whole day geog.
or rather,whole day of earthquake..
a little disgusted by it now. but i know im nt totally done yet.
nevertheless, i think i did managed it well. think im sorta ok with it alr..
tmr's a busy day of walk in prac.
but a day of gd exercise as well =)
n im reminded that i still have my gp which i have nt started =X
its time.. i guess? =XXX
i realised im more interested in rev than gp hw >.<
it realli sucks =((

well anws.. enjoy ur last 2 days of 2009 ppl =)
though i dont think i'll be doing any celebration or watsoever.lol.
im kinda trying to get into my mugging life..
though i think im still quite far from it even though i seemed to be mugging at times =X
okays~ shall stop here.
be prepared to receive sms from me on thurs bahs! =D
unless u're nt my fren/i dun haf ur no. hee =P 11:40 PM

yay~!
uploaded some pics =D
nt very clear though =X

i love this pic!
i think i look quite prof cos of my clothes.hahas =D
pool is rather fun! x))


me with the pool pro =D


12:32 AM

I WISH YOU A MERRY CHRISTMAS
I WISH YOU A MERRY CHRISTMAS
I WISH YOU A MERRY CHRISTMAS
AND A HAPPY NEW YEAR~!!!!!!! =DDD

MERRY CHRISTMAS TO EVERYBODY~! =DDD

woohoos~~~
had a class outing with beloved 4e5 =D
though its kinda little ppl.
but we enjoyed! =D
we played pool. oohs~! hahas..
quite cool ehs~! =P
its damn high when u score =P
but damn sian when u didn't manage to hit =X
de amount that u hit does matters quite a lot =X rarr~
but i paired with choonseng for the last game AND WE WON!
hahas~ DAMN COOL N SHIOK =P

after that went west coast plaza for bbq chicken.
honestly its quite nice lehs! =D
can go there next time x))
as usual we spamed photos all the way x)
quite fun x)
caught up a little with them.. =))
hope they caught up more at jp! x)

ehhS~ that's about all for today..
tmr watching chipmunks with tcb~! =D
hope darren and ahben can make it >.<
if nt it'll be so !@#!%!% =XXX
think i'll be dropping by cotton on before meeting them.
wanna check out the saleS~!!! =PP
im gonna buy that cardigan if its still there n still cheap x)

CONTINUING SENDING UR XMAS WISHES~! =PP 12:06 AM

somehow realised why i refused medicure.
cos i dun like long nails. i cant keep them.
i'll feel disgusted n want to cut them off.
n it'll be weird if i put fake ones. experienced it during prom last year =X
n with my short nails,it'll be damn weird with medicure =X
n my toe nails r damn ugly too
cos i always "ill treat" them =X
so they cant go for pedicure too o.O
honestly i wonder if they can save my toes.
cos they realli look damn weird? =X it needs some saviours =X
anws. tried to apply nail polish.
honestly. it looks like some child meddling with mum's nail polish.
if u jus look at my hands >.< 12:39 AM

actually feeling a little tired.
n stupid stomach is aching >.<
but jus feel like posting a little..
actually nth much to post =X
but jus wanna say i suddenly miss tcb so much >.<
n i realised i loved bbq that day.
cos tcb is like,back? =X
n today was quite a nice 1 too =)
i think cos ahben n darren are back to nt-so-zibi =P
n elsen is.. erhs.. i duno..hahas..

initially planning for tcb outing this fri de lehs..
cos i tot mum will be working or wat..
but she says aunt is planning for buffet at her hse.
ask me to change to sat..
but sat tamtam cant lehs. omg.how? =((
rarrrrrrrrrrr
but i realli wanna go out with tcb~! =(
someone give me some idea =X 11:29 PM

hmm~
its late =X
but i haven finish writing letters..
mayb not letters, but.. yeahs~
so shall jus finish writing b4 i go to slp?
nt very tired anyway. although i was jus now =X

wellwell~
jus a short update about ytd?
fri was nth much.cos mainly i just went for 7hrs of dance prac, with my leg aching.
but it was quite nice. n great satisfaction when we managed to learn 3 dances in total =)
though i wished we'd learnt all =X

