Wednesday, June 24, 2009
4MORE DAYS LEFT. sadded =((
gonna study geog n econs tmr.. i guess..
the 2 subject that im kinda having trouble studying=X
for econs,its left with the back part,that im realli abit confused about the topic =X
geog,im afraid i haf diffculty putting them into my brain.
having this stressed feeling now,so cant seem to allow things to enter my brain >.<
project work is somehow making me crazy.duno why.
nth much now,but ...rarrrr..
feeling gaga after seeing smth.inconvenient to say here.
n yups. duno how to react >.<
today sorta slacked again. terrible.
though i did do a little teenie bit of thing.
hecking care,going mac tmr le. if nt i realli cant save myself.
shall jus go there n buy a drink n that's it.
cant eat fastfood anymore.its realli killing me >.<
i dread for this monday to come,cos exam is coming.
but i cant wait for the wednesday to come. cos i will be more relaxed after the exams.
CONTRADICTING.so shld holi end early or not? =XXX
n sorry to my 4e5 peeps.
no gathering this june. partly my inefficiency =X
sorry dears. luckily we had one in march. so it ain't that bad huhs..
shall pray that poly has youth day as holiday too. then we can go out that day =)
currently sending surveys for PW.
hope can get more replies.
currently checking email n stuff also.
trying to do a little of chem.
sometimes i realli think im slightly to de sci side despite being a half half person.
i like humanities,but i dun like de memorising parts.
i dun realli like science,but its easier to study,cos u jus haf to practise n practise..
RARRRRRR
FEELING SO GAAAAAAAA =((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((
--Merci tout le monde--
11:30 PM
Wednesday, June 17, 2009
its jus irritating and annoying =((
some people jus keep on doing something that will make me wonder.
n start thinking if that is de case.
sometimes i know n will tell myself, its jus my wishful thinking.
im jus deceiving myself by thinking that way. esp when u meet those people.
but sometimes they're jus doing things that will make u think that way.
if u all wanna say smth,jus say luhs.
dont make me guess >.< its tiring n gaga-ish =X
--Merci tout le monde--
12:36 AM
Tuesday, June 16, 2009
I got a new idol liao.
yiruma =D
actually nt realli idol la,but so far de songs he played r quite nice?
river flows into you. and kiss the rain =)
loved this 2 piano pieces. shld go listen x)
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=1p_ebSseEq8i wanna learn this 2 songs man!
i figured out the right hand for river flows into you..
n the 1st 4 phrases of kiss the rain,BOTH HANDS =D
super lotsa satisfaction =D but the left hand for river flows into you... =XX
boohs~ so i decided to try to find the scores online =D
if nt i'll take ages to figure out myself.
ohs.went bac for tutoring today.super funny stuff.
1: im super cold-blooded today. temperature was too low,and so i was stuck at the security guard there.
i took temperature like, 5 times or more?! n they keep saying "too low" lol!
first time experience such stuff. WEIRD..hahas.
2. the new security guard seems very clever. he knows im from rulang.
he thinks its weird that im nt a prefect (wow =D)
he thinks im clever (hehhehs =D)
he says i got the MP look, and i can take over lim boon heng in de future!
wahahas,this is de funniest thing. wah,i got MP LOOK LEHS!!! =D
ppl,better nt offend me,esp those in jurong. FUTURE MP HERE HOR =P
hmm.i did my pw work today =D
working on econs.
sumhow i got abit of the studying mood? =)
but i think i'll go bac to organ again later if i found de scores.hehhehs =D
tmr's gonna be TCB's outing! =D
movie movie =DDD lallalalas~
photos~! x)
ohohs.. n thurs im gg msia le!
packed my clothes ytd.wah,damn cool la =D
SHOPPING X)))))))
cant wait cant wait..
well,meanwhile,i shall mug as much =D if nt i tink i'll feel guilty =X
CYA PPL x)
--Merci tout le monde--
3:25 PM
Sunday, June 14, 2009
at times..
when smth bad happens, smth gd happens too..
like wat ppl always say "when the god shuts the door, he'll open a window for you"
after seeing xiaoclar's tag/post,
i suddenly thought of wat happened last year..
or even 2 years ago (1 half year or so to be exact)
when things happen, when i went back feeling sad, or with tears dropping,
my beloved frens will be there with me.
