hey ppl~
many thanks =))
esp to those who tagged..
like jazz.. guin.. alvin..
n gor! x) didn't expect u to know my blog o.O
but thanks for being there ya..

hmm..
like wat gor says..
yeah.. all these are part of growing up bahs..
happiness.. sadness.. tears.. smiles.. all of them~
hmm.. sometimes.. it's fate bahs?
i mean.. hmm yeahs..
we cant be with good terms with everyone we see?
n not every frenship last.. coz not all frenships are true..
it depends on de person u meet and the characters of u 2 bahs..
if it suits, u 2 will be great frens.. if nt, even if u 2 force to be frens, 1 day it'll jus break..
i duno la..
but to me.. if u think de frenship is realli like..
u cant stand me,i cant stand u, den perhaps there's no use of savaging it?
i mean.. ya.. it's gonna be awkward or wat la..
but.. hmm..
well.. i duno wat to say la..
it's wat u think bahs..
nt trying to break frenships though o.O


hmm hmm hmm..
jus realised ytd.. dat i've learnt to be contented?
i duno.. this is wat i realised o.O
coz it's like.. it used to be that much.. suddenly, it's nt ..
it's this much.. n day by day,it's getting lesser..
days n weeks later, it got back to this much..
although it's nt yet to that much, but im still happy..
at least, it "improved" again bahs..
yeahs.. so..
yeahs! part of growing up x))


still quite many hw undone though =X blahs~
im getting tired..
nt posting le.. tatas~ 11:33 PM

kinda moody bahs..
duno..
jus wanna say.. thanks to meijia n alvin tan for being there..
n..
thanks to band mates..
u guys made de smile appear on my face.. thanks..
=)


n yeahs..
to u..
i admit..
i dont know wat u're thinking..
it's jus.. i duno..
suddenly.. i feel that there's a wall..
making us further..
it's like.. we're realli almost near to strangers le..
i realli dun like that u noe?
but it's like.. i realli cannot do anything.
n i mean it.
it's jus fear now. n more worries. that's all..
if onli.. i could noe wat u're thinking..
if onli.. we could be like wat we once were..
u noe wat..?
im realli trying to get us back to de past..
but u r disallowing me to do so..
why? i duno..
ur small actions n words.. realli hurts..
alot.. alot..

saying the truth.. i realli feel so tired nowadays..
everything..
it's jus pressing on..
"u".. band[my own prob + sec1s].. de upcoming exams..
it's so so not nice..
i realli kinda miss de past days..
but i noe i cant live in de past.
i gotta be in de present.
i try.. i am trying..
very hard.. 9:44 PM

im HIGH~!!!!!!
=P
im so into cooking today can?
without having my hands on any cooking items is bored today =P
i spent most of de time in kitchen today
hahas~
lalas~!

lalallalas~!
i fried potato wedges today.
BY MYSELF~ x))
n i helped my mum and aunt in frying popiah or wateva..
n cooking dinner.. nicenicenice~!

suddenly i love cooking so much today =P
i decided.. when im free,i'll go look for recipes n cook x)
lalas~!
cooking is fun~! heh hehs~~~

today is a super nice day x)
i lurve today~ heeehees..

oh.. n i lurve ytd too`!x))
cheers to ytd~! =P

tatas~! 9:25 PM

TMR IS 180807!
...
..
...
MON IS 200807!
I CAN COLLECT MY IC LO~! XD 10:19 PM

BOOHS!!!!
COMMON TEST IS OVER :D
BUT IM SOOOO EMO..
THIS IS SO NOT GOOD.................................................
>.< 10:16 PM

boohs~!
im back =))
no more emo..
mayb abit la.. but hai hao =))
cannot always emo right..
muz straighten out my thoughts =))
n i straighten out liao..
so yeahs.. will try not to be emo bahs =))

something bothering me though!
that is cai lao shi's "farewell" party =X
becoz we cant realli find a suitable date..
now we temporary set it at tues recess..
hope it'll be ok lorhs.. =X
kinda worried sia..
coz duno if we can use de AVA. wonder if mr govin will allow..
but wed afternoon some ppl dun wan? they say nt convenient or blahs =X haish..
den de cake also nt settled..
n duno if de ppl will forget to write de thingy anot..
blahs~!
if onli she can dun leave =((
so many teachers leaving la~ blahs >.<
den i scared not enough time to cut de cake n blah.
1 recess nia sia.. then later ppl drag drag.. left 5 to 10 min =X
so rush can?
but then after sch my class got remedial. den cannot also =X
argh~!!!
baboo nias~!
oh suck =X before recess is emaths.. i bet we'll drag =X
can we nt make it on tues recess =X arghhhh!!!
dun buy cake? o.O
duno leh.. haish~
gotta discuss again...
we shall see..