n ytd.. met asy at noon time for lunch..
den some shopping + chitting chatting =D
nicenice~! i love shopping with asy luhs~
cos we know each other's taste, n we speak straight to each other.
nt that straight till it hurts, but we speak truth..
n we help each other with opinions.
n blah blahs. in all, she's my best partner for shopping,apart from my mum+aunt =D
but we decided to save money so we jus looked at the clothes..
bought hair bands though =D RETRO.hahas =P

headed off to queensway to do weijie's jacket~!
its super fast luhs~
n its nice! =D though abit small =X
but i think that's de biggest they can do. so no choice lorhs~
it looks ok on a shirt,perhaps too small on a jacket.
BUT NEVERTHELESS.ITS NICE =D
its "weijie love tcb" hahas! =DDD
n its EMBROIDERED!
just like our 4e5 class tee =D
till now i still love that class tee the most~ wahahas~
i always love to wear it to show off, esp de embroidered "4e5" =D

oh anws~ after that's done, went mac to eat smth while waiting for tamtam
then we went off to ikea to buy tam's food,
n we went back for fsmb bbq~!

hmm.. generally it was ok.
as usual, 1 side is ok 1 side is not..
this time we're being left with the nt-gd side..
so no choice, we jus stick to it..
this is de 1st time i didn't realli bbq.. cos i cant get there..
ppl are always crowding ard it.
so we jus sat there and chit chat =D
chit-chatting session is nice =D
chat with random ppl~ with tcb~ with C n A, etc? =)
ytd somehow tcb was quite tgt.hahas.
as in, we did have a short chat tgt..
though at first the stupid guys ignored us n played basketball..
we got tgt after giving weijie de present..
somehow ahben was back to last time, friendlier as opposed to the zibi him in june.
that stupid elsen still didn't join us. hate him >.<
but yeahs~! had laughters tgt with the others =D
heard ben's classic laughter again.hahas =D
finally~ TCB is back.lol.
i hate it when they go zibi la.
its so much better n happier when we're back to the laughing n crazy us =D
we're called the CRAZY bunch for a reason.hahas=P
but yeahs~!
n we're back to the teasing state~ but they keep accusing me -.-"
but anws. in short.ytd was fun=)

though not much food was cooked.
though the fire was nt so successful at our side..
though we didn't have much food..
though it wasn't as crowded as the other side..
i did have fun in that short period of time.
some major great fun for a couple of minutes to about half n hr.
though short, but nice n great n marvellous n im contented =))
thinking of tcb outing =) but weijie.. =X duno lehs~
shall see.. if all realli can, mayb gotta abandon him =X see how bahs!
tmr's band camp~!
gg back to see them tmr..
tues teaching nurmatha walk-in dance =)
wed organ repair!+ accompany dad to doc.
thurs 4e5 class outing.
PACKED DAYS~~~

alrights~
back to finish my "letters"
gotta spend money again tmr =X
at first didn't wanna buy. but after much thinking,i believe im gd n nice =P
n i shall spend money for ppl's happiness =)) 12:58 AM

actually off-ed my comp.
but on again cos suddenly had thoughts to share.again =)

i realised that at times.. or rather many times..
im envious of others..
envious of others about their friendship..
envious about their outings..
envious of how they managed to get those things..
envious of how they spent their days with their friends..
n i will wonder..
wonder why didn't i take lots of photos like they did?
wonder why didn't i camwhore as much as they did?
wonder why didn't i go to watever place with whoever..
wonder why didn't i have any similar events/outings that they have..
wonder this.. wonder that..
envy this.. envy that..