2 years ago,when that thing happen, i couldn't smile on de day itself..
michelle asyikin jr were talking to me, n i jus stared into daze.
den i suddenly broke down. but i didn't say out de reason.
nevertheless,they stayed by me,remained quiet knowing i need silence.
thanks buddies..
n last year.. when i went back, tears started rolling since i woke up..
throughout de morning, i was crying non-stop.
and again,it was the ppl, the 4e5 peeps, who keep asking "wat happen",
nt to me but to my closer frens, fearing to ask me,for they know i'll break down further.
when they know i dun wanna speak, they'll jus stay by my side n comfort me..
when i wanna speak,they're there to listen to me,being with me..
thanks my dear friends..
it was u guys who made me stay strong..
being able to continue the journey and survive it thru.
not forgetting miss yeo,who gave me lotsa advice.
heard from miss yeo that all teachers were worried,as my results dropped tremendously.
worse still,o's is jus a few months away.
its u guys,who pushed me,make me know its time to let go and be bac for studies.
cos i cant rewind the past, but i can make sure i dont regret in the future.
so i shld not bug on the past, but shld conc on my studies,so that i wont let my loved ones down =)
n yups. i did it. i didn't let my granny(s) down too.. cos i did them proud x)
WOOTS =))
anws i shld be off to slp soon
gonna wake up early tmr for PW=X
mayb studying in de noon if i haf de mood..
if nt,bac home.hahas
cya guys tmr? =))
--Merci tout le monde--
11:26 PM
emo emo emo emo emo emo emo emo =(((
nt having very gd feeling these few days,no idea why..
mayb a mixture of stuff bahs..
1. undone hw piling (or rather,revision), n we're left with 2 weeks.jus 2 weeks =X
2. parents out to work, left alone in home nowadays, kinda sian plus lonely.
3. feeling no hope for organ exam? o.O got this weird feeling that i'll see a "fail" =((
4. memories..
yeahs.. memories..
watching "when rules turn loose", went super happy upon seeing the sweet couple.
sometimes,will think of de past.
then thought of the chats that we had on bbq night on tues..
but suddenly i feel, i should let nature takes its course =))
n ytd's episode, watched it in the middle of the night..
supposed to watch it on tv on tues la,de last epi,but cant wait.
n the father passed away.. makes me think alot. n yups.. the tears jus rolled down..
i feel it's jus a way for me to let out my feelings bahs..
jus feel there's a need to cry out, n finally i did it ytd.
began to think wild.. think of all the socalled stupid stuff?
n i realised.. there's kinda lotsa things in june holis..
2 years ago..this june holi was a very happy one for me..i went out practically at least twice a week i guess..sometimes, to the library to do work..sometimes,out to shopping, all around singapore.each day,1 or 2 places.. ulu places, popular places, we went..yups,im nt alone at then..in fact, i had lotsa fun, lotsa laughters, felt very loved..still rmb it got better esp after i got bac from the super idiot 5D4N camp.n i hated when june holi is gonna be over..cos it means lesser time tgt..that june holi, was a great period.lotsa lotsa lotsa memories.. deep deep memories that i wont forget ever..1 year ago..this june holi was a super busy one for me,n my family, my relatives..this period, we're constantly travelling to JB.esp my mum and my aunt, almost every week, even twice or so a week.i tried to travel back as often too, cos we know time isn't on our side.this period, i had de mugging mood, n i mugged whenever i can,of cos.n luckily i did, if not i'll sure be very busy..this period,i hate to hear the phone ring, esp if the caller id says "overseas"i know something ain't good is sure to arrive..n mum will break down, uncle will break down, i will feel empty.very empty..still rmbed we were supposed to haf tcb slpover, but becos of a phonecall in de dawn, i smsed them,n we cancelled it.i can sense the sadness by their sms, but i've gt no choice.luckily that day, everything went well, n i came back,we cont'd de slpover.however, jus a few days later, phone calls came again.n yeahs.throughout that whole holi, phone call phone call phone call..n then tears tears tears..n jus when sch's gonna sch reopen, the tragic thing happened..yeahs.. 1 year's over..few days later, im going bac msia for the 1year anni.fast ehs.. granny's gone for a year..n yups.after this incident,i realised i had alot of gan3 chu4 when dramas had scenes when 1 is dead.like ytd, i watched de "when rules turn loose". yups.. cried.. thought of granny..woots!realli think this post is damn emo..but jus feel like blogging about it..feel so terrible having no one to talk to..sometime wished he was here, but i know he cant be here.so yups =) blogging, a way to vent =)sorry to whoever read this, n became emo too =Xwoots. realli felt better writing it out =)outings outings.. no news! guess 4e5 is waiting for me =X alrights~ will discuss with class-husband soon alright~ =))takkaires ppl =))
--Merci tout le monde--
10:33 AM
Friday, June 12, 2009
OH MY GOSH.