anyways~!!!
this wed bazaar for sec 2s =))
2I3 jiayou~! 2C'06 ppl will support u guys de =))
esp supporting mrs tay =P
lalas~
other sec 2 classes also jiayou la =))
it's fun~ enjoy!

n to band seniors participating in talentquesT~!
jiayou for this wed wors!!!
we'll be supporting u guys morally!!! heex!
u all can do it de. we haf faith u guys =)))
u guys shall rock de hall this wed! yeahs!
all da bez~!!!!!!! x)))))))))
love ya guys~~~~~~~~~

hmm..
kinda slacked today?
although went to jp lib with tcb la..
but i didn't do much =X
bet everyone has mugged alot le bahs >.<
boohs~ im slacking!!!!
idiotic. but i cant do anything? i ,mean. de mood is nt that.
THIS IS BABOOOOOO
okies.. i dun wan say liaoz..
tmr.. long day o.O
jiayou bahs~
for wateva.. for 4 STRAIGHT PERIODS OF MT =X
bleahs~
tatas~! 9:19 PM

wow.. around 3 weeks since i've posted?
well, today is jingrong bdae..
so HAPPY BDAE =))


nowadays had been rather moody?
about some things lops..
somehow got this bad feeling..
i realli dun wanna admit that.. but it's like..
i cant stop thinking about it..
but i dun wanna say.. i dun wanna add stress to "u", u noe?
im trying to make it obvious for u to say.. but it's jus like,useless?
i duno wat to say..
but..
it's like..
blah la..
why r ppl's mind so difficult to guesS?
why some ppl jus cant say out wat they feel?
cant they imagine how difficult it is to be de person beside them?
as in.. if u dun say,how ur fren(s) will feel?
that feeling jus suck la!
so helpless can?
duno wat u thinking.
duno wat u're implying.
duno if u're trying to hint smth.
duno this duno that.
den u like dun care dun care.. it's so blah can?
i duno.. i feel like.. im tired?
but perhaps,it's ct.. so stress is there..
i dun wan care le bahs..
wait till after ct then say bahs..
for now.. if this is it,den let it be..
i dun wanna make everyone stressed up..
it's jus so not worth it?
do well for de ct n we'll say about this again..

yeah.. like wat i've said, im moody nowadays..
when thinking of that thingy bahs..
but had fun with bandmates..
esp today when going for fuchun concert. thanks guys x)
lurving u guys le.. u all r realli de ones making me happy..
n band.. jus thanks? lurve music n band, esp fsmb =))

found some nice songs =)
when you're gone, by avril lavigne..
yuan lai ai qing zhe me shang, by liang yong qi..
wo hui hao hao guo, by li jiu zhe..


here are the lyrics? =))
when you're gone :

I always needed time on my own
I never thought I'd need you there when I cried
And the days feel like years when I'm alone
And the bed where you lie
Is made up on your side

When you walk away
I count the steps that you take
Do you see how much I need you right now?

(chorus:)
When you're gone
The pieces of my heart are missing you
When you're gone
The face I came to know is missing too
When you're gone
The words I need to hear to always get me through the day
And make it okay
I miss you

I've never felt this way before
Everything that I do
Reminds me of you
And the clothes you left
They lie on the floor
And they smell just like you
I love the things that you do

When you walk away
I count the steps that you take
Do you see how much I need you right now?
(chorus)

We were made for each other
Out here forever
I know we were
Yeah, yeah

And all I ever wanted was for you to know
Everything I do I give my heart and soul
I can hardly breathe I need to feel you here with me
Yeah
(chorus)


梁咏琪-原来爱情这么伤

我睁开眼睛却感觉不到天亮
东西吃一半莫名其妙哭一场
我忍住不想时间变得更漫长
也与你有关否则又开始胡思乱想

我日月无光忙得不知所以然
找朋友交谈其实全帮不上忙
以为会习惯有你在才是习惯
你曾住在我心上现在空了一个地方

原来爱情这么伤 比想象中还难
泪水总是不听话 幸福躲起来不声不响
太多道理太牵强 道理全是一样
说的时候很简单 爱上后却正巧打乱

只想变的坚强强到能够去忘
无所谓悲伤只要学会抵抗

原来爱情这么伤

原来爱情是这样 这样峰回路转
泪水明明流不干 瞎了眼还要再爱一趟
有一天终于打完 思念的一场战
回过头再看一看 原来爱情那么伤
下次还会不会这样

jus like that bahs..
tatas~ 11:05 PM

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