but i jus realised smth jus now..
why shld i be envious of others?
why must i have/do smth that others have/do b4?
why must i have exactly the same things?
i am who i am..
their lifestyle is nt my lifestyle.
what they do may not be what i do.
they are they. i am i.
doesn't mean that all outings must end up in camwhoring.
i may not camwhore that much when im with some frens..
but that doesn't mean i dont enjoy my day.
it jus means that those memories are kept within me, n my friends.
no other parties knew. its our memories,its our secret.
doesn't mean that i mus go to watever place or mus do watever thing with my friends.
our activities may be simple.
not gg to interesting places, nt exploring new places, nt spending lotsa money or wat so ever.
just sitting down in a place for meal..
just walking about aimlessly..
motive: just to chat and catch up with each other..
its nt the place that matters..
its nt the photos that matters..
its nt the activities that matters..
its the ppl u're with.. the fun that you had with those ppl.
everybody's definition of fun is different.
it doesn't realli has to mean fun..
to me,its jus whether, did i enjoy myself..
it can be jus chatting..but i know its enough. im satisfied.

suddenly i tot of the post i posted last year when im working..
was jus reading it a few days ago..
n i saw de post that i posted when im working..
im so happy to have breakfast with jr n asy.
yes.its only breakfast. n im realli overjoyed..
that's becos we finally met and catch up with each other..
talk lots of things. esp things that we each encountered..
interesting things taht we wanna share but haven been able to.
that kind of feeling is realli great.
we did nth.but jus chatting is gd enough..

yups. so we shld be ourselves.
dont be jealous or envious of others.
u dont have to.
lead ur own life. the life u always lead.
lead it the way u want it to be. be urself.
that shld be the real way it shld be.
dont have to look at others' stuff n say "why didn't i do this"
becos ppl will look at ur stuff n say the same thing..
we just happen to do diff stuff becos we r of diff style..


wow~
had been having so much thoughts recently..
reminds me of sec 2, when cai lao shi always get us to write..
jus that now, im typing,instead of writing, and in eng, instead of chi..
wow,reminds me of my PW. HANDWRITTEN letters. yet im TYPING my thoughts now =X
well anws~
tmr's full day dance rehearsal.
hope it'll be okays~
sat is catching up time =)
im looking forward to it =D 11:39 PM

UPDATE UPDATE UPDATE!!!
here to update again =D
hmm.. had the feel to update eagerly jus now..
not so now.. =XX

anws.. went out with jia today =)
STUDY =X
kinda guilty to put that word cos didn't do much.
SORTA finished hci math paper. but honestly i didn't realli complete a single qn.
circled almost a part of every qn >.< sianded..
read econ's self study notes.. read thru 1 page of the wksht jus now.
seemed ok.shall do tmr i guess,n i hope i'll keep to my promise =X
helped jia with her P&C. gave me some confidence smhow..
but now when i tried reviewing mine, i still cant solve those that i circled -.-"
duno wat to say =X

anws.. watched the xin qing da dong yuan jus now.
damn sad la..
seriously.. all parents of rich families shld let their children see.
or rather,all children shld jus watch it..
we realli shld noe how fortunate we are..
n im really thankful to the god that i believe in.
everyone shld be thankful. dont be religious here anws..
like wat ms yeo said b4, jus that whichever god that you believe in. it doesn't matter.
n yes. im thankful to the god that i believe in..
thank you for giving me such a great family..
giving me parents who are great, loving, and caring..
giving me parents who are healthy, with no illness, and can survive well..
giving me parents who can work, can earn money, can support me..
giving me parents who worked so hard just to give me a great environment to live in.
giving me a great family, a great house, and such good life..
im blessed.. blessed to have all these..
enough money. more than enough..
to get food. to get clothes. to get a computer. to get an electone.
to buy beauty products. to spend when im out with my friends. to attend organ lessons.
to buy new printer. to buy new bags/shoes/accessories and all those wants, not needs.
thank you god. im realli thankful.
thank you for a beautiful and heartwarming hse.
thank you for the great, loving, caring, and healthy parents.
seriously..