alright. im in love with "when rules turn loose"!!!
esp in love with the young main leads, "ah dick" and "shen yi yan" in de show.
omg~ the "ah dick", which is Samuel Chan i think, damn handsome la~
n he's damn sweet in the show. omg~ i realli wish i have a bf like him =(((
right~ speaking of this..
had fun talking about relationship n guys on tues with dan est and nat.hahas!
we're like,chatting about lotsa stuff. somehow we went to talk about relationships,den guys..
den after that we started to recap about sec sch life.n many stuff lohs..
was eating all da way too.damn shiok la =D
mrs soh's maid damn superb,she can cook alone and at a super fast pace. impressed!
but yeah,the tues gathering for HOPE tutors was great =D had fun together.woots!
ohoh,before that was study date with AAACJX,was great too =D lalalas~
AND OH MY GOSH.
i jus found out that samuel chan is 31 years old =((
im sad la~ he's that old le..=((
but he doesn't look that old! so its a gd thing too =D
n yes,, his name is SAMUEL CHAN KIN FUNG X))))))
bday 4th May,woots~!
suddenly my craze for idols is up again,muahahahs =DDD
im high im high~!!!
lallalas~ and he's 182 cm!!!! he doesn't look that tall in tv o.O
at least, beside that female lead o.O
but anws,he's jus awesome =DDD
alrights.. back to topic~
had my organ re-test today..
EERRRRR.. i mus say I IMPROVED.
i think i played better than last time.. BUTTTTT
the examiner still says i'm nt stable enough, and nt much expression esp in sight reading =X
nt much gd things commented, so i dun haf that much hope again =X
haish~~~
but wells, i did my best bahs.
sometimes i did wonder, do i realli have that talent for music? o.O
mayb jus for entertainment wise, but if realli ask me to take music and learn about the past musicians n stuff, hmm.. i may consider sia =X
after that went off to bugis and window shopped with mummy~
ohs,i bought a shirt plus skirt at cottonON! =D lalalas~
but didn't spent after that, except on food =X
but yay! nice window shopping =D
hmm~ ya,nth much after that? o.O
came back and watch abit of my "when rules turn loose"! =D
lalalas~ =P
alright,n i helped my mum with the "bai2 guo3" o.O
n sadded,tmr my mum's working! awws~
but oh yehas! this week~ hmm..
wed was harmoc interview! was worrying about it the whole morning..
but it turned out rather ok i guess o.O
n yups.. let me think.. ytd..
nth much.. had tutoring! (like finally) n went out quite well too..
erhhs` yups.. i think that's about all for this week.
progress in maths =D but nt in others =X
welll well~ i seriously have no mood to start STUDYING/REVISING >.<
sian~~~
alright~ dun feel like talking much le. posted wateva i wanna post le.
next week would be busy with outings i guess =X
hope everything turns out fine!
kkays,bye ppl~ =D
where is he when i need a shoulder to lie on, a listening ear to talk to ? =((
--Merci tout le monde--
9:37 PM
Saturday, June 06, 2009
OOOHHSSSS.. IM HERE TO UPDATEEEEEE =DDDDD
actually i had an urge to update about ytd n my feeling NOWWW
but.. i shall update according to date =DDD
first major event [JC']: 4TH JUNE,HARMOC ELECTS CAMP 09!!!!alrights, the morning was a terrible one.
nt real terrible la,but abit scary luhs. n gaga =X
we had election speeches.everybody had to give their speech,n there is QnA.
many many questions were out >.<
n this dragged all da way till lunch.