you guys shld see the episode. for those who saw. im sure u guys had learnt smth.
if not, u guys shld reflect.
recall their hse, and look at urs..
i did that jus now.. i realli cant imagine..
for those who didn't watch,let me bring u to it..
imagine..
imagine ur hse is jus a very bad 3-room flat..
imagine ur living room has a very torn and tattered sofa..
imagine u're sharing room with ur parents, and there's no bed.
its jus mattresses..
imagine the wall is supposed to be white but not, with black patches..
imagine at the head of the mattresses, there are fleas..
imagine there is only 2 bad-conditioned cupboard, with no tables, no computers, no dressing place.
imagine the kitchen has no sink- those used for washing plates.
imagine there's no cupboard in the kitchen, no washing dishes area.
all plates stacked tgt at one side, together with all the food, ingredients etc..
worse. imagine, when u remove and clear this plates n stuff..
lots of cockroaches start to appear. jumping n flying everywhere.
big and small ones..
goodness.. how can u live in such areas?
that mus be wat u're thinking..
but believe it or not, ppl r living in those areas. they want it? nope. they had no choice..
imagine, ur dad has high cholestrol, high blood pressure, diabetics or watsoever..
imagine, ur mum had depression before, n is now a person with mental illness,
behaving like a kid..
how would u feel?

seriously. ask urself. wat is in ur mind now?
"if im living in such condition, i wonder how i'd survive"
"i'd die if i were to live with those cockroaches n fleas everywhere in my hse!"
"i'll leave and find some better place"
what else will u think of?
the boy thought of nth else..
the parents as well..
the father wished the child could do well in sch..
the father and mother loved each other..
though it may not be obvious, but they loved each other, till they could not part..
the boy didn't wish for anything.
new bag? "i'd got one"
new soccer ball? "nope" becos he still has one old yet usable one..
bday wish? nt others, but that dad can get well soon..
simple wish.

smth that made the mother so happy till she couldn't slp:
a sink that she'd wanted for 3 years.
"is there smth that you got that made u so happy that u cant slp?"
that is a qn quan yi feng asked. n that made me dumbfounded.
seriously, i doubt so.
new bag? new shoes? new clothes? i do take them as granted at times.
i do have this thinking b4 that "its ok to get new things. since its a new year"
but if u think of it. some ppl may not even get new things for a few years..

smth that made the father so touched:
a newly arranged and organised and clean hse..
a new bed? perhaps..
he said, they had never lived in such a nice n comfortable place b4..
that made him so touched, and speechless.. he must be very thankful to the volunteers..
wat about ur hse?
have u ever grumbled to ur mum about how dirty the floor is?
have u ever screamed or yelled when u saw insects running about?
have u ever lose ur temper when u're outside of ur hse during camp,
grumbling silently about the environment in?
imagine those hses/camp areas u live in outside,is ur home..
how will u feel?

realli.. had so much to say and reflect after watching that..
happiness, can be so simple..
love, can be so simple.. n sweet too..
everything can be so touching..
so heartwarming..
nth is impossible, if u strive for it.
happiness is simple, its jus how u define it.
jus having smth to eat is actually fortunate and happy enough,
you dont have to eat swensens, western food, n watsoever.
jus having ur parents with you is fortunate and good enough
you dont have to bring them overseas for travel, bring them to movie or watsoever.
with just a little money, you can bring happiness to ur family n friends.
its jus how you define it..





I WANNA VOLUNTEER WHEN IM FINISHED WITH MY A'S =)) 12:15 AM

didn't blog about anything this 2 to 3 days.. was kinda tired somehow..
actually i duno wat i did. i realli did nth much.
n i had nth to do when i on the com.
yet somehow i'll manage to waste my time by doing nth =X
always wanted to on music n start my work,but turned out otherwise >.<

anws.. jus wanna update about aaachjx outing =D
yups.finally we had one on mon! yay~! =D
went to usual park to celebrate bdayS first.hahas.
den we headed to settlers~!
actually nth much la..
but the time realli passed quite quickly =X
we ended the 4h games in a blink =(
but the games were rather fun luhs!
cos everybody is active~ hahas..
the deepest impression i had was the first game,the instrument one..
and the person was at first quite impressed when we said the name of the instrument
he was like "wow"
then i told him we're from band.hahas. n he said "no wonder, then its so much easier"
hahas. n he went on introducing the diff cards of diff instruments.
n we ended "teaching" him the names =P timpani, not drums.hahas.
but damn cool. n he's like "its so diff teaching ppl who know the instruments" hahas.
but he's quite funny n cute leh!
didn't see him the last time when i went with clique.. *oops*
well anws~hahas.
the whole thing was fun luhs. we were violent though =X hahas.

after that went to central for a little while b4 we headed home..
nth much that we can post, cos we didn't do much things,but gossiped and laughed a lot.hahas.
our secrets. so those outside cant realli know wat we did =P
but the whole day was fun la duh.. its realli diff when u go out with diff ppl...
that day was really a day that i kept laughing n smiling =))
love you guys aaachjx~! =))
cya guys again next sat? =D

alrights~
harmoc meeting on tues. had exco meeting then 2nd chro's.
folded the hearts tgt =D kinda tiring but quite fun though =)
then ytd had dance session..
spent the whole morning watching tv =X den noon went for dance session.
2 hrs learning only 4 bars =X kinda lousy but..
most of them say cannot absorb alr. so no choice. we went hm after that.
but the dance was quite nice n fun =D
at least,u dont have to be sexy~ hahas..

off for chalet later..
but think i'll be back tmr..
cos mum wants me back tmr. she insisted i wont be able to stay for 2 nights.
cos i'll be too tired after i didn't slp for the 1st night =X
so yups~ that's how it is~
hope everything will turn out well,seriously >.<
i hope there wont be any unhappiness within ppl that spoilt all the fun the band's gonna have~ 10:02 AM

I always needed time on my own
I never thought I'd need you there when I cry
And the days feel like years when I'm alone
And the bed where you lie
is made up on your side

when you walk away
I count the steps that you take
do you see how much I need you right now?

when you're gone
the pieces of my heart are missing you
when you're gone
the face i came to know is missing too
when you're gone
all the words i need to hear to always get me through the day
and make it ok
i miss you

i've never felt this way before
everything that i do
reminds me of you
and the clothes you left
they lie on my floor
and they smell just like you
i love the things that you do

when you walk away
i count the steps that you take
do you see how much i need you right now?

when you're gone
the pieces of my heart are missing you
when you're gone
the face i came to know is missing too
and when you're gone
the words i need to hear to always get me through the day
and make it ok
i miss you

we were made for each other
out here forever
i know we were
yeah yeah

all i ever wanted was for you to know
everything i do i give my heart and soul
i can hardly breathe, i need to feel you here with me
yeah

when you're gone
the pieces of my heart are missing you
when you're gone
the face i came to know is missing too
when you're gone
the words i need to hear will always get me through the day
and make it ok
i miss you 11:09 PM

haish. seriously dun understand why some ppl are so stingy.
dun wanna say much. dun wanna be labelled anything, or become the subject of any gossip or wat-so-ever.
right, cant u ppl jus pretend u're doing some charity?
its jus a bit of money!

n i also cant stand it when ppl look upon materials more than thoughts.
so materialistic i mean.
alright, u might think that its so damn cheapskate.
but no. 1: they spent time n effort thinking of getting that something for you.
no. 2: i believe they spent time n effort too MAKING that so-called cheapskate thing.
is money realli more important than thoughts?
mayb some ppl might say : its natural to think of the price, then u'll noe how the ppl treat u.
nt realli true.. of cos i mean those so-called cheapskate thing mus realli be handmade stuff
or some things that can realli make u rmb something, that is so memorable.
no matter wat, there is still some effort in it,isn't it?
better than nth, right?