LUNCH WAS GREAT! =DDD
de food was super nice. thanks lots to the camp coordinators~! =D
after lunch was games.
a series of games organised by the game comm.
ok la, de games were ok. chuhui's station's was a bit gaga huhs. but funny.hahas.
den de next station at the road there was kinda diff to play huhs o.O
nth much for that.
darrell's station was quite ok. our grp was like,super fast.hahas.
n then we went to jingwei's station for de last game, before de water bombs =))))
waterbombs was realli, WET.hahas. but yeah,fun =D
though my grp didn't win anything,but yeahs,we had fun! =DDD
a little clean up,n it was dancing time!
mass dance organised by mass activity comm..
learnt a dance "hot n cold" choreographed by them.
quite fun n nice n easy to learn =) partnered darrell.
n had a great time suaning n laughing at alvin tan too.hahas.nice time.
then seniors started dancing all those mass dance songs.
managed to join in for "summer nights" only. but wow,its great =DDD
after that we went off to prepare for de concert~!
busy carrying things up,arranging chairs,do this do that, WOW =X
n the stupid projector played a prank on us, spoilt the very great plan =((
i think the actors/actresses were super great. harmoc didn't played that well at first, a little small error, N VERY SOFT =((
cos huijuan's using de mike.awws~ but nvm~ they did their best =)
tonghua was screwed at first, cos of some miscommunication.
luckily we were clever to stop playing n try another time, which turned out super nice =D
at least, at that time, given the time to prac,i think we were kinda gd already =D
hope de seniors like it lohs~! =D
n yups, showed seniors videos after that n gave presents~~~
and then PHOTO TIME!
went out to take photo with 2nd chro, jump shots! =D lalalals~
after everything, voted, kept stuff, n in de end 2nd chro (J1s fuhua + most 2nd chro J2s +alvin) went to west mall for dinner!!!
damn nice journey there luhs.super entertained by the seniors.hahas.
i'll seriously miss them~~~ =((
n yups,reached home at 10plus? but yeahs,it's fun =))
second major event[sec sch]: 5th june, FUHUA 10TH ANNI!!!alrights..let me recall..okays,i met wl at market n we had a chat b4 that stupid alvin tan came =)after that we chat chat,bought things for juniors n left for fuhua!reached n straight away went to parade square to find de kiddosn as usual, like de past few years, they're taking photos~~! =)))so we joined in for some, n chatted n crapped with them.loved that feeling la. esp when i saw aaacjx.woots! =)))hahas.. so we crapped n chat n took pics till they were about to start.den we went to the bac. went with alvin n nat to toilet, den walked around.helped de PSG for the goodie bag thingy.den went to find ppl to give them tickets..soon we went up to our seats!was staying at the side of the hall crapping with all other prize winners.saw my cousin! =D n tried to wave to him but failed.stupid alvin saw everything,like i waving to air like idiot =Xden accompanied dan to my table, n cousin saw me =DDwe were then brought up to study area for reception!!! woots~ok la,de food was quite nice =Dsaw 1 table specially for band members,woots! we're so dua3 pai2 =DDD llalallaas~was eating n suddenly band came up.almost everybody looked at me when they walked past me.hahas.damn funny n cute. den im like smiling at them with my food.oops =X im evil =DDDafter that got alvin to go down n take de goodies n went to give dearest juniors =Das usual they bullied alvin but nt me~! lalalalas~~~n naughty them.still blame us for buying cheap stuffs =X gd that we buy for u all le sia! =pbut yeahs,nice to see them all =Dwent out for briefing,soon went down.crapped while waiting n stuff...after getting the prize, went to change,n gt back for dinner!hmm.. nth much to say here..onli a few things that's going on..1. water is always nt enough. as in,cold drink. colin n i kept on requesting for more.hahas.2. food doesn't seem to be that nice? or mayb our table are majority girls,so we dont eat alot =Xreminds me of 2c 2 years ago. once de food comes, it's gone within seconds. this time round, it stays there for super long.lol.3. most of the people at my table didn't stay for food.n went for camwhore =X4. we kept on rotating seats between the 2 tables. dont know why too.lol.n yups. we ate. we chatted. we enjoyed the performance. we took photos.had a class pic too! waiting for alvin/esther to post =))n yes. finally. FSMB IS OUT =DDDalright,the band seniors aka sec 4s 2008 were damn crazy.hahas.we practically screamed n cheered after every song they played =Dalvin n i even tried our best to attract their attention,n we did! hahas.at first we jus shouted. after the 1st song.den we stood up n shout after the 2nd one.n it was a short interval for them. so alvin n i keep looking at them,esp aaacjx kiddos.couldn't see C, but Aiyin caught us first,n she was smiling so widely.hahas.we saw that n we waved back. stood up n sat down again.den J saw us. he n his weird actions n face expressions again,made me laugh like siao.den Aik also saw n tried to let us know they saw us.so we also indicated n we nod, we stood up wave slightly n sat down etc.hahas.damn fun.FSMB mus be damn happy that we r so enthu for them =DDDthink de table beside was fsmb's 1st few batch of seniors too.cos they cheered with us!hahas.onli kok knows 1 of them i think. but they're nice.hahas.n yeahs! sec4s 08 began to get super high. n we cheered we swayed we danced etc~ damn cool~~~i love fsmb la.alumni esp la.hahas =DDafter everything went up with band.chatted a little with the kiddos..den they fall in, gave things etc.some fun parts,but unhappy parts, esp ms chen =Xhope she doesn't blame us =Xpartly our fault who started it. hope she's nt angry now le.but i think de kids had fun.hahas.walked down n saw ms yeo. n yes.i told her IM PROUD OF MY BAND.hahas =DDDthen saw mr loh,who dont recognise me?!?! hahas~!but he's super sad that i nv take phy =Xmade me feel so bad =( but i realli prefer chem mahs =Dwent home with some fsmb peeps.had a little chat at the bus stop,short but funny n nice ones.hahas.loved de juniors. n i helped bean carry his prezzies.if i wasn't with him,he'd haf lost 2 precious photos.hahas.bean n juniors~ thank me for saving the photos!!! =Dalrights.that shld be all.wow.long post.a few things i wanna say here! =))1: thanks to all harmoc J1s. u guys were great that day =D all the comm, well done for de work!n the concert was kinda alright.thanks people! =))2. thanks to all seniors of harmoc! hope u guys liked de elect camp n de concert!nt sure if we'll still play tgt again as a band. hope we still haf chance.if nt,hope we haf more outings,esp 2nd chro one! =D loves!3. to dearest fsmb: u guys were great! to play at that standard with only 1 to 2 weeks or prac if im nt wrong, u guys were AWESOME. =D we enjoyed de performance alot alot alot =D sec 4s jiayou for the o's. time to let go of band n chiong for studies le k! =D sec 3s, do jiayou n carry on to do de band proud! its ur time to lead! =D love fsmb ever!4. to dearest frens[4e5'08 / 2c'06] : i dont think i spent much time talking to u all ytd. but still,its great seeing all of u back. 4e5, outing shall be here real soon. let's hope =D look forward to seeing u guys!5. i miss aaacjx super super lot.i duno why. was looking thru de blogs,suddenly feel an urge to see them. study date shall be out soon.this week bahs =D aaacjx we jus rock alright~! =D i love u guys to bits!6. im super super sad becos i kinda slacked alot this week.i prac touched nth but maths,n its jus pathetically that few qns.nt even 10? oh man~n i wanted to go to km to read de pw stuff/check maths solution.in de end im stuck at blogger n facebook since im online at 10plus.oh great man >.<>
n know what? my whole mind is shopping now can?