n oh well..
was watching the charity show jus now. was realli touched by some.
i love the little korean girl =) she's so cute n sweet..
so beautiful.. her music.. gosh.. loved it..
she's realli like beethoven. i look forward to listen to her self-composed music in future.
i called in to support when i heard her play =) awesome =) touching =))

ohohs.. n the girl, i think from taiwan..
she lost her hands and legs, yet she's living on so happily.serious.
her dance was great. i can imagine how it hurts walking on ur knees..
she must have beared a lot and had a lot of determination to live on.
her will to live on was damn strong. and damn touching.
imagine, how many would have the will to live on, after losing both hands and both legs?
she's left with her arms, slight more than her elbow left, and she has until about her knees or smwhr below her knees..
yet when she appeared, her smile is so beautiful.
the way she dances, she doesn't lose to any dancer. realli.
i bet she even dance better than any of us.
and she can even draw a nice drawing.
im fully impressed by her. i think she's a very gd role model.
i wished those parents who had watched it will ask their children to look at that.
especially those spoilt ones. n parents shld use that to guide n teach their children
n not let them be further spoilt brats.
cry after facing some failure. cry when they cannot get what they wan.
feel like ending their life when they face some obstacles.
committing suicide, losing their will to move on, feeling that they're unfortunate just becos of some minor things.
wake up ppl. look at her. these ppl, faced with such cruel reality, yet survived on.
they lived on happily, finding happiness themselves, using what they're given to do the things they want.
everything is possible. everything can be achieved.
its jus whether u have the determination to do it.
if u fail in this, try that.if u fail in that, try another.
there is bound to be something that is going to suit you.
there is bound to be something that you can do, and you'll succeed in.
so what if u fail ur studies?
so what if u're in ITE?
you still have some way to go in ur life.
mayb not a businessman, maybe not a millionaire.
but u may be a great chef? great photographer? great artiste?
who knows! u urself know it.
so discover it urself, and work towards that talent of yours.
rmb. there's nth called "its the end of the world"
it only occurs, if u urself says "i admit defeat.im useless.im nth"
rmb. the greatest enemy is urself.
once u say "im gone", then u're realli realli gone.

wows..
suddenly have lots to say.
duno if anybody's gonna read this though.
but jus feel like posting it out.
realli hope that those who think u're facing failure/giving up will wake up
and continue to move on.
so wat if u did badly in PSLE? there's O's!
so wat if u did badly in O's? there's A's! or there's diploma!
so wat if u did badly in A's/ didn't get ur diploma?
i dun realli have any idea,cos i haven explore to that yet =X
but i believe there's ways. find jobs n settle first, den start studying private uni?
go to private schs n learn?
WHEN THERE'S A WILL, THERE'S A WAY =)))) 11:57 PM

trying to do smth here =))
currently re-watching bai quan nv wang.
cos suddenly saw the scenes on tv jus now. n realised i didn't watch the whole thing the previous time.
so i decided to watch =)
feel like watching my lucky star too,but watched b4,so shall leave it first =)
but im doing smth that i think is quite useful..
im doing econs n watching at the same time.
im watching 1 part, then do some qns for econs,then continue watching
treating it that im rewarding myself by allowing me to watch 1 part after i did some qns x)
those who cant get to work can try this!
but i tink it only applies to work. for revision, if u're doing real revision,mayb cant
if u're like, jus reading and understanding,guess it shld be alright x)
but i wont say it'll work for every1 luhs =) 12:58 PM

haish..
i dont know wat's wrong with me..
the smile is always gone these few days..
mayb still alright in de noon la..
n tv shows do cheer me up,or make me smile/laugh,if they r funny..
but at night, when i come into de room, i seemed to feel down =(
n de thing is i duno why =X
its nt those that, i have to cry or smth
i rmb last time,i'll feel uneasy if i didn't cry for a few days
n i rmb during 2C chalet at east coast, me n michelle feel like crying cos we didn't cry for de past few days
so we on some sad music n cried.lol.
but i rarely had that after that time..
elf said b4 its becos of that something during that period, that made me smiled all day
i didn't realise luh,but he said so. but im glad for that=)

i wished i could go back to that time.. but i know i cant..
actually.. its nth much now.. i felt nth when i saw any photo..
just that i'll still think at times.. guess time really healed the wound..
buti realli feel bad n weird now..i seriously duno why..
im wondering if im feeling guilty about nt doing hw..
i think i am, but my body isn't doing anything at all despite so.
though i did a great thing today,that is go to the sch lib n looked for geog info.
yes,i went =) i spent 2 hrs somemore.nt bad..
but i didn't realli read thru.jus felt that it seemed useful n i photocopied.
n i spent like, almost $4 on photocopying stuff? =X
n met edlyn there =)
she's pro. she'd gt disciplined.seriously.
if only i had some of her discipline =((
i kinda slacked when i gt home.
touched abit of de 4th math paper, but only 3 or 4 qn?
wanted to others but no mood =(
i kinda have mood for chem, but i tot i shld put more focus on de others =X
i think i'll try to do geog tmr, weathering.
cos i think that chapt, more or less the first part i got it..
i jus need to clarify n stuff.. hopefully..
i cant start at plate tectonics.it'll kill me =X

was thinking about econs..
haven realli finish de rev paper..
left a bit.. =X den read a little of de new notes..
a little confusing but familiar too cos there's some sec sch human geog thingy
like quality of life, GDP, GNP etc.. =)
i hope i can do smth tmr =((
i shall do de same thing. jus stay in my room once i wake up.
that's de only way
if nt once i on de tv, THATS IT =((

n i realised that my vocab book has alot of vocabulary written inside.
im supposed to look for the meaning n note it down
but i'd been so lazy that i'd filled the pages with so many words, but no meaning or anything =X
time for me to work on it..
n my TIME magazines.. more copies r coming in, but im nt reading any =X
i need to read them too >.<

ohs.. i suddenly like jam hsiao a lot =D
he's kinda cute =)
watched him on zong yi da ge da on wed, and laughed my head off
he's damn cute. shall watch again on sun or tmr x)
nono,sun.den can watch with mum n dad too. its realli funny =P
then i watched some old episodes of zong yi da ge da today, also on him,so qiao
n his drum playing is damn gd! damn cool n cute n shuai luhs~
he played de..i forgot de song luh! but i know its from big fun in de sun de, if im nt wrong o.O
de 1 with drum solo ders =)
i think drum players r damn cool x)
anws i dl-ed alot of his songs. loving them =))

okays.. nth much to post le..
tmr mayb relatives coming.. on 1 hand i hope they come,so they can free me from boredom
on another hand,i wish they dont,cos i'll have more possibility of studying.
cos if they come,i'll be entertaining them. if i do my work, my work will sure be torn i guess =X
n mon is finally aaachjx's outing! i believe my smile will be on after that day =)
looking forward to see de kids =)) 10:45 PM

im still thinking..
shld i go to sch tmr?
thought of gg to mug.. actually nt really mug..
but work hard for geog, which is look for extra notes n print.
thought of wat cai lao shi said in her letter :
"还记得中二时，我已告诉过你们，上JC和大学后必须独立。
教授并不会把你们当成小孩子来看待，把所有的资料都给你们。



hmm..
kinda lotsa things happen recently..
duno wat's realli in my mind too..
1st is harmoc stuff..
had been thinking about diff stuff..
on 1 hand,kinda guilty cos we started planning a lot of things late.
realised that our batch realli focused more on studies.
we didn't do alot of stuff during sep n oct.
thus now leading to lack of funds, lack of planning time etc.
but wat's de use of crying now? everything's like that.
we cant turn back the time,so why nt jus move on?
though we may not have do things well then, i believe we're trying our best now,
having exco meetings now n den, n thinking about our concert.
i think huijuan mus be damn tired out. hope she's ok.
this event recently may nt turn out well, but its alright.
next year's concert is the big thing.
i believe doing that well will further increase our reputation =)
jiayou exco =)

2nd. didn't realli wanna talk about this.
well. its jus different opinions bah.
i have to say, different batches have different opinions, and different situations, and different ways of dealing things.
i admit, we may nt be gd enough. that's wat i feel, from de feelings that i gt from ppl.
but we r made to stand here. so wat can we do?
we're realli trying our best to do as much now to make up for our neglectance in de past 2 months or so.
we're realli trying hard. we did think of solutions. we did work.
its jus that we neglected this small little thing for a bigger thing.
sorry if it brought unhappiness. we didn't want to.
but we seriously didn't know it'll be that bad, or even ridiculous for u guys.
pardon me for being rude, but if u guys realli think its nt worth it,forget it.

n seriously. money n thoughts.
is money realli more important?
is value realli more important?
so wat if they r cheapskate things?
if they're made with sincere hearts,and can remind u of memories,why nt?


3rd. daddy.
mum said dad was shifted to her dept.
i tot it was gd at first. but it turned out that he's back to the irritating+cunning boss.
the one who always scolded dad in de past for all kinds of unreasonable reasons.
n she said dad said that if he cant take it,he'll probably quit..
he had been calling ppl, his frens for the past few weeks, i think looking for jobs.
im nt sure if he found one.
seriously,he's nt young. n his hearing gt prob.
nt sure if he can find a job. esp with no degree or anything now, nt even able to speak eng well.
n he don't know computer too..
was quite worried about income, suddenly thinking about work. but i know its impossible.
guess de only thing i can do is spend less money.
or jus spend de money i have in my bank.
who cares if its getting lesser.
at least i spend my own money, it feels less guilty..
n i hope dad can find a job. i dun mind him finding a nt so high income 1 though.
if my mum dun mind, n found another job,i dun mind her gg too..
they're under so much stress..
everyday back home, their faces looked so tired..
complaining here n there.. haish..
if only there's some1 that we can complain to.
seemed like exploiting some labour here =X
lack of ppl.yet dun wanna employ more -.-"
sucks.

nth much to post le..
but feeling realli kinda moody today..
haish~ 10:39 PM

wow. had been sleeping early the past 2 days.
but today had a long chat with miss president =)
had been a little annoying n demoralising at first
but after that became better.
chatted a lot. seriously hope it helps.
time for me to brainstorm lotsa things to help ms prest.
kinda agree that we might be late in planning some stuffs, thus leading to some lack of funds n stuff
but its alr like that, wat can we do?
instead of frowning n complaining,we can only work harder now n try to make things better.
mayb the chalet wont turn out gd,i feel =X
but we can only use de remaining time now to make it as gd as possible.
let's jus hope its realli a gd one for ppl to relax n enjoy..
even though its screwed up,de most it does nt make ppl happy.
but it doesn't spoil our harmoc's reputation.
so i feel it isn't that bad.
but this cant happen to our concert n cca carnival.
so after next week,we gotta realli come tgt n plan well for the 2 events.
JIAYOU HARMOC EXCO!!! RARR!!

im planning to get smth for exco. mayb jus a choco bahs..
plus an encouraging note =)
but i jus realised that some of them may not be present =X
but nvm~! =) i shall jus give =)
was thinking of getting for 2nd chro, but abit too early lehs?
mayb nearer to christmas then give =)

i think my bank account is gonna lose $50 again =(
spent damn lots of money for presents le. left with duno pathetic how much only =X
when christmas is near, still gotta get for kiddos n stuff =X oopsies~~~
BYE MY MONEY =(((

anws.. my leg hurts =(
think cos of the kicking ytd =X
de walk-in dance =) quite cool though =)
jus that i dun dare to dance out =X
i think it look damn nice at home. but in sch i think its so weird =X
n we need to have the sexy look >.<
hello~ SEXY. how can that appear from me -.-"
but hope we can improve. hope our whole ignis hse can make it damn nice~! =))
went to mug at lib today. did mainly math
think i'll put away math tmr n do econs, n mayb chem?
though i think i shld put more focus on econs n geog =X
i hope my focus dont get diverted away tmr.. =X

alrights~
think im gonna slp soon~
though surprisingly im nt that tired o.O
tmr's a day at home i guess. dun feel like gg out though..
gonna try mugging at home.i hope it works somehow =X
n do some stuff for exco.actually its jus a note n im gonna buy smth =)
YAY I KNOW IM NICE~ =D 12:30 AM

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