went to jp with family jus now. tmr wanna go imm see my wallet =D
awws~ its time to mug,but there's no motivation! >.<
that's why i seriously need study dateeeeeee
7. know what? 1week of holi is over. OH WELLLLLLL =(((
8. i've got harmoc interview this wed. i've got organ prac test this fri. i've got dental this thurs. i've got chem this mon. i've got harmoc outing n organ lesson n HOPE bbq this tues. EVERYDAY THERE'S A PROGRAMME. OH WELLLLLL =(((
IM SADDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDD
alrights.
i shall stop my post here. its my 3rd day sleeping at 1, n surprisingly waking up b4 8.
m i crazy? yes i think so =X
--Merci tout le monde--
11:36 PM
Tuesday, June 02, 2009
Well well~ nth much to post..
but xiaoclar wants me to update,so i shall! x)
yups.it's holi. but honestly, i dont feel it at all =X
mayb cos we had ISSF n SISC bahs. so that 2 weeks are like, not realli sch-weeks though we went back to sch as usual almost everyday (for me at least =(( )
n yups.when i woke up ytd,i was still wondering why i didn't hear jjc's sch song n stuff =X
n realised it was holi. WOW =X
n yups. this holi is gonna be damn packed.
fast enough, 2 days of the week is gone =((
tmr's gonna be gone too. morn harmoc, noon chem till infinity. still gotta do some secret stuff when im bac =X
thurs will be harmoc elects camp, shld be a whole day thing.
then fri will haf fuhua anni dinner. yups. my whole week is gone >.<
n YAY. i didn't do my hw =X okays,i TOUCHED n did a few maths.
not the holi package.so,it sorta mean i haven touch my holi work >.<
i've been trying to plan out.
but it looks like my holi is realli damn short >.<
2nd week will have misc things, which will take up some of my days..
3rd week thurs onwards will go m'sia. n i believe i'll haf outings that week,since poly started holi too.
then 4th week shld be mugging week,but i bet i'll go out too.
woots. looks like i shall say byebye to my CT. it'll be dead =X
alrights. SISC was last week.
didn't turn out that bad.
had fun with 2nd chro overall x)
though some gaga-ness here n there,but i think it was kinda great.
somehow J1s were high and began thinking of weird things,doing weird stuffs..
like singing randomly when we went out for icecream, doing some weird stuff.
n hohoho, i think im clicking well with 2nd chro peeps x)
n i think syf made me closer to huilan! oops ~ but i love to play with her using the eyes.hahas =D
hmms.. did i mention in my previous posts? doubt i did.
but yeahs,went out with AAACJX on one of the saturdays.went bowling~!
n went swensens for icecream cake =D
long since i've ate one sia~! its super nice.
n we found a nice n unique way of eating. no cutting!
jus use ur fork and eat from the original cake. =D
so heartwarming la =D or maybe not.that only applies to us =D
but yeahs~ realli think aaacjx is like my family now.
i actually felt sad when i abandoned them n left home for my organ.
jus feel like spending time with them.
still rmbed i enjoyed n loved it when we had night study till de library closed. x))
i mus have a study date again with dearest aaacjx =D mayb a movie too?yeahs! =D
loved them to bits.
saw them today when we went back to fuhua.
cute cy n ay finally saw me when we went down for the 2nd time.
hahas. n yups. SMILE NON STOP.hahas =DDD
caught aik n jj's attention too when i was upstairs. n we chatted using eyes n actions.hahas.
power right? this is call xin dian gan ying =D lalalas~
oh my,i think i realli love them to bits la.. x))))
ohohs. n we're adding in a member le. or mayb, our in-law. hahas.
nono. we're her in-law. hahas =D damn cute. love this couple.
alrights~
shall cont to do my stuff..
wasted 3 hrs liddat today? =(( though had fun chatting here n there la. but still, kinda sad that it's wasted.
well, i've been using my night time for tv now. so i gotta try to strive for every moment to do work. if nt, it'll nv end >.<
alrights!
stop here.
6L outing, 4e5 outing, aaacjx outing, tcb outing, n mayb 2c outing too. WOWWWW
it seems too many for such a short break =((
anws. jiayous everyone~
aaacj, X misses u guys! =D esp AACJ =DDD
--Merci tout le monde--
10:57 